posted April 20, 2020 03:53 PM            

Abuse/trauma related asteroids:
157 Dejanira
258 Nessus
381 Myrrha
2150 Nyctimene
6157 Prey
118230 Sado

8289 An-Eefje
Named in memory of An and Eefje, two young Belgian women who fell victim to a sexual predator and serial killer in 1995. "May their memory stand for all women throughout the world who suffer from abuse."

posted April 20, 2020 07:43 PM            

*Red Flad*
Be sure to thoroughly check the BACKGROUND and personal reputation of the therapist/agency you are going to, and who is possibly planting this suggestion/imagination into your head.
Research them THOROUGHLY.
Find testimonies/complaints from previous consumers.

It's a HUGE MONEY-making industry, on things so abstruse on suggestible people yearning for answers for things that might be existential angsts. Your chart could point that out, and is increased with certain transits.

Once your money isn't there, that agency may DROP you!-- gashed-open, and without batting an eyelash.

This kind of therapy takes years and tears, and once you start, you may basically lose a chunk of your positive chances at life.

There would have been more 'hard evidence' that would have "naturally" led you to that conclusion this person is leading you with. It's hard for me to describe to you, but, you WOULD know. There's a quality to it. Don't be mislead.

Instead,
Perhaps find an anger-management support group. Use healthier approaches, from different angle, which skills-set can help you for a Lifetime of Relationships with Others.

Check your chart's planet transits,
like Aphrodite suggested.

Transmute.. that energy.
Make it work for YOU, in a forward-future way.

{{{ Take really EXTRA good care of yourself. }}}

Like others here too--
My Heart goes out to Survivors.
It's NOT an easy road.
Sending a surround of MUCH-much Love!!!!

Strong.

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lyrics
I am light, I am light [x4]

I am not the things my family did
I am not the voices in my head
I am not the pieces of the brokenness inside

I am light, I am light [x4]

I'm not the mistakes that I have made or any of the things that caused me pain
I am not the pieces of the dream I left behind

I am light, I am light [x4]

I am not the color of my eyes
I am not the skin on the outside
I am not my age, I am not my race, my soul inside is all light

All light, all light [x2]
I am light, I am light [x2]

I am divinity defined
I am the God on the inside
I am a star, a piece of it all
I am light

posted April 24, 2020 03:31 PM            

First I started with the aspects of the planets (Some planets are doing aspects with large orbs, but I found it important to consider them.) and I have:

Mars square Saturn (orb -4°07s degrees)
Mars square Pluto (orb -2°09a degrees)
Saturn opposite Pluto (orb -6°16s degrees)
Moon conjunct Saturn (orb 8°33a degrees)

Another aspect that I think extremely important to mention is Venus in exact conjunction with Chiron and Lilith in exact conjunction with Mars.

Well, since I was little I have always had problems in relating with the opposite sex. I believe this is a trauma that I acquired in my childhood. When I was little, my father used to put people to watch me, he would not let me interact with boys and whenever I ran away to try to socialize with some boy he would go after me. Currently I am 18 years old and I have a lot of problems with boys, I am afraid to relate to them.

Until a certain age, I hated that people touched me, I was against any kind of touch, including handshaking. I realized a while ago that my dad always smooths my thighs, I already asked him to stop and he continue even knowing that I don't like. Everything has limits, I'm not a loving person.

I don't understand. How I suddenly hate a person I used to idolize and I don't even remember how it happened?! People said I followed my father everywhere, but now I only have a grudge against him.

My father is an aggressive, toxic, manipulative, jealous, possessive person. What I mean is that my father's background is not good, he has done a lot of bad things that is beside the point now.

Continuing with my birth chart (I decided to check the depression asteroids first)

To start I have Deprez and Melpomene (muse of tragedy) conjunct Venus (orb 1s degree) and Chiron (orb 1a degree) and Deprez-Melpomene are also making an exact conjunction with each other.

I have Melancholia conjunct Child (orb 1s degree) and Child conjunct Descendant (orb 1s degree) and I have Lacrimosa conjunct Uranus (orb 1a degree)

I had deep depression in a period of my childhood, my mind was very disturbed at that time, I even had to do psychological treatments, I was only isolated inside the house, I didn't want to know anything or anyone, that was harming me.

I have Apophis in exact conjunction with Sun, Lucifer in exact conjunction with Descendant and Chaos conjunct Moon (orb 1s degree, they are in different signs, the Moon is in 1°3'50" degrees of gemini and Chaos is in 29°56'48" degrees of taurus).

I don't know exactly what the asteroid Lucifer means, but maybe I attract proud, power-hungry men? My father is just like that, proud and ambitious.

Sphinx in exact conjunction with Mars
Memoria and Sado in exact opposition with Uranus
Memoria in exact conjunction with Sado
Dejanira in exact conjunction with Pluto
Lie conjunct Sphinx (orb 1s degree)
Veritas in exact conjunction with Lucifer and Descendant
Prey conjunct Sun (orbe 1a degree)
Sedna in exact opposition with Pholus

These are the asteroids that you mentioned that make aspects on my chart and some others that I decided to add more. Still not satisfied I decided to look at my synastry and my father's and look what I found:

My relationship with my father is not good, I never liked him. Yes, I liked him in my childhood, but then I just remember hating him.

Nessus (him) in exact conjunction with (my) North Node
Memoria (my) in exact opposition with (him) Child (Can this aspect mean the fact of I remember nothing? I have repressed my memories?)
Child (him) in exact conjunction with (my) Uranus
Chiron and Venus (my) in exact conjunction with North Node (him)
Sun (my) opposite (him) Saturn 1 degree
Saturn (my) opposite (him) Venus 1 degree
Sun (my) in exact square with (him) Pluto
Sun (my) conjunct (him) Sphinx 1 degree
Venus (my) conjunct (him) Sphinx 3 degrees
Chiron (my) conjunct (him) Sphinx 3 degrees

Nyctimene (him) in exact conjunct with (my) Interkosmos (Perhaps that could mean that he has abused me in other lives?)
Myrrha (him) in exact conjunction with (my) IC
Melancholia (my) in exact conjunction with (him) Sun
Dejanira (him) in exact opposition with (my) Jupiter
Myrrha (my) in exact opposition with (him) Neptune
Dejanira (my) opposite (him) Persephone 1 degree
Persephone (my) in exact square (him) Dejanira
Nemesis (my) in exact square (him) Dejanira
Ascendant (my) in exact square (him) Myrrha
Grieve (my) in exact conjunction with (him) Chiron and conjunct (him) Ascendant 2 degree
An-Eefje (my) in exact conjunction with (him) Mercury and the house 8
Mercury (my) conjunct (him) Midheaven

posted April 27, 2020 03:25 PM            

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posted April 29, 2020 07:31 PM            

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Originally posted by Eclipse:
I suspect that I was the victim of an attempted sexual abuse in childhood, but I do not remember, I just feel endless hatred for a person that I once idolized and that is to be suspected. Do you know asteroids related to trauma / memories, childhood sexual abuse, childhood physical violence, traumatic childhood, repressed memories?

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Psyche square to Saturn with square and opposition to Pluto, Chiron,orcus, nessus are associated with sexual abuse.the node conjunct to any square patterns greatly increase the likelihood.also any conscious planet conjunct the nodes with any squares of the fire mentioned planets usually correlate with abuse.
You might post your chart on the personal Reading forum
todd

posted January 22, 2023 10:43 AM            

An older family member tried to take advantage of me. My family wanted to just sweep it under the rug. I realized last year that I am still traumatized from my family just wanting to sweep it under the rug.

posted March 25, 2023 08:11 AM            

Chariklo 10199
Chariklo was Chiron’s wife and, despite being lumped in with the centaur asteroids, was actually a naiad (freshwater nymph).
she is associated with caretaking and holding space for gifted outcasts.
Meaning “Graceful Spinner”, Chariklo relates to our sense of personal space, subtle body, and astral travel. Together with her partner Chiron, she guides us on the path of healing and awakening. An astrological keyword for Chariklo is charisma, or the bestowing of grace.
Astrologically, Chariklo represents graceful enforcement of ones own boundaries. The unique rings of this asteroid are representative of her knowledge of the respect that thoughtful enforcement of one’s own personal definition brings.
Chariklo is currently the largest known centaur asteroid. Her discovery brought with it the collective awareness that “no means no.” Female boundaries were very much in the headlines at her discovery.

399 Persephone had sex with her father Zeus.

281-Lucretia- committed suicide after she was raped, is a legendary figure in the history of the Roman Republic.

2150 nyctimene (incest)