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Topic: Heart chakra healing crisis?
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GeminiLover75
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posted November 03, 2006 11:56 PM
 
After discovering an amazing sacral chakra balm, I've decided to move on to trying a heart chakra balm. Since then, I've noticed that I'm revisiting past hurts and griefs, and feeling emotional and even angry. From my post in the 'features you don't like about yourself' thread, you might be able to see that I'm dealing with criticism that people aimed at me in my young years... and although I had started some flower essence therapy a while ago about my guilt and grief about my five year relationship ending, I stopped doing that and today I found myself revisiting the guilt of it even though it's a year and a half ago now... I've been blaming myself, thinking "I was a b*tch! I flirted with not ONE but TWO men... and neither of them was just a brief flirtation, but extended ones, and I had an affair! What the hell was wrong with me???" I can't let go of it. I've faced my ex about it and told him countless times how sorry I am, and we are now friends - I should be able to let it go by now and I truly thought I had. I even talked to my mum about it and although she was mad with me at the time, she said it wasn't all my fault and it took the two of us for the situation to reach the proportions it did... it wasn't as if I didn't try until I was blue in the face, and I when I took the options I did it was because I cracked from frustration and I needed to find LOVE (or at least that's how I saw it)... my ex even claims his part in it, but still I'm blaming myself again! Anyway I'm wondering if all this rising emotion is to do with the work that I'm doing on my heart chakra... and if so, what next?
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sue g
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posted November 04, 2006 08:45 AM
You are doing great work Gemlover!!!!I have too been going thro a process for the past hundred years (well maybe 15 but if feels that way)....its a slow and painful one. Compared to 5 years ago I dont know myself....anger, then grief then acceptance is what came to me.... I recommend a very good remedy for anger...milk thistle, it helps remove toxins from the liver (seat of anger) and I swear it works!!! You are going in the right direction...be patient with yerself girl and gentle and most of all TRUST the process you are going through is working....and remember each and everyone one of us is imperfect.... You are very aware....and that counts for a LOT with the healing process.. Well done...   IP: Logged |
breezey93
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From: sandy eggo
Registered: Oct 2006
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posted November 04, 2006 04:30 PM
Sorry to hear about your pain. I know something that does wonders in this area. Wear it over your heart chakra...http://www.bioelectricshield.com/------------------
Sun-Can/Merc-Gem
Moon-Sag/Ven-Taur
Asc-Virgo/Mar-Sag
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sue g
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posted November 04, 2006 04:38 PM
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artlovesdawn
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posted November 05, 2006 09:26 AM
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GeminiLover75
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posted November 22, 2006 09:35 PM
Thank you so much! Currently I'm feeling very depressed and I think I'm going to go to counselling. It doesn't help that my current relationship is also going through a very rough patch right now... I went to the doctor and although the first thing I said to him in relation to my depression was about my boyfriend flirting (although I must admit it wasn't like major flirting), and we talked a bit more and then when I said "I think I've been vaguely depressed since I broke up with my ex", that's when I truly broke down! Oh god... it's like although I don't want to be with him anymore and I was the one who broke up with him, my heart is still broken over it.  I don't think I allowed myself to go through the grief properly - I literally didn't allow myself a single day between boyfriends... I should have followed my mum's advice and taken some time on my own first... Anyway, I'm just wondering is there a slower way to work through this? My depressed feelings are really bad. Most of the planets are in my 12th house right now too.IP: Logged |
sue g
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posted November 23, 2006 11:04 AM
GemWould you consider going for some hands on healing as well as the counselling,,both helped me immensley. The healing allows light into those dark places that need healing, without having to say a word. The counselling allows you time and space to unburden through words.... I have found both to be my saviour. I work as a hands on healer and spiritual counsellor and I can see how it helps others... Would you maybe give it some consideration girl? IP: Logged |
GeminiLover75
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posted November 23, 2006 09:07 PM
You know Sue, I would so love to do that... unfortunately I don't have the money to do all that stuff though. Even just going to a counsellor will be a real stretch of my bank account. :-| Saturn has been transiting my 8th house, so that of course has been adding to my troubles - paying financial debts - and yes it has impacted my sex life as well (that's why the sacral balm has been so good and so welcome!)... So the lesson I've had to face with this transit is all to do with living within my financial means... so, I'm stuck as far as any other kind of healing goes. Maybe next year when I can afford it, and if the need is still there, I will do it... thank you for the suggestion!  IP: Logged |
sue g
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posted November 25, 2006 04:04 PM
GemAs I suggested in your other thread about the bach flowers, I can send you some healing....just stay open to receive...  IP: Logged |
GeminiLover75
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posted November 25, 2006 09:03 PM
Thank you so, SO much!!! IP: Logged |
aquaspryt69
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posted November 26, 2006 09:06 AM
Great words, Sue!
"be patient with yerself girl and gentle and most of all TRUST the process you are going through is working....and remember each and everyone one of us is imperfect...."
GL75~Remember, too, that you're never alone in LL!!
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GeminiLover75
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posted November 26, 2006 03:27 PM
Thank you! I'm so glad I found this forum... it has turned out to be such a blessing in so many ways!IP: Logged |
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