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BlackSeraph
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posted September 07, 2013 07:23 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BlackSeraph     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I seem to be having a rough Yod by transit activated with a few asteroids to my Hekate/Aldeberan, and it's involving two of the slower taskmaster planets. (Transiting North Node may also be having an impact, but uncertain).

Basically put, Natal Hekate on Aldeberan is sharing the apex point with transiting Ohno (which in another thread that one factored prominently at the time of my mother's passing)... only this time it's on one of my metaphysical asteroids.

The "top and bottom" of the bow, if you will, is transit Saturn sextile Pluto, with transit North Node on Saturn, which is conjuncting my natal Ixion (which is itself a couple degrees from my Uranus/12th house cusp).

Transit Kaali is pulling back the bowstring, kiting Natal Hekate/transit Ohno.

I should also note my Draconic Atlantis is on natal Hekate, and is also in on this action too.

Transit Rudra/Pallas seems to also be directly on my natal Jupiter. Money concerns have definitely been hitting my family, with both previously-working lawn mowers out of commission and requring repairs, and my dad's truck needing repairs... again... which won't pass vehicle inspection next month. Meanwhile my ability to make headway on debt payments has been stymied by my own car inspection repairs and the knowledge that my phone may need to be upgraded/replaced soon.

At the same time, and I only noticed this now, transit Merlin seems to be closing in on my natal Descendant.

Neptune's been opposite my Sun-on-Regulus/Saturn conjunction and completing a Grand Cross by transit to my Ascendant/Descendant line as well. I've tapered off a good deal on imbibing on beer/liquor after researching Neptune opposite Sun transits and I'll leave it at that.

Transit Nessus is closing in on Opposite natal Sun, and will pass over Opposite Saturn as well, along with the transit Grand Cross thing as Neptune's doing now. I haven't checked yet as when these will be more exact.

Transit Jupiter is directly on my natal Nessus, squaring my Mars/Pluto/Venus-with-Mars/Pluto-on-Algorab stellium. Also is forming a T-Square by transit with Transit Uranus.

In this time period I am definitely having problems with other people. Not only that, but some of the visions I've been having in my mind's eye have been particularly ... disconcerting. I have the attention of other beings, that much I can definitely say judging from some of the "spaced out" experiences I've been having. Without elaborating further, I'll just say the doors of my reality have been blown further off the hinges as of late, and it was already unhinged to begin with

Last night on a slight conference call/gaming session with friends, kept having a mishap (plus some real BS by the boss monster we were fighting in game continuously screwing me) which almost lead me to Ragequitting. Bad when I'm the one tasked with keeping the rest of the group alive. My one friend was really getting at it with me and it took the guildleader to calm people down. And I already was having a particularly rough week with several near-misses (mainly traffic related in addition to the metaphysical vibes I've been getting). We did, however, get through the in-game boss fight eventually. One of our members apparently went further in the story and the guildleader told me that guy failed to get through the next major fight, on account of the next boss being even more brutal, and the feeling I was getting from the guildleader was "don't feel bad, it was a rough night for us all", but as for the other friend... I have a feeling there's going to be more strong words.

Knowing this Syria thing is bad news isn't helping. I've long felt that Syria would be what I considered a "Final Trigger" before a massive war, which is just happening several years after I expected it to occur. Almost as if there has been a tremendous effort at "buying time" for humanity to get its act together...

Dad's health situation isn't helping either. Blood sugar levels as a diabetic have been rather high for him no matter what he eats (healthy, not healthy, carb or low/no-carb), and he's already up to triple-digit CC's of his shots a day. It may be starting to stabilize, but I'll have to continue watching him to make sure. This makes any ideas of me going forward with attempting relocation at this time dicey at best, unless there's another angle I'm not seeing here.

Work's been rough too. Not that my supervisor's been able to bother me too much because he's been getting swamped himself and I've been feeling vibes from his office that... well... to be brutally honest the man needs a vacation. I can almost guarantee many things won't get done when he finally takes one as he's the only one who knows how several projects work.

In short, I have a (crap)storm. If anything, this is something for the research logs.

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Ouch BlackSerpah, that's quite a bit on your plate.

I am no expert on asteroids like IQ, but i did a cards reading for you (playing cards, sticking to numerological significance here fro a while)
*EDIT, such i put it there no need for the personal forum*
no idea why i empathize with you...probably sun sign favoritism but yeah...i got this reading for you that seems to explain why you are feeling really 'turbulent' at the moment, and hope it'll help you see a little bit of light in that tunnel kind of thing.

EDIT 2 whatever... will just put it here, and hopefully you will notice before anyone else reads it
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Significators, King of spades and the 3 of spades,= this combinaiotn is a divorced man, who isn't happy at all, still feeling sad because of the divorce, and it is this break up that has taken over your conscious and your thoughts and so your world lately.

i'll even copy and paste what the source i like best says about the 3 of spades (and these two cards i didn't pick, they fell down, as usually happens with me when the cards want to point something out)
"Three.—A marriage that will be marred by the inconstancy of the inquirer's wife or husband; or a journey."


Now i asked the cards what is the deal with Blackseraph, what on Earth is happening with him?

i got the 7H,10H,JD,KD,9D

so all red, so despite the tears, and anything bad that happens, there will be a light at the end of the tunnel for you.

lets start.
the 7H card shows you had entered a relationship when either you or the other side wasn't 100% sure about it, looks like someone was really fickle. Someone who wasn't as they seemed at first.

Then 10 of hearts, you really felt lucky and were happy at one point with this union, could see yourself with a family and everything. thought things were lifting up.


But then we have the Jack of Diamonds,
Somewhere in between you started becoming anxious and confused about all what is going on. it is possible that a self serving friend or relative had brought you some bad news about this union. But it could also mean that you are just worried about any money transactions now that you will have to go through after this. This could also simply mean a young man in uniform to. (police, firefighter, soldeir etc etc etc)

Now happening either now or in the near future,
there is some sort of business transaction and hand shake that is going to take place. the King and jack of diamonds, simply means a male friend from your past is coming back.

on his own a king of diamonds is a relative through marriage, but i think here this is a clever man when it comes to do with money, and he's a king, so he is a man of authority. have no idea what the transaction is buuut next card does...

9 of diamonds (three diamonds, this means money is the future the cards can see) so this transaction seems to be a change of residence, either you are moving out of where you live to another place, that you are hoping will be good, or you are travelling, or relocating basically for work,

hmmm KD and 9D imply a politicians or a government worker for some....seems like your work involves or will involve something that will need someone in a public office, or civil service to approve it and they will.
I have no idea why you got 3 uniform/city planning related cards, but it could be something else to do with gov't, of course unless you work in engineering or i don't know what it's called in English people who do structures in the city.

but whether you take this offer or not at the end of the day will be upt to you.


Okay in a couple of weeks or days let me know how this reading goes for you, but i'm happy not to see any spades in your cards to be honest. Just times of change are ahead of you, and you have to see where your best interests for saving up money to get what you want and live comfortably and be happy again are.

if any of that reading made no sense at all to you, simply just go "NoRainNoRainbows, can you rewrite that but in English please, and will do it"

good luck with your next solar year, brighter days are ahead, but today was intense a bit.

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posted September 09, 2013 07:22 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BlackSeraph     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Very intriguing... I'll try to put it all out there and see if this matches up.

I'm not sure how much of a time-period there was, but it's rather interesting that 3 of Spades would come up like that. Considering around the end of 2009 there were three women that factored very prominently: My college ex (and this was the final cutoff in all contact there), my most recent ex (in retrospect, a nightmare that I got into to (unsuccessfully) salvage the next one) and the one that didn't happen. The entire tale was quite sordid and I've referenced in numerous other threads...

So yeah, in a sense the last ex I guess could've been a rebound that wasn't exactly a rebound (since the other woman at the time wasn't interested), hence the less than 100% sure thing. But first... anything... in 9 years at that point (I have said I've had very rough luck with women before ). Problem was she had a "gift that kept on giving" (I never went that distance thankfully thus dodging a bullet)...... then she split with me and less than a week later we're at the same costume party, no one's in a condition to drive, and I heard things upstairs I really did not need to hear. Involving a very good friend of mine (who was blackout by this point). You could say things have been rough ever since and YES, that's the guy that was going at it with me over the mic on the call referenced in my opening post of this thread, so issues are... still ongoing, or there's new issues, I dunno. I've considered the possibility I've entered the end-phase of that connection, and probably others.

Another friend has offered a place to share though, however that's the one that's across the country and in a place I've been having a few second thought about, but on the other hand is the most realistic way relocation is going to happen unless something else pops up. I do have a few anxieties about this as he's gone through several roommates, plus the commute factor wherever I would work should I go out there.

However, referencing this friend, I recently had a dream where it was like I was out there, meeting up with him... I was dressed like I was heading to my current job, in my current car, and he's in a silver very nice car and a three piece suit, and has to go. Almost like a "now or never" warning dream. No mention of my dad in the dream although in the waking life there seems to be a slight uptick in his health for the moment.

Funny you mention government and civil service as that's what I'm in at the moment (in PA anyways). Any extra income I make I have to get cleared through them first (stupid Hatch Act/Civil Service rules), which effectively helped kill my freelance web design I was doing (would be "too close to my job functions"), and my supervisor and his bosses were all but in HR's grill about why I got denied a promotion for the third time in a row recently. (Supervisor said after looking at his bosses' faces, he realized he had to... tone it down a notch or he was going to have issues with HR himself). So while I have people pulling for me in the current environment, it's not meeting my needs. Doesn't help that the job beginning chart for this present job (the time/date my first day started) had Algol rising. Kinda funny, as the woman that I wanted to date that brushed me off (she married and is about to have a kid to another online gaming friend) also has Algol rising in her chart... and I have 3811 Karma conjunct Algol in my chart... so there must be some reason I've been going through this baptism of practically nuclear fire.

The job chart as reference:

Honestly, I want out of government work and back into the creative thing (web/graphic design) full time. This job's a soul crusher at the moment. It was well enough at first, but I should have known there'd be issues when I finally checked the chart and saw the Algol rising along with the Moon-Pluto-Saturn T-Square, with Saturn at the apex of a Yod Kite involving Sun-sextile-Neptune/Chiron with Uranus kiting the entire thing. (Almost a grand cross but that's a 7 degree orb between a couple bodies). Mercury retrograde too, conjunct my natal Moon/Chiron-opposite-Uranus too to add icing to that cake. Should also mention job Saturn was 2 degrees from my natal North Node and job Uranus was a degree and a half or so from my South Node and within a degree or two of fixed star Scheat.

Believe me when I say restrictions have been a part of my life in this job. Not that they weren't before, but some of these are ... kinda silly.

I got off track, anyways... yeah, so I have a potential viable option (just the debt I carry would almost certainly fall behind on payments if I don't have something lined up first), but I'd rather go to California where it's sunnier (I notice I get in a foul mood when it's overcast here in PA, and if I were to execute the move plan to my friend's place now, I'd be going to Seattle area just at the start of the grey season).

But there aren't many great IT jobs where I'm at and the one estimate I saw said about IT work in my role being 15% below national average wage-wise (and being State gov't right now I'm making far less than even that).

Unless there's another friend in CA that I don't know about, looks like it may be WA or bust. There's also the fact many of the people I still talk to here in PA who know my WA friend don't like him and don't trust him, but then again I've had my trust betrayed by most of them in the last few years too, so I have to consider that as well.

As far as Dad goes, he's just like "if you find something decent, go and don't worry about me." I did have another friend in a similar position who took the plunge and moved south with a couple other friends of mine, and his dad's in about the same kind of shape. They worked it out, so can I.

This kinda got long... actually, in your opinion would CA or WA work better you think? Feel free to do another reading asking about that if you need to. One of the CA cities (San Fran) and Seattle, when I charted Relocation charts, both would put relo. Ascendant square Jupiter/Black Moon Lilith for me (San Fran would have a stronger square to Jupiter, Seattle to BMLilith), whereas LA area puts my relo. Ascendant at sextile Sun/Saturn (as opposed to my natal Ascendant square Sun/Saturn which is a real PITA sometimes), but also puts relo. Midheaven to square my Moon/Chiron in relo. 7th house.

I take a chance no matter what direction I take. I do know on astro.com's map charting for the power-line thing (it's under Free Horoscopes and I think it's the Travel Astrology map one), the Ascendant Square Saturn power line for my natal goes directly through the middle of my hometown... and directly through several bars I liked hanging out at (no wonder I felt so socially awkward my entire life in this town), not to mention the line almost went directly through the house where that incident with my friend and my last ex, not to mention the one-that-got-away and her now-current-husband happened at. (I told you it was a sordid tale).

This got kinda long, but I hope my explanations made some sense regarding the reading.

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posted September 10, 2013 07:10 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for NoRainNoRainbows     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Actually what you said made a lot of sense, but wow, talking about reason's to be stressed.

Was afraid your cards would be explained in the negative meaning (10 of hearts followed by the jack of diamonds, a party where a friend shows they are anything but....then the king of diamonds and 9 of diamonds, transactions with bureaucratic really getting delayed!)

But first, i will try your dream, if i learnt anything from Twirl, and i learnt a lot when it comes to cars in dreams, this is about where you are and where you'll be.

you same old same old, going to the same old place. You feel like you are stuck in a rut, always doing the same old thing again. then your friend, he is going to where he wants, using great tools, (the nice car) his personality or luck, to get where he wants.

However your friend, may be you yourself. The subconscious does that to us at times, where it makes us look like others to bring a message. How do you feel about this friend, you seem to like where he's at, and that's what you want for yourself, to have that kind of career luck and move on. Something in you is telling you, you have to change now or you'll never get that chance again, as the vehicle for it, the silver car/your friends offer, is on the table now, but u don't know if he'll still be around later.

Hmmmm with your luck with friends, i could have been describing myself. also understandable why you worry about your dad (read how young you were when you lost your mum, same thing with me, but i was already a teen, but yes so i understand the relationship with dad) but you have to live your own life, as your dad is trying to tell you he wants his son to be happy, not stressed because people aren't treating him as nicely as he's treating them.

Don't listen to your friends, i learnt always go with your instinct. I am living the aftermath of a bad episode that happened in 2009, because i as silly an naive and believed that rubbish of 'put your friends ahead of etc etc' ...well what if you both, you and your friend put your friend ahead of you, that is 2 to 1 and not equal. on the other hand her name asteroid squared my sun, and a million other things, so explains it....so yes just think of yourself for now, who cares what your other friends think of that friend who wants to help you? two people can have extremely different experiences with the exact same person.

okay now that chart...WOW, look at all these squares, the moon ones and pluto are worrisome, but even the retrograde mercury square mars, is very telling about how you aren't getting appreciated at all....and that chart says it all (i also saw it as a bad sign that you used the word 'Job' to name that chart, and my mind went to the biblical Job...like your going to need his patience if you stick to this line of work....(hmmm now my mind is straying to that episode of south park where Cartman gets his own theme park, and Kyle is unhappy about the 'unfairness' of the universe, his parents come and tell him the story of Job and all the bad things that happened so that God can make a point for Satan, and just miss out telling him that God rewarded Job in the end )
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The reading!

okay back to subject, the dream is very telling that you feel stuck in a rut, and see this opportunity to move across the country as a once in a life time, lets ask the cards now what will happen if you go to WA first

KH-QD-6S-10D-4S significator, or synthesis card in this case 10S ;(

So it starts out well, the king of hearts is a good man, who has the askers best interests at heart, he is full of good advise, but not as sharp as the king of diamonds or spades, and can be of an emotional link to you, either your friend or your dad am guessing, or anyone of light colourings that does have your best interests...

then the queen of diamonds, this is a social woman, she is smart but likes to gossip (not necessarily in a harmful way) she's more responsible and has better judgement than the king of hearts, but also may give you good advise.

then the 6 of spades....don't panic yet, this is a card of fate, and saying things will change because they are fated to. it could be that you will finally get fed up with this career of yours because neither your or those in charge are ever going to cooperate properly. so if you do leave this job you are just going to feel this is a good thing, even though the next card shows your money concern again. (6 of spades is basically a 'break up' without the tears, while the 5 of spades is a break up with tears...so you will end your relation with your work place i'm guessing in a 'clean' way)

then 10 of diamonds, This card signifies travel for business that will be successful, you will do okay financially as this is the luckiest money card.

But now, the 4 of spades, and i got the 10 of spades to explain it...the 4 of spades is a card of illness, the need to slow down a bit after the initial success with the move. the 4s followed by the 10s is definitely talking about health, this may not be your father, it may be you, but there may be some tough times ahead while you travel, (which is natural when you relocate, and you have an ailing loved one)

finally asked what he's supposed to do about it if it happens, and Ace of clubs with the 3 of hearts which if read as in a sentence simply means "let him communicate his affections to this person"

also it could simply mean as it does with two 10's....the reason all this is happening, is his travel out of state. (this is what two 10's mean)

sorry about the not so good ending of these cards, but that's why a lot of people shy away from reading them, they are more direct than tarot cards is how they've been for me.


But also lets ask what happens if you go to sunny California!
JC+AS+7H+10C+KC and 'explanations' 3 of spades and 10 of hearts"

the explanation already tells me if you chose this, you are simply still acting from wanting to get over the hurt of your past love relationship and your friends betrayel as funny how it is the same cards as yesterday?!

Now for the other cards, not as many good money cards at the other choice, but still not bad, as still two 10's here.

JC+AS=This is a good friend to, more playful probably than your WA one, but also has your best interests at heart, and Ace of spades, he wants you to put your past behind you and start a new beginning. (This one is more motivated to help you because of what happened with your romantic affairs, without any concern to how you will make a living)

but then Ace of spade and 7 of hearts, you are not sure, if this will work, or if you will really like it there. you are not sure if this is the place for the new beginnings for you (sounds now like the astro location charts this California)

then 7 of hearts with the 10 of clubs, says that despite not being sure, travelling (again you see two 10's so again this about travelling out of state, and both talk about success)....the 10 of clubs says you will be successful, and possibly find a new love interest if you go to California (why not, i know hopeless cases from other places that ended up meeting nice people there....and you sound like a really good person so not hopeless at all)....
the 10 of clubs is the best signs of a new beginning, for both love and unexpected money success.

finally this 10 of clubs, ends up with a king of clubs, this is a very generous man, who has a good heart, and will never do anything unethical. this is someone that either you will become or someone you will meet, a friend who you can trust in difficult times, and who will make you feel okay again.

Okay so in a nutshell,
WA, you will definitely have a lot of money, but you will be very focused on your grief, or coming grief, and your worry about health will take over.

CA, you will be unsure at first, but definitely a new beginning there, for both love an money (though not as much money as in WA), but i find it good that no spades except for your old break up came there.

your definitely getting out of your state though, so up to you which path you want to take.
let me know if this was of any use to you!

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posted September 10, 2013 07:14 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BlackSeraph     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Interesting... does seem to be matching up with what I've been feeling. Now was that California in general, southern CA, or San Fran CA?

The long-term does sound better than up north though.

Guess the question at this point is: Silicon Valley, or Silicon Beach? I'm going to have to make a choice. I know there's still the possibility of WA too, but given that focus on grief and health thing, that's giving me something to think about.

Thanks again, you're definitely giving me some food for thought!

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Mars, Pluto, Venus conj in libra, hows that workin for you?

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Originally posted by BlackSeraph:
Interesting... does seem to be matching up with what I've been feeling. Now was that California in general, southern CA, or San Fran CA?

The long-term does sound better than up north though.

Guess the question at this point is: Silicon Valley, or Silicon Beach? I'm going to have to make a choice. I know there's still the possibility of WA too, but given that focus on grief and health thing, that's giving me something to think about.

Thanks again, you're definitely giving me some food for thought!


Hi BlackSeraph, will go look for IQ for you in a minutes, but for now yes, at first i though California mostly black cards, but after the reading the long run seems better. WA will give you more money though, but an emphasis on any upcoming hard time.

I was thinking of wherever Newport beach is if you have to know, as the city i'm most familiar with there. LA i didn't hear great stuff about because of friends who moved from there to Hawaii as kids as in their own words "Who wants to be stuck in that rat race?"..
so yes wherever that area is. i was also telling the cards 'california but not SF'

I am getting a feeling the man in the last card of the California spread, is an entrepreneur or someone who just started, who could use your IT skills, and who sees your potential so will kind of 'take you under his wing', if you are worried about your dad still, just think if it won't make him happy, to know that you are even if away.

okay will do another reading for you about silicone beach first, (as you can tell by now, if it has/ the word beach next to it, i like it better...)

So what should he expect if he goes to SB:

6C+KS+4D+QD+2H

in short, good things.
if you do end up going here, the 6C will say that your own intuition will have played a strong role in this decision, and someone may have stepped in or will step in and help you with finances to get you going there. you will also use this intuition to improve your life in business, work, friendship and you'll be okay.

King of spades again, again this appears for me usually when a guy is divorced or broken up from a serious relationship (for woman i get the queen of the same suit)...so this is saying the 6C is about you.

then the 4D, slow but steady is what your motto may become. you will make money (this is no 10 of diamonds) but you have a plan in mind, and know how to use what you'll get to build a steady foundation. I won't lie, this card also signifies an inhertance OR money and advise an older person will give you that will be really helpful to you. Now i won't lie again, another meaning of this card is, someone is in love with you.

and next card surely enough is the queen of diamonds again this is a very smart woman, she likes socializing, she has a good heart but likes gossiping (again not maliciously) she could be an Earth sign. She could be the person who will be in love with you. again despite what seems to be a chatterbox tendency to you when you meet her, she actually has good judgement, and is a responsible person.

Finally, 2 of hearts, a partner will support you. you will feel strong because of this partner, hearts unite and you will have a partner who will finally settle down with you.

Now a KS 4D and QD is very telling for me, you will want this to be a success due to the past, and will actually work in smart way to establish a good foundation so that you can settle with your QD in a happy proper union (2H)

Remember with cards the energies are up to 6 months...i keep seeing 6's and 4's in your readings, so expect what i tell you to happen between 4-6 months, there will be a new chapter in your life that seems to be blessed by the heavens, after a really tough old time. (this isn't like tarot, tarot tells you what is going now....playing cards, are cartomancy, so what will happen, in case this gets confusing for some)

okay will go look for IQ so he can see your chart now. but just hang in there, and yes i'm like California better for a 'break' for you.

hope this is helping you in any way.

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posted September 11, 2013 05:32 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for NoRainNoRainbows     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by PlutoFish:
Mars, Pluto, Venus conj in libra, hows that workin for you?

All these and Pluto RX are in his tenth house of career, and unfortunatley the Pluto RX is very telling in how he describes those ahead of him in the company ladder, not recognizing his efforts and denying him a promotion. (strange mind games or such i supposed) conjunct his Mars and Venus, so really 'blowing out' his energy and his attempts at liking what he does.

or at least that's how i'd read it (i know others will have different opinions on this)

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Hmm... Newport Beach is pretty close to Huntington Beach and Irvine... Silicon Beach area from what I read covers Santa Monica, Venice and apparently now Playa Vista, on the other side of LA. Still, the relocated angles for both sides are almost negligible in difference.

The one guy I definitely know from online gaming/facebook is on the other side of Camp Pendleton and thus closer to San Diego than LA/Newport Beach, plus I don't have a lot of solid contact with him. A high school friend of mine used to be in San Clemente though (he's back in PA with a couple kids now). Haven't been in touch with him in awhile either...

Not sure who I know out there right now to be honest, unless it's someone I haven't met yet? I've considered that possibility too.

As far as Pluto, it's not retrograde in my natal but it is retrograde in the job beginning chart.

Funny you mention Job from the Bible... I joked to a couple long-distance friends when all the stuff began in the end of 2009 and into the period where the job was beginning in 2010 that I must be in the "Second Book of Job." (I should also add there was an accident in January 2010 between me and a tractor trailer (I walked away from that one, and my insights since have come back to Divine Intervention as the best explanation, considering at the moment of impact I glimpsed what could only be a wall of light between me and the truck (didn't help the car, but again, I walked away), and the fact that, from what mental imagery/whispers I get, the phrase "assassination attempt" by the... not divine, not sure how else to put that, came to mind. Well before that, and since then I've felt like I've been at the epicenter of something huge)).

So yeah, it's all making sense. All coming together. All getting bigger.

As far as the Mars/Pluto/Venus stellium? Try squaring that with Nessus on Sirius in a natal. And the realization I came to is, given a 2 degreeish orb or so, my Venus could be considered close enough to a weak semisquare to my Ascendant as well (and Sesquiquadrate to the Descendant). Thankfully the orb for Asc/Desc to Nessus is too wide for sesquiquadrate/semisquare (it would be a 5 degree orb there, and 4 degrees out of orb for a biquintile to Ascendant.

You can see why I want to attempt the relocation and try relocated angles. Considering where I'm at now is virtually identical to my birthplace location.

There's something to the relocation thing, as when I was in college and a few years later when I lived back in the college town for 6 months, the relocated Ascendant there was more square the Sun than my Saturn (but in between the two). There was a definite difference. Ascendant square Saturn may be more tolerable for me than Ascendant square Sun in retrospect.

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To elaborate on that "epicenter of something huge", it's like since the accident, maybe before, but definitely since then it's like i feel I exist outside the normal flow of "time" or something. As if the "natural order" was upended that day. Interestingly, I remember a couple or a few years before I would remember being stressed about something (the day of the accident I was running slightly late to get to one of my at-the-time jobs to prep for a service at-home call (computer repair)), and in the vision I... did not survive.

Things played out, only the difference was, I walked away. I checked and made sure I didn't see myself dead in the car, so I'm quite certain I'm not a ghost (cue hollywood movies where the guy doesn't know he's dead lol...)

Come to think of it, recently I felt funny on the treadmill at the gym too (like a month or two ago)... felt like my heart skipped a beat. Might have overexerted a bit that day....

in the locker room, I catch the glimpse of something. Wasn't one of the "shadow people", as that would've arguably been preferable... I'll put it this way, I felt a few skipped beats again, saw black robe, skeletal face, scythe, hourglass with sands of time almost done. But then... a voice, feminine, that said "Wait." It seemed to confer with the figure, and after a minute, the figure looked at the hourglass, and threw it on the ground. It reset.

The words I barely remember from the figure was something akin to "Oops. Guess you've got some time left. Don't waste it." It was definitely a sarcastic tone. He vanished soon after. I've caught glimpses of him since then, as if he's reminding me that if it was reset once, it can be reset again.

You could say I've had intervention twice now... that I'm aware of. The feeling I get was that I need to tone it down on the treadmill a notch because I likely almost overexerted and nailed myself then.

I actually noted the time... June 28 2013, 18:42 (6:42 PM) EDT. I should probably chart that compared to my natal.

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WOW child! these are some really bizarre experiences you been having!
but careful something or someone isn't astrally projecting some evilness towards you. I say this because last year (2012) i went through really strangely bad times....at one point someone i hardly knew had asked me to describe what my mum looked like so i gave a very false description (it's none of their business, i didn't trust them, and that is really personal)

after i stopped talking to that person because i found her untrustable and already learned to go with my senses from the past....i once got a really strange 'waking' world spirit, that looked like my mum in what this girl had described is really hell......except i knew it wasn't my mum because the person i saw looked like the false description......my real one she didn't look like that. didn't take long to know this girl was doing something bizarre to try and put false ideas in my head (she was into occult and all thing, but for the wrong reasons and not to understand the universe)...luckily i was one step ahead of her.

my real one i see her in dreams, along with a long lost sister, and always near halloween/all saints day they bring real accurate messages or heads up messages that explain a lot.

So in other words, i think that white light you saw, is very possibly some ancestry protection,....i know i have it, will go check some reading IQ once did, and tell you which aspects show the ancestry protection. i can't pinpoint who exactly it is, but it is there...and really sounds like you have it to.

@California, yes Venice is good to...as one of about the only places i heard off....but is it possible to get the job before moving?

also know what you say about luck changing when you move, this is a fact. whenever i move from the places of my birth, and go socialize, it takes hours before i attract a good person from the opposite sex, that is serious, too bad i or them usually have to leave back to where i was born within a week...where nothing happens. (not so true, but the energies are different)...so go for it, if you think your life will be better there.

also will be interesting to see that chart of both the tractor incident, and the day the grim reaper had nothing better to do than go taunt people around your 'hood. wonder what the asteroids related to projections, and the astral world are, also the one's that signify protection?

just wherever you move, check your charts first, to avoid this whole thing that happened with your work repeating again.

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quote:
Originally posted by BlackSeraph:
To elaborate on that "epicenter of something huge", it's like since the accident, maybe before, but definitely since then it's like i feel I exist outside the normal flow of "time" or something. As if the "natural order" was upended that day. Interestingly, I remember a couple or a few years before I would remember being stressed about something (the day of the accident I was running slightly late to get to one of my at-the-time jobs to prep for a service at-home call (computer repair)), and in the vision I... did not survive.



I know what you mean.

I sometimes feel like I wake up in the "wrong dimension". It usually only lasts a few minutes (when I have to get up before sunrise, and during twilight - though it can also happen when I come out of a nap/ meditation).

anyway I remember one time when sitting in the bus, I was seeing how a big truck was crashing into the bus from the right side, and in this vision I did not survive either.
But luckily it didnīt happen (though we were having a near accident a few minutes later - but the car appeared fromt he other side).

it`s a bit weird having bouts of "divided consciousness or parallel consciousness" like this.

I don`t know, when it started, cause I have always had these short glimpses, being it visions or hallucinations.
Maybe it had to do with me almost dying as a little kid?
(I jumped into a swimming pool, drowned, and was literally found by my dad in the last minute - but apparently I walked from that totally undamaged.)

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Completely agree with Seraph and Ceridwen. I am not getting any visions but the psychological sensation of living 2 or even three different time-tracks is occurring to me. Sudden fatigue seems to be a glue between these experiential shifts. Or perhaps we are all feeling an after effects of the Pluto-Uranus square with Mr Neptune in dreamy Pisces?

Seraph,
A lot of your problems are related to the overall theme of Tr Saturn in 12th [As per Equal House System]. Saturn will move very fast now, and the Asteroid Transits will also give quick conclusions. Financial improvement will come to an extent during Jupiter Return but the relief will be in small amounts as Saturn is Lord of your 2nd House [Finances].
This is a great time to practice some Spiritual Techniques of Abundance [Positive thoughts, feelings and emotions about Money pouring etc].
I do not think Hekate, Rudra and Kaali will damage finances, they are more in tune with relase of karmnic debts using Kundalini Energy balancing, and this can be done even unconsciously or via dreams. Asteroid Abundantia, Midas and Fortuna will also give clues about your financial improvement.

Your health is a concern though, as Tr Venus will enter your 12th Hose soon, and Venus is Lord of 6th. You must look at Hygia and Apollo in the chart to get ideas for health improvement.


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AAAH!! your hard work posting your charts blackserpah, all gone.

but from what i remember, definitely watch out for your healthy from both stress, and lack of desire to do anything about it. Meditation would make a difference. And getting more educational qualifications....or at least working with a school or college seems to be better for you in the coming year.

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Dammit, I knew I should have saved the text file window I had open that night!!!! It had all of it, but since it posted, I closed the %#@#ing thing!

I'll do it again later, of course Bing and Google didn't bother doing a cache run before it all happened, I can't remember everything that was written and I'm not doing it again right now.

I do find it odd though that as soon as I started getting to the bottom of something, everything blows up. This isn't the first esoteric site this has happened at. (Same thing happened at another site I participated in several years ago, right around the time I left town for several months too... only it was entire communities that had a vast quantity of stuff lost and most of the ones I looked at and the one I participated in never recovered and pretty much closed up shop or migrated almost instantly. There was a lot of stuff happening while I was in that town too that made me very certain a hellgate or something had opened there. Quite certain at least one roommate was "touched" by all the goings on and I don't think he ever recovered... loooong story).

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LOL cleveland? on the other hand appropriate such we don't like what happened....and it was Friday the 13th...even though i had a very good but weird morning that day.

For now lets try remembering key parts of your chart...

To summarize, i guess, work stress, with challenging relationship 'sub notes' are going to cause you stress if you aren't careful, and that in turn is what may cause you further challenging times.

the asteroid Academia seemed to be in a good place though, hence why maybe anything education related...even if just you working for something like that, may have a solution for you in the midst of all those transits going on with you.

but yeah use this as a breathing or yoga or something exercise chance, and see if after something like this doing that will come you own a bit...(really enjoyed IQ's violet mediation, as have no idea how materialistic i am that imagining i will have more money with every breath, and then more money with every exhale really worked lol....it's also a protection meditation so may be perfect as this isn't the first time this happened with you)

But i know what you mean about having it figured out, and out of the blue something throws a spammer in the works, and instead of what would have been built, something is destroyed instead....BOO and to whichever energies cause this!!

but yeah exercise, so that these things stop getting to you, and instead are easily not pressing your buttons even if they happen again!

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OK let's try this again...

First, the link to Dark Star Astrology's Solar Return interpretation page:

http://darkstarastrology.com/solar-return-charts-interpretation/

In this, Marina (the author) mentions about non-precessed solar returns (the usual option we see on astro.com), and then there's the precessed solar return and the method to calculate them on astro.com if we don't have an Astrology program that can do it for us.

She also mentions a few personal examples on her end. Note the non-precessed examples about Pluto/Ascendant and Mars/IC and separation (which I assume were seperate years for her), but which occur on the non-precessed job solar return for this year in tandem (with Sun/IC as well in my job's Precessed Solar Return (PSR) case... s0...)

Key:
Non-Precessed Solar Return: (NSR)
Precessed Solar Return: (PSR)
Natal: (N)

Starting with my own non-precessed solar return, using Medical asteroids plus Ohno, plus Parvati (came to mind for whatever reason) plus Apophis.

Non-Precessed:

Precessed:

I am NOT liking PSR Descendant on Algol (3' orb!) Considering my job beginning chart has Algol rising, I am accutely aware that this could be significant. I've also had some issues with friends since this solar return.

The cities are different due to the different times of the calculated returns using this method, this is to be expected. But hey, at least I didn't have the aftershocks of an earthquake run through my neighborhood this time, unlike six minutes after my 2011 non-precessed solar return (that was a fun day at work that year XD)

Now, the job solar returns...

The NSR, first with Career asteroids:

Now, with Medical/Ohno/Parvati/Apophis:

Now, the PSRs:

Career:

Medical/Ohno/Parvati/Apophis:

Definitely a lot of challenging aspects, to be sure.

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Before I forget, I've charted out the truck accident chart from 2010 using first some disaster asteroids, then some occult asteroids (as many as I could fit before astro.com said no more in one chart (10)).

In both, it's quite noticeable that Saturn was on the accident's Descendant, and Pluto/Mercury firmly on the Midheaven.

With disaster asteroids:

With occult asteroids:

Graves on Antares and Asmodeus on Spica do stick out to me. Transit north node was also all but firmly on my natal Lucifer.

Desdemona was also with my natal Black Moon Lilith, and a couple degrees from natal Jupiter at that time.

Transit Jupiter was opposite my natal Sun-on-Regulus and Saturn. Neptune/Chiron was with a few degrees of beginning that opposition too.

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posted September 15, 2013 02:56 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for BlackSeraph     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
As far as the day I saw the reaper...

Occult asteroids:

And tragedy asteroids:

Asmodeus with natal Mercury. Circe/Hekate with natal Sun/Regulus.

Atlantis close to and Caldeira on my natal Nessus/Sirius, squaring natal Mars/Pluto (and by stellium natal Venus)

Found it interesting Mars was with Vulcano that day.

Vesuvius oppose my natal Uranus/Ohno, on my natal 6th house cusp. Anubis/North Node opposing Vesuvius with a bit of an orb, and conjuncting natal Uranus/Ohno-on-12th-cusp within about the orb.

Haven't checked this against my draconic chart, I'll do that when I get a little more time but wanted to get these up there. I didn't get around to posting these before Friday the 13th thankfully

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okay lets start first with your own chart. i'll come back and edit to add, as i have other looks.
But also i like how you post, because you try and do your own analysis, and so you put your own effort to understand, and not just expect others to do it for you.

okay that i've got that out of the way, lets look at the light in all of this.

looks like a lot of your good health asteroids Aesculapius , Panacea, Abundantia etc are all going through or about to, your 7th house or the descendant...you are going to be projecting a more healed or 'healing' kind of persona on others?
on the other hand your daily life will put all these different healing things on your mind, you know the 'panacea' to all that is within you, so again meditation seems to be a key in finding more about yourself, and how the key to a better living is within you.

Hygiea in your 7th house, well there's definitely going to be a sort of clean up but such panacea is there to, it may not be as bad as you think, and you are going to be in a better place when all done.

Your other healing asteroids Apollo, and will double check the other one, seem to be going through your 9th house of travel. Are you going to go on any of these 'spiritual' journeys....or are you simply going to travel, as a change of scenery could really do you well.

**add, also i see Hygiea will be in your 6th house which isn't bad at all. this is the asteroids 'home' in a way, and you will take a better attitude towards your health, and it'll probably reflect and show both, in how you look, and even better how you think and speak.

now will go check what the aspects of these asteroids with other planets and edit to add here!

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ok now for more of my 'cave man' style interpretations,
in the Prd. Job solar return chart, first thing that is worth paying attention to, is how all the 'good' asteroids....Gold, Fortuna, Abundtia, are squaring the ascendant, from the 3rd house of communications.

which just brings us back to the original job chart that showed that neither you or those in the HR are going to be able to communicate clearly or find a middle ground.

you are also really conscious of this (obviously) and want to do something about it, but with Mars there to, perhaps seeing if your own managers can find a solution, rather than you tackling it on your own would be better. will have to have second look at that one! (remember the Fortuna asteroid can go both ways, down on your luck, or change the tidings so you suddenly have luck!)

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NoRain, sorry to impose on you again, but I feel I need to ask another question for a reading with the cards:

Given the solar returns posted, and given recent events with that DC navy yard thing (I'm seeing some parallels between the killer and me which are hitting a little too close to home, like the incendiary nature and all, plus being all too familiar with having researched some other schools of thought (MK-ULTRA, etc) as referenced in http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum29/HTML/000228.html )...

In the next 6 months, whether still employed at this job or not, am I in immediate danger?

That precessed solar return Descendent on Algol thing in light of all of this is raising a red flag with me. I haven't had a chance to parse other asteroid alignments yet, hoping to do so very soon here.

Thank you.

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IQ, I also added in what I think were previously mentioned Mind Control asteroids into my precessed solar return as a precaution.

I noticed a tight grand cross in the return.

Pluto-DNA-Black Moon Lilith-Venus.

Wider orb has Pluto-Uranus(of course)-Jupiter-Karma.

Here's the chart, my analysis continues.


Karma is with my Mars portion of the Mars/Pluto/Venus natal stellium in this return.

Dejanira conjuncts my natal North Node. PSR Dejanira sextiles PSR Mars very tightly (which itself is on my natal Jupiter 8th house). ...both Quincunx PSR Nessus. Yod Orb: 20' of a degree.

Nemesis quincunx Anubis in the PSR. PSR Kaali within 2 degrees of my natal Ascendant.

I'm on high alert seeing this. As much as I'd like to think I'm freaking out over nothing, I think it'd be unwise to drop my guard much. I'll have to check other asteroids against this later when I get more time. Did I miss any of the control aspect asteroids, iQ?

If it helps, my Draconic placements are a slightly less than 3 degree opposition to natal placements. (Draconic sun would be 3 deg something Pisces, etc).

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An update on what's going on:

First, NoRain, I was looking over the initial reading at the beginning of the thread, and forgot to mention that the one woman I lost out on... her dad was a cop. (Baltimore PD if I'm not mistaken). Might've been relevant in the background to that one... but anyways...

Secondly: Would health concerns lead me to choose the WA state outcome?

Actually, thirdly: Is it possible both WA and CA occur within the same timeframe? (I would take a "southern route" to WA should this happen, which would take me through CA), or is it possible I go to WA as a holding pattern and wind up in CA in the end?

Back to the central matter at hand: Yeah, the job looks like it's winding down. I almost walked out at lunch today, actually. Got held up and wound up being a couple minutes late (it did not help that they've reset traffic lights along my route to change when there's no need to and stay that way for a couple minutes at a time at rush hour... AGAIN).

side note: Heard train whistles just now as I type this I think (9:35PM). Weird as the train tracks in the woods behind my house were removed a couple of decades ago... Resuming:

Well, pretty much as SOON as I put my stuff down at my desk, supervisor is pretty much all in my grill saying if I'm going to be late I need to let him know (and I have told him REPEATEDLY I WILL NOT dial if there's not an extended full stop ANYWHERE... not like smartphones have tactile sensation). And then he tells me my relaying of my estimate of data import completion for my project? The department is "not happy with only being at 35% after a year". Well, they can partially expect that when they tell me I have all the data I need months ago, and then give me more data I should ahve had one week prior to asking me for an update and getting upset. Thing is, if my supervisor hadn't said anything, I wouldn't have known about the email to him. And apparently they want to "sit down and talk."

At some point, I crossed my arms and he immediately said I didn't need to get defensive. That ****** me off even more. Also, his tone of voice and how he was talking and gestures... I swear he was afraid of me or something the entire half hour I'm being bugged.

Also Somewhere in my conversation with my supervisor, the words left my mouth at some point: "If they're unhappy with the quality or rate of my work, they're welcome to search for a successor or some contractors..." Supervisor immediately tried to change the subject and "stabilize" the escalating conversation.

While I'm being gently dressed down (no quotes, he was not irate or angrily speaking at all during this entire thing), I see another usual instigator of coming in late walk right behind him. (I know for a fact he didn't notice, so I let this slide).

Also, given my usual policy of not tattling on people... I finally had enough, told him I was NOT going to be singled out as an example (he immediately interrupts and is like "no one's making an example out of you...") and I immediately decide to invoke a form of Hammer Down Protocol: Left a tip to watch a certain other entire department across the hall from his office... This department down the hall from me REGULARLY leaves around 7 minutes early when I know for a FACT!!!! that they do NOT come in that early. Yet I'm the one who seems to consistently get chastised. (Others have been too, I'm aware, and they weren't happy either).

In fact, their one head person flew up on my ((tail)) yesterday when I was trying to park as I was claiming the last of the decent spaces (I back in). She has, in the past, actually come in and drove straight in right into a space I was in the process of starting to back in. (I will also notate that she has the same first name as my College Ex, and thus her first name asteroid is in the same place: Approximately 13 Virgo in my natal chart, sextile my natal Nessus, semisextile my natal Mars/Pluto portion of that wonderful Mars-Pluto-Venus in Libra stellium, semisextile my Uranus, square my Vesta). A small suspicion lies in the back of my head that she might have said something to HR about me, despite her being late herself (and thus having to take farther off parking would have been made even later).

This all happens while transit Mars is conjunct my natal Sun, Comet ISON is with transit Mars at the moment apparently (I don't have an exact link at the moment), transit Saturn is directly on my natal Uranus/12th house cusp, Mercury is about to go retrograde and will come back over my Uranus/12th house cusp, right after the Lunar Eclipse of all things, and transiting Dudu is exactly on my Precessed Solar Return Midheaven. How appropriate. Did I mention the upcoming Solar Eclipse, last I checked, will hit directly... on my natal Uranus/12th house cusp and be with transit Saturn close to there too?

Hammer Down Protocol indeed. (That reminds me: I must watch Cloverfield someday as I only know that the phrase is in the movie from the synopsis on Wikipedia). (Basically, level an entire city to take out a large threat in order to contain/neutralize it before it proceeds elsewhere).

But anyhow... yeah, I'm expecting a major dressing down tomorrow morning, and IF I am screamed at for ANY reason (I am not fully expecting this, but then again our bureau director said we've had problems with this particular department ... still (it's a problem that has never been resolved ever)), I've already decided my response: "Well, since you've decided that screaming at me would speed development time, you've succeeded, as I am now "done" with your project. Oh, and (supervisor's name), consider this my notice". But I might not have to take it that far...... yet.

But after 15-20 heart flutters throughout the day after coming into work that day (not to mention the "phase shifts" I'm seeing in my vision plus the major psychic attack I fell under yesterday...

Clearly I'm in a major Cardiac risk window right now. iQ, I can't thank you enough for your reading and the advice given. I slipped diet-wise last couple weeks (got sick, I know, shouldn't be an excuse), but getting back on track.

But overall, given this job and my current situation: Enough is enough. I'll even add that at some point I said to my supervisor "I'm not having a heart attack for this job."

If you've made it this far, thank you for your patience with me venting.

I may have missed something. But I'll know when I find it.

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