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posted November 18, 2011 06:39 PM            

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You don't sound pitiful. However, I'm worried about some of the things you've said. Have you tried calling and talking to someone?

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posted November 18, 2011 07:00 PM            

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Thank you.
Yes and no.
I come here and facebook.
It does help.
I talk to a few folks in rl but their lives are not much better even though they are not disabled.
The ones I talk to are mostly single lonely reclusive and prone to suicidal ideation also.
There are an awful lot of unhappy folks.

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I must perhaps resign myself to having only stolen and brief tastes of happiness,
for it appears that I may never be invited to the feast.
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The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind.
~Henry David Thoreau

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posted November 18, 2011 07:05 PM            

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You're right, there are an awful lot of unhappy people out there. I'm not sure how you are, but if I'm around the "gloomies" too long, it tends to rub off on me and I can't shake it for days. Are you like that?

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posted November 18, 2011 07:19 PM            

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Yes I am.
Ever see the movie
Minority Report
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I am like the empathic girl.
I tend to avoid physical contact with folks
and crowds usually.
Before an NDE decades ago, I was psychic but not overly empathic.
Afterwards though,
I could pick up too much.
LOL! At least that helped me stop being promiscuous. Suddenly intimacy with or without sex just for fun became uber repulsive.
Living with my ex to be has been hard and still is even though we remain good friends.
No choice due to financial reasons mostly but to remain under same roof until we can get our works published.
He quit his job of some 20 years so we can finish our writing and do more.
However he is an emotional basket case more often than myself.
And bi-polar, manic depressive and gets seizures from a rare type of migraine.
He has been suicidal since an NDE in 2005 caused by an anti depression drug.
Last year he almost succeeded in killing himself.
We have had for 14 years to date,
an intense psi/empath connection.
It can be nice but also extremely disturbing and painfully depressing.
Also dead folks in trauma states come to me.
My son said,
Wow mom! That kid in the movie The Sixth Sense is you!
Well anyhow.....
Just taking it one day at a time here.

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I must perhaps resign myself to having only stolen and brief tastes of happiness,
for it appears that I may never be invited to the feast.
~LEXX

The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. What is called resignation is confirmed desperation A stereotyped but unconscious despair is concealed even under what are called the games and amusements of mankind.
~Henry David Thoreau

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posted November 18, 2011 07:28 PM            

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Wow, Lexx... sounds like you have had your share of hard times. I'm sorry to hear about your friend/room-mate.

I know those medications can be tricky.

When you mentioned being "repulsed" by physical contact. I've been there. Although a huge hug is always nice.

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posted November 18, 2011 07:31 PM            

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Thank you
He is getting better.
I hope he and his love interest will eventually move their LDR to real life in person.
I so very much want him to be happy.
My being older and disabled has not been easy for him either.
We both have care givers burn out syndrome from taking care of each other and the empathy you would think would help, but no, it doubles the agony more often than not.
But his being gay ( I knew that from day one back in 1997) is main reason for our deciding to return to being just good friends.
Oh gods yes a big hug sure helps!
I am so touch starved I can barely bear it.
My dear chiropractor and I had a prolonged non doctorly hug last week.
He is also an empath and every year has his own suicidal ideation or fugue.
We both so muchly needed to share that hug!

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posted November 18, 2011 07:57 PM            

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You mentioning you have an intense empath connection with your friend, my ex and I were like that. You're right, it is nice but disturbing as well.

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posted November 18, 2011 11:45 PM            

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Yes Exactly!
Blessing and a Curse.

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posted November 19, 2011 05:26 AM            

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posted November 19, 2011 05:30 AM            

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