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Topic: Ever thought of having yourself comitted?
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LEXX Moderator Posts: 6667 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 24, 2011 04:18 PM
As in checking oneself into mental hospital?
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cappy1277 Knowflake Posts: 645 From: philadelphia,pa Registered: Jul 2009
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posted July 24, 2011 05:23 PM
many many times before....not recently though. I almost made it happen but the thought of being confined and having to conform made feel even crazier. I was going through the first phases of post traumatic stress disorder and depression and it was more than I could handle at the time. IP: Logged |
Saraintheski Knowflake Posts: 416 From: Registered: May 2011
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posted July 24, 2011 05:32 PM
Hi cappy ^ i'm from philly also and yes I have a lot of breakdowns I can't stand being on my own and knowing how cruel the world is and when I'm depressed my body shuts down .. My chest hurts ..my shoulders I can't get any anti anxiety medicine because i'm not 18 and my mother had a xanax problem when I was younger ...I want to commit suicide but I know I should be beyond greatfullll that i'm in human form and that while I' m young I should treasure my body and learn to over come struggles because often I feel my struggles are nothing I feel like a spec in the universe and if I died I'd leave nothing behind .. I know I am loved but it in oddways ..I want to experience the euphoria I here about in NDES some aren't so pleasant .. I hope my soul isn't tarnished and that i'm worthy of some euphoria on earth and that I can give back and not just take ..that I do know what love is that it's not just selfish lust ....I don't believe in the mental health system especially the kind I would get (****** state insurance) I have already gone through it deemed as borderline bi polar. Or normal , empathetic , and mature for my age... I hurt beyond words sometimes I know everyone does I love life tho ...I just want to be deserving of something wow why did I type all of that but bottom line yes I've gone over the edge and I struggle often with wanting to do something drastic like attempt to commit suicide..IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 17618 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted July 24, 2011 06:06 PM
quote: Originally posted by Saraintheski: Hi cappy ^ i'm from philly also and yes I have a lot of breakdowns I can't stand being on my own and knowing how cruel the world is and when I'm depressed my body shuts down .. My chest hurts ..my shoulders I can't get any anti anxiety medicine because i'm not 18 and my mother had a xanax problem when I was younger ...I want to commit suicide but I know I should be beyond greatfullll that i'm in human form and that while I' m young I should treasure my body and learn to over come struggles because often I feel my struggles are nothing I feel like a spec in the universe and if I died I'd leave nothing behind .. I know I am loved but it in oddways ..I want to experience the euphoria I here about in NDES some aren't so pleasant .. I hope my soul isn't tarnished and that i'm worthy of some euphoria on earth and that I can give back and not just take ..that I do know what love is that it's not just selfish lust ....I don't believe in the mental health system especially the kind I would get (****** state insurance) I have already gone through it deemed as borderline bi polar. Or normal , empathetic , and mature for my age... I hurt beyond words sometimes I know everyone does I love life tho ...I just want to be deserving of something wow why did I type all of that but bottom line yes I've gone over the edge and I struggle often with wanting to do something drastic like attempt to commit suicide..
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starfox Moderator Posts: 516 From: London England Registered: Aug 2010
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posted July 24, 2011 06:47 PM
No,they will force drugs upon you in those places and if you want them or not it is by the by.For some people they may need to be in there, but for me not likely. IP: Logged |
Saraintheski Knowflake Posts: 416 From: Registered: May 2011
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posted July 24, 2011 07:19 PM
Thankyou Ami IP: Logged |
AstrologicalMan Knowflake Posts: 435 From: Brickenton Registered: Jun 2011
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posted July 24, 2011 07:33 PM
What!? Why would anyone want to have themselves committed? Everyone now knows that insanity doesn't really exist. I don't understand the purpose. Unless you want free board and food. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 17618 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted July 24, 2011 07:36 PM
I have seen so many whacked shrinks.That keeps me away. I have very rarely seen anyone in that field who is not a mental case ------------------ It doesn't happen all at once.You become.It takes a long time.That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily,or have sharp edges,or who have to be carefully kept. Generally,by the time you are Real most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all,because once you are Real you can't be ugly ,except to people who don't understand. The Velveteen Rabbit IP: Logged |
Saraintheski Knowflake Posts: 416 From: Registered: May 2011
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posted July 24, 2011 08:03 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ami Anne: I have seen so many whacked shrinks.That keeps me away. I have very rarely seen anyone in that field who is not a mental case
That is true I have heard from so many people who have shrinks nodding out on them my mom had someone who was anoerexic and couldn't believe that my mother has been to concerts lol .. It's as if the have subjected humans or something like they aren't one .. I also have known good ones ..
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juniperb Moderator Posts: 2312 From: Blue Star Kachina Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 25, 2011 08:45 PM
No lexx, not once. the earthly world is a mad mad home to us and I would never make my portion a smaller mad mad world by opting to live in an instutition ------------------ Christian, Jew, Muslim, Shaman, Zoroastrian, stone, ground, mountain, river, each has a secret way of being with the Mystery, unique and not to be judged. Rumi IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 6667 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 25, 2011 09:13 PM
I posed the question not for myself but because of some folks I have known. Sadly doing such rarely works out wonderfully like it did for Patch Adams. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Patch_Adams http://www.patchadams.org/Gesundheit_Institute_speakers IP: Logged |
juniperb Moderator Posts: 2312 From: Blue Star Kachina Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 25, 2011 10:18 PM
Ah yes, Patch Adams. I believe the movie starring Robin Williams was about Patch. I saw it some time ago and it was sad and happy.------------------ Christian, Jew, Muslim, Shaman, Zoroastrian, stone, ground, mountain, river, each has a secret way of being with the Mystery, unique and not to be judged. Rumi IP: Logged |
NickiG Moderator Posts: 4025 From: Pluto, next to Ami Ann Registered: Jul 2010
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posted July 25, 2011 10:19 PM
no, never...although i joke about it a lot cuz i do sometimes behave in a way that is deemed mental by society ------------------ I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate? when organic is used to describe food then you know we have come to a dark age in history IP: Logged |
Lei_Kuei Moderator Posts: 289 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 27, 2011 07:18 AM
Only if the place was called Arkham http://www.arkhamcare.com/ ------------------ “It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.” Philip K. Dick IP: Logged |
Mblake81 Knowflake Posts: 1592 From: Registered: Aug 2010
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posted July 27, 2011 08:38 AM
If you are seeing bugs and things crawling on you, but no one else does then I would say yes. I'm not saying, I'm just saying. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne Moderator Posts: 17618 From: Pluto/house next to NickiG Registered: Sep 2010
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posted July 27, 2011 10:00 AM
Mblake You are cute IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 6667 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 27, 2011 11:10 AM
Lei_Kuei Only if I was there in charge and would totally revamp the place and lock up the loonies that were running it. Calling Dr. LEXX! Mblake81 Oh for sure! Like a woman I knew of; she literally ate Bibles to take the word of God into her. She was inspired by the scroll eating in the Bible. ------------------ ~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX ~Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other." ~ Dalai Lama }><}('>~ IP: Logged |
Lei_Kuei Moderator Posts: 289 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 27, 2011 11:33 AM
I heard eating pages from the bible results in projectile vomiting, is that true? ------------------ “It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.” Philip K. Dick
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LEXX Moderator Posts: 6667 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 27, 2011 11:40 AM
quote: Originally posted by Lei_Kuei: I heard eating pages from the bible results in projectile vomiting, is that true?
I hated that stupid movie. And no, of course such is not true. On that note... Thank you and Mblake81, Ami, and Lei_Kuei for the moments of levity and silliness here on this thread. However..... My query was and still is quite serious about a serious matter. Checking oneself into such and or various re-hab institutions has indeed been beneficial to some folks.------------------ ~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX ~Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other." ~ Dalai Lama }><}('>~ IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 6667 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 27, 2011 11:44 AM
quote: Originally posted by juniperb: Ah yes, Patch Adams. I believe the movie starring Robin Williams was about Patch. I saw it some time ago and it was sad and happy.
Yes that was the movie based on his real life experiences and his own struggles with mental illness and how he overcame it all.------------------ ~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX ~Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other." ~ Dalai Lama }><}('>~ IP: Logged |
Archaea Knowflake Posts: 108 From: Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 28, 2011 03:09 AM
Actually, my mom was about to throw me in a mental institution after I got extremely angry at the police. :\IP: Logged |
LEXX Moderator Posts: 6667 From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 28, 2011 10:43 AM
quote: Originally posted by Archaea: Actually, my mom was about to throw me in a mental institution after I got extremely angry at the police. :\
{{{hugs}}} ------------------ ~I remember, therefore I am immortal~LEXX ~Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other." ~ Dalai Lama }><}('>~ IP: Logged |
pire Knowflake Posts: 1891 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 28, 2011 11:28 AM
At one point in my life, yes. I did think about it. IP: Logged |
cappy1277 Knowflake Posts: 645 From: philadelphia,pa Registered: Jul 2009
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posted July 28, 2011 01:08 PM
@sara- here's a great big hug for you...{{{{{{hugs}}}}}} Are you still in philly? I feel like its the city that makes me feel this way. I envision it as demonic black hole sometimes. I would never commit my self to institution because I'm afraid I would never come back the same. Nevertheless...I was on zoloft for about a year but I didn't appreciate the weight gain...lol. its the kind of weight gain you never see coming and then you're like "holy cow!!! I'm fat!!" Lol. I felt great when it kicked in but I have bipolar tendencies too and the zoloft will "purge" all the tendencies meaning you become super depressed for a couple weeks to the point of debilitation and then you wake up as a brand new person. Not a good thing if you are suicidal. I have premenstrual dysmorphic syndrome too so it was wonderful for that...I could turn into a homicidal monster. I'm off of it now and I feel the anxiety & pmdd coming back but right now I am trying to exert self control until I can get health insurance & find another alternative.Its good that you recognize it as not being teenage angst. Its hard to have medications around people who have/had drug issues. I empathize....I've had other medications that have gone missing (klonopins- helps with the insomnia) thanks to my recreational pill popping family members. My oldest daughter is 17 years old...its hard being a teenager nowadays. IP: Logged |
Archaea Knowflake Posts: 108 From: Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 28, 2011 03:10 PM
quote: Originally posted by Archaea: Actually, my mom was about to throw me in a mental institution after I got extremely angry at the police. :\
quote: Originally posted by LEXX: {{{hugs}}}
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