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Topic: Depression
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talaith
Knowflake Posts: 271
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Registered: Feb 2004
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posted September 08, 2004 11:26 PM
 
Eleanore...you have so much wisdom and such a lovely way of articulating it.....all of what you say is so intrinsic and true.  Alice Rabbit ~ my heart goes out to you especially for what you have gone through with your dad....my heart almost breaks with how much i love my own father, although we're not even on speaking terms. i have a wonderful book that i just feel would benefit you tremendously. it's called 'Women Who Run With the Wolves' by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. i think your reading it would help you find your power and connect you to an intuitive knowledge that you are invincible! just a thought...more love to you and as always, lots of healing light.  talaith IP: Logged |
peace_23
Knowflake Posts: 21
From: orillia, canada
Registered: Dec 2002
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posted September 08, 2004 11:33 PM
Wow Alice you're a true Warrior!!!
You know what, you give me hope for myself because I go through depression alot.
But remember Guilt is a waste of time right because why feel sorry for something we cant change now
It sounds like you're doing you'r best
RIGHT ON!!
Remember to think with you'r SOUL
LOVE & LIGHT TO YOU
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Gia
Moderator Posts: 717
From: California
Registered: May 2004
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posted September 09, 2004 12:38 AM
Alice,You have been through an awful lot and have survived it all. Many of us would not have managed half as well you know. I think you are one amazing lady and I can see why your best friend married you. I think you have a lot of will and courage. What you went through was bad, but it's never too late to start again, not ever. Please keep posting and let us know how you are.
I'll keep you in my heart and prayers.
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Eleanore
Knowflake Posts: 526
From: North Carolina
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted September 09, 2004 11:12 PM
Wow, Alice, you are truly a survivor! You are such a very strong woman and are so very deserving of happiness. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
I noticed that I left out a core piece of mine as I read yours, lol, and yes, I can also see some of myself in you and yourself in me. You mentioned that you had been hurt very bad and had to be taken care of. I did, also. For me it was a rather nasty fall down a full flight of stairs a number of years ago. Having no health insurance at the time and not caring much about myself either, I shrugged it off since I was able to get up and walk away just fine. Well, a couple of years later, after my retreat from the world and as I was beginning to build my life back up, my back went out and was thus forced to remain bed-ridden for days at a time. It was absolutely an awful feeling. There are many things I can no longer do because of my condition, like jogging/running, etc. I felt very bitter about it and, like you, I resented being taken care of and having people do things "wrong", even something as simple as dusting my room for me. I did appreciate their efforts, of course, but I was very critical, as well. But as I lay confined to that bed I learned to pay attention to myself more. Ironic, isn't it? But I realized that, without my body to distract me, my mind was free to wander to whatever heights and depths it pleased and I found that creative aspect of myself, so long suppressed, ready to burst out. My injury also forced me to pay more attention to my physical body and it's needs.
It can get very painful at times, especially when my sciatic nerve begins to act up. However, I am grateful for it because I have the motivitation now (that I didn't before) to exercise and stretch regularly, to eat healthier and make sure I don't gain too much weight, etc. Since I've made such an effort towards my physical health I have found a whole new respect for my body. I've learned to cherish myself and, yes, even pamper myself when I feel the need.
Even now, when I sometimes get lazy or just am "too busy" to pay attention to my body, I have another painful episode as a reminder to listen to, and take care of, myself. It slows me down just enough to take stock of where I am, what I'm doing, and where I'd like to go. All in all, I'd say it keeps me in pretty good perspective. 
I realize that my limitations and pain are not nearly as bad as others, as well, but I have also learned to more compassionate to and understanding of other people and their conditions, whereas before I was really impatient. I can't say that I'm 100% satisfied with my condition, but I really do think it has been a blessing in disguise.Again, Alice, thank you so much for sharing bits of yourself with us. I know your life can be exactly what your truly desire and need it to be. You've come so far already and, in many ways, it can only get better. Love and Light!
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So nice to see you again, talaith. You're very kind.
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