posted October 01, 2014 02:38 PM            

I don't think your chart suggests "loner." Certainly with such a marked stellium in the 4th house, you are a homebody, less inclined towards socialization. The rulers of your ASC and DSC (Venus and Mars in Aquarius and Capricorn, respectively) are also in the 4th house, accentuating this home-bound quality. This is not good or bad, it simply depends on your own perception. There are A LOT of homebodies out there, including myself. If you live in a society that glorifies relationships and social media, this can feel very isolating. This is doubly true if everyone around you seems to be having- and enjoying- sex. I can assure you, having once been 18, everyone is NOT having- or necessarily enjoying- sex at that age.

As a Capricorn myself, I can tell you that this sign (abundant in your own chart) is given towards worry and depressive thoughts. The fact that your stellium in Capricorn sextiles your Saturn emphasizes this point. Things often SEEM worse than they really are to us at any age, but especially when young. Thoughts like "I am so weird. A 'normal' boy my age would not only want to get laid every five minutes, he would LOVE it." In reality, that comment may lead to a resounding YES" for some and an equally loud "NO" for others. If you suffer from self-esteem issues, your age, stamina, and the relative beauty of a potential sexual partner are moot. You simply just aren't into it.

Emotionally, you are an Aquarius which CAN and often does lead to over-analysis and rationalization, causing you to feel even more separate and apart from those around you. My brother has this Moon placement and can certainly relate to this. Your Moon is in the 5th house. To quote one site "You are emotionally expressive and often dramatize your feelings, acting them out or blowing them out of proportion." Now, the Aquarius nature of your Moon will tone down the actual EMOTIONAL expression (the 5th house being Leo's turf, and Aquarius being its opposite), but the underlying dramatics are still very much present; they will manifest not as tears or tantrums (fire = action) but in speech/writing/overthinking (air = mental). We can safely say this is true.

My guess is, IF you have already had sex (and I'm not asking for verification or denial), you were not emotionally attached to the other person. While this is hardly necessary for many people, it is necessary for a good number. You may be male, given to cynical thinking and overanalysis, but the irony is I suspect you will need to feel emotional attachment before enjoying something like sex which, let's face it, is hardly tidy or generally romance novelesque. LOL If you experienced sex as an extension of love rather than just an experience to be had or a chance to get off, I think you would find it enjoyable. Again, this is NOT true of everyone, and many males (at least in my culture) are discouraged from this line of thought. I do think it is true of you, however. Now it's a matter of maturing to the point where you might allow yourself such an attachment- which is an entirely separate issue. Emotional intimacy is the scariest thing in the world for individuals who prefer to be in control (strong Capricorn) and compartmentalize feelings (Moon/Venus in Aquarius). It requires a level of vulnerability you may not be ready for. Yet.

The purpose of astrology is not to tell anyone they're fate is sealed but to reveal an intricate map of the psyche to be employed as a tool by the said individual. You know what you have to work with. Capricorn is nothing if not capable of taking on- and winning- a challenge. And with Jupiter conjuncting your Sun, your chances of success are even greater.

I want to stress again one of the most important factors here (an environmental one)- your age. You are young and in that stage of emotional/psychological development where everything is heightened. Everything. Even apathy, believe it or not. You are quite normal for your age and personality. If you were to find someone of close age with a similar chart, you would understand how UN-alone you really are.

posted October 01, 2014 02:45 PM            

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Originally posted by MiaPluto:
I think it's a phase because I haven't had a real crush since 2 years now. The only crush I have is on celebrities. In the last 2 years I had a crush/obsession with 2 celebrities.

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posted October 01, 2014 02:48 PM            

Asexual schizoid. Celibate for 17 years until last December.

posted October 01, 2014 03:16 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Hi there, astroboy.

Are you either asexual, schizoid, or both? I ask because I'm a researcher currently exploring these topics. Your 'story' sounds a bit like what I've heard in my work. (I, too, am an asexual schizoid, incidentally.)

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hey Aubyanne i don't know anymore, i'm attracted to women, that much i know. um, to be polite, i find the female genitalia kind of ugly. i could be a schizoid, i have all the traits of one.

posted October 01, 2014 03:19 PM            

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Originally posted by MiaPluto:
I think it's a phase because I haven't had a real crush since 2 years now. The only crush I have is on celebrities. In the last 2 years I had a crush/obsession with 2 celebrities.

Right now it's jamie and I think everyone knows it. I have crush in him since more than a year now.

Maybe you went through something bad and traumatic.

Your mars is exalted. But it's conjunct mercury and Neptune.

Neptune is not good with mars at all. It means that you may have difficulty expressing your drive/goals and your sexuality too. You are a more passive kind of person.

You may think sex is gross because Mars is a gross planet, and it's the planet of sex but when Neptune is there with it, it changes that because neptune likes everything perfect, dreamy, beautiful and so maybe that's why.

But I think time could change that idk.

But don't worry about anything and about your friends saying anything. You are who you are and don't let others or society make you feel different because everyone is different in the first place but we can all relate to everyone and I can relate to you.

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thanks for the comment Mia um i get what u are saying, tbh even celebrities seem a bit bland to me now. i have had some bad relationships in the past, so it could be like what you said.
um so neptune is the culprit, im an idealist so i agree but i hope my views changes as well.

posted October 01, 2014 03:21 PM            

Here's some info: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6fzt3n-uiKc

posted October 01, 2014 03:23 PM            

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Originally posted by Gemini30:
Wow you have alot venus and mars aspecting your outer planers, yet you find sex disgusting? Thats a first for my investigative astrology journey!

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i don't know how to put it, i like the idea of sex but the only sex ive seen is on porn, and i find that replusive, especially when women spread their genitalia, it grosses me out, now that i think abt it maybe it was wrong to watch porn at all. i find women attractive, i enjoy their company, in fact i get along with women more than men, i think they understand me more but sex is just an unnecessary element imo. maybe i can enjoy sex if i dont look at it..

posted October 01, 2014 03:32 PM            

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Originally posted by Sabina79:
Hi Astroboy888,

I don't think your chart suggests "loner." Certainly with such a marked stellium in the 4th house, you are a homebody, less inclined towards socialization. The rulers of your ASC and DSC (Venus and Mars in Aquarius and Capricorn, respectively) are also in the 4th house, accentuating this home-bound quality. This is not good or bad, it simply depends on your own perception. There are A LOT of homebodies out there, including myself. If you live in a society that glorifies relationships and social media, this can feel very isolating. This is doubly true if everyone around you seems to be having- and enjoying- sex. I can assure you, having once been 18, everyone is NOT having- or necessarily enjoying- sex at that age.

As a Capricorn myself, I can tell you that this sign (abundant in your own chart) is given towards worry and depressive thoughts. The fact that your stellium in Capricorn sextiles your Saturn emphasizes this point. Things often SEEM worse than they really are to us at any age, but especially when young. Thoughts like "I am so weird. A 'normal' boy my age would not only want to get laid every five minutes, he would LOVE it." In reality, that comment may lead to a resounding YES" for some and an equally loud "NO" for others. If you suffer from self-esteem issues, your age, stamina, and the relative beauty of a potential sexual partner are moot. You simply just aren't into it.

Emotionally, you are an Aquarius which CAN and often does lead to over-analysis and rationalization, causing you to feel even more separate and apart from those around you. My brother has this Moon placement and can certainly relate to this. Your Moon is in the 5th house. To quote one site "You are emotionally expressive and often dramatize your feelings, acting them out or blowing them out of proportion." Now, the Aquarius nature of your Moon will tone down the actual EMOTIONAL expression (the 5th house being Leo's turf, and Aquarius being its opposite), but the underlying dramatics are still very much present; they will manifest not as tears or tantrums (fire = action) but in speech/writing/overthinking (air = mental). We can safely say this is true.

My guess is, IF you have already had sex (and I'm not asking for verification or denial), you were not emotionally attached to the other person. While this is hardly necessary for many people, it is necessary for a good number. You may be male, given to cynical thinking and overanalysis, but the irony is I suspect you will need to feel emotional attachment before enjoying something like sex which, let's face it, is hardly tidy or generally romance novelesque. LOL If you experienced sex as an extension of love rather than just an experience to be had or a chance to get off, I think you would find it enjoyable. Again, this is NOT true of everyone, and many males (at least in my culture) are discouraged from this line of thought. I do think it is true of you, however. Now it's a matter of maturing to the point where you might allow yourself such an attachment- which is an entirely separate issue. Emotional intimacy is the scariest thing in the world for individuals who prefer to be in control (strong Capricorn) and compartmentalize feelings (Moon/Venus in Aquarius). It requires a level of vulnerability you may not be ready for. Yet.

The purpose of astrology is not to tell anyone they're fate is sealed but to reveal an intricate map of the psyche to be employed as a tool by the said individual. You know what you have to work with. Capricorn is nothing if not capable of taking on- and winning- a challenge. And with Jupiter conjuncting your Sun, your chances of success are even greater.

I want to stress again one of the most important factors here (an environmental one)- your age. You are young and in that stage of emotional/psychological development where everything is heightened. Everything. Even apathy, believe it or not. You are quite normal for your age and personality. If you were to find someone of close age with a similar chart, you would understand how UN-alone you really are.

I hope this helps in some small way.

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Hey, wow! thanks for your in depth comment Sabina i agree with everything u said, maybe im just too young but i do feel that most of my negative and uniterested view of the world is because of capricorn and aquarius. and i do over analyze a lot of things, which makes things seem to me worse than it already is.
haha what you said abt the 5th house is so true, i spent a lot of time writing short stories and poems, it reflects a lot of my views abt personality, but it is not always easy for me because artistic or emotional expression is not easy for me.

posted October 01, 2014 03:34 PM            

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Originally posted by scropiojunkie85:
You should look into human design. I had the same feelings for a while and human design (which is also based on astrology) gave me a really cool new perspective. You look like you have a projector or manifestor chart, I could be wrong... but I'm a projector and you sound like the same old projector/ unrecognized/under-appreciated story.

Here's some info: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6fzt3n-uiKc

Projector: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Njz7_NsQLVQ

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posted October 01, 2014 04:12 PM            

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Originally posted by Gemini30:
Wow you have alot venus and mars aspecting your outer planers, yet you find sex disgusting? Thats a first for my investigative astrology journey!

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Don't you know strong outer planets are likely to result in...hmm...an unusal person?

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We can have some very 'sexual' placements and still be on the asexual spectrum. It WOULD be fascinating to research that, however. I agree.

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posted October 01, 2014 05:31 PM            

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Originally posted by I'm so cappy:
Astroboy888
Try not to worry about it too much and give yourself some time to mature and figure out your feelings on these matters before you attempt anything. If your repulsion doesn't disappear within the next few years and you'd like to do something about it, then you should seek professional help. It's ok not to want a relationship and not to like sex but you should realize the latter would complicate your love life a lot if you'd like to have one. Anyway, I can relate to some extent and I see there are similarities between our charts.

Don't you know strong outer planets are likely to result in...hmm...an unusal person?

[QUOTE]We can have some very 'sexual' placements and still be on the asexual spectrum. It WOULD be fascinating to research that, however. I agree.

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posted October 01, 2014 05:51 PM            

As if astrology wasn't already vast enough.

posted October 01, 2014 06:01 PM            

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Originally posted by Astroboy888:
i don't know how to put it, i like the idea of sex but the only sex ive seen is on porn, and i find that replusive, especially when women spread their genitalia, it grosses me out, now that i think abt it maybe it was wrong to watch porn at all. i find women attractive, i enjoy their company, in fact i get along with women more than men, i think they understand me more but sex is just an unnecessary element imo. maybe i can enjoy sex if i dont look at it..

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Pornography is pure fantasy. Asexuals don't like the false reality projected by pornography or other fantastic forms of sexuality. We DO tend to enjoy the idea of sex, but are disappointed by the realities of it -- dirty, messy, complicated, quickly losing novelty and no longer interesting. Many 'Aces' (such as myself) require a question to answer -- a conundrum, or even a challenge. Several of us have become sex researchers and scientists due to our unusual approach to sex.

We don't experience sexual attraction, though we CAN experience physical attraction. It just doesn't lead to wanting or desiring sex.

We don't have lust. We don't get 'libidinous'. Many dislike the fact they have to endure the physical processes associated with the normal functioning of genitalia!

We MAY engage in sex with a partner if we have a very deep emotional and intellectual bond, (the 'greysexual' or 'demisexual') but for most Aces, sexual intercourse is a total no-fly zone. It's 'disgusting' and 'repulsive' and they have no desire for the physical consummation of a relationship.

So, in many ways, you simply seem as if your brain is wired differently, and your orientation is asexual, rather than sexual.

If you begin reevaluating yourself through this lens, you may suddenly feel as if you no longer are 'not fitting in', but that everyone simply has a different approach, and the human race is (presently) dominated by those with a sexual orientation.

But there's an estimated 1% asexual population, too. No small number! So we're clearly not statistically insignificant. Our DNA hasn't been naturally selected out, either. There's a reason we're here. We just have to find what that is.

Personally, I feel it's to help gear our human society away from the ideals it's embraced for millennia. Not to do away with sexual reproduction, but to understand the alternate approaches OF sexual reproduction. Our society is too heavily dominated by sex-negative attitudes and wrought with addiction. Our relationships are marked by possession, fear, and powerplays.

It's my humble belief that the asexual population is a part of the Indigo movement, and encompasses many old souls here to raise the vibration on the planet. But, hey, evolution is scary, and the unknown frightens people before they can begin to understand it.

posted October 01, 2014 06:05 PM            

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I think there are threads on this subject on LL.

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posted October 01, 2014 07:12 PM            

According to my research:

THE ASEXUAL SPECTRUM
1. asexuals - do not experience sexual attraction
2. grey zone:
grey-asexuals - experience sexual attraction seldom/experience sexual attraction too weak to bother
demisexuals - can (I suppose it doesn't happen every time, at least not for everyone) experience sexual attraction only after forming an emotional bond, romantic or not
lithsexuals (controversial) - experience sexual attraction but don't want it to be reciprocated, it has an off-putting effect on them

Whether there is a libido, the level of this libido and approach to sex depends on the individual.

Astroboy said he finds women attractive. I assume he meant sexual attraction. Now the question is how many times it has happened so far. Either way, it's possible to be sex-repulsed and not be on the asexual spectrum. Just like it's possible to be somewhere on this spectrum and not be sex-repulsed.

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Pornography is pure fantasy. Asexuals don't like the false reality projected by pornography or other fantastic forms of sexuality.

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@Astroboy
The vast majority of professional productions is a fail and the people tend to look eww so if that's the only kind of porn you've seen, you should give a try to amateur videos and hentai. I'm not saying you should watch porn but maybe you'd feel differently about sex and private parts if you explored something else.

posted October 01, 2014 07:46 PM            

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Originally posted by kaianna:
I think its because north node in the 1st house making you more indepedent in this lifetime, also you have chiron in libra suggesting that partnerships bring you pain.

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posted October 01, 2014 07:48 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Pornography is pure fantasy. Asexuals don't like the false reality projected by pornography or other fantastic forms of sexuality. We DO tend to enjoy the idea of sex, but are disappointed by the realities of it -- dirty, messy, complicated, quickly losing novelty and no longer interesting. Many 'Aces' (such as myself) require a question to answer -- a conundrum, or even a challenge. Several of us have become sex researchers and scientists due to our unusual approach to sex.

We don't experience sexual attraction, though we CAN experience physical attraction. It just doesn't lead to wanting or desiring sex.

We don't have lust. We don't get 'libidinous'. Many dislike the fact they have to endure the physical processes associated with the normal functioning of genitalia!

We MAY engage in sex with a partner if we have a very deep emotional and intellectual bond, (the 'greysexual' or 'demisexual') but for most Aces, sexual intercourse is a total no-fly zone. It's 'disgusting' and 'repulsive' and they have no desire for the physical consummation of a relationship.

So, in many ways, you simply seem as if your brain is wired differently, and your orientation is asexual, rather than sexual.

If you begin reevaluating yourself through this lens, you may suddenly feel as if you no longer are 'not fitting in', but that everyone simply has a different approach, and the human race is (presently) dominated by those with a sexual orientation.

But there's an estimated 1% asexual population, too. No small number! So we're clearly not statistically insignificant. Our DNA hasn't been naturally selected out, either. There's a reason we're here. We just have to find what that is.

Personally, I feel it's to help gear our human society away from the ideals it's embraced for millennia. Not to do away with sexual reproduction, but to understand the alternate approaches OF sexual reproduction. Our society is too heavily dominated by sex-negative attitudes and wrought with addiction. Our relationships are marked by possession, fear, and powerplays.

It's my humble belief that the asexual population is a part of the Indigo movement, and encompasses many old souls here to raise the vibration on the planet. But, hey, evolution is scary, and the unknown frightens people before they can begin to understand it.

Hopefully, I can bring some calm to the worried sexual population while helping my fellow Aces find their place in the greater whole.

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after all that ive read from u i think i maybe asexual, wow could be, i hope iam, life would be a lot interesting that way, haha

posted October 01, 2014 07:51 PM            

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Originally posted by I'm so cappy:
@Aubyanne

According to my research:

THE ASEXUAL SPECTRUM
1. asexuals - do not experience sexual attraction
2. grey zone:
grey-asexuals - experience sexual attraction seldom/experience sexual attraction too weak to bother
demisexuals - can (I suppose it doesn't happen every time, at least not for everyone) experience sexual attraction only after forming an emotional bond, romantic or not
lithsexuals (controversial) - experience sexual attraction but don't want it to be reciprocated, it has an off-putting effect on them

Whether there is a libido, the level of this libido and approach to sex depends on the individual.

Astroboy said he finds women attractive. I assume he meant sexual attraction. Now the question is how many times it has happened so far. Either way, it's possible to be sex-repulsed and not be on the asexual spectrum. Just like it's possible to be somewhere on this spectrum and not be sex-repulsed.

[QUOTE]Pornography is pure fantasy. Asexuals don't like the false reality projected by pornography or other fantastic forms of sexuality.

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