posted October 07, 2006 03:45 PM         

Are you feeling anxious or are you feeling sad?

Are they any meditation classes near where you live?

posted October 08, 2006 04:04 AM         

in the past 5 years everything i have tried new has miserably failed simply because my mood swings make me loose interest.

i have tried various ways to battle this.

1. fittness center. i loved it! loosing 15 kilos in 5 months felt great. but once i quit it because of college i just don't feel like exercising anymore. i have simply lost the interest. i joined several times thereafter only to beg the managers for a refund or a membership transfer under some false excuse. i was 75 kilos when i had lost 15 from 90 in 2001 and now i'm 120!

2. counselling. my dad got me to the best therapist in town. the pills got be kicking for a while. the doc told me he is giving me a low dose so that it only supports my battle and so that i don't depened on it. my hunger level was at an all time high when i took the pills and so was my weight. i thought untill i don't quit the pills i will never loose weight. i quit taking the pills out of hopleseness and then felt good for a while that i'm not on pills. only to see my mood swings increse. and yeah, not taking the pills made no difference to the weight.

3. astrology. sigh! i think a person is only left out confused. indian, western, chineese, hebrew.... some say this, some say that. beautiful science badly applied.

one comman thing that astrologers, my doctor and the trainers told me at the gym was meditation has no match when it comes to mind healing. everynight i think next morning i'll wake up and sit to meditate but i never do. why?

i just don't want to spoil this new thing too. i have never heard of anything beyond meditation that can help.i am just not in a state of mind to put sustain efforts in any new project, personal or career wise, i undertake.

after an hour or so i'll be in a different mood thinking why they heck did i have to brood about my self in lindaland. i would probably come and erase this post. but this time i am going to ask my brother to hide the internet wire. because i know that after still a few more hours i'll feel this thing needs to be said.

u get my point. such terrible mood swings, thought pattern changes. can some one prescribe my very simple meditation.

usually when my mind is relaxed and out of thoughts i know that soon a series of negative bull crap will rage in my mind. every thought that doesnot fall under my circle of concern or influence or any thought that doesnot have anything to with the present. so i start saying 'aum' in my mind and regulate breath.

but soon my mind takes on to a different rage. rage against religion. that fact that aum is assoctated with hinduism and the fact that there was nothinhg call hindusism for centuries in india when aum was practiced. its only the muslims that gave hindus the name hindus. before that it was just a rottening caste systems, and i feel i'll fall under the category of some stupid fundamentalist if i reciet aum or maybe i'll be catogorised as a jain (my religion) if i go to jain temples and pray there.

posted October 08, 2006 08:00 AM         

Love and Light to you.

I do yoga and meditate, it is helpful.