posted March 07, 2013 09:50 PM            

Faith, your news above feels so cozy to me... thanks for that glimpse of color into your life...

For me, the neighbor on the other side of the wall has improved 98%-- now that's a blessing! I can cope when it's not on continually... He must have a great sense surround system! Poor fella needs a big house-- hope he gets blessed in that way. (Hmmm? Or, how about the other side of that equation too... a better place for me!

Trying to physically cope with other kinds of sound-affects. There's that whole 'convergence & resonation' accretion phenomenon in the atmosphere.

My mind defaults into a science-mind mode in order to cope with intense things. Rationalize... when I need to 'feel' instead. LOL. Is this my message from the Universe?? Astrologically I have intercepted signs in the third/ninth houses... Pisces/Virgo (w/MoonVirg). May be a working part of the overall plan to shift attention from above to below where my feet tread right now? Work on bridging the two...

Eric Francis suggested a really useful 'technique' on his weekly 'planetwaves' [for March 6, 2013] broadcast. Brought me this cool insight! (Thanks Eric!!! )

I lay in bed trying to sleep with all the great physical annoyances-- even shivering my mattress! Then I recalled Eric's audio... Using simple very base descriptions, I put a voice and words to my experience... I said what the sound was doing to/in my body, the effect.

Within a minute of 'sounding off' about how uncomfortable I "really" felt, I made a discovery!... It doesn't work to my benefit to push away the 'upset' in my mind-- doing that I disconnect my body. I feel 'pain.' I know I feel pain. I blame myself (having a body) as 'cause' of the discomfort--(just too sensitive, a big complainer, etc). I was not focused on 'outside environment' as the reality behind my suffering. I was adding mental criticism and self punishment. The actual real "now" physical assault to the/my sensory-system is discredited when I'm my own worst enemy-- I've gotta be my body's friend. (6th house sun, VenusTaur in 5th, SatrnScorp-rx 11th)

Realized that "invalidating" self works to actually paralyze... [Eric] Oh, I have no problem with motivation-- I overflow with ambition to be "doing" something... But in an uncoordinated way. Seize with panic and fear with not seeing "results" for all my efforts.

Sorta like those 'waves' in Birthing's Labor, when the body's uterus is in the state of uncoordinated muscle actions called 'transition'... where body switches from pulling up and thinning out the cervix, into the powerful downward thrusts of pushing the baby out. (I can't remember right now 'where' I posted this, but) during that time called "Transition" my body reacted with wretching to the sensory confusion. Puked my guts out! (Was worrying and blaming self too, by labeling self a failure at giving birth, when this wasn't my conscious fault...)

posted March 09, 2013 08:21 AM            

Well that was interesting to read, and I read it twice, but still feel like I haven't put it all together. I do think that articulation = validation somehow. Just saying what the problem is can sometimes shrink the problem.

I used to write a lot, like journaling, only I am so picky about what I will keep, I only wrote on typing paper (a stitch-bound journal would be ripped to threads, and I don't like spiral binding.) Anyway, I just get too paranoid about people coming and reading my thoughts.

Part of it is, I'm a private person (despite my constant stream of revelations here) and part is, there is a disconnect between how my family perceives me and how I am. My children don't know I'm into astrology, for example...yet if I were to do any real journaling, I'd be recording transits and so on.

If I can't write whole-heartedly giving full expression to what's on my mind, it seems an inadequate therapy from the get-go, like pulling a splinter halfway out.

So I don't "journal" (on typing paper) much anymore.

Anyway...that's interesting about how you have Pisces-Virgo intercepted. How does that affect your moon, do you think?

I think my nodal axis is in intercepted Taurus-Scorpio if I draw my chart up a particular way, but I've been reluctant to delve into the meaning of that, since I don't want to read anything discouraging.

I'm typing in my bed while my two year-old sleeps next to me. He's so cute. I suppose if I were to give you a window into my life, you'd see how much I have to be grateful for. Another window into my life could show how much I'm struggling. I think our problems accumulate where our weaknesses are and for whatever reason I feel weak.

Hoping that better diet and simple determination to improve my life will yield some results.

Wishing you long spans of quiet, a better place, and good days.

posted June 03, 2013 09:12 AM            

Happy belated birthday!

And I'm so sorry for disappearing mid-conversation a few weeks ago. My daughter spilled club soda on my laptop and killed it. Then the computer adamantly refused to come back to life even with a new motherboard and hard drive. FINALLY it surrendered to resurrection I'm fortunate to have an extremely handy husband.

Anyway I forget what we were talking about on that glitching thread I just know you wrote some great stuff that tragically disappeared.

'Might be too late to revive that conversation but I just wanted you to know I didn't bolt mid-stream, rather my computer failed.

posted June 03, 2013 03:44 PM            

I'm just wondering........ "why" didn't you sign my "Card" from the Community at LindaLand Central, 2.0 ?

Did one person suggest, or perhaps maybe a small group here "warn" people NOT to post any greetings to me... "on purpose?" (for a Proof of loyalty to 'them'... gang/bullying behavior?) wow... Is a Big reveal then?

There were times when I had been away from the LLC 2.0 thread for a while, and had missed some birthdays--- but out of respect, I jumped right in and greeted them "late"... I know that there's a 'shy' part of you.... but ?

Linda Goodman, the AUTHOR of LOVE SIGNS: A New Approach to the Human Heart? ... Wonder what Linda's reaction would have been?

I look forward to some great convo-posts with you. I look forward to good exchanges in the future ...

(I might just take the rest of the day off, rather than "work" today... I feel so tired today--.

Hey....., My neighbor has been being really really good, yesterday and today, with keeping the souped-up bass-speakers on his music turned off... No more rattling walls (and nerves )

posted June 03, 2013 08:22 PM            

chatter... been feeling chills today. Apartment is 80-degrees and I'm typing here in a winter sweater PLUS a winter coat. brrrr. So tired... tried to take a nap, but I'm not a napper...

so, Faith, I'll catch you when you can....

It's perfectly okay to take your time! Even if it's not until tomorrow or next few days.

Glad your internet is back!

posted June 04, 2013 07:07 AM            

mirage, glad to hear you got some respite from the noisy people!

I am way behind on computer work, catching up on email especially, and I just hopped on here yesterday for a few minutes. I didn't know it would bother you that I only said "Happy Birthday" here. Long story is that I checked LLC 2.0 to make sure someone had created a thread, (if they hadn't I would have made one) but wanted to explain my absence to you personally before showing up there out of the blue as if nothing happened. But I didn't want to derail that thread. Now that you mention it I should have signed there after writing here...

It just didn't occur to me that you might be sensitive about it. Probably because I didn't have the same concerns when it was my birthday...for example, it didn't bother me that Xiiro never "signed my card" but said Happy Birthday on the ongoing thread where we talk. And even if he hadn't remembered, I guess I just try and look at the big picture and be happy for friendship where I find it.

Innocent mistake on my part, sorry if it upset you, but I am happy to post again on your card!

A-signing I will go.

posted June 04, 2013 07:25 AM            

a) I'm the kind of person who, if someone requested that, would rebel and deliberately do the opposite of what they asked.

b) If I had any qualms about posting greetings to you, I wouldn't bump a thread I had created in your honor.

But I think you are great and WANT to be associated with you.

posted June 04, 2013 10:01 AM            

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PS You asked, "Did one person suggest, or perhaps maybe a small group here "warn" people NOT to post any greetings to me... "on purpose?"

a) I'm the kind of person who, if someone requested that, would rebel and deliberately do the opposite of what they asked.

b) If I had any qualms about posting greetings to you, I wouldn't bump a thread I had created in your honor.

But I think you are great and WANT to be associated with you.

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posted June 05, 2013 03:00 AM            

Faith, THANK YOU for both of my birthday greetings--- here, AND there at LLC2!

About birthdays--?

Normally when people 'forget me' I will sting and feel sad and never mention a word of it. My birthday was always around a sadder day (Memorial Day)...

So anyone, I'm practicing "friending" my own self... If I had a friend who let that happen them (that she noticed nobody was wishing her happy birthday), then I would have scolded her and said, 'Hey, you should have TOLD me'---

I said to myself, 'Don't be hurt that they're not remembering you --Maybe they 'don't know'? --- So TELL them!

So see that, Faith! I practicing some 'self-care'.... I sorta burned with embarrassment for doing it, only because of being shy a bit,--- but then heck, I wanted at least one or two people to know it's my day-- and in that thread they wished it to me! Randall must have seen "the mention" pretty quickly because within the hour, he made the Community Card at LLC2.0. (yay, Randall!)

For me, Lindaland is family spirit, full of extended family/friends... LLC is the Central Place to go for news about our community. Birthdays are EXTRA SPECIAL days. Everybody should see their name there, wishing them happy birthday. It's only ONCE a year.... Some people don't feel unique, or important. No matter how lowly you feel about yourself here at Lindaland, I think you deserve a day (or 5) of people celebrating you for 'being alive'-- just because your alive, and you're here!

As I got older, and moved multiple times till I settled, the ONLY card I got a few years was from my 'insurance man'--- And you know what? I treasured that card! (Pretty pathetic, eh? )

When I see birthdays of people I don't know, I at least give them balloons, or a flower. And when I know the person, I'll do a fancier greeting. I don't have access to pasting images. (Some day, when I have my own computer, that will be fun!)

But even if people don't know each other, I would love to see each person lay a post in EACH Birthday they find! Even if it's a belated greeting! It should COUNT!

Wouldn't that be cool?? yeah! For those who are "lurkers"... that they will pop-in and ONLY type "happy birthday" to help Celebrate!! --- What do you think?

Faith, I love that you started this thread for us... that's special! You have interesting 'energy'-- I just like the different things you say. And as I've mentioned before, I admire you. You have a very busy life, AND you come by and exchange life with me. (And I see that you and Xiiro have done this a way long time... You and he(?) are into the eastern religions, and it's a Beautiful Thread. You have nice energy for that, Faith!

For some reason (in another post) you talked about scrubbing away at your kitchen tiles once. awww, I felt like I wanted to jump right over and help you... But scrubbing can be 'therapy' too, I know. Doing TWO things at once: thinking, and cleaning. Worth double the time! hehe I bet you have a really pretty home-- You just seem like "a Girl's" kind of mom (even though I know you've had sons too, recently). Your kids are lucky-lucky!

Gotta be going to bed now. Oh yah, my poor next-wall neighbor! He had a water pipe leak, then a few days later found that his new furniture has bedbugs!!! Three apartment units bought their stuff from the same place... The buggies moved over the wall along OUR inside wall here.

My roommate's sofa-bed is now infested!... MUCH work for me!! He's been sleeping in my bed so far tonight. We'll have to share the bed for a few days. (He should be getting up in another hour to start his morning, usual time for him.

I'll try to drop in again tomorrow.... So until then?.........

posted June 05, 2013 03:30 AM            

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Originally posted by Faith:
PS You asked, "Did one person suggest, or perhaps maybe a small group here "warn" people NOT to post any greetings to me... "on purpose?"

a) I'm the kind of person who, if someone requested that, would rebel and deliberately do the opposite of what they asked.

b) If I had any qualms about posting greetings to you, I wouldn't bump a thread I had created in your honor.

But I think you are great and WANT to be associated with you.

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Faith! I knew that already about you.... That's how I 'thought' you'd respond. But had that scratchy little voice that needed to hear what I already know.... I'm so glad I took care of that. Not a good thing to holdup hurts or little stings inside, especially when it 'shouldn't be true.'

Thankyou for being one whom I COULD ask a question like that, for my security.

Another self-care I started doing was to go ahead and ASK.... Sometimes, I argue with myself-- so instead of 'wondering' I'll just go ahead and check it out, prove it "to me." If I get a different answer than I thought, then I'm GLAD to know what the "truth" is.

Over my lifetime, I've given people a whole lot more credit than they have deserved.

It's good to check out reality... Makes me better at figuring things out. I like to understand what's going on, and why people feel like that.

Okay, I can hardly keep my eyes open now. Off to bed! Love you--- have a great day!

posted June 05, 2013 05:04 AM            

A few things got my attention. I'm not sure what that statement regarding "groups" was about (sounds quite sinister, not mention disturbing) but from my own experience, I resonate with Faith's reply.
It's difficult to fathom how adults can have that high school mentality where they want their friends to only be friends with the people they like. This isn't directed at you two btw. Just speaking in general. I've been there, done that and stuck to my guns without anyone trying to influence me. I admire those who do the same instead of following the rest of the herd, so to speak.

As a sag, I value honesty and it's cool when someone can be direct and ask you straight up "hey, what's the deal?"

Anyhow, as for the birthday wishes:
We usually start such threads for Knowflakes (if we know the birthday). There's a thread where members can post their birthdays as a reminder. It is nice, though. There are some lonely souls out there and even if one person remembers, it touches their heart and makes them feel special.

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posted June 05, 2013 08:52 AM            

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A few things got my attention. I'm not sure what that statement regarding "groups" was about (sounds quite sinister, not mention disturbing) but from my own experience, I resonate with Faith's reply.

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Indeed.

If this were to occurr, I would hope it would be reported along with the evidence to the webmaster.
Social groups can bring out the best in people or the worst.

For me, I like to keep the sun shinin` and the flowers perpetually bloomin` while remembering "he ain`t heavy, he`s my brother(sister)!!

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posted June 05, 2013 06:27 PM            

It always reminds me of my impetuous youth

posted June 06, 2013 10:27 AM            

See how we all flock to you, mirage?

I would've gotten here sooner but yesterday...UGH...super stressful for me. I had a night terror about my son almost drowning and couldn't shake the vibe all day; instead, I seemed to magnetize all kinds of bad news to match that "frequency" so to speak. Sun was transiting my Mars, I know, squaring my moon, but I haven't had time to check the other transits.

Sorry for complaining!

mirage, I'm sad for you about the bedbugs! However, I know Virgo moons are among the world's best cleaners and I have a hunch the bedbugs are doomed. Right? Vacuum war is on?

My house is lovely in some ways, my father-in-law built it, he and my husband built much of the furniture, and we have some antiques. I love cleaning but can't keep up with all my work. Rarely is every room tidy. I actually spend more time cooking and making raw food dishes than anything (except maybe answering kids' questions.) Like last night I was making, eating, and cleaning up after dinner from about 5 to 9 (while juggling other chores.) Everyone's eating something different lately...the kids eat one meal, my husband is on a diet so he eats something else, and I eat something raw.

Thank you for knowing you can ask me if something feels "off" to you. I look at developing relationships in terms of establishing a kind of fluency between each other where you can just read things the right way. (Aka "trust," but more complicated.)

But I think it's a bit hard for some people to understand me (splash chart means I'm all over the place...plus the 8H moon, so I'm submerged.) I've had trouble along the way with people not giving me the benefit of the doubt because they flat-out can't anticipate how I'll react. And of course that can trigger guilt and regret about how I handled things before. Ugh...

Life is so stressful, no wonder people are religious. 'Reminds me of one of my favorite Elvis gospel songs called Me." But I still haven't find my spiritual solution...still looking.

Well I'm short on time again (SO much to do when the weather warms up!) but I hope this post finds everyone happy, healthy, and safe.

posted June 06, 2013 11:56 AM            

Just for the record; I don't flock.. I trot.

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posted June 06, 2013 09:27 PM            

Faith! I am sooo glad we're coming to understand better and better!

Your son almost drowned?? OH NO!! What a panic you must have had!! Sooo glad he's okay!? Wow! How frightening!! You didn't need something that awful hitting your life.

You've been through soooo much, and I know it. Give yourself credit, and care, for who you are "right now"--- where you are! You're doing a great job. I know the detailed-care you give your home-folks. And I thankyou so much for 'the difference' you make to me too, and others! You're the right 'ingredient of Faith' we need... yeah,

I'm glad that we can be away from each other for a time, then come back and "be" the friends we are. No hurry. No crushing pressure... Never. It's "nice" that the porch light is on, and we can take our time and 'visit'....

Sometimes I can be even more detailed, or other times just fragments can come out. But I think 'exchange' is always a good thing...

charmainec... No, you are not barging in... So glad you're interested. Problems sleeping... oh no. But you're making good use of the time! (here, yay! ) I didn't realize you are a sag! cool!!

Yes, regarding 'group' dynamics, bonding, friends.... I am usually deeply patient. I understand how finding a place to fit in can vary--- at times it can take a while. And also I understand that in the sea of friendships, the 'tide' comes in and goes out...

And another thing, after all, some of the people here have been together for SUCH a LONG time. You know each other's little codes: you can 'read' when something is a bit 'off' with your net-buddies.... something the more-newbie wouldn't notice.

I was sooo glad recently how anascorp 'spoke right up' about something she wanted clarity on. I think she's fantastic! *love*

With you being a Sag I'm so glad you understand a kind of 'directness'... I have this fault.... tap-dance around a topic a bit before really jumping in, but EVENTUALLY come to the 'point' after a while.

This page of posts shows (to me) a level of faith and comfort with LL Faith...

Sometimes when I feel vague and inwardly fogged or upset, I can have a hard time 'stabbing' at what "it" is with me. Hard to "speak up" sometimes.

So I find myself doing this really awkward type of 'blurting' thing... to just get it out into "words"... It's 'phrased' like a statement, but 'when you know my voice' people 'get' that this is ACTUALLY read like a "question"... (oy!!)

Great big HUGE credit to Faith for showing HER ability to reach me THROUGH that weird wall-thing. It's pretty rare for me to get to that 'obstacle' point--- If I do that, I'm just feeling soooo stuck. I'm so grateful that you all are sticking kindly by me as 'sister' friends. (yay!)

For me, it's "good" to know 'where' people stand... I totally believe at making an attempt to work things out, to look beneath the surface and to really talk-out 'what it is'....

And for me, softly, gently and lovingly, it's ALSO okay if people don't want to 'associate.' We all have our reasons. I might 'wonder' a bit, but will give LOTS and LOTS of "space"... We can arrive at a point of 'balance'..... That's what I go for.

I have the ability and tendency to see 'the best' in a person -- (multiple themes in my chart for that--)! I ALSO know the power of 'believing' in a person.

Some people just need the 'chance' for someone to over-look the awkwardness they present with. Awkwardness can even get WORSE if that person 'knows' that their awkwardness is being 'noticed'.....

I think how Love covers a 'multitude of faults' It's the COOLEST most-loving thing to give people the benefit of second-chances.

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Who among us is not, at times, unlovable? And are not these the very times when we secretly yearn and need to be loved the most? Oh! the magic of receiving kindness in return from one to whom we have been un-kind ...the miracle of hearing, when we have said: "I'm sorry I said such cruel things," the answer: "What cruel things? I didn't hear them."

Then the heart bursts with joy and our cup runneth over. For this most ancient alchemy secret of all is such a simple secret.

If it was negative, it didn't happen--- except in the world of illusion.

And so, may the Force... of Love... be with you... (page 8).

--Linda Goodman,
LG's LOVE SIGNS: A New Approach to the Human Heart.

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juniperb... Thankyou for adding in. You know what? I personally extremely resist going to the webmaster.... although it's really really nice when other people notice and 'have your back'... I tend to stick in there and keep interacting until the oil of social understanding works in, (hopefully).

People are busy. People are frustrated... sometimes it just takes a dose of "time" for things to settle... ( she ain't heavy..., cool juniper!)

Faith!! I'm laughing because just noticed the 'we flock to you' phrase.... OMG! So that makes you all look like some pretty strange birds... ......... yeah. I like 'nice' strrrrannnge people.

posted June 08, 2013 08:25 AM            

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posted June 08, 2013 02:56 PM            

Starting a new thread....