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javaweb
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posted August 11, 2021 03:13 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for javaweb     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Was invited to do my first professional development training and it went TERRIBLE. I was on a roll for the first 20-30 minutes and then I choked up, forgot my words and everything went downhill from there. My mind went completely blank. It was embarrassing and cringeworthy. That has never happened to me before...

Not feeling so good :/ I am pretty good with public speaking (which is why I was invited to do this in the first place) but when it comes to training people, I still don't have that experience/expertise and I should've been more honest about my capabilities when thinking about accepting this offer or not.

Anyone wants to cheer me up please Inspirational stuff, funny stuff, whatever....

I know years from now I will still be cringing reflecting on this, but at least it'll be funny, too (I hope).

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GalacticCoreExplosionV2
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posted August 11, 2021 03:25 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Seeming failure and mistakes are the stepping stones to real and lasting success and growth. Imagine if everything in life always went easy for us?

Not only would that be boring, but we wouldn't grow much at all. It is the challenge, difficult stuff, friction, testing, and suffering that helps us to grow and improve, especially at a deeper Soul level.

Try to look at this as such a stepping stone.

Coming from a pragmatic Cap Sun and Merc with Virgo N.Node, Jupiter, Mars, and Saturn, but spiritual/big picture background of angular Pisces South Node and combo of strong Jupiter and Neptune.

And let me tell you, us Caps (especially those of us with Sun square Pluto, Moon conjunct Saturn, etc) don't tend to have easy lives.

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mirage29
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posted August 11, 2021 05:23 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
So... *hand to your shoulder*
(oh my... Yikes, and Sorry that happened?!)
I can recall that kind of experience, and the kind of sting that can have--
will be a marker/a reminder...

When you can, let go of the stinger. As it comes back, let go again.
You know, probably barely a 'few' of them will remember what happened, (if they perceived anything) past today.

Chalk it up to Experience, and Self-Learning.

You've done public speaking before!
That's 'why' you were invited to speak.
You added that this more-challenging level of group was your "first" time experience.

"I should've been more honest about my capabilities"...

You used the word "honest?"
I looked up the word,
and this was one of the meanings of the word 'honest'--

googled
"(of an action) blameless or well-intentioned..
even if unsuccessful or misguided.
example:
"he'd made an honest mistake"

How would you have known----
This was your FIRST time..
You could NOT know what-you-didn't know, until you actually stepped up and did it! (Now) you found out that this NEW level of lectures you'll be doing (in the future) may require a different approach or tact.
And too, maybe you have a better assessment of self?
NO harm in that, one bit.
This (IF it is) may give you a more solid sense inside you. You know your limits. That is an important piece of information to have.

There's a "rest" (peacefulness) when in reality you know where your competencies lie. To your superiors, this may actually be perceived as a strength-- that a man knows 'how' to define what they can or cannot do (yet), and are able to verbalize or indicate-so. *heart* There is STILL room for advancement. It's not the end of what you can and will do in the future.

And.. You GREW today! ..
And that's a GOOD Thing in 'your' Development, yes?

-
Another thing---
Think about your other many presentations.
Notice --
Did EVERY 'gathering of souls' have the same tone and experience for you?
Each group has its own collective personality.
. .
Some were a 'fun' crowd.
Others were 'tough'.
Some are open, others seem more closed.

I smile thinking about standup-comics openly telling the group that they were a 'tough crowd' for not laughing at jokes!! *grin*


Go Easy on You!!! *hug*
Process it.
Was there a 'trigger' that went off inside you at the point where you said you began to fumble?
It might NOT have been as open and apparent as you thought?
And!, this might NOT have 'ended' as badly as you think it did? Could have been the result of your private subjective impression, rather than true of the overall performance...?

Perhaps the group was "full" --
(had taken in the 1st half-hour WELL)
and you unconsciously perceived their need to 'digest' at that point?

BTW...
CONGRATULATIONS on having your 'First' Experience!! Yes..
New Level!! (new devil) new accomplishments up ahead.. Woot-woot.

Planet MERCURY currently is on 29 LEO...
The Degree of The KING!!

"If I Were King of the FORRREESSTTTTT~~~~~"
{from Wizard of Oz}
[3:27] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ak3J5DayiCk

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javaweb
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posted August 11, 2021 07:33 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for javaweb     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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mirage29
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posted August 11, 2021 08:17 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
^ {{{{{{{ }}}}}}}}
(Hope things get Better)
You are awesome for making your Request!
I admire how you did that.

Want to share more about what the topic was?
(If not, that's okay..)

_______

Do you have someone Mentoring you who could critique your lecture and give you some solid advice?

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DualGemV2
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posted August 13, 2021 02:13 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for DualGemV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
hmm... your profile implies you must be some type of coder or developer.

Create a new branch, upload some code onto your github account...you'll feel better seeing lots of commits and progress.

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javaweb
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posted August 13, 2021 09:17 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for javaweb     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I thought my response went through.

Thank you so much everyone for the kind words <3 Trying to be gentle with myself in these times. I'm realizing more and more how much decluttering I need to do in my life. There's a lot going on...but I know I will get to the place where I want to be..in time.

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javaweb
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posted August 13, 2021 09:18 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for javaweb     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you. Haha, I'm not in the tech industry. But I did make the username at a time I was obsessed with the Internet

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mirage29
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posted August 13, 2021 12:11 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for mirage29     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
If I could pick your brain, and talk deep about your experience, and your learnings-- if I could get-into and inspect the very neurons of your Brain/Life/Mind/Experience??, I would! LOL

Needing to sort and re-purpose things of our past experiences is bittersweet. Sounds like a Saturn transit? One of those quarter-turn looks at life, and values.

Sometimes things DO get stale, that in the past would have been a go-to for refreshing. It comes time and okay to put those things aside. Part of Development.

You've been here as long as I.
I really care about you, genuinely.
We Grow Together

Hope your Heart Heals...
Hope you're not being mean to your self in your mind?
Are you a perfectionist?? haha
Well then, STOP It! LOL

Be Well, and have a great weekend.

BELIEVE in yourself

(music) Respect Yourself

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javaweb
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posted August 13, 2021 12:45 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for javaweb     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
quote:
Originally posted by mirage29:
If I could pick your brain, and talk deep about your experience, and your learnings-- if I could get-into and inspect the very neurons of your Brain/Life/Mind/Experience??, I would! LOL

Needing to sort and re-purpose things of our past experiences is bittersweet. Sounds like a Saturn transit? One of those quarter-turn looks at life, and values.

Sometimes things DO get stale, that in the past would have been a go-to for refreshing. It comes time and okay to put those things aside. Part of Development.

You've been here as long as I.
I really care about you, genuinely.
We Grow Together

Hope your Heart Heals...
Hope you're not being mean to your self in your mind?
Are you a perfectionist?? haha
Well then, STOP It! LOL

Be Well, and have a great weekend.

BELIEVE in yourself

(music) Respect Yourself


Aww thanks mirage <3 I'm in a very karmic period in my life, a lot of transitions. Ended a relationship for the better (transit Uranus in 7th house), transit Pluto and Saturn currently in my 3rd.

Have a great weekend, too!

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Randall
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posted September 13, 2021 02:08 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I hope you're feeling better.

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