posted February 19, 2013 09:44 AM            

Can I copy your last post from Yellow Wax into this thread and start from there?

posted February 21, 2013 08:01 AM            

Hope you're okay? I don't mind people complaining at all, I'm a Pisces moon and would rather know how people really are. =)

I don't trust doctors either... I really should try harder to find a good one, but I'm so disenchanted with the whole system, it kind of depresses me to interact with any of them.

The family doctor I take my children to is excellent, but not well-versed enough in so-called alternative medicine to provide what I'm looking for.

Anyway...

Rather than copying everything from Yellow Wax, I'll just say a few things:

1) Your NN is conjunct the Galactic Center?

I love that! I think your NN is near Ami Anne's...I was telling her before about this book I like called The Secret Language of Destiny, which has a lot of cool stuff to say about people with third decan Sag NN (before Sag-Cap Cusp.) The author calls this The Way of Amplification. I forget the details but I can look it up again if you're interested.

2) Your ASC is conjunct my Neptune. Your ASC is also conjunct Elvis' ASC. =) Ever feel like wearing rhinestone jumpsuits??

I <3<3<3 Elvis.

3) Polyhymnia! I read the description and thought, this asteroid has to be some key place in my chart, I love this description of her:

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Polyhymnia(Polymnia) was the Muse of the divine hymns, the sacred poetry and the pantomime. She was also famous for inventing the science of geometry.

Polyhymnia is often depicted like a very strict and thinking deity, with a wrath of daphne in her hair, looking up to the sky and expressing herself with gestures while playing the lyre.

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It's at 13 Pisces, almost 5 degrees from my moon...orb too wide to count...but I vaguely recall some other asteroid I have there.

I actually like "sacred music" very much and would go to church if I could find one I liked. When I was a Presbyterian we used to sing the Psalms acapella, from a psalter. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LB2efUp33B0

^ one of the things that drew me to that church.

As for the voice ensemble in NY called Polyhymnia, I'm still trying to get a listen. The songs play for two seconds then stop.

4) The Xiiro thread

We talk about a lot of stuff that I am embarrassed to have an older, church-going woman read.

He and I both grew up in religious households, though, which may be one of the reasons we seem to have a lot to talk about. We are also both Irish. I think Irish people communicate similarly.

The thread is mostly about philosophical ideas and sci-fi but just warn you there is also some stuff about sex, drugs, witchcraft, ummmm....well it covers a lot of taboo topics.

I used to think the thread wasn't that conspicuous and no one would read it but now it's kind of becoming my memoir, taking up a lot of space. LOL

Hope this post finds you better off than you were last time we talked.

Cheers

posted February 22, 2013 01:06 PM            

Just popping in right now... problems with neighbor and their mega-sound-speakers against my apartment walls. Pictures on the wall are literally making rattling and buzzing sounds on our own walls. Nothing I can do about it! (wow... that's LOUDer...) My body nervous system is shaking too!

posted February 22, 2013 02:27 PM            

Without true love, we just exist... Until you find the love you've missed you're nothing, Alfie!--- When you love, let your heart lead the way, and you'll find love every day...

posted February 22, 2013 11:28 PM            

It'll take me a bit to get back to you because I need a little time to soak things up and sort out my impressions.

My first impression is just

I LOVE your writing!!

'Hope I can keep up with you and not disappoint you, I feel a little dull but at least I can listen...and listen well.

Listening to Alfie again

Talk to you soon! Hope your neighbors' speakers break!

posted February 23, 2013 09:18 AM            

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So anyway. Thanks soooo much for your invitation to dialogue... {{{{{hugs}}}}!!!

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*hugs back* My pleasure!

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A lot of times I'll read a post someone has made and it will send my thoughts afar. I'll ponder, think, digest... then woah! The time has passed!

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I have 5H Neptune~ my creative life is about dreaming~ so I can relate. =)

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Sound is a Power. This neighbor is using it to harm.

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I <3<3<3 that idea. Sound is a power. Though I'm sorry your neighbor uses it to harm. My husband is also hypersensitive to noise. He is a Libra moon.

Forgive me for forgetting you moon sign, will you remind me?

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Hey!... I'm thinking that they will get caught any day now... So, that lets me have a deep calm in the center and can endure the torture of her system! heh-heh... snicker snicker?

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LOL! Wild

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Dearest Faith... if you only knew what and where I've walked!!

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I realize this a public forum and not everyone wants to put it all out there, but if you ever up for telling me, I'd love to know.

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Don't worry about the 'church-lady,' and taboos and sex. I've been demonized and cast out publicly as a highpriestess-devil and as being a 'witch.'

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Wish I could read your autobiography...this sounds super interesting.

And what's that Mark Twain said? "I haven't a particle of confidence in a man who has no redeeming petty vices whatsoever." =)

I'm glad you don't mind that I've talked about taboo stuff at length here.

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Originally posted by mirage29:
Apparently, on both (surprise) sides of the family, my great great grandmothers had been 'business women'... ran elite houses of ill-repute!

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I have to wonder about myself, why I am so intrigued by prostitution. Why I was actually a little impressed with your pedigree here! I think I just want to go to the dark places of the earth and see what it's all about. 8H moon, Scorpio NN.

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I have a Cancer Mars -- where Elvis was visiting yesterday You love Elvis! Elvis! Elvis! <3 LOL

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Elvis was on Mars yesterday?? LOL. Well God bless him.

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My VESTA is in my 8th House.

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I don't know my exact birth time, my 0 Aries Vesta is either in my eighth or ninth. (I just learned last night, thanks to your bringing this up, that my wedding anniversary and Vesta are conjunct!)

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Vesta 8th... "individuals have a dedication to the psychic/occult fields or to depth interactions with others." *grin*

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^ Well that totally sounds like me, too! I'm trying to rectify my birth time and will keep that in mind.

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Those pastors in the Christian churches say that girls like me are too picky, and we have to lower our standards a bit. Wha'??? (no way?) yeah... I got critized for having values and standards.

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Isn't it strange? Too many contradictions in churches...makes me dizzy. So you never got married? Sometimes I wish I could say the same....

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I just keep laughing. o! sense of humor?, because it's so ridiculous being exquisitely a sound-worshipper, and being in an environment that is like fingernails down chalkboard, overwhelm booming! Hey, it's like homeopathy!!! LMAO...

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*Tooooo funny* =D

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Originally posted by mirage29:
In Asteroid Goddesses book, the story of VESTA includes what happened to vestal virgins, and the cruel public condemnations and deaths they could suffer. "...she was walled up alive with a light, a few provisions, and left to die a slow, agonizing death... p.119"

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I need that book.

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My feelings have been sooo walled up.

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(((HUG)))) Well it's never too late to try and air them out.

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trust is so easy, yet so hard when you live in a shell (Cancer) in what can 'feel' like hell, but perhaps is not.

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I have no planets in Cancer but feel like I can imagine that from your description. 'Sounds claustrophobic within yourself...

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I have a lot of inner alienation-- thick walls that defend-yet-smother me alive.
I reach out boldly now, and awkwardly, to break through that silence.

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I don't think you're awkward, I just see the boldness and it's dazzling. Wish I could do the same but maybe it's just not my time? Or maybe I feel like I'm an abyss inside and everything was meant to stay in the darkness. My Pluto stuff again...Pluto hits almost everything in my chart.

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My D.O. doc's opinion?? She wrote down the title of a book for me to read--- [b]Feelings Buried Alive Never Die by Karal Truman.[/B]

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^ Another book I need.

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Originally posted by mirage29:
I love you... thanks for being a part of my life!

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XOXO! Thank you, too!

Oh and please don't feel that I am asking you to reply to me in this format, it's just easier for me to keep track of everything I wanted to say when I break your post down bit by bit.

Also take your time if you like, I ain't goin' anywhere.

posted February 25, 2013 05:13 PM            

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You are a woman, multi-talented like me, and we're both struggling to survive, and we want to do the "right" thing in life. How can you disappoint me?

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*sniffle sniffle*

This full moon is driving me bonkers, I'm so emotional & it's hard to get a grip. But thanks, just that simple observation is making me tear up.

Sometimes I get a little crazy~ that's bound to disappoint everyone!

But anyway, yeah...1955. You made it sound like you're an old lady, and here you are just a few weeks older than my brother-in-law! And I consider him one of my contemporaries. He skis for a living so it's easy to think of him as young.

And right, you're just a wee bit older than Ami.

I will look your NN up at the library when I can.

Just want to say that all three of you-- you, my brother-in-law, and Ami-- seem to be going through major transformations now, spiritual breakthrough kinda stuff. And it's really got me floored...as I perceive things, it's very unique and almost magical. (Though I have my own ideas of what "magical" means.)

to your Virgo moon.

More to say but my family is calling.

posted February 26, 2013 08:06 AM            

But here's a guess~ it seems to me that my comment about being overly optimistic interests you a lot. You mentioned my rose-colored glasses in DD, too.

If you are trying to say that I should try a different approach, please realize that I'm aware of the drawbacks of my mentality and have been working on it.

I don't know how that ties in with peregrine's inadvertant (I'm pretty sure) ageist remarks. Maybe you are saying it's easy to be optimistic when you're young, but I should be more sensitive to people who find it harder?

posted February 26, 2013 01:29 PM            

it's like what juniperb discussed with me once-- after a while you 'learn' who the 'safe' people are

posted February 27, 2013 12:42 PM            

It does all boil down to personal taste with who you feel safe around though. I know people have left just to make sure they don't have to listen to comments from people they disliked. The comments weren't insulting enough to warrant intervention from the mods, but cut into the sensitivities of the other person too much.

I have an ongoing issue with a person here, along those lines. I've just used it as an opportunity for me to strengthen my ability to block someone out of my mind. To say, "That person's problems are not my problem, and I refuse to be controlled by their darkness."

I've come to think of this forum as something like an art medium~ we "sculpt" our experience. At first I just threw myself out there a bit indiscriminately, but then realized how uncomfortable I was in the aftermath, having given so much away to people I don't know or necessarily trust. On the other hand, the temptation is strong, to use this place as a sounding board and therapy.

So that's what I'm trying to balance.

Sometimes that fails and I feel miserable and wonder why this is my "recreation." But I think that's also par for the course, being a forum-dweller.

I looked up your NN, it's NOT the same as Ami & my brother-in-law's after all. It's hard to distill this reading because it's quite larger-than-life and dramatic. And I don't want to plagiarize.

Also I tend to cut out or downplay whatever negative stuff is in the reading because it seems rude to communicate that.

Just lemme know if you're still interested.

posted February 28, 2013 06:01 PM            

For the curious:
NN Sag 1st
Mean NN 27.31'59"
True NN 26.32'59"
Gal Ctr 26.14'20"

Gal Ctr aspects...
cj NN 0.19a
trine Sedna -0.28a
sextile Neptune 0.24s

(Thanks re offer to look it up in your book... I know the book. Next time I go to the bookstore I'll look it up in their copy. No need to press you-- you've got kids!!!)

Sorry if I confused you... I think I got a bit confused myself. I realize that I have "people-wounds" so I choose to consciously err on the side of 'trust' because I know I would want to be given that chance by another. --- It's okay. I'm a person who gives many chances. Sometimes I just need a little time to adjust and process, but I'm growing... and I want to grow.

Love the joke I heard about what Jesus said once... You've gotta turn the other cheek, AND, remember to take one step backwards... (btw, NO that's NOT what it says... I'm joking)

I'm not going anywhere.... I'm staying to work out my relationships, as best as I can. I'm sensitive... but I'm not a wimp!

Blessings on you!
mirage

posted March 01, 2013 08:21 AM            

OK, I won't copy the Destiny stuff here...hope you do get a chance to read it as I think it will be like a gourmet treat for your ego!

So you have Sedna trine GC...how do you interpret that?

I have Sedna more or less conjunct my MC...don't have my exact birth time yet, just a solid approximate time.

Guess what, my Psyche is conjunct your sun!

Can you tell me how long you've been interested in astrology? And are asteroids your favorite subtopic?

I'm glad you give people multiple chances. I think that because my chart is so varied (splash chart) I tend to be "all over the place," and when I meet people in person, they seem to look a bit perplexed for a while as we get to know each other. Because I am kind of loud, bubbly and straightforward (Leo rising; loose air-fire grand sextile)~~ but serious underneath (Cap)~~ and sensitive (Pisces moon.) So I feel like I need a lot of chances to present my whole personality. Does that make sense?

Hope you are having a nice day so far!

My two year-old is running his Thomas train all over me as I type and I'm about to cook some carrot cake with barley flour.

posted March 02, 2013 12:05 PM            

Adagio for Strings? heh-heh... I've tried all sorts of shots-across-the-bow with them now... from BeatBox, Binaural, chanting buddhists & catholics, .... just so much, but at this point I think they may be working on 'breaking their lease'... They want someone to be the ones to catalyze their wishes. The thing is that I've been warned NOT to call police. I am in a precarious position in all this. However, my roommate (leaseholder) is quite torqued right now. I had to spend $300 on a lawyer at Christmas to keep us from eviction on a false allegation by them (the police were NOT amused, and were on my side).

Right this minute I'm posting as quickly as I can. Their VIBRATION/ VLF causes my flesh to bunch up on my arms, scalp, and midback. Can't use apartment right now. Gotta go find a place where vibes don't affect so much. I've had to increase taking Calcium & Magnesium to protect my nervous system from this overtop stimulation.

I like loud music... you must know that? But these vibes right now make the picture frames on our wall buzz like a Kazoo!

I am VERY interested in above post you made.... So love that we can talk...

(I Thomas!)

posted March 02, 2013 10:36 PM            

Sorry your sound situation is so abominable. It can't last forever...

Hope you have a good Sunday, I won't be around, but I'll catch you next week, Deo volente!

posted March 04, 2013 10:58 PM            

We'll see what happens... Please uphold us... I need to maintain serenity and sense it will all end well. So glad I can write you here... isn't internet an amazing phenomenon...

(I haven't been feeling well. Not posting as much recently... it's not that I don't want to. I've even had dreams I was posting! hmmm... )

Sorry I haven't answered your questions, nor commented much. (Faith, I love your writing... and your little one sounds sooooo cute... you ARE blessed!)

posted March 06, 2013 08:42 PM            

Thanks for saying I write well; sometimes it's a terrible struggle for me~ Saturn opposes Mercury.

I AM blessed with my children, though.

My two year-old is sick with a cold and fever now...heartbreaking when they are sick. And so stressful sometimes. I had no idea it was this hard when I set out to have a family, I was just thinking of cute babies to lug around and play with. Last week my ten year-old daughter asked when she's allowed to date. Yes...the time has finally come where she realizes boys exist. Just last year her only boy crush was on the cartoon character Peter Pan. Oh I miss that time already! lol

Write if you can and if you wish, I'm not leavin'...