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Snake Lady
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From: Austin, Texas
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted August 16, 2022 05:21 PM
  
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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Snake Lady😎💕
I see you are into Electrical Engineering 😎
I wish I could have gone into that feild💙
I played with electricity as a child and scared my family often😁😎
Tesla is also one of my interests😎
My husband bought me a little Tesla Coil
and attachments for our 23rd. wedding anniversary 😎💕
You would have made a fantastic engineer, Lexxi! You're very "by the book."  Which is a good thing in engineering balanced with creativity, which you obviously have as well, though that wouldn't necessarily be nurtured in college and most of industry. You'd have to patiently wait until afterwards.
I had a pet snake once for a short time. A small corn snake.
Now I have two parakeets. Lovebirds, named Hermes and Aphrodite. (I named them that before I knew about the mythology that ties them together. Ha.) By the way,
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 16, 2022 08:45 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Snake Lady:
You would have made a fantastic engineer, Lexxi! You're very "by the book." Which is a good thing in engineering balanced with creativity, which you obviously have as well, though that wouldn't necessarily be nurtured in college and most of industry. You'd have to patiently wait until afterwards.
Before I became disabled I wired houses
and fixed many kinds of appliances and
even industrial equipment and such😎
I hate throwing away things
when I can fix them😎
I have to take everything apart
to see what makes things do what
they do, so that even junk is
enjoyable to tinker with😎
quote:
Originally posted by Snake Lady:
I had a pet snake once for a short time. A small corn snake.
Now I have two parakeets. Lovebirds, named Hermes and Aphrodite. (I named them that before I knew about the mythology that ties them together. Ha.)
That is so cool😎
Those were the right names for
your lovebirds even though
you did not realize it at first💕😎
Did the snake have a name?
I had parakeets years ago💕
And Hungarian finches💕
I grew up with an owl, a raven,
a myna bird and I had a pet dove
named Tesla💕😎
Oh yeah two big black rat snakes
when I was a teen and
I slept in the
cellar on the coal/slab wood bin
and tended the old Bessemer
furnace to keep it going in
the old uninsulated house from
1812 or thereabouts😎
It was better than sleeping in
two beds with 6 girls counting
myself😎
So there were these two big rat
snakes that kept me company and they
liked to lie in the ashes on top of
the furnace and kept the rats from
getting to me that lived in holes
in the dirt floor😎
Rugo and Merlyn were their names😎
They liked being stroked😎😁
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Originally posted by Snake Lady:
By the way,
I found your Lexigramming page on
facebook and sent you a message!
I shall go see😎
Have not been doing much there for
some time but keep it because it
is like ,12 years old or so😎
Feel free to drop into Lexigram Magic
here at LindaLand too😎💕🌈IP: Logged |
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posted August 16, 2022 09:33 PM
Snake Lady😎
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Snake Lady
Knowflake Posts: 193
From: Austin, Texas
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted August 17, 2022 10:32 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Snake Lady😎
Did not see any message at fb👽
Where did you send it⁉️
I didn't have the option to send a friend request on FB so my message probably went to your "message requests" section which you can get to if you go to your messages page there, not just the pop up in the corner.
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Snake Lady
Knowflake Posts: 193
From: Austin, Texas
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted August 17, 2022 11:27 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Before I became disabled I wired houses
and fixed many kinds of appliances and
even industrial equipment and such😎
I hate throwing away things
when I can fix them😎
I have to take everything apart
to see what makes things do what
they do, so that even junk is
enjoyable to tinker with😎
That sounds like fun. I never had a tinkering bug myself, but I always had to learn everything I could about every electronic device I've owned. I would read the entire manual and make sure I knew how to do absolutely everything it could do. And I've had a very good memory.
quote:
Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
That is so cool😎
Those were the right names for
your lovebirds even though
you did not realize it at first💕😎
Did the snake have a name?
I had parakeets years ago💕
And Hungarian finches💕
I grew up with an owl, a raven,
a myna bird and I had a pet dove
named Tesla💕😎
Oh yeah two big black rat snakes
when I was a teen and
I slept in the
cellar on the coal/slab wood bin
and tended the old Bessemer
furnace to keep it going in
the old uninsulated house from
1812 or thereabouts😎
It was better than sleeping in
two beds with 6 girls counting
myself😎
So there were these two big rat
snakes that kept me company and they
liked to lie in the ashes on top of
the furnace and kept the rats from
getting to me that lived in holes
in the dirt floor😎
Rugo and Merlyn were their names😎
They liked being stroked😎😁
That sounds really cool! Snakes are really interesting beings. I hope I can have one again someday.
My snake's name was Nagini. She was very sweet.
That old house sounds fascinating. Not fun in the winter for sure! But sleeping with friend snakes by the furnace brings up some nice feelings. Was the house haunted?
I, too, had a lot of siblings and always shared a room with lots of girls. There was a point where I didn't have my own bed.
I thought it was fun to have a lot of siblings.
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 17, 2022 09:07 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Snake Lady:
That sounds really cool! Snakes are really interesting beings. I hope I can have one again someday.
My snake's name was Nagini. She was very sweet. That old house sounds fascinating. Not fun in the winter for sure! But sleeping with friend snakes by the furnace brings up some nice feelings. Was the house haunted?
I, too, had a lot of siblings and always shared a room with lots of girls. There was a point where I didn't have my own bed.
I thought it was fun to have a lot of siblings.
I detested having 9 siblings younger
than han myself👽
I never had my own bed👽🤬
Getting peed on by bed wetters
oh joy🤬👽One bed was even maggot
infested due to pee and crap👽🤬
So I had 2 to 3 younger ones in my
twin bed🤬
I could at times keep them out
of it because of the bats that
hung over it from the open
slatwood where the old horsehair
plaster fell off from the big
hole in to the roof in the attic
above👽I am not joking👽👽👽
It was a mix of biological, half's
and step siblings.
The abuse I endured I have posted
about elsewhere so am not getting
into it all much more here except
to say it was not good😢👽
Like I had to help bathe the
younger ones and after everyone else
had peed and sometimes worse in the
scummy bathwater
and only then it was my turn to
bathe ugh ugh disgusting to say
the least👽🤬
Hence I showered at school as much
as possible and would trot down in
the dark to bathe in the leech
infested creek by lantern light👽
It was like half a mile away,
rather creepy bathing but better
than in peed and pooped in water ugh
which I was left with🤬
We had an old dug well so we ran out
of water often so had to seriously
rastion water👽
Loved the thunderstorms😎💖
because I could go out and stand
under the gutter downspouts to bathe
after it rained enough to wash
the bugs and bird crap down first😎💖
I was often left in charge of the
9 others for days👽🤬
That is an awful thing to burden a
teenager with👽🤬
Glad your siblings brought
you joy😎💖🌈💕
It was awful in too many ways
to list here😢👽
As soon as I could at age
16 and a 1/2
I became an emancipated
minor living on my own
the best that I could😎
Which was not the best either
but was much much better than
at home with the abuses👽
Slept in dumpsters and would sneak
and sleep in the high school
and got rooms when I could in
boarding houses👽
Slept in junk cars too👽
One just had to do whatever
needed to be done in order
to survive😳
Yeah hate to admit it
but there were times when
a place to sleep and
not freeze required my submitting
to having sex as payment😢🤬
I do not miss my teen years in the
least with rarest exceptions👽🤬
Oh yeah the house was haunted
for sure😎
That part I loved😎💖
It was a former orphanage and then
the overflow for the insane asylum
about a mile and a half away.
The old vandalized cemetery was out
by the barn and headstones and crypts
turned all over in the dirt piles👽👽👽
Your snake sounds like she was a
sweetheart💖😎
What did her name mean💖 Okay must take a break😎
Pardon any typos and or
weird autofills 👽
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Eternal Energy
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posted August 18, 2022 03:50 PM
I read about your request on the other thread, so here I am at Health and Healing. I see this thread is your most recent one, so I assume this is where you want people to write to you... Of course I understand how much you are doing your very best to hang on and you are indeed doing it with much courage and bravery. I believe you already know by now how much I admire you for this. All I was saying on the other thread is that we should take one step at a time. We reach a point, see where we stand, rearrange the plan and move on again. You have the port now. You are getting the chemo and the necessary IV fluids and all this definitely helps you. You couldn't just stay without doing anything for much longer, I'm sure you know this. You'll see how it goes. Maybe in 2,3 months from now, or however long this takes, you will be able to stand on a whole lot better ground. This has absolutely nothing to do with delusion. No one can delude absolutely no one. We are not able to delude even ourselves, let alone other people. Deep down we all know our very own truths pretty well. I just believe. I believe in people and in the power of their hearts. Of our hearts. And this power makes miracles happen. I see miracles happen. I just believe, that's all.IP: Logged |
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posted August 18, 2022 05:22 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
I read about your request on the other thread, so here I am at Health and Healing. I see this thread is your most recent one, so I assume this is where you want people to write to you... Of course I understand how much you are doing your very best to hang on and you are indeed doing it with much courage and bravery. I believe you already know by now how much I admire you for this. All I was saying on the other thread is that we should take one step at a time. We reach a point, see where we stand, rearrange the plan and move on again. You have the port now. You are getting the chemo and the necessary IV fluids and all this definitely helps you. You couldn't just stay without doing anything for much longer, I'm sure you know this. You'll see how it goes. Maybe in 2,3 months from now, or however long this takes, you will be able to stand on a whole lot better ground. This has absolutely nothing to do with delusion. No one can delude absolutely no one. We are not able to delude even ourselves, let alone other people. Deep down we all know our very own truths pretty well. I just believe. I believe in people and in the power of their hearts. Of our hearts. And this power makes miracles happen. I see miracles happen. I just believe, that's all.
Thank you for posting here to talk to me😎💕💙🌈
You may start your own thread here if you do desire😎💕💙
I just thought it best if I started
taking my health issues posts off to more private a place where none will cause me
to go off topic and or unintentionally
hijack the threads of others including
threads of my own which have nada to do
with my and my husband's health issues
etcetera 💙
I agree with you for the most part dear
Eternal Energy💙🌈
I literally
DO TAKE my every moment to in a way do
needed resets on myself😎
Example today;
I had a rough night much pain especially betwixt 3AM and 7AM😢👽
Then oddly about 8AM or so I found myself starving and actually tried to eat😳😎
I tok a couple bites and was like yummy😎
But then in a few seconds the extremely agonizing esophogeal spasms and agony hit
like someone was squeezing my throat and
chest shut and the food would not go down
nor back up😳👽 It just sat there
blocking off my break hing again😳😢
I maintained my composure and massaged
my chest and throat and focked forwards
and backwards until my throat and
esophogus finally did
release the constriction spasms and I
just went limp as I felt the food bolus
slide down past my trachea and
epiglottis😳😎
A minute or two are terrifyingly
scary very long times to
not be able to swallow and breathe😳😢
Yet instead of panicking and choking
to death I did the things I needed to do
to get myself to be able to breathe and
swallow again😎
During those minutes my mind wondersif
this is it and I fear that I could
pass out from the pain and lack of
oxygen or aqure aspirationion
pneumonia 😳👽
I have had both wet and dry pleusey
related to the inhaling of food during esophogeal spasms and pain episodes😢👽
It is a horrible thing to hear😳😢
Well that terrible moments passed and
I drank very slowly to ensure that my
throat was back to functioning at least somewhat normally💙
Then I very very slowly ate a few more
small bites of mashed spuds and that
stayed down okay enough😎
I was so relieved and finally sated😎
I literally went from oh gods
I am dying 😢👽feeling
to whew😳😎
this is something I can endure😎
and of course I am quite aware
of the fact that there was indeed a real
possibility that I could die very fast
during any of those more than once
daily spasms episodes👽😢😳
I was feeling actually relieved and
not in too much pain and then by 9AM
my husband had to drive me to get
blood drawn for tomorrow's chemotherapy infusions😢
That went okay enough but he was too
ill to go in with me and they had to
come get me in a wheelchair and draw
the blood then take me back out and help
me get back into the car😢
Well we got home and I was thinking I
would be there kay for awhile so I
tried eating a wee bit of spuds again
and it went okay enough😎
But then he had to go to a doctor
appointment for himself and I was
worried about him going but it was
necessary💙
He had to get labs done and a 4 way
neck x-ray set done because his neck
is causing him weird pain and
dizziness
and other agonies😢
So I told him I would just chill until
he got home from labs, x-rays, doctor,
pharmacy and wm grocery pick up💙
He left and I was okay enough but
then out of the blue.......
by about noon not even twomhours later,
my optimism was knocked out of me again
as I was happily and optimistically
looking out the window waiting for
my beloved to come back home
and was actually getting
all excited about finally being able to
go outside and water my dying out
tomatoes and petunias etcetera and to
try and demat my poor old 14 year old
outside cat and enjoy some sunshine
(another thing my body is denying
me the pleasure of much due
to multiple skin cancers😢😳🤬 ;)
Then out of the blue as if someone
had just kicked me in the guts as
hard as possibly and the agony came
in hard deep pulsating grinding
gripping waves and
I nearly passed out from the
excruciating
pain which left me trembling and
shivering even though
it is like 80*F 😳👽
sweat literally soaking
my blankets and clothing
but still feeling so cold brrrr🥶
but sweating like hot🥵
I went all fetal after taking meds
like Morphine and others which barely
touched the agony but did cause me
to collapse from the exhaustion
and pain and was able to
doze some💙
So here it is some 5 hours later
at 4:42PM
and I am still in agony in bed and
need to try for the bathroom before
I need to re-diaper😳👽😢
Even those trips leave me on the
toilet for minutes to even 3 hours
or more not daring to get up👽😢
I also lose feeling in my lower body
and need help getting off of the potty👽😢
I sadly also have bleeding potty sitting
versions of bed sores
from sitting on it so long a times👽
And from the damn chemotherapy chairs👽🤬
Yes I am being very graphic
but I need to
illustrate to you
how I do indeed keep going
and trying and take every single momen
of relief
no matter how brief
as a blessings😎💕🌈
even though those lovely moments do come
in betwixt
the agonies and deep despairing
moments👽😳😢
At the moment I am wondering if I dare
try to go outside or if I can even
dare try😳
My husband had to do too much today
asv I said, being that he
is very ill today too
but he still went and did so much more
than he was up to doing because things
needed done today no matter what💙
I wish I could care for him better
and he for me💙😢💙orsevughnighnugh
It is so damn hard Eternal Energy 😢😢😢
Even at this moment I still want to
get outside as the sun is down and
my poor plants and cat need
attended to💙💙
I might end up making a diaper mess or
worse
but dammit I feel trapped here in my bed
all the time😢👽🤬
Then of course if I go outside and do
mess myself I will need help to clean
up and change my clothes
and launder them😢🤬
Nothing is ever easy these days👽😢
People take being able to eat and
swallow and breathe and walk and go
to toilet on their own and bathe and
change clothes and much more all
for granted😢😢😢
I NEVER HAVE HAD THAT KIND
of unappreciative thinking or mindset💙
I have always taken just being alive so
far as an exceptional gift because statistically I should not have
survived my birth my childhood and
most of my life to date👽
I do not personally know anyone who
would have nor could have gotten this
far with so much going against them
as I do👽
Tomorrow I go in for more chemotherapy treatments etcetera 😢
But I know fully well that I must
endure it💙
I hope my beloved will not be so sick
in the morning💙😢
He too has been mostly bed bound 😢
betwixt having to do so much today for me
for himself and much more💙
Okay weird me👽😳
like a light switch the agony suddenly
just let up a little 😳
so I am taking this most likely
brief moment to try and
move about some😎💙
until the agony returns
which I know of courseit will👽😳😢The point I have endeavoured to make
is that in spite of all the extreme
exhaustion and intermittent agonies interspacing betwixt even the good moments
I am indeed staying as optimistic as
possible despite it all😎💙🌈💖 Edit to add👽
Now over an hour since I begin this
post and said I was going to try and
go outside👽😳😢
Another hour of my life gone😳😢 I am getting up now and trying again
before it gets darkntomattendvto my cats 💕
and plants and blast a hornets nest😳🥵 Thank you for caring dear lady💕💖🌈 Pardon any typos and or strange autofills 👽
There have been many and it takes me a long time to fix my posts👽😳
So most posts can take over an hour or much more time right👽😳😢 ------------------
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Eternal Energy
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posted August 18, 2022 05:44 PM
Oh, sweet friend, I really feel so sad that you had to go through all this pain and stress today! What is this agony you feel? Something like a fear? Would you like to talk about it?IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted August 18, 2022 06:03 PM
Dp and wrong emoji ugh oops ugh ugh ugh👽IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted August 18, 2022 06:05 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Oh, sweet friend, I really feel so sad that you had to go through all this pain and stress today! I really wish it never happens to you again... What is this agony you feel? Something like a fear? Would you like to talk about it?
I just saw your post now at 5:52PM
After I fixed dozens of stupid typos and strange autofills in my post before
your reply😳
Please re-read my post as it may
make better sense now since I fixed
the goofs👽
Still trying to get out and water
my tomatoes and flowers before they
finish dying😳👽
Might be too late though😢👽😳I shall reply more to you ASAP
Dear Eternal Energy 😎🌈💖 PS
The agony is NOT fear👽
I shall explain ASAP 💙
It is totally physical👽😢😳🤕🩸🥵
Sure I can talk about it but what do you desire to know⁉️😳💙 I am so damn piiseed at idiot
doctors trying to give me happy
happy joy joy drugs which are most
all deadly to me and or extremely
disabling at best🤬😳🤬👽 Just because they would be depressed
in my condition
they think I should be depressed too🤬👽😳
Drugs should never be used to make
the brain and mind so damn stupid it
does not care about anything any longer👽🤬
That will cause suicidal ideation as
I know too da!n well from my
younger years🤬👽😳
Okay must go water my plants if I can.
I shall return ASAP 
The thought of suicide
is a great consolation:
by means of it
one gets through
many a dark night.💙😎
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posted August 18, 2022 06:13 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Oh, sweet friend, I really feel so sad that you had to go through all this pain and stress today! I really wish it never happens to you again... What is this agony you feel? Something like a fear? Would you like to talk about it?
yikers yikers eeka 
Please never never ever say the following again😳😳😳
quote:
I really wish it never happens to you again...
Did you read my post about Betty⁉️⁉️⁉️
I shall return and explain ASAP 💙
In my point of view that is a
potentially dangerous message to
send or to the ethers so to speak👽😳👽😳😢
Seriously must take a posting break😎Edit to add the Betty thing👽
People have a tendency to wish for
folks in pain to be free of the
pain👽😳😢
and to never have to endure
it again👽😳😢
The insidious bit is
when for example folks will
say such things as;
quote:
Poor Betty is in so much pain and agony😢😢😢
I pray that her pain and agony soon ends for her💖💙Then lo and behold Betty drops dead soon
after the well intended
but sadly not well thought wording of the prayer or wish👽😳
Such things must be very carefully worded👽
The universe or whatever generally will take the fastest and simplest way to grant such wishes and prayers and so forth👽 Oh God they cry!!!!
Betty has died why??????
We prayed for her to be out of her pain and agony soon👽😢 Well folks she has indeed been removed from her pain and agony as you all requested or wished for her
You got exactly what you wanted.👽 So no prayers or wishes for me to be out of pain and agony please👽👽👽👽👽 Just kindly send all the good luck vibes you all can and imagine me still being here at LindaLand in my body for at least another 17 years😎💖🌈
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posted August 18, 2022 06:22 PM
Go, water your plants you so much love and come back whenever you feel like... I was asking about this agony you are describing whether you feel it as a fear coming out at unexpected moments demanding your attention...IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
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posted August 18, 2022 06:30 PM
I read it again. It's in your first post in this thread. And I have just erased the sentence from my post.IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
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posted August 18, 2022 06:41 PM
And here I go again. I'm sending you all my best wishes to heal soon and live a happy life with your loving husband full of health, love and happiness. I'm also sending you all my best wishes to continue being and writing here in LL for many, many years to come!IP: Logged |
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posted August 18, 2022 10:20 PM
Dang it was replying and almost done and it just freaking vanished👽🤬grrrrs
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Go, water your plants you so much love and come back whenever you feel like... I was asking about this agony you are describing whether you feel it as a fear coming out at unexpected moments demanding your attention...
Not sure that I am understanding
what you mean👽⁉️
Agony is unrelated to fear👽
I shall ponder what you said
and asked me to describe💙
I do not mind talking about it all
but not clear on what you are
asking about👽💙For the moment however😎😎😎
I shall try to eat my salad and
then get back to replying to you💕 So far a rather pleasant evening and
if I do not choke or vomit up my
yummy salad,
Then the evening will be a real winner😎🍅🥗
🥬🥦🥑🥒🥕🥜🧅🍑🍊🍓🥝🧀🍞🥖🥚🥚🐟🥓🥓
Yes pretty much all that is in the salad😎😎😎
Little bits of course but much
little savory bites with sweet Vidalia
Onion dressing and green goddess
dressing and olive oil and
adobo seasoning😎
On that note going to try and devour
it 😎
and when I return
I shall tell you about the adventure
outside and the fantastically
wonderful strange little tomato
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posted August 18, 2022 10:34 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
And here I go again. I'm sending you all my best wishes to heal soon and live a happy life with your loving husband full of health, love and happiness. I'm also sending you all my best wishes to continue being and writing here in LL for many, many years to come!
Absolutely wonderful and
uplifting and positive healing
feelings and words
and vibes there💞💞💞💞💞
Thank you💞 thank you💞 thank
you💞 ever so muchly dear
Eternal Energy💞------------------
Take a look at my
LexIgramming/LexAgramming Biography
Nearly 2/3 of a century to date of
♥ LexAgramming
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posted August 18, 2022 10:38 PM
By the way dear Eternal Energy
I am grinning and smiling😎😁
And wow even a little bit of a
laugh slipped out of me😁😎😄IP: Logged |
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posted August 19, 2022 01:27 AM
A note before
I hit the sack🥱😴💤🛌😎🌌
My tomato plants have not fared well
due to my not getting them in soon
enough and also not attending to their nutrient requirements well because I
have not been able to get outside but
just a few hours total in the
past 6 months👽😢
However to my delight some are indeed
finally producing tomatoes😎🍅
Most are green and I shall try some up
when they get a little larger
as I absolutely love
fried green tomatoes😎🍅
However the big surprise yesterday
were the two tiny ones that were
fully sun ripened already😎🍅
I ate them both in my salad I posted
about earlier😎🍅
Which amazingly went down without
any choking at all this time😎🍅💞🍅
We'll get this😎🍅
The bigger tomato tasted so wildly good
that it made me growl with satiated
delight as it hit my taste buds with
a sweet burst of flavor that I had not experienced in several years due to
stinking evil groundhogs🤬🤬 and
Asian stinkbugs👽🤬
They destroyed my garden attempts for
over a decade to date and my berry
crops ruined too and landscaping
plants🤬
Well anyhow I ate the 2 inch
tomato first😎🍅
Yummy😎🍅
But this is the best thing of the
tiny tomato harvest.........
The one that was only like 1 inch
big had the most amazing vintage old
fashioned taste I had not tasted
in like 50 years or so😎🍅
The really really best thing though
was its shape😎🍅😳
It was supposed to be pear shaped
but was perfectly
HEART shaped ❤️
and the color was a
perfect bright deep
ruby red all shiney like a
polished jewel🍅😎❤️
It was so pretty I almost
did not want to bite into it😎❤️😳
So I saw that two tomato harvest
and my getting outside as a
very good sign that I shall
get through all the misery I am having to endure and I shall have a huge fenced in groundhog proof garden in next Summer
of 2023😎❤️🍅🥒🥕🍓🍊🍑🥬🥦🍎🍇🥭🍐🍏🍉🍒
Going to bed now here at 1:23AM
this Friday morning😴💤🛌
Going to dream of gardens and salads
and fruits and vegetables😎❤️
Oh yeah I sat outside in the dark
for a couple of hours and watched the fireflies and bats flying all over😎❤️
The mosquitoes were bad
but finally became fewer
once the temperature dropped to
about 65* F🆒
Lovely peaceful evening for
a change and food stayed down😎❤️Pardon any typos or strange autofills
shall fix later on😁
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posted August 19, 2022 01:41 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Oh, sweet friend,
What is this agony you feel? Something like a fear? Would you like to talk about it?
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
...,... I was asking about this agony you are describing whether you feel it as a fear coming out at unexpected moments demanding your attention...
Would still like to discuss this
issue please if you still desire to do so💙
I am confused as to what you ask because
Agony/pain
has nothing to do with fear👽
It is what it is just like pleasurable
physical sensations are.
Agony and pain are simply unpleasant
and often near or actually so intense
that one can only go fetal and scream literally until it abated👽😢
But fear⁉️
I do not understand what you are
asking me to describe👽
I find this topic of fear vs agony
a rather intriguing topic of discussion because it is so illogical to my mind and experiences that anyone would equate
fear and agony as being the same things👽
Well good night for the moment
dear Eternal Energy ❤️
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posted August 19, 2022 03:19 PM
Hi there, dear friend! I wanted to write to you earlier this morning when I woke up, but I read your post on AquaG's groundhogs and thought it would not be polite to wake you up in the middle of the night, in case you have a post notification on, and let you enjoy a good night's sleep after such a beautiful evening you had. I'm so happy for you and wish you more evenings like that in the future!IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
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posted August 19, 2022 03:24 PM
I have just returned from this open-air cinema that is near here. Now that I am on holidays I go and watch every movie that is on, as I rarely have time to go to the cinema during the year. I mean I go and watch every movie! Haha! Tonight was "Minions: The Rise of Gru" on! Fantastic??? I'm telling you I was laughing so hard, those kids that were sitting near were looking at me! I enjoyed it so much! First of all, I was among children, something that I simply love! Then, at some time, they couldn't sit on their seats any longer and they started moving around, standing in front of me, I couldn't see the screen, thank God I know some basic English, they were changing seats, shrieking with laughter and throwing pop corn to one another! Haha! Absolutely marvellous I'm telling you! IP: Logged |
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posted August 19, 2022 03:32 PM
"Top Gun" is on next week and then "The Crawdads Sing"??? Something like that, I don't quite remember the title of this one. I'm really excited!IP: Logged |
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posted August 19, 2022 03:55 PM
Now, as far as agony is concerned. First of all, and of course I know you already know it, it is a Greek word deriving from the noun agon. In ancient Greece, an agon is a contest and a contest is considered to be a celebration, a gathering of people, a prize, a winner! Not only an agon is a physical competition, for example, the Olympic Games, but it is also a contest of tragedy and poetry, of politics and philosophy, of rhetoric and lawsuit. I have to make a parenthesis here and clarify that of course we all know what the word means, at least what it means nowadays, but if you ask me, I always try to find the good, the positive, the loving things in everything, hence all of the above. So, for me, agon, first and foremost, means a victory. A celebration. A triumph. And I’m sure that if you search more through dictionaries, you will definitely find somewhere that agony is also a demonstration of happiness and joy besides the definition we all know today. Moving along with the flow of time, we reach the Garden of Gethsemane where Jesus is struggling with agony. There, in that orchard of those ancient olive trees he feels for the first time troubled. His soul is very sorrowful, even to death. This anguish of his mind will be much later, in the 14th century, embraced by the French who will add a new meaning in the word, that of the extreme pain of the body, and the mind, and the last moments before Death. Here in Greece the word does not denote the certainty of dying, but the fear, the anxiety, and the waiting. Two classic examples following. “I'm in great agony right now. It’s 2:00 in the morning and my daughter hasn’t returned home yet.” Or “I have great agony for tomorrow’s final exams. I don’t think I have studied very well and I’m afraid I will fail.”IP: Logged |
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posted August 19, 2022 07:10 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Hi there, dear friend! I wanted to write to you earlier this morning when I woke up, but I read your post on AquaG's groundhogs and thought it would not be polite to wake you up in the middle of the night, in case you have a post notification on, and let you enjoy a good night's sleep after such a beautiful evening you had. I'm so happy for you and wish you more evenings like that in the future!
😁I NEVER use any sound notifications
on my tablet etcetera 👽
I detest such invasive noises and ugh
ugh ugh such bad vibrations
in my spaces👽🤬
I keep the phone for medical reasons
and keep the ringer turned off and check messages every day, and only with
the rarest exceptions do I ever pick
up the phone and answer it😳👽
Ugh ugh bleh ugh😳👽🤬 Dear one💙
I HAVE no such thing as a middle of
the night to be awakened from😳👽😁 I am mostly bed bound remember⁉️😳😢 Also for all my life to date
I have been a Natcaleptic and
rarely sleep more than
1 and a 1/2 hours at
a time day and night 24/7😎
It is a Heriditary and neurological
condition💤
I have always had😳😎
I go into deep REM sleep,
thedeepest sleep stage in
like, as little as
at times,
just a few seconds after falling asleep
no matter what or where,
I can be standing when sleep takes
me out
boom suddenly😎💤😴
Normal humans take hours to get
to the deepest stage of sleep
that I can get to in seconds
and or minutes😎
My dreamings are very detailed
and intense😎
History of sleep walking too😁💤
So anyhow just wanted you to know
that I refuse to have a damn
notification sound on
no matter what or why
the reason just because most
others think it is a
necessary thing to have👽👽👽
So please write ✍️❤️
when you are able and
to heck with the time😎❤️
Heh heh heh 😳😁
I measure my time and life
by med times,
and
trash pickup days
and
scheduled medical appointments👽😁😳
Otherwise no clocks run my life
nor stupid notification noise either😎😁
I do not do phones nor Skype
and so forth either😳😎
Okay trying to eat since I am starving
and done with chemotherapy for today😎
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