posted July 22, 2013 08:44 AM            

If you'd told me you were going to drop me, in order to find out who was spreading things around, then I wouldn't have been hurt. Instead, I was just dropped. I don't even know what's been going on! Most of it, anyway.

God, I need sleep, now that I know we aren't going to be evacuated.

posted July 22, 2013 08:55 AM            

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Originally posted by charmainec:
I named those people because I do and CAN trust them. They have stuck and supported me through hell.

They don't throw me aside when the going gets tough or Come on here to throw tantrums when they see something they don't like. They ask and talk it out..NICELY.

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I am capable of talking things out nicely, but I remember you yelling at me a few years ago, without naming me, but doing so just the same - no calm talking there. You don't always talk calmly.

I was just coming back to say that I found the thread you mentioned, and to thank you again. http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum21/HTML/000650.html I was still asked anyway.

posted July 23, 2013 05:44 AM            

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Originally posted by charmainec:
[b]Again it wasn't about you or to you. It was a rant. I keep telling you the same thing over and over: Most times when I rant here you assume it's about you and yet we don't speak often at all which is why it makes no sense why you keep thinking it. What annoys me is when you assume it's about you and call me out on it here, most times on a different thread which makes matters more confusing.

Any query I've had with you was in private.
I can't walk on egg shells when I post worring about how you perceive them when they are not directed at you.

You're welcome.[/B]

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I PM'd you about that. http://www.helpguide.org/mental/social_anxiety_support_symptom_causes_treatment.htm

I've been accused of such things - the things you were talking about - by others. And having dealt with extreme social anxiety - so debilitated thanks to bullying, that I was agoraphobic for *years* - it's a hard habit to break: especially when you open up and start to trust again, and people proceed to accuse you of things you haven't done, and hang you out to dry because it's easier for them.

that's the short version.

And that stems from PTSD:

Trauma survivors who have PTSD may have trouble with their close family relationships or friendships. Their symptoms can cause problems with trust, closeness, communication, and problem solving, which may affect the way the survivor acts with others. In turn, the way a loved one responds to him or her affects the trauma survivor. A circular pattern may develop that could harm relationships. Read more from the National Center for PTSD.

posted July 23, 2013 06:27 AM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
[B] I PM'd you about that. http://www.helpguide.org/mental/social_anxiety_support_symptom_causes_treatment.htm

I've been accused of such things - the things you were talking about - by others. And having dealt with extreme social anxiety - so debilitated thanks to bullying, that I was agoraphobic for *years* - it's a hard habit to break: especially when you open up and start to trust again, and people proceed to accuse you of things you haven't done, and hang you out to dry because it's easier for them.

that's the short version.

And that stems from PTSD:

Trauma survivors who have PTSD may have trouble with their close family relationships or friendships. Their symptoms can cause problems with trust, closeness, communication, and problem solving, which may affect the way the survivor acts with others. In turn, the way a loved one responds to him or her affects the trauma survivor. A circular pattern may develop that could harm relationships. Read more from the National Center for PTSD.

B]

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You and I both were unfortunate victims of all that craziness at the time - you know this.
I'm sorry if I got annoyed with you but this has been happening for the past three years and I can't let it continue anymore.

I do understand where it stems from and asking you to cut me some slack. What I don't understand and did mention this to you before is why you react to me in such a way? One would swear by your reaction to me at times that we were besties or something. You need to explain to me why it is so deeply personal to you.

You have also mentioned that I remind you of your sister but you didn't elaborate on it. Not sure whether it's a good or bad thing..

posted July 24, 2013 03:16 AM            

teasel, regarding browser... sometimes I can do the (circular-arrow) refresh-thing and I still won't see it. Then I can be shocked to find LATER, that posts appeared that I thought never went through (and I changed my mind about leaving~~ I thought!! )

teasel, THANKS for the url to that interesting website! I will explore it some time soon.

So, just checking in with you all-- 'breezing' by the posts tonight/this morning before going to bed. It is so soft and quiet right now-- no appliances running, so much peace... ahhhhh. But I have to be sure to get more sleep time in.

Roommate is home with a cold and probably here for a few more days. Hard to concentrate online with the TV on all the time in the background... (overstimulation)!

Hope I get some of my concentration back in the next day or two... I miss being here.

posted July 24, 2013 05:01 AM            

Also: All the false allegations about seeing passwords by SC now makes perfect sense. Strange how they hopped on here to start a panic when it was the same day she launched her site. Very shady! And since she is so "sure" that webmasters can "see" passwords, I hope she notified her members that she can see their passwords too!
All the commotion now makes perfect sense.

Closing this thread now. At least there was another eye opener at the end of this tunnel..