posted July 31, 2021 06:01 PM            

Right now I am taking vitamin D daily just about. I find it very fitting for my solar plexus work. (Plus covid delta flair ups)

So I am dealing with a situation. My sister in law cannot stand me. But she is careful because my mother in law took an instant liking to me. She is so triggered by other people in her family liking me.

Its been little things over time. We don't have chemistry...oh well, I still did my best. But really the way she escalades when her mom is not around was enough for me to be like "eff this b!+h!" Like I am just done trying to get this person to like me. But I still have to be around this person, you know?

I am so glad I can talk to my husband about this. He is starting to see it too.

SO.....!!!!!....I would seriously love any recommendations anyone has for this sort of situation. Where you have to be around someone who cannot stand it whenever you shine, are the center of attention. It like the person is convinced that if you are doing good, then that means they aren't. Just because I seem confident and smile a lot does not mean that I don't struggle or suffer....but because she is so insecure she can only be happy when I am suffering and struggling.

She got married 3 years ago. It bothered her that I was in the spotlight for my wedding excitement from 2020-21. Where other people in my family pick up on it too. She also cannot stand anyone who is related to me. When my sister and I socialize in front of her, my cousin caught her giving us dirty looks.

She is one of those people who wants me to just have my head held down. I've dealt with this before but never on an in-law level. I'm not asking my husband to disown the c()nt. But she needs to put more effort in to "tolerance" and mutual respect.

And I'm sorry but I am not going to put my head down for your fragile ego. But it does really suck knowing that this person will never be happy be for me because of their own childhood trauma or whatever.

She has made it perfectly clear that she hates me having any kind of positive attention. I always gave her the benefit of the doubt and sort of felt sorry for her. I did my best with her wedding day, though I feel zero chemistry with her. I was still happy for her. And gave her a forced hug and all.

My mom said "she is like a 3 year old who never got over having a younger brother" I wonder...maybe it is more than just me. Maybe she still has intense jealously for my husband and I am part of that. I'll try to pay closer attention.

posted July 31, 2021 10:24 PM            

I know I'm coming late to this, but I'd recommend wearing a gem like Aquamarine. According to The Crystal Bible ...

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ATTRIBUTES Aquamarine is a stone of courage. Its calming energies reduce stress and quiet the mind. It harmonizes its surroundings and protects against pollutants. In ancient times it was believed to counteract the forces of darkness and procure favor from the spirits of light ...

Psychologically, Aquamarine has an affinity with sensitive people. It has the power to invoke tolerance of others. It overcomes judgmentalism, gives support to anyone who is overwhelmed by responsibility, and encourages taking responsibility for oneself. It creates a personalit that is upright, persistent, and dynamic.

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I wear Aquamarine and I can tell you it works and I can tell a difference if I'm not wearing it. It's a great aid for communications and closures.

The advantage is that you only need to remember to wear it. No stopping to take supplements.

Wear enough that the vibration makes a palpable shift in how you feel right away or within hours.

posted August 03, 2021 10:38 AM            

I have also had my eye out for Gem candle holders. The shop where I grew up had them, but when I finally came back they were gone.

posted October 09, 2021 11:29 AM            

Wednesday I find out landlord has been lying to us.
Thursday is preschool picture day. It's my class that is only in school two days a weeks. There is a lot of behavior stuff going on in that class. Oh and whenever the school does something big like this. My boss gets super stressed and lashes out on staff members. I yelled at my students a lot on this day. Not proud of it.

But by Friday my boss was doing this thing where she talks to me like I am not doing things that I am doing. When she said the children need to use play-doh everyday. I did stick up for myself and say I do play-doh with the kids everyday.
My assistant and I were both like WTF. My boss calms down when I don't get defensive, and just let the way she is being be on her.
BUT after the week I've been having I knew to take my Rhodolea Rosea. Because I was not in the best state of mind to not take her condescending bull crap so personally. She did not manage picture day well, and now she is trying to project.

I was such a composed saint with my students the entire day. They are easier than my other class but they are still challenging. One child was very grumpy and slightly aggressive most of the day. The rest of the class just has boundary issues. I blame covid. These kids are under socialized. Most of the class would rather just follow the teachers around than play and make new friends, and want to dominate the conversation constantly with their teachers. I was composed but firm with the rules and boundaries with my students on Friday.

posted December 11, 2021 01:42 PM            

Because my life has gone increasingly downhill since the end of August. I have a one uppy co-worker. She feels so bad for me now and has backed off.

One assistant doesn’t know how to do her job but is really nice.

My students are very under-socialized from covid, the parents and students have a lot of behavioral issues this year.

My boss is mostly fine now.

Plus I got a stalk home syndrome crush on cleaning guy, and feel secretly overly attached.

My husband can lack so such self awareness with all the issues I’m dealing with. I have to constantly explain to him why he should give a flying phuck about me. It’s exhausting being married to such a moron.

My co-worker told me all my feelings about my husband in first year of marriage are normal and we both should adjust.

posted January 16, 2022 05:23 PM            

It smells like sweet amber and jasmine. Really feminine, soothing, magical and mouthwatering aurora.

posted January 31, 2022 11:44 AM            

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Originally posted by @eloquent__sky:
Not a supplement and not exactly a natural product either, but there is this fragrance called Baccarat Rouge Extrait, and when wearing it I loosen up easily in annoying environments.

It smells like sweet amber and jasmine. Really feminine, soothing, magical and mouthwatering aurora.

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