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Topic: Just want to say before I give up...........
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 03, 2022 12:27 AM
  
Tired of trying
Tired of crying so often
that my eyelids actually
bleed out the outer corners from
being raw with tears👽
Yes it is that bad👽
Tired of caring about people who do not appreciate my caring
and crying over their grief
and desperately hoping that
I could help them cope somehow👽
Tired of wondering which doctors are right
The ones who said dead before Summer?
Or the ones who say 6 months to 2 years
Whilst doing chemotherapy of 2 dangerous drugs and radiation and
tired of wondering if I survive all that
will the gutting me from chest to
crotch highly invasive dangerous surgery
save my life?
Or am I done👽⁉️
Should I see where I can be euthanized⁉️💙
I do not think my state permits it.
😢💙
Tired of the grave real possibilities of stroking out again and or
having a heart attack 👽
Paralysis and blindness deafness and liver and kidney failure and much more
all nasty side effects that these treatments can cause 👽😢
I am already vomiting every day since October 2019 And lost over 100 pounds since then and
Over 225 pounds since about 2010 total.
Scared because chemo causes intractable vomiting and I have not even started the chemo yet👽😢
I am losing now a pound a day without even trying👽😢
No one even knows why👽
At this rate of weight loss I could starve to death in less than two months😳😢👽
My diabetes has vanished and now
I must live on all types of concentrated sugars to keep my blood sugar from
dropping to deadly levels low👽😢
No one knows why this is happening
either👽😢
And the weight just keeps dropping and no one knows why yet👽😢😳Please take note that I do not want pity, I hate that🤬 I just want folks to realize
that I might vanish without warning
from here and life too.
It seems the grim reaper just loves serenading me often these days👽
I often dream I am dying with just about every nap or sleep session and die
over and over in my dreams👽😢
I wake screaming and surprised to
not be dead yet.😳😳😳👽
But often I come very close to just
saying bye bye done with this agony
and poverty and the burden it puts
on my beloved😢 My husband will let Randall know
if and when such as my sudden
demise befalls me.💙 Please wish me well please and
for miracles
to come my way
and to my husband also
who is also fighting an incurable
Heriditary disease which will
eventually end him unless something
else happens.😢 I feel like this is a
preemptive goodbye to all of you
who have been loving kind and caring
towards me these over 17 years💙🌈
I guess in a way it may well be one.😳 I joined LindaLand in 2005
to help me cope and keep from going
insane when my husband literally died
from severe serotonin syndrome
seizures😳😢
and I had to do full resuscitation
on him👽😢
He is now totally disabled from
that episode and the only possible
cure for that is brain surgery👽😢
Which could leave him a vegetable👽😢 Again no pity parties please.
They do not help at all only make me feel more resigned to than I already am😢👽
I just want for folks to know that I am
doing my best to hold on and not give
up on caring for people and my own life
even though
I am in very dire straights these days.👽 I often cry over dear Mirage29 who
is going through homeless hell
and worse these days😢👽
and a person called Sorrow😢 and
even people who have been cruel
and did not appreciate
my caring and trying to help😢👽 So going to try and stop the damn
crying over people and give my eyes
time to stop bleeding👽 Send summons to me for much needed
miracles to come my way💙💖😎
No prayers please
as I am not a believer in such things.👽
Also prayers are often insidious in their
execution no matter what force or who is directing the prayers and it may well
be the well meaning
human connection psychic surges folks send that makes it appear that an outside
agent is doing the answering of their prayers.😳👽
The insidious bit is
when for example folks will say such things as; Poor Betty is in so much pain and agony😢😢😢
I pray that her pain and agony soon ends for her💖💙 Then lo and behold Betty drops dead soon
after the well intended
but sadly not well thought wording of the prayer or wish👽😳
Such things must be very carefully worded👽
The universe or whatever generally will take the fastest and simplest way to grant such wishes and prayers and so forth👽 Oh God they cry!!!!
Betty has died why??????
We prayed for her to be out of her pain and agony soon👽😢 Well folks she has indeed been removed from her pain and agony as you all requested or wished for her
You got exactly what you wanted.👽 So no prayers or wishes for me to be out of pain and agony please👽👽👽👽👽 Just kindly send all the good luck vibes you all can and imagine me still being here at LindaLand in my body for at least another 17 years😎💖🌈 Doing my best not to just give up.
Blessings and love to you all💖💖🌈
even to the ones who
who dislike me or worse.😢💙🌈
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posted August 03, 2022 01:06 AM
Kindly pardon any strange typos
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SleepyDiary
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posted August 03, 2022 11:43 AM
Don’t say that Lexxigramer
The right people will see the best in you and appreciate you.
Get yourself out of negative thoughts and focus on the good you have, and have done in this world.
You have spent enough time being the company of negativity don’t let it be around you in the final chapters of your life.
You have been a warrior most of you life.
Now it’s time to heal
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 03, 2022 12:35 PM
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Originally posted by SleepyDiary:
Don’t say that Lexxigramer
The right people will see the best in you and appreciate you.
Get yourself out of negative thoughts and focus on the good you have, and have done in this world.
You have spent enough time being the company of negativity don’t let it be around you in the final chapters of your life.
You have been a warrior most of you life.
Now it’s time to heal
Thank you ever so muchy dear SleepDiary 💖🌈
You are definitely a strong warm ray of
happy sunshine to me and your understanding
and caring really does help me cope better😎💖🌈
I hope my existence will not end for many a decade to come
but I must be realistic because
without some serious miracles it does
not look good.👽😢I start the first round of at least
six months of two chemotherapy Intravenous infusions this week👽😢😳
I am very scared and cannot help it😳😢👽
I must speak about something that
as it has happened in the past
upset folks who then dumped me as a
fb etcetera friend 👽
I appreciate the caring and love folks
have given me here 💖😎🌈
but saddened that for my own integrity and
all,
I must tell folks my views have nothing
to do with any gods they believe in😳
I should not have to keep apologizing about that but yes often must apologize👽😢
just for not being a believer👽😢 That upsets quite a few folks even though
it is not any kind of personal attack.
Folks can believe what they want to
but
I beg them to try and realize
that not everyone appreciates
being prayed about
and to some mythical beings
or even evil souls pretending to be gods
and getting off on scamming folks and controlling them👽🤬
I do not believe and would not expect
others to give up their beliefs
but kindly folks
in general
please do not send me that kind
of what I see as negative at best energy 👽
or at worse from the god pretender souls out there👽😳
Please folks do not expect me to love being part of a system
I am against.
Sorry to feel I must say I am sorry again just to make people maybe not be angry or hurt by
viewpoints💙😢
I ever mean it as a personal attack
unless it is being shoved at me or
used to hurt me and make folks stop being friends with me
"that godless heathen LEXX" and numerous
worse things said by such angry believers.👽🤬😢 It is just of late I have heard advice
or support even from the medical communities👽🤬👽
mentioning the gods of believers and I am not comfortable with any of it even though that usually all such god based blessings
and advice I hope is all well intended,
except by some of course👽😳😢 I posted a rant elsewhere along a
similar vein today.
I shall link or except to it for anyone
who is interested in understanding me
and my intense aversions to religions
and gods👽😳😢
Pardon any typos or weird autofills👽, PS got some kind of good news about the
Oncological Hemotologist,
(blood cancer and all cancets)
And they have to our greatest relief
finally finally they have
actually agreed to my needs and requirements
when chemotherapy begins💖😎
The medical community has cause me much
muscle, neveres, and joint etcetera damage
and torn tendons fro their handling me in
the wrong ways, and my complaints and medical attention needed for their inappropriate
handling of and lack of following the
ADA rules for totally disabled folks like myself
which were being severely and illegally
ignored as I am totally disabled and
under the protection of
THe Americans woth Disabilities,
The ADA🌈😎
These required accomodations and
adaptations we're and still are needed
or I could not get the chemotherapy
infusions safely as possibl👽😢😳 So yeah still might not make it decades
more,
but at least gotta some comforting news
about them doing their best to accommodate
me due to my myriad physical and
psychological conditions and being
doped up because they have to do so.😳😢👽 Thank you again SleepyDiary 💖😎🌈
I have started keeping a journal of all
the good I have done in my 67 years
to date💖😎🌈 I must admit that wow
I have done more good than
I had remembered off the top of my head😳💖🌈 I write down even little things
I do to cope with all the times I feel lost and worthless and it does help
me to not feel that
I am worthless now that I am so ill👽😢 Holding on holding on🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈💖😎 😳👽
I lost over 123 of my friends at fb
because of the smear campaign by 2 very religious people who wanted nothing to
do with me after their lies and all👽😳😢
So yeah not being abelievet often leads to
rejection and worse by too many folks😢🤬👽
The rejection I can deal with but the intentionally getting folks to avoid
me because I not a believer is impossible
to deal with🤬👽 Yes I have ranted again.
😳😢👽 Bye for now
should not be online but
had to sit up a few minutes
as my entire body was slowly going numb👽😢
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posted August 03, 2022 01:06 PM
quote:
Originally posted by SleepyDiary:
Don’t say that Lexxigramer
The right people will see the best in you and appreciate you.
Get yourself out of negative thoughts and focus on the good you have, and have done in this world.
You have spent enough time being the company of negativity don’t let it be around you in the final chapters of your life.
You have been a warrior most of you life.
Now it’s time to heal
Oh yes many of the right people who
loved me were wonderful and
I loved them too💖🌈
Sadly all of them but my husband are
dead and long dead😢😢😢
It seems harder to find the right folks
these days👽
The internet has left me quite jaded and unable to try and trust due to the
what if they just want to use me👽
Or abuse me👽Oh well I guess it all is just what
it is
but I do not have to like any of it🤬
Being under house quarantine does not
make it easier and often impossible😢 Okay enough for now.
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SleepyDiary
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posted August 03, 2022 02:45 PM
Do that it`s all about you now and your healing process. Don`t feel bad for thinking about yourself and putting yourself first. I`m so proud of you for writing it down keep doing that and read it everyday. I want to add some music here that i find so beautiful and very healing i hope it will be of some comfort to you as it has been to me- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYNANwkwvTw Another one- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xhcbiwgZYXI Pardon me if our music tastes are way different. I just wanted to share some music i find so beautiful and healing. All my best wishes to you Lexxigramer
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posted August 03, 2022 03:43 PM
I shall listen after dark whilst
watching the fireflies do their
magpnicent arial dances😎💖🌈🌌
Been napping in the 90 degreeF
or so so heat
and surpringly did not have any
nightmares 😎💖
Thank you dear
SleepyDiary 💖😎🌈
I feel asleep
thinking of your 💞
encouragements💞 and kindness💞
and had one of my best cat naps
I have had in many months😎💖🌈
Little gestures of caring can
do so very much to bring on
peaceful restful
even if
not completely rejuvinang
it was very pleasant😎
By the way
my husband has
also been journaling
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posted August 03, 2022 05:56 PM
I don’t hate you, and you dropped ME on Facebook. I’m still getting over Covid. One dog can’t walk, and needs us a lot. The other one is now having an issue. We thought he was scared of something at first, but he’s yelped when jumping up on something, and he has been all over me for no reason. I don’t want to be awake. I’m scared over my own life, and future, and scared of losing my dogs, my dad, etc. this year has been relentless. This past DECADE has been relentless. IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted August 03, 2022 06:49 PM
quote:
Originally posted by teasel:
I don’t hate you, and you dropped ME on Facebook. I’m still getting over Covid. One dog can’t walk, and needs us a lot. The other one is now having an issue. We thought he was scared of something at first, but he’s yelped when jumping up on something, and he has been all over me for no reason. I don’t want to be awake. I’m scared over my own life, and future, and scared of losing my dogs, my dad, etc. this year has been relentless. This past DECADE has been relentless.
Geez teasel
dear one😢
I know
You do not hate me sweet lady💞🌈😎
You are the only person
who has been my friend since like
all 17 of my 17 years to dare
at LL😎💞🌈
You never were unkind to me💞🌈😎
I thought you understood why it
seemed that dumped you at
fb😢😢
The moment YOU MESSAGED me
I added you back as my omly
fb friend😎💞🌈
And since I re-friended
you
no one except for you dear teasel has
accepted any of
my friends requests😢😢😢
I feel so sad for you😢😢😢
My precious 13 year old loving
bed cat died horribly and slowly
🥵🥵🥵
and I had to be talked out
of committing suicide😢😎I have been vomiting my guts out all day
and care about you teasel
but I am trying to not pass out or worse
at the moment
😢😢😢🥵🤮👽 I feel for you deeply dear teasel
and of all people you should should
know I don't hate you nor you me
💞💞🌈😎
Okay must go otis hard reply while explosively vomiting.🤮🤮🤮😢👽
orry sorry sorry👽😢😢
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 03, 2022 07:45 PM
Closing this thread and maybe moving it to health and healing.
I should
Not have posted it here where the tension is very very unhealthy
from others 😢
You may speak to me at health and healingbor fab of you desire to do so dear lady🌈------------------
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Randall
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posted August 04, 2022 02:36 PM
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 04, 2022 03:18 PM
Thank you for caring Randall💖😎🌈
It is muchly appreciated🌈😎💖------------------
The thought of suicide
is a great consolation:
by means of it
one gets through
many a dark night.💙😎 ― Nietzsche IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted August 04, 2022 10:02 PM
Hopefully teasel is done being upset with me😢👽IP: Logged |
Randall
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posted August 05, 2022 11:39 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Thank you for caring Randall💖😎🌈
It is muchly appreciated🌈😎💖
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Lexxigramer
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posted August 06, 2022 04:45 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
Always.
I will send you a friend request for the.
Sorry much on my mind yesterday with my first double chemo infusions via implanted port.
Keep an eye out for the invite and please bear
with me as my fb is not a happy place at the moment.
There will be so far only you and teasel
and my son and his wife on there.
Sadly my son and wife are only there to
pacify them so they do not try to negatively interfere in my husband and my life😢👽
Long story not for here out in the open.
I will fill you in on it all privately if you ever want vany deatails so you can see why it is the way it is and must be so.
Sometimes there really is no other choice but to avoid toxic people.
They too close with my evil toxic ex and his wealth for me to allow w them into my
world any more than fb.
Again too much personal to discuss or
reveal here at LL👽💙
Just wanted you to know at least for now it would be in essence it is
just you and teasel on
my fb friends list💞😎
I am too drained to keep up with
more folks on FB at this time.By the way I posted about my first
chemotherapy infusions and shall post
about it here after Intest up some.😎
It went wonderfully surprising well😎😎😎💖🌈 ------------------
The thought of suicide
is a great consolation:
by means of it
one gets through
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teasel
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posted August 06, 2022 07:29 AM
I'm just dealing with stuff and could barely sleep yesterday. the less sleep I get, the more congested I am. I'm not here much at all. I don't really want to be. I have things I need to do, and I need to get outside more, before the weather freezes up again. IP: Logged |
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posted August 06, 2022 01:14 PM
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posted August 07, 2022 02:08 PM
quote:
Originally posted by teasel:
I'm just dealing with stuff and could barely sleep yesterday. the less sleep I get, the more congested I am. I'm not here much at all. I don't really want to be. I have things I need to do, and I need to get outside more, before the weather freezes up again.
quote:
Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
I went to message you and you have vanished
I cannot even find you in any searches👽
You still appear as of member of 12 Years on my Lexigram group 😎
but I cannot even get your
FB to open from there👽👽👽👽
Please let me know if you dropped me and if not,
Then please send me a new friend request if you still want to be friends💙
Let me know if otherwise and why please👽😢
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Snake Lady
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posted August 15, 2022 11:51 AM
Lexxigramer,I don't know you well but I've always had a reverence for your deep work and experience with Lexigramming. I've wished to learn from you, but I'm learning so many things right now, there hasn't been time. Being on this side of death is a heavy weight.
I Image and Desire for you to find joy and lightness in this process. For your burdens to become lighter. For a longer life for you to continue your amazing work with words and spend more time with dear ones. For Death to move farther away from you. For peace as clear as a water lily's reflection in a quiet pond. May you be comforted now. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~* IP: Logged |
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posted August 15, 2022 12:19 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Snake Lady:
Lexxigramer,I don't know you well but I've always had a reverence for your deep work and experience with Lexigramming. I've wished to learn from you, but I'm learning so many things right now, there hasn't been time. Being on this side of death is a heavy weight.
I Image and Desire for you to find joy and lightness in this process. For your burdens to become lighter. For a longer life for you to continue your amazing work with words and spend more time with dear ones. For Death to move farther away from you. For peace as clear as a water lily's reflection in a quiet pond. May you be comforted now. *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Snake Lady 
Smiles bursting forth and sudden
tears of joy streaming down
my face because dear lady
Your loving caring words are
so absolutely beautiful  💕🌈
Very encouraging and definitely lifted me
today muchly and I needed this
today so much💕🌈😎
I am not dead yet so when you find
time feel free to talk with me about LEXIGRAMMING/LEXAGRAMMING 😎🌈💕
I am so weak and exhausted but
LEXIGRAMMING is something I can do
even from bed😎
Your words feel like they have
powerful healing magic 💕💕💕
I get very very good vibes from you
Snake Lady 
Much blessings and love to you
and thank you for this I so very
muchly needed today🌈💕😎
The day after chemotherapy is nasty
misery to say the least and it is
hard not to just roll into
a no fetal position ball and lie
here and wonder if
this is it
because it is baffling how much
one can endure and not die👽👽👽
I intend to survive this nightmare
period in my life🌈💖😎
You have made my day become bright
when the gloomies and doomies were
draining me hard
I deeply from the depths of my heart
thank you Snake Lady💕🌈💖
Yeah getting carried away with emojis
I hope they post as they come from
my keyboard on this tablet
so hopefully they do not render as
strange nonsense wtfs 😳😁
PS
Do you have pet snakes😎
I have had them in my youth
and also had 3 iguanas and
all kinds of turtles and more😎
Love our local wild skinks
they are so lovely and like
a foot long and electric blue
and black and silver😎
They are super fast too😳😎
Lots of reptiles and amphibians
in my yard here in the city
which seems strange because
I did not see such abundance
and diversity when I lived in
the countryside😳😎
Well when I was a kid I lived
in Waycross Georgia
literally right next to the
Okefenokee Swamp Reserve😎
(Mostly though have lived in Ohio)
When waiting for the school bus
there was a little alligator that
would beg for bites of my lunch
and loved egg salad sandwiches😎
He would swim up the deep drainage
ditch that connected to the swamp😎
The huge timber rattlers
were also
cool but definitely not to be
messed with👽😳
Oh dear I am off and rambling
again😳😁
Off to try and eat 
Pardon any weird typos
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posted August 15, 2022 01:07 PM
Snake Lady😎💕
I see you are into Electrical Engineering 😎
I wish I could have gone into that feild💙
I played with electricity as a child and scared my family often😁😎
Tesla is also one of my interests😎
My husband bought me a little Tesla Coil
and attachments for our 23rd. wedding anniversary 😎💕
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posted August 15, 2022 03:25 PM
You haven't given up. Quite the opposite. You have even more drive and purpose now. You will beat this.IP: Logged |
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posted August 15, 2022 04:22 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
You haven't given up. Quite the opposite. You have even more drive and purpose now. You will beat this.
Amen.
Get well soon Lex. 🌼 IP: Logged |
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posted August 15, 2022 06:28 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
You haven't given up. Quite the opposite. You have even more drive and purpose now. You will beat this.
I intend to beat these cancers and more😎
Statistically it is beyond amazing to many doctors that I have lived as long as I have
and I want to keep living despite the often
agonizing pain😎💙
I have many months of chemotherapy and then radiation and most likely multiple surgeries👽
I just have to keep from starving to death👽
I have so much to do and to look forward to and want to be around to finish it all and live far beyond these agonies I must endure for the timbering💙😎💕🌈
The caring and kindness and words of encouragement here from folks definitely
is a huge factor in my being able to keep
as positive an outlook towards a future for myself😎💕🌈
Except for my husband who suffers from an incurable rare Heriditary liver disease and is disabled from other conditions;
You here are my only family,
my chosen family💕😎🌈
My biological family members are either
dead or have long ago decided to have
nothing to do with me because of their
bigoted religious, racial and homophobia
and outright snobbery and so forth👽
Their loss😁
My old friends have all died off, so many
of them👽😢
So for all my dancing with the grim reaper
too often these days it is interesting to
have outlived my old friends who were in better shape than I was and am in👽
I get moments every day when I feel that I cannot go on any longer👽😢
The pain is too often more than I thought was possible to live through😢👽
I am taking the increase in my agonies as a sign of the healing and the
cancers dying and and my body detoxing😎Thank you for the encouragements 😎💕🌈
It helps me to keep on going more than
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posted August 15, 2022 06:37 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
You haven't given up. Quite the opposite. You have even more drive and purpose now. You will beat this.
😎💕🌈
quote:
Originally posted by Aries Eagle:
Amen.
Get well soon Lex. 🌼
Thank you ever so muchly Aries Eagle💕😎🌈
It is a long run to conquer these horrors
which I must endure and keep my spirits up and whilst the battle I intend to win is
most likely a long one;
I intend to survive all of this and
whilst not getting completely well soon;
I intend to get better and heal more
every day and look to my future and
and see myself still here in body for
many more decades to come😎💕🌈
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