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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 19, 2013 06:41 PM
  
My daughter would be 18 years old on March 27th. I miss her so much. IP: Logged |
cathy
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posted March 19, 2013 07:18 PM
As I've stated before, I know what you are going through. It gets easier as time goes on. I'm sending you loving thoughts.  IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted March 19, 2013 07:47 PM
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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
My daughter would be 18 years old on March 27th. I miss her so much.
Yes, anniversaries are hard. I am here for you, Ian. You know how to contact me
Love you, Brother 
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mockingbird
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posted March 19, 2013 09:34 PM
I can't imagine, Ian.------------------
If I've included this sig, it's because I'm posting from a mobile device.
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Lexxigramer
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posted March 19, 2013 09:45 PM
My last lost baby would be 15 this year. 
Others of the 26+ lost ones would be as old as 38 years old had they survived.
Some were twins.
I grieve that I never even got to hold them.
I know how bad it is feeling them die, then having to give birth to death, after feeling life moving inside, seeing it too on sonograms.
I can only imagine how awful losing a already born child would be.
It is never easy and time does not erase all the sorrow.
I sympathize. IP: Logged |
Lazyscarecrow
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posted March 19, 2013 10:14 PM
I can't say I know what it's like. But I'm still sorry for your loss.
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Faith
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posted March 19, 2013 11:01 PM
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 19, 2013 11:50 PM
Thank you all. I promise to show a pic when I'm ready but not now. I spent over two hours graveside last Sunday alone, just sitting on the bench, being with both girls, and only because its still too cold to do gardening. But the crocuses have begun to show in the midst of the remnant March snow. My eldest is named Katherine Kim Ashley. I call her Sweet Kate. She went in her mother's arms. I had carried her most of that night. No. It hasn't gotten any easier with time. The trauma of casket and burial shopping alone three days after your first child is born is one experience I will never forget. It was like the burial of a lifelong of dreams and aspirations, all taken away in one fall swoop. IP: Logged |
12muddy
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posted March 20, 2013 01:45 AM
I'm sorry for your loss IP: Logged |
Padre35
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posted March 20, 2013 01:59 AM
You have my empathy YTA, you clearly loved her very dearly.IP: Logged |
charmainec
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posted March 20, 2013 04:26 AM
I'm sorry for your loss. ------------------
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Ami Anne
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posted March 20, 2013 10:50 AM
It makes me cry to read your description. You will see her when you go to Heaven. She will probably come to lead you in ------------------
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libraschoice77
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posted March 20, 2013 11:03 AM
Can't even imagine the pain you feel in your heart, its the worst kind when you loose your child...sending you out some prayers and warm light IP: Logged |
ghanima81
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posted March 20, 2013 11:50 AM
Deepest sympathies. IP: Logged |
katatonic
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posted March 20, 2013 01:20 PM
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 20, 2013 02:24 PM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
It makes me cry to read your description. You will see her when you go to Heaven. She will probably come to lead you in
Mitchell says he has met her several times, the most recent being last year when he was in the OR and then ICU. He also has rather vivid descriptions of the Big Guy. Mitchell has come back at least a dozen times now.
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Ami Anne
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posted March 20, 2013 02:50 PM
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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
Mitchell says he has met her several times, the most recent being last year when he was in the OR and then ICU. He also has rather vivid descriptions of the Big Guy. Mitchell has come back at least a dozen times now.
That gives me the chills cuz Mitchell has a supernatural feeling about him. He is very calm and very loving and also has great care for other people. ------------------
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 20, 2013 03:14 PM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
That gives me the chills cuz Mitchell has a supernatural feeling about him. He is very calm and very loving and also has great care for other people.
I've actually been in the room with Mitchell with about 25 physicians around him, holding Mitchell's hand. I've seen the heart rate monitor flat-lined. I've seen dozens of back-to-back gramal seizures. I've also seen systolic BPs as high as 190 and as low as 70. I've seen O2 sats as low as the high 30s. The kid has been there and back, and while I cannot comprehend some of the things he has said, I'm inclined to listen to him. Now, sitting in a room with the Big Guy is a whole separate matter lol When he was a baby at 11 months, he was bottoming out on a Code Blue. Technically, he was gone. Some bozo misplaced his chart. Nobody knew the loading dose on his seizure medicine. L. shouted out "Phenobarbital 100mg stat" It took all of 15 seconds before he came back. And the sun had been behind clouds all day but strangely suddenly shined into the room. This was in California, so nobody paid attention. After the phenobarbital worked, the senior attending came over to L. and told her "doctor, you saved this baby's life. Thank you." L repiled: "No, I'm not a doctor. I'm just his mom." Nobody thought L was the mom of a baby who clearly looked Asian, given that L. is a Caucasian Southerner. I later asked L. how she knew the loading dose was 100mg. She shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know. Something made me say 100 mg." Now, that was intense. To everyone other than Ami: I'm sorry I talked about my son but I think it's germane to the conversation. IP: Logged |
mockingbird
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posted March 20, 2013 03:33 PM
Don't apologize.Discussion of Mitchell and his experiences is absolutely germane. I'm not saying much because I don't know what to say
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 20, 2013 06:47 PM
mockingbird,No need to say anything. Your support alone means the world to me. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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posted March 20, 2013 08:37 PM
Ian
I have looked at Mitchell's picture and his calm is supernatural. Would he ever write about his near death experiences?------------------
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 20, 2013 09:09 PM
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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
Ian
I have looked at Mitchell's picture and his calm is supernatural. Would he ever write about his near death experiences?
No Ami. There are many things he isn't ready to tell. Or want to tell. There are many things I don't know myself. And his mom would be maximally upset. Thanks. IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted March 20, 2013 10:12 PM
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YoursTrulyAlways
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posted March 20, 2013 11:48 PM
Mitchell at three days old. He didn't go home till he was 16 months old.  I made this video for him on his 17th birthday.
http://youtu.be/Pbg4Y9dKabA
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Ami Anne
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posted March 21, 2013 07:43 AM
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Originally posted by YoursTrulyAlways:
No Ami. There are many things he isn't ready to tell. Or want to tell. There are many things I don't know myself. And his mom would be maximally upset. Thanks.
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