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Topic: I don't know if I can actually attempt suicide I just want God to take me now ..
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zodiacexpert
Knowflake Posts: 30
From: Philadelphia,PA USA
Registered: May 2011
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posted September 13, 2011 03:01 PM
  
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Originally posted by Saraintheski:
I don't think I want to be a human anymore ever since I was 11 I wrote multiple suicide and self hate notes .. I don't hate everything or mentally ill and overly depressed unable to feel happiness i'm sick of getting ir ripped away I don't want to live if I continue to get treated in this way maybe I deserve what I dish out ..I just hope this skin/menstrual porblem i'm having is a sign that I have some sort of heart problem or an auto immune disease .. I want a reason to die i'll feel safe then ..I don't like the uncertainties of life the constant confusion the good things that get trampled on ..and I don't want to leave people here but I fantasize about it or how they would feel but I can't...
Hey, just calm down and stop spreading yourself too thin! Okay your 18th birthday is a month away so youre freaking out! Your torn beween being a kid with little responsability and also have an idea you can jump into being a successful adult thru taking on more than you can handle. Drop the "I'll show them" attitude. Them are not worth showing up and all your doing is screwing up your present and future. Rome wasn't built in a day. Relax get some sleep this stuff takes a lot of time work and patience. If you scatter yourself silly you get sick! Attend to that first.If you still need to be a kid do so thee's no hurry to grow up!And its not all its cracked up to be mostly a lot of work and responsability!The freedom usually comes with a huge pricetag!IP: Logged |
LEXX
Moderator Posts: 7946
From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 13, 2011 06:17 PM
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LEXX
Moderator Posts: 7946
From: Still out looking for Schrodinger's cat.......& LEXIGRAMMING.♥.. is my Passion!
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 13, 2011 06:21 PM
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Originally posted by AquaGem:
Saraintheski
Good morning!
I hope you are feeling well today.
I was born and raised in the medical field as well as being in the career myself more then half of my life.
My experience is.. suicide thoughts are never to be taken lightly .... feelings are real!
Emotional support is huge, someone/ANYONE you can talk to, who you trust... friend,teacher,neighbor,pastor,grocery store clerk,etc...is essential!!!
I read you are 17 years old...
May I be frank?
Being a teenager SUCKS!.....trust me, it gets better 
Hormones level out around 21 years old...thank goodness...
next comes "mentalpause" around 50 ..but thats another story 
Life should be about YOU right now..what do YOU need? What do others have to offer YOU?
How can YOU be the best YOU?
Discovery of yourself is part of adolescence. In order to help others ... we must nuture and love ourselves too. Your worth it...your a kind, compassionate soul..who deserves appreciation and kindness in return!
It really does get better!
((hugs))
Aqua
I agree!
And as crappy as things are for me at 56.......there is no way I would want to be a teenager again! 
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spartacus
Newflake Posts: 5
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Registered: Sep 2011
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posted September 26, 2011 09:13 PM
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SpooL
Knowflake Posts: 241
From: Toronto/Ottawa,Canada
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 26, 2011 11:08 PM
I think I know how you feel the reality is this is the worst time to be a 17-25 yrs old.I have my own personal complaints on how society has become, all shed the details. The best thing I can say is we all carry are own crosses everyday and some us carry more then others. Take it day by day, if you can get by each day consider it a daily victory you've overcome and say to yourself. You've accomplished geting by today, now all I have to do is get by the next day. ------------------------
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Gemini Sun
Aries Moon
Mercury in Gemini
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 12342
From: Saturn next to Charmainec
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted September 27, 2011 10:40 AM
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I have CDO. It's like OCD, but the letters are in alphabetical order, as they should be. IP: Logged |
palmsheel
Newflake Posts: 1
From: India
Registered: Sep 2011
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posted October 27, 2011 11:29 AM
dear Saraintheski:
how are you? hope you are doing well / better now;i just want to say few words to you & anybody feeling down sometimes:
"keep try"
you got some good-valuable stuff & this world need that; so "keep try";
try to appreciate each good-thing in your life --- water; food; electricity; & such --- there are humans who do not get them easily & suffer & die too;
let us feel thankful & smile at good-stuff >> we make good-stuff greater & brighter >> we will be "happy" & "enjoy" living;
"keep try" dear.
lovingly, sheel
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Stawr
Moderator Posts: 1039
From: N. America
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted October 27, 2011 01:18 PM
yeah now that I think about it being 17 and 18 sucked. I think I could definitely say I had mild depression around that time.
(my classes where hard, I almost had no friends, I was stuck in my hometown, not getting along with my family, and got sick of everything I use to like to do, I was going through so many changes,and dealing with trauma from a while ago.) It wasn't all bad...I think around that time Saturn was oppsosing my Venus. My self esteem was at my lowest around that time. Around 19 it got better...I got to finally get out of the state and visit my aunt...I got my kitten, I got put in easier classes, met new people made new friends. GRADUATED. When I was finally done it was like bags of bricks where lifted off me. I'm 21 now and life is pretty good, not perfect but good. Found ways to make money doing something I enjoy, and I get along with family again. And I get out and mingle a bit. I just know my self a bit better now...and life is much more enjoyable today. Well anyway I hope my story gives you hope that things will eventually get better. IP: Logged |
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