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Topic: The most difficult farewell..
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DopGang
Knowflake Posts: 2704
From: INTJ
Registered: Jun 2015
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posted May 26, 2016 11:34 AM
  
I must have read your last post about 3-4 times and I'm speechless. Well, not really but I don't think I could add anything useful.
He sounds really immature, dramatic, impulsive, and hurting. Stay strong! IP: Logged |
bella_taurus
Knowflake Posts: 635
From: Minneapolis, MN, USA
Registered: Oct 2010
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posted May 26, 2016 01:16 PM
My heart goes out to you...I'm sending you love and light. You will get through this, I am sure of it. Stay strong and be the bigger person amongst all this grief, it will all pay off in the end. <3 <3 <3 IP: Logged |
Elysia
Knowflake Posts: 1755
From: Gotham
Registered: Aug 2015
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posted May 26, 2016 04:25 PM
He's just trying to hurt you, don't let it get to you... (That's probably next-to-impossible at such a time, but...you know, try not to let him affect you). Just hold on, it'll be over soon.. IP: Logged |
LionFish
Knowflake Posts: 1691
From:
Registered: Aug 2012
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posted May 26, 2016 05:01 PM
Thank you guys so much. I'm trying my best. The past couple days have been much better since he has no way to contact me any longer. I'm not waking up every morning to hateful, hurtful messages. They were so draining to my spirit. It really has made my days easier to face. I'm a hard person to keep down, so I know I will win this battle. Especially with the support system I've discovered in some surprisingly devoted friends.  I will always be the bigger person in this situation, because my goal was never to hurt him, but to give us both a chance at happiness. All I've ever wanted was his happiness, I just realize now that it can't be with me. And as much as that hurts, I'm glad I realized it. I'm glad I had the guts to ask if he was happy. Someone else may have been too complacent, but his happiness, like I said, means so much to me. It used to mean more than my own (which isn't healthy, either) and I hope that someday, in the future, he will see that.
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DopGang
Knowflake Posts: 2704
From: INTJ
Registered: Jun 2015
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posted July 23, 2016 09:26 AM
Any updates?
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Randall
Webmaster Posts: 68373
From: Saturn next to Charmaine
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted July 26, 2016 05:21 PM
Have things improved?IP: Logged |
LionFish
Knowflake Posts: 1691
From:
Registered: Aug 2012
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posted August 02, 2016 05:06 PM
Thanks for caring guys Things have definitely improved. He moved out of state at the beginning of last month. But not before lying to me one last time. Spending over $250 on vape pens in 2 weeks, but told me he could only give me $100 to help with the bills he was leaving me with..It was really hard at first, but I know it was the right thing. In his absence I've discovered just how badly his presence was weighing on me and my soul. The weight of constant worry over his drug use or wondering if I'm being lied to about mundane crap. I feel free and happy again. I don't dread going home anymore. And it's also left me free and open to develop my friendship with my sweet, sweet Benjamin. I can't help but think the universe brought him to me as an apology for all the things I've been through in love. It's turning into something beautiful beyond imagining. More amazing than my most romantic dreams. Someone who loves and protects me because he cherishes me. Im overwhelmed sometimes by how quickly he changed my view on how i deserve to be treated, just by treating me that way. Like I am the most important thing in his world. And I am. "My Queen" is what he calls me, and he truly treats me like one. I say he's spoiling me, he says it would only be spoiling if i didn't deserve it, and he is under the strong belief that I do. This man would gift wrap the Moon in silver with a bow made of diamonds if he thought it would make me happy. My constant heart break is over and the healing has started. It's not easy by any means, but I am accepting that a huge part of my life story is coming to an end. It still makes me cry, like now while I type this. I tried to tell Benjamin that i needed to heal my heart on my own, that it wasn't his job to fix my broken heart. He said he'd rather it be a team project. That it IS his job to make me smile and smiles help fix broken hearts. I'm not 100%, however I am leaps and bounds better than I was. I've discovered that I love fishing! The last month has been very enlightening and emotional and I wouldn't change it. I've found pieces of me that i thought were lost All in all, I'm well. I have some hard days, but I get through them and with a smile on my face by the end of it usually. IP: Logged |
Brendan34
Knowflake Posts: 261
From: Albany, NY, USA
Registered: Aug 2013
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posted August 08, 2016 01:35 AM
I'm glad to hear things have improved somewhat for you. I empathize with what you wrote in this thread. My girlfriend of 7 years and I just broke up. I feel devastated, like the unconditional love I have given is just gone. And a part of me is gone too I guess. I know things can get better over time and you gain perspective. But right now, everything feels uncertain and feels painful. It's amazing what this can do to you physically also.Hope you are doing better now and thank you for continuing to share your story. Stay strong and in the present moment. IP: Logged |
Elysia
Knowflake Posts: 1755
From: Gotham
Registered: Aug 2015
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posted August 12, 2016 03:03 PM
So glad to hear you're doing better, Lionfish! You're right. it won't be over in a day.. But I hope around every corner, you'll find a little something to lift you heart.. Brendan, sorry to hear about your break-up. 7 years is a long time. All those memories, so much love.. I can't imagine. IP: Logged |
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