posted January 31, 2021 01:39 PM            

Like, internet day and time.
If it was in real life, the Time Day and Place of your Meeting each other..

First exchanges on internet can have timestamps you go on.

The Day's General Transit-- Sky Weather that day you met or became 'aware' of each other could give an idea.

AND, 'What' longer term transits were in your chart then, for just-you, just your Natal. Those were like your antennae.. your soul's rabbit-ears-- what you were tuning-in to. Identify the 'Activated Energy Portal' she came in under-- use it to energetically investigate, clean, then close?

Whatever remedy you decide, do it to "inform" the Timing of the 'inception' energies. Gets to the root?

For example, we had a general VENUS-Pluto Conjunction in Capricorn. Gives the "tone". Can bring Obsession? .. like that.

Best of Luck!
Do it, then never look back.

Transmute the energies, aiming them TOWARDS something different.

Like NASA is thinking of gathering old equipment left stranded in Space, and hauling to throw them into the Sun to burn up.

posted January 31, 2021 03:10 PM            

Thank you for the explanation Mirage, as well as the advice. Yes, agreed, transmuting is the way forward. It's just a shame though, that fear came in the way of love.

posted February 17, 2021 02:38 PM            

The above is certainly sound advice, and my intellect very much agrees, but apparently my Soul doesn't quite agree. I think I've been using my mind to try to change/force my heart, and that's not really possible nor healthy.

A few days or so ago, I felt like she was in need of some positivity, so I decided to focus on sending her Love and positive energy. Kind of kicked myself a bit after, but at the same time, I've been coming to the realization that no matter what happens or doesn't between on in the physical level, my Soul really deeply loves her Soul, and there isn't much I can do about that. It's always going to be there.

So I'm trying to focus on taking ego out of the equation, because it is the ego and personality part of self that feels all the pain, anger, sadness/loss. If I focus more on love and gratitude, perhaps I can transmute the heavier energies. It helps that this energetic detachment time has brought some emotional distance/detachment. Maybe it was necessary to come to these realizations.

posted February 20, 2021 06:45 AM            

I was reading this yesterday morning and then got a bit tired, hadn't slept enough.
Then I could see something, regarding this situation, nothing huge,
but in case you still don't know what to do...
I don't want to tell people without knowing if they want to hear it.
It is nothing bad and not too private to write it here.
I can delete it afterwards.

By the way - didn't understand - your south nodes are conjunct in Pisces ?
Edit : Oh, I get it, you switched your Pisces south node on, good idea...
Maybe you should switch on the whole axis and let it shine
(just after this idea, I got two strong synchronicities, one for axis, one for shining).

posted February 20, 2021 06:59 PM            

Yes, correct, turning on my own Pisces SN. No worries, the Virgo-Pisces axis is pretty balanced and integrated in this chart and self. For example, faster moving ruler of the Pisces South Node, Jupiter, is in Virgo trine its ruler--Mercury with .5*, and Jupiter is retrograding back into the 1st.

Then Neptune is quite strong/highlighted in various ways. Then Mercury, ruler of Virgo NN, Mars, Jupiter, and Saturn, is conjunct the ASC/"chart ruler", the Sun.

And the ruler of the Sun and Mercury Sign (Cap), Saturn, is in Virgo.

posted February 21, 2021 05:26 PM            

Having changed my mind and a word, what is very dear to me and its embodyment
are holding me back from giving any more into any thread, place or conciousness here.