posted October 17, 2013 12:08 PM            

but don't let people around you know what you are thinking or about to do....i learnt down the road, that whether we like it or not, work place has more politics than hard effort into it.
The reason you are picked on not the others...is they are all 'politicians' probably...timing their exists, and saying the right words to the right people at a time.

As much as it bothers you, pretend you will listen to what they have to say, and when they are done, don't make it sound like a 'reaction' but a clear "clearly i am not serving this company as i'd like to, and it is not helping me grow either (refrence the 30% thingy)...so maybe it is better if i leave.

Alternatively say nothing node in agreement, and then try and get yourself fired as to my understanding you don't get that extra payment forgot it's name in English, if you resign only if you are fired....so node to everything then look forward to late mornings, giving the work way after it's due date, and without any effort......and then that extra check once you are fired.

Just whatever you do...don't lay your cards on the table, so that everyone who keeps things secret knows what you are going to do, and is a step ahead of you...

i'll do two other readings for you about which is better WA or CA (the first was a definite for the money) so we will see if the energies change...but all that later.

and yes this job is no good for you....was thinking "dude your going to get a nervous breakdown if you keep that up" as i read.....

posted October 26, 2013 04:30 AM            

Ran into the one contact from the department. After a conversation with him, it seems that he's (at least he's saying he is) trying to explain to his supervisor (the one that wasn't happy about the rate of progress) that this project's more complicated than she realizes, as well as some of the things we've been running into. So he's either on my side or he's trying to save his own butt.

I was going to drop the bomb on them today, but got a vibe, if you will, to hold off at least a little longer. Turns out dad's one vehicle will not pass inspection and lasts one more week before it's to be off the road (too much rust and worn suspension), and the other vehicle is apparently a make and model that has had numerous problems reported by many other owners. Seems dad's one "friend" a few years ago did himself a favor when he did him a favor by selling him the car. Granted, it got me to work and back for a few weeks while my previous car (and what a lemon that thing was) was getting fixed.

Dad's backup car has been at the garage a week now, hasn't been looked at too extensively (apparently that garage is playing catch-up on a trailer that's been there a month), and so no word on what happens there. If it winds up not being viable, that leaves dad and I with only my car.

And the "you got a brake light out" indicator came on tonight. I couldn't tell which light, and of course it comes on just as I'm pulling into the parking lot I park in... for a bar. And I've had way too many close-calls with cops lately (all non-drink related, mainly slightly above on speed and I may have shifted lanes a little quick, but in my defense the traffic ahead in that lane was all but slamming brakes, so... and no I didn't get popped.)... so I just opted to get a 6-pack to go and went home rather than risk getting pulled over for a tail light after having one or two drinks. As it turns out, the entire way home the indicator stayed off AND my brake lights definitely were working. Vibe I'm getting was I was not to be in that bar long tonight. Sucks as that's my most-regular bar I would go to. Just as well, only friends there tonight were all working there.

Anyways, WA friend definitely notices that I do have an immediate problem concerning the cars. But also gave a pep talk as I just need to make a move, and urged me to do so after taking care of the immediate problem.

So to recap: primary contact at work is trying to save his butt and my butt; supervisor hasn't gotten back to them yet as far as I know; Dad might not have a usable vehicle in a week, which makes any move of mine extremely difficult if so without screwing him; tail light problem acting up in mine. (And the socket is partially corroded, did a lot of cleaning of that this summer just to get that to work right but that might be coming undone).

Also the fact that a few of my friends initiated a move between servers on an online game, which irritated several other friends as they had to jump, one friend didn't make the jump and may have been considering quitting the game beforehand (and since he didn't jump during the free server-change period it would now cost him money to rejoin us), AND the group we migrated to join are... ...not the pro's they claim to be. (Party blew up several times where there should have been smooth sailing. I am not impressed, and the one friend who was the chief decision maker (former guild leader) for making this move... yeah he's not impressed either). So yeah, seeing the consequences of that sudden move has given me a bit of pause too.

The astrological alignments currently happening and coming up in a nutshell:

- Mercury retrograde. I should have known better than to plan dropping the bomb around this time.
- Solar Eclipse in a week or so, which will be directly conjunct my natal Uranus/opposite my Moon/Chiron. Did I mention this Eclipse will also be conjunct transiting Saturn AND Mercury/North Node? Right on my 12th house cusp too.
- Solar Eclipse hitting my WA friend's Uranus too and also conjuncts his Sun (5 degree orb) in his 4th house. Not directly on a cusp or angle, but still.
- Mercury turns direct on Veteran's Day (US). I've identified it as a possible "drop the bomb" vector... but this will push back any possible move until the dead of Winter, which makes the northward route through Oregon from the southern route I would take untenable unless the mountains have a mild winter.

posted November 18, 2013 08:44 PM            

Haven't dropped the bomb yet due to transportation issues with my dad. Truck didn't pass vehicle inspection (thus forcing it off the road), and it took two weeks for his car to be fixed. Going to monitor the car situation to make sure it stays fixed this time.

Started today at work with a trip to HR, apparently I was more frustrated with glitches than I realized and a few people decided to complain anonymously. This is the second time this has happened at this job.

Now here's the timing part: Literally, a couple minutes before my supervisor called me over to his office, I checked my transits online (Yes, on a work computer, I didn't care).

My Midheaven in my natal: 19 Vir 41'10". Transit Mars at the moment I checked on astro.com: 19 Vir 41' - I knew then that "Yeah, this is gonna be an interesting day." Amazing how quickly I found out how interesting. Transits work!

Funny thing is, almost after I got back to my desk, checked the transits to my Job natal... transit Sun almost exactly on Job Descendant (directly opposite Algol as well. I'm not familiar with Scorpio's stars offhand).

Also Friday as I was leaving for the day, ran into the one guy who's been my direct contact for this project. Mentioned looking up info to figure out which code meant what, and he's like "I really don't care."

posted December 03, 2013 09:12 PM            

So my plans for Thanksgiving break from work were to update resume (again), upload and potentially do an application blitz on the west coast.

Two of three occurred. Turns out the update process for Monster and Careerbuilder took me hours (apparently I hadn't updated a few things in longer than I thought, then the sites screwed the formatting a bit, now fixed). What screwed me up was our utility pole getting hit AGAIN. Didn't lose internet/cable right away, but it happened overnight. Cable was going to say "earliest we can do is two days from now", but considering the cable was downed and alongside the road, I said "State Police might have something to say about that wire..." ...Fixed same day. The utility company that owns the pole came and straightened it a few days later without re-knocking out the internet/cable so all good. But the blitz didn't quite happen as a result.

Kind of funny as I lost internet/cable for 9 days at the end of last year/beginning of this year because someone hit that pole. this time the utility company reinforced the stupid pole with rocks. I would have suggested heavy armor plating. Neighbor also said someone had hit the pole from the other direction a week before this last hit too, so in reality the pole was hit twice in the last week, right before my drive was to begin to secure some work before attempting this move.

Something clearly does not want me to leave this area.

Also, Cardio capacity has dropped pretty bad in the last couple weeks. Got irritated enough (traffic, mainly, but also irked that HR now has my supervisor asking what time I came in. I was actually pretty early that day). last Monday that I didn't bother trying the treadmill (I did not feel safe enough to do so as I was still very furious even after lifting weights). The next day, tried to repeat what I had just done the last time I did treadmill. Couldn't do the run, couldn't even do a jog. Missed three days, didn't do cardio Saturday... yesterday, same story ran for three minutes and had to drop to a fast walk. Today: Same story. However.... today we had an Air Quality Alert. They said "Code Orange" (Unhealthy for Sensitive Groups. I think 101-150 units of PM2.5. We hit 150, one increment below Code Red (Unhealthy, period). Tomorrow's another code orange day.

Also today, let's just say my "mind's eye" was picking up on a LOT of activity. At one point I could see a visual of myself suddenly given some sort of crystal... and suddenly enveloped in very dense stone. When the stone wall visual went away, the mind's eye saw.... devastation. Like something in the spirit realm detonated a "spiritual Nuke" or something. Plus, I have the feeling that something has awakened in this area and it is not happy. (Also, the feel I get is the "Nuke" was intended to wipe it out but didn't finish the job). I've been staying low and not looking through the eye as much since this morning when I sensed whatever happened.

At the gym... Reaper Shadow basically came back. Showed me the hourglass, still plenty of sand left, but in the mental image I saw a scratch on the glass, which he pointed out. The mental image gave me a warning: It (the hourglass) is likely to shatter within months if I don't get out of where I'm at. If I do, he projects "a long and fruitful life, probably." The image ended with... "Your choice."

I checked the original encounter chart with current transits. transit Sun (as of the few hours later when I ran the chart) was all but exactly conjunct the original encounter chart's Ascendant. Transit Mars just hit my natal North Node, and transit North Node's getting within a few degrees of when I had Chicken Pox in 10th grade (hell of a way to get out of Final Exams, I know...)

The transit charts with A: Occult Asteroids and B: Tragedy Asteroids.

I also noticed transit Astarte is hitting Antares at the moment, and transit Graves had just passed the original encounter's Ascendant as well.

I'm dodging way too many bullets lately, and I do remember: Neo eventually got hit. And mortality of this body I'm in now (given my thoughts on spirit vs matter) has been foremost on my mind lately.

I'm wondering if anyone else is picking up any serious disturbances like I did today. ...in all honesty regarding that, work's been rather benign the last two days. Even the commute isn't as rough as it was before. So I don't think it's that. Plus it was good to see a coworker that's been absent for the last couple months. (She had a stroke and has been out since. She's still recovering but can walk with a cane).

To close, I've also been listening to Linkin Park on loop an awful lot lately. Particularly the tracks "Burning in the Sky" and "Castle of Glass"... and also "Catalyst". It seems to fit my current thoughts. (Plus "Catalyst" seems to have that... I dunno... "Closing in on final battlefield in a role-playing-game" feel to me).

posted December 03, 2013 09:24 PM            

Some of the vibes I've been picking up the last feel weeks seem to be a "Direct targeting"... the words that came to mind actually were "Target of Black Magick".

The mental imagery of a source of this (I have no direct proof, just some intuition)... did not make me happy. I have no evidence and would need to be absolutely sure.

But if that feeling were correct... and if black magick were indeed what I'm picking up on... that would certainly put a new dimension on things. And if the figure of who is right (a friend, though I am aware of the possibility of misdirection so I have made no action except to shield myself)... ...it's a betrayal if it is.

It was to the point I almost posted on facebook "Whoever is casting black magick on me... {expletive deleted} stop." But I felt to do so would have been unwise.

I haven't checked occult transits for the last few week period, but given what I saw tonight in the transits to the original Reaper chart... I don't think I'm really going to be surprised by anything I see there.

And if it is indeed what I have feared it to be, it should be known that I'm also getting a feel of self-destruction from this individual. I Know little of what's going on other than that as... well, we haven't been talking.

posted December 03, 2013 10:18 PM            

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Originally posted by IndigoDirae:
Ugh. Government psionics programmes.

What're the aspects for that anyway? How would you 'see' that in your background? Given that whole amnesiac thing. Heh.

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...good question. I would think there would be aspects like Kaali, Anubis, Lucifer maybe? If not a volunteer I'd look for Dejanira and Nessus personally. Now, Draconic chart aspects? You'd have to look at that too I'd think.

Would be a lot easier if I had the charts of known psionics programs people to compare offhand... ...which could be an interesting study. In which case I'd also be looking at asteroids like 9000 HAL to see if there's a link as well. That's just me though.

Lack of memory, maybe a very debilitated Mnemosyne and/or Memoria?

posted December 16, 2013 05:50 PM            

Gave my three week notice today.

Yes, I timed this deliberately this morning.

Event chart:

Per http://www.constellationsofwords.com/stars/Spica.html - Spica on Midheaven: "If rising or culminating: Unbounded good fortune, happiness, ecclesiastical preferment, unexpected honor or advancement beyond native's hopes or capacity. [Robson*, p.211.]"

As far as other career asteroids for this event:

- Event Ascendant conjunct Event Tyche.
- Event Ascendant trine my Natal Sun/Saturn
- Event Grand Trine: Saturn in Scorpio / Jupiter (Rx) in Cancer / Midas in Pisces
- Event Sun Sextile Event Midheaven

Examining other asteroids:

- Event Typhon/Phoinix/Qwerty conjunct natal Mars/Pluto/Venus stellium (more on Pluto/Venus side).
- Event Anubis conjunct Event Silver, within 2-3 deg orb of event Ascendant
- Event Vesuvius (Rx) opposite natal Uranus, and also conjunct Job Start Mercury (Rx)
- Event Lucifer conjunct natal South Node, also conjunct Job Start Uranus/Scheat (I must be careful not to let any pride go to my head).
- Event Descendant conjunct Job Start Moon (I could tell there was emotion in the room when I gave my notice, particularly by my supervisor. All in the room offered to write letters of recommendation, so this is a positive).

So yeah, January 3rd 2014 is the last day. Soon after I'll finally make the venture out west.

posted December 19, 2013 10:48 PM            

Move might not be happening yet. Monday night into tuesday morning (right after popping my notice) I could have sworn I woke up having pulled my calf muscle in my sleep.

After a few days of agony, doctor has me get an ultrasound.

It was not a calf strain.

What it was, was Deep Vein Thrombosis. Put me in the hospital for a few hours. Needless to say, my supervisor is strongly advising I reconsider my decision if anything to keep basic income and benefits which I suddenly now need.

I need to double-check my solar return. But if I remember offhand, there was an indication of a major medical event. Sadly, I am not disappointed.

posted December 19, 2013 10:53 PM            

Still holding the hourglass with the scratch in it. His words rang in my head: "I'm not here for you yet."

Also around that point, I can tell you I saw a lot of what can only be described as celestial or angelic beings standing watch. Also, one of my guides said to me: "Rest and recover, and fulfill your mission. You're no good to us dead."