posted September 07, 2022 01:03 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Some things we need to figure out by ourselves. From a philosophical viewpoint we are all alone and we are all connected at the same time. Being a loving person and feeling connected to other people without needing or expecting that this is reciprocated, is difficult. But it’s the only real answer to loneliness that I know.

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posted September 07, 2022 05:16 PM            

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by aquaguy91
wish I wasn't a trash defective human.

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I am very sad and even more worried
about you now despite all you have
said to reject us all repeatedly
Aquaguy91 👽😭

However you do not want my
or anyone's help and worse thing
and that you contradict yourself
and say you are worthy of love
and more but then you label yourself
as being a trash human being
and other demeaning things👽😭

You cannot project such at yourself and others and expect to be miraculously
rescued by them and it appears sadly😭
that you are not able or willing
to rescue yourself from your
deep abyss of resigned dismal despair😭

I care and others care but it hurts to
watch you beating up on yourself and
us and others no matter what we say
you always have
a negative comeback to throw in our
faces and make it
very clear that your want and need
others to love you and more but
then
you comeback with non sequeror excuses
that do not have anything to do with
what appears to be actually happening
in your mind and world👽

In a nutshell from what I see in
your posts is
you repeatedly tearing both yourself
and everyone else down and
then you act as if projecting a negative image and opinion of both yourself and the rest of the human race
will bring you all that you desire and
want and need in
your sad depressing life👽

Yes I am quite frustrated with your
self depreciating emotional outburst
and your constantly tearing down everyone
else👽

I have enough going on in my world
with all the cancers and blindness
episodes
and paralysis episodes and
excruciating pain and more nasty
things I am not going to list here;
but despite all my own unrelenting
pain and sorrow
I have and am enduring,
I have again taken much of my precious
time to try and reach you somehow💙
but you do not care do you?👽
You do not want help from me nor
anyone here or from anywhere
in your life👽😭

You go on about being on the
Asperger's Autism Spectrum but you
cannot even see that like
myself too there are more of us on that spectrum and that does not entitled us
to be given everything we desire no
more than any human on this planet is entitled to having what they want
out of life👽
You keep projecting negativity at
others and worse at yourself with
labeling yourself trash and worse
and despite your claiming to be an intellectual,
you ate blinded by your self hatred
and project that outward and inward and
then wonder why you are sad and
depressed and excessivly needy lonely
and more bad things👽

I am stopping my rant at you because
I expect the backlash will be pretty darn
negative and frankly I cannot keep trying
to reach you and that is so sad to me
and I have more than enough deep sorrow
and extreme pain in my life that
I do not want more negativity
from the likes of you
who doesn't care about any other person including himself👽😭
Your deep dark dismal self hatred 😭👽
is the very worse and
is the root 👽😭
of all your pain in life it appears👽😭
No one can save you but you aquaguy91 💙💙💙

posted September 07, 2022 10:21 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
Lexxigrammer,
Please don't come at me with all that law of attraction nonsense. I know better than all that. Quit blaming me for being treated badly. I'm a 12th houser. Nobody sees me. Nobody even cares that I exist. Nobody ever calls. Nobody reaches out. I live in evidence land. The evidence strongly suggests that nobody cares about me. Strangers online who only know me as words on a screen don't give me the validation I crave. I want to REALLY matter to people who are real to me.

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
Would you blame a child for their trauma? I have been treated like **** since childhood! Stop blaming me for the trauma I'm dealing with!!!! ******* stop!!!

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
If someone here really cared about my well being they would give me pragmatic advice on how to connect with women. I don't know how to do that. Nobody ever ******* explains that part to me. I legitimately do not understand women. I feel that feeling you get when you are trying to communicate with someone who speaks a different language. I don't expect any good answers because everyone likes to be a condescending jerk and lecture and talk down to me without saying anything of substance that I could possibly apply to change my situation. You tell me to love myself. My sincere question is how? If it was that easy I wouldn't be here miserable feeling all the intense bad emotions I have to contend with every day. I'm all ears for real practical advice. Leave all the law of attraction nonsense out of my threads please.

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
How do you love yourself when nobody loves you? And don't say you love me because you don't know me. You know words on a screen and fill in the rest with your imagination. That's why so many of you make so many wrong assumptions about me lol. Several of you have suggested that I have options in real life and just ignore them. If that's the case they aren't telling me if they are interested. And if it's a case where I don't notice their insanely inane hints or cues it's not a choice. I have Asperger's after all. If women are interested in me and feel ignored by me I don't feel bad for them. They could stick their necks out for me. They could do something. They could make moves to show me I wouldn't be rejected. They don't. So I only have to assume that aren't interested. Lol

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
The whole concept of "loving yourself" is ******* stupid to me. Suppose I could do that and unfeel all the bad emotions that I never chose to feel from experiences I never chose to have, what difference would it make? I'd still be lonely, sexually frustrated, and marginalized. Loving myself would have no practical impact on my life. It wouldn't do a ******* thing to change the real life problems I have. I'm a man with a high drive to connect and I'm not able to live that out. I'd still have all the problems I have now if I loved myself lol

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You actually appear to take
great delight in all l the
attention folks give you here
yet you continue to twist and turn and convolute things and insult everyone including yourself👽

You want attention no matter what kind👽
And all your smiling emojis speak
volumes of you are not serious and
are it appears
just jerking everyone around
for more attention no matter the
outcomes👽
and do not care how many folks you
hurt and insult👽
There you have it👽
Keep posting your smiling and
grinding and laughing emojis
it reveals much of where your head
is at and that this is all just a big
creepy funfest for you somehow👽
You are enjoying all the attention
that is blatantly creepy clear👽
More slamming everyone
including yourself👽
Makes me wonder
if you are actually
a bot programmed to
mess with people and are
not an actual person👽
You have an excuse for all your woes
yet none make any sense and
contradictions abound👽
By the way👽
Law of attraction is stupid in my opinion so lay off that new age tripe,
that is not my thing👽
Point being is that pure and simple
Good things happen to bad people
and bad things happen to good people
it is just luck of the draw
and how it is to be human👽
As some say
Get off the the cross
they need the wood dude👽
You say the same things over and
over and are getting nowhere and
your vile repetitive insults have
become far far beyond
tendinous and
all the caring in the world
is not going to stop folks
from finally telling you to
stop asking questions
you do not want answers for
and whining when you are
not actually interested in
changing your life👽

You call yourself worthless, trash,
unloved and other bad things👽👽👽👽👽👽
Well gee whiz look at you 👽
going way way heavily out of your way
to be exactly as you have described 👽
and then to have the ridiculous
freaking audacity to keep on
asking us all
why you are not loved and
desired and happy etcetera 👽👽👽👽👽
That is just creepy beyond creepy👽
Your personal pity party will not
bring you what you desire out of
life and
harassing folks who try to help you
and insulting every human you
can possibly insult and boo hooing
and using the Asperger's diagnosis
as a crutch
is not going to bring you what you
want unless ugh dare I say
ugh ugh ugh
That YOU ARE
actually getting exactly what you want
here on your many threads
for what, like around
a decade or so here at here LindaLand
where people have responded
with kindness💙 over and over💙
and you have gotten
EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT
ATTENTION ATTENTION ATTENTION
And more and more ATTENTION
So you should feel very good about your success in getting ATTENTION for
many years
and even though you have
been rude and insulting to everyone
and hateful to them and yourself
You have and still get copious
amounts of ATTENTION👽

I do not use being Autistic
as an excuse for my all my
life woes
so lay off with the poor little
Asperger's afflicted trashy
worthless human being crap already👽

Keep playing this poor you pity
party and eventually you will
self destruct because the hole
you are digging is ponderpusly deep
at only age 31 and you are on a
serious downward plunge or at best
a static state of being a stagnation of your soul👽😭
Very very sad indeed👽😭

posted September 08, 2022 07:58 AM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
aquaguy91, I can’t tell you how to live your life, I can only speak from my own experiences. And that’s what I’ve been trying to tell you about just like Lexxigrammer. These are our own lessons and we’re trying to share them with you because we recognize your struggles. There is no other reason for us to write here otherwise. What good would it be to us to try to manipulate you or make you feel worse about yourself? So please don’t feel attacked when we’re only trying to share our own personal viewpoints. There is no harm intended.

I wonder about the way you keep telling yourself the same story over and over again. You’re programming yourself to be stuck in that same loop of thoughts forever. Please try to look into some philosophers that deal with the theme “life sucks, how do I deal with that being an inescapable fact”. Like Freud or Stoicism. It might give you different perspective on life.

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Very well said PlutoWasHere💙💙💙
I do not know what more I can say to
Aquaguy91 😭💙👽
He paints me out as a kind of
mean nasty cruel uncaring monster
attacking him
no matter how he phrases it
his view on others is beyond negative👽
It does not end with others as
he continues tearing down both himself repeatedly and
every human on this planet👽
It is sad and I am at a total loss how to even try t.o help him as are most folks👽
Rant over for now.

posted September 08, 2022 08:19 AM            

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Very well said PlutoWasHere💙💙💙
I do not know what more I can say to
Aquaguy91 😭💙👽
He paints me out as a kind of
mean nasty cruel uncaring monster
attacking him
no matter how he phrases it
his view on others is beyond negative👽
It does not end with others as
he continues tearing down both himself repeatedly and
every human on this planet👽
It is sad and I am at a total loss how to even try t.o help him as are most folks👽
Rant over for now.

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posted September 08, 2022 08:14 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:

Lexxigrammer, I can see you mean well and that’s why you post here. So a big hug for you from me! ❤️

I noticed I mentioned Freud when I wanted to write down Nietzsche. Talk about a Freudian slip of the tongue. Freud deals a lot with parents/childhood and sexual frustration so maybe it’s not such a bad advice…

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Ah your observations about
Freud and your
Freudian slip😎😁
Yes there are times when his
views do have relevance😎
He was off on much but
some of his observations
do fit in many cases😎

posted September 08, 2022 08:22 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
I don't need to read a book or take in any more information. I need to have an embodied experience of being loved and good enough. Reading something from a guy who died a century ago won't change anything inside me or how I feel. I feel deep hopelessness and rage. I was given deep powerful needs that I can't get met and I ******* hate it. I feel so powerless. It's a miserable feeling to have no power to change your situation.

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posted September 12, 2022 04:17 PM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
aquaguy91, honestly you’re scaring the sh*t out of women with your behavior. You’re putting so much expectations on a romantic connection. Women sense that and see your potential anger when those expectations aren’t met. You’re setting yourself up for repeating the same mistakes over and over again. Women are scared for their life when it comes to men and for good reason. They will always check for red flags in men and you, I hate to be blunt but you’re asking for it, are a walking and talking red flag. So, you either do something about your issues or accept that women with any sense of self preservation will avoid a relationship with you. It’s that simple.

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That is unrealistic and a
horrible demand to make of
any person👽😢
and is not by any stretch of
the imagination
is it the
keys or seeds to
a beautiful loving mutually
beneficial relationship👽😢

Go ahead and be angry at
me😳

posted September 13, 2022 03:55 PM            

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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
Sigh.

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