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Topic: can we talk guys? seriously feel like ending my life...
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whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 06:40 AM
  
Why did my ex have to sayhi to me? I had forgotten about him with a new boyfriend, when he just decided to pop back into my life again...now he won't even reply to me on phone or Facebook...and all these feelings are back...and he won't even talk to me so I can try and get some clarity and move on...He's so selfish....I know we have some major past life karma...oh god I love him and hate him. I feel I'll never see him again and that's just something I can't live with...I don't want to do this...but I feel like I can't live without him...help...IP: Logged |
MetalAphrodite
Moderator Posts: 2279
From: Zanguin :3
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted June 01, 2014 07:05 AM
You can live without him.Your life is more than one person who sought that ego boost by seeking you out. You are more than what he limits you to be. When I was like this, I used to craft sentences and repeat them constantly to reprogram my mind. One suggestion you can try is: "I am more than what you limit me to be. I deserve love; I've always deserved love- leave me be." I'm not sure how well those sentences fit you, but you can make your own. Just a few sentences where you confront him in the astral, push away the connection, and calm it down. Idk if that will help, but I hope it does. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted June 01, 2014 07:10 AM
Put up the chart in Beginners Astrology. I am pretty sure it is a Nessus/Deja relationship. Stick these two asteroids in. Deja is 57, I think and Nessus is on the AStr.com menu, you can highlight. I am having some wrist issues so trying to limit my typing but let's see if you have this, if you want, because this equals exactly how you are talking. I have several articles on it, too.------------------
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whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:10 AM
Metal, you are very gifted and I have a very big favor to ask...if it is all right..IP: Logged |
MetalAphrodite
Moderator Posts: 2279
From: Zanguin :3
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted June 01, 2014 07:24 AM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
Metal, you are very gifted and I have a very big favor to ask...if it is all right..
What's that? IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:28 AM
I thought I knew his phone number but it ended up being someone else's. Could you try and see it? This is ridiculous and out of hand I know...but I feel like I'll do something rash if I don't talk to him...IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:30 AM
I'm sorry metal...that was a total insult to your gifts...I'm pathetic...  IP: Logged |
peacefulclouds
Knowflake Posts: 333
From: somewhere in south and the east
Registered: Jan 2014
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posted June 01, 2014 07:37 AM
What about your boyfriend? IP: Logged |
Violets
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Registered: Apr 2011
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posted June 01, 2014 07:38 AM
Maybe you could just stay here and talk to us instead for a little while? IP: Logged |
MetalAphrodite
Moderator Posts: 2279
From: Zanguin :3
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted June 01, 2014 07:38 AM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
I thought I knew his phone number but it ended up being someone else's. Could you try and see it? This is ridiculous and out of hand I know...but I feel like I'll do something rash if I don't talk to him...
That's not going to help you. Even if I did look for his number, this doesn't help you pull away from him. I can assure you he reads his messages and has decided not to reply back. My advice is to write him one more time to confront him for doing this to you(and I doubly assure you he knew how you would respond to him) and get all that you need to say out in the open. He's selectively replying. He's not doing this maliciously, but he knew he would pique your attention so he could receive your energy. I can also triply assure you that if there is a strong connection between you two, he can feel you right now and is/has been purposely ignoring you. I confront people in astral when it comes to connecting and remove it from me. You have a very big heart. You must work to protect your heart from those who would exploit it, aka this P dude who triggered you on purpose. Because the energy is free flowing to him on your side, he doesn't have to try and connect to you at all, and instead gets to reap the benefits of your anxiety. Please craft a mantra to break away from this person. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:39 AM
I know and I love him to death...but Patrick...I wouldn't even say its a love, its a need...and I feel horrible for it... IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:39 AM
I know and I love him to death...but Patrick...I wouldn't even say its a love, its a need...and I feel horrible for it... IP: Logged |
peacefulclouds
Knowflake Posts: 333
From: somewhere in south and the east
Registered: Jan 2014
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posted June 01, 2014 07:41 AM
Why do you need Patrick? This is more like an obsession. Why are you obsessed? Is it rejection? Is it it feeling of worthlessness because he does not give you any attention? I think this is less about soul connection but something more human. What happened in the past, that made you unable to let go? Be honest with yourself. Be fair with yourself. You have a new love.
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whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:41 AM
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Originally posted by MetalAphrodite:
That's not going to help you. Even if I did look for his number, this doesn't help you pull away from him.I can assure you he reads his messages and has decided not to reply back. My advice is to write him one more time to confront him for doing this to you(and I doubly assure you he knew how you would respond to him) and get all that you need to say out in the open. He's selectively replying. He's not doing this maliciously, but he knew he would pique your attention so he could receive your energy. I can also triply assure you that if there is a strong connection between you two, he can feel you right now and is/has been purposely ignoring you. I confront people in astral when it comes to connecting and remove it from me. You have a very big heart. You must work to protect your heart from those who would exploit it, aka this P dude who triggered you on purpose. Because the energy is free flowing to him on your side, he doesn't have to try and connect to you at all, and instead gets to reap the benefits of your anxiety. Please craft a mantra to break away from this person.
Ok, this is not what I want to hear but its what I need to hear. Thank you.
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MetalAphrodite
Moderator Posts: 2279
From: Zanguin :3
Registered: Jul 2012
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posted June 01, 2014 07:44 AM
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Originally posted by whitewitch111:
I'm sorry metal...that was a total insult to your gifts...I'm pathetic...
It's not that pathetic. I was in your shoes years ago and can understand how this goes. *hugs* Don't waste your time on someone who doesn't deserve it. I don't know you well, but I know you well enough to say that I love you and you deserve more than this. You deserve someone who sees your messages and responds back in turn because he genuinely cares about how you feel when you don't hear from him. IP: Logged |
whitewitch111
Moderator Posts: 1747
From: Hillsboro, OR, USA
Registered: Jan 2013
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posted June 01, 2014 07:47 AM
He had no friends in high school. He was very shy and I became his only friend. And then I fell in love with him...and hr was flighty if he loved me or not...I saved him from himself, and he took my heart and soul away when he left...saying I was too obsessive and that he decided he loved someone else. I gave him light in the dark...hr blew it out...I loved him...and I messed it all up... like I do everything...IP: Logged |
peacefulclouds
Knowflake Posts: 333
From: somewhere in south and the east
Registered: Jan 2014
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posted June 01, 2014 07:50 AM
The bad news is, you're still obsessive. The good news is, you're doing something right- you have a boyfriend that loves you.
You know why people get obsessed? Because they want to change things that they cannot have. It's a form of insecurity.
You'll increasingly become more and more obsessive if you only seek approval from people who rejects you. Do you have history of being with emotionally unavailable people? Men or women, maybe family. IP: Logged |
Ami Anne
Moderator Posts: 55166
From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted June 01, 2014 08:03 AM
This is classic Nessus /Deja. Most people have gone through this  I learned about it by going through it, too. Nessus/Deja brings up all your old feelings of abandonment and any abuse you ever had. It is the weirdest kind of thing and feels exactly like you will die if you don't get the person like you would have died, as a baby, without care.
It has that type of gravity to it's feeling
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