posted June 20, 2025 03:15 PM            

She sat behind me in class, and ever since then, things have been… weird. Her and her friends have been quietly making my life miserable. There’s been this ongoing pattern of digital stalking…they’ve taken pictures of my laptop and phone during class, and somehow found anonymous forums I post on. They even found my Reddit, where I talk about personal things, including some feelings I had about her. Now I’m pretty sure they’ve shared those posts in group chats, because I’ve overheard classmates bringing up stuff only someone who read those posts would know. It’s invasive and childish, especially considering we’re all grown..over 21.

To make it worse, a lot of these same classmates have Pluto in Sagittarius tightly conjunct my Ascendant. It’s like I’m constantly being scrutinized under a microscope. I’ve really tried to be compassionate. I think she might be bisexual or questioning, and that something about me triggers something deeply uncomfortable inside her. I don’t say that to flatter myself, I say it because the energy between us feels charged, even though we don’t interact in-person. But I also know she comes from a strict cultural and an intolerant religious background, and that can be a heavy burden to carry. Still, it’s not mine to carry for her.

I even tried reaching out once on instagram, just being kind and casual…nothing more. Things seemed okay for a bit, until one day she just stopped responding. But I still have this strong feeling that she continues to watch me online, maybe even reading this now.

That Mars-Pluto conjunction..especially in my 12th.. feels like emotional voyeurism. It’s like she wants to watch me, learn about me, observe from a distance, but never actually connect. She wants access to who I am, but I’m not allowed access to who she is. It’s like I’m a one-way mirror. She can look in, but I can’t look back.