posted June 13, 2017 11:51 AM            

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Originally posted by rayofnight:
I really want to thank you both for helping me on this. I have no one to talk to at all so it's been a very isolating experience for me. He has basically closed me off to everything and I'm fighting my way out as we speak. I'm 1800 miles away from my hometown, don't know anyone here and he has had my driver's license and vehicle taken from me. Trapped, indeed.

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I had a bad fight once years ago and it got abusive physically. We then went to do errands and we were in the car, when the car slowed down and stopped briefly do to traffic I got out of the car and walked to the nearest gas station. I then talked to strangers and asked them to give me a ride to the airport which was an hour a way and there was a couple who did me that favor. I bought a ticket to Florida to go stay with my parents, I had nothing on me except my purse.

posted June 13, 2017 04:07 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
His birthday is NOVEMBER 3 1956 born at 10:10 am in the morning.

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posted June 13, 2017 04:13 PM            

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Originally posted by hypatia238:
I guess the conjunction to Jupiter from ruler of his 5H is more powerful than the sextile to Saturn, must be overriding it specially when you factor in that Jupiter is also opposing his mars in pisces.

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posted June 13, 2017 05:49 PM            

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Originally posted by nordicsoul:
Rayofnight, how are you doing?

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posted June 13, 2017 10:12 PM            

Here you go - the dirty details that I recovered from his deleted files:

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasmin.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasmincdn.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasmincdn.test"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.livejasmin.dev"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.livejasmin2.dev"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.livejasmin.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.livejasmincdn.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.livejasmin.test"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.livejasmincdn.test"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jmg"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.lslcdn.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.lslcdn.test"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.dtv-dev.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.dtv-test.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.doclertv.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.lj.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasminboys.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasminfetish.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.ljstatic.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasminboysstatic.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.jasminfetishstatic.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.dditscdn.com"/>

<allow-access-from secure="false" to-ports="*" domain="*.awempire.com"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jmg" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasmin.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasmincdn.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasmincdn.test" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.livejasmin.dev" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.livejasmin2.dev" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.livejasmin.test" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.livejasmin.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.livejasmincdn.test" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.livejasmincdn.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.lslcdn.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.lslcdn.test" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.dtv-dev.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.dtv-test.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.doclertv.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.lj.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasminboys.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasminfetish.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.ljstatic.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasminboysstatic.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.jasminfetishstatic.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.dditscdn.com" headers="*"/>

<allow-http-request-headers-from secure="false" domain="*.awempire.com" headers="*"/>

posted June 13, 2017 11:12 PM            

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Originally posted by rayofnight:
Sadly, hypatia238, my parents have been dead for 90 years collectively - it's been 49 years for my mom and 41 for my dad. I was 6 when she died and I was a momma's girl. Anyway, I've never had parents to fall back on - actually, we've never had anyone to turn to but you adapt. And we've never known any different so it's not as bad as losing it after having experienced it.

edit: to add last few words. Sentence felt incomplete.

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I am truly sorry to hear that!

posted June 13, 2017 11:24 PM            

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Originally posted by rayofnight:
One more unsettling detail to add: He has visited a website three times in the last 2 days, www.thebody.com - it's primary purpose appears to be giving guidance to people newly diagnosed with HIV/AIDS.

Seriously, can this possibly get any better?

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Holy Cow!!!!!!!!

It might be a good thing then that you guys were not very active sexually, HIV is not as contagious as the "media" or our "educational system" portrays it to be.

"...people around the world are convinced that the virus is easier to get than it actually is. The median person thinks that if you have unprotected sex with an HIV-positive person a single time, you will get HIV for sure. The truth is that it’s not nearly that easy to get HIV – the medical literature estimates that the transmission rate is actually about 0.1% per sex act, or 10% per year."

http://blogs.worldbank.org/impactevaluati ons/people-think-it-s-easy-contract-hiv-s-good-thing-right-maybe-not-guest-post-jason-kerwin

So odds are that if he does indeed have HIV that you probably don't. I hope this consoles you...

posted June 13, 2017 11:34 PM            

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Originally posted by rayofnight:
I am relieved to finally have my suspicions validated. I filed for divorce today and I'm trying not to tell him what a piece of sh*t he is every time he walks by but I haven't been very successful. I looked at the web traffic from the past two days and it looks like he's communicating with a woman in Russia, plus he has visited chat sites frequently. There's the typical porn on there but that doesn't bother me. When they include a live person in real time, that's where the line is for me. However, there were some disturbing things on there and I will try to add them to this post. Since you guys have been so helpful, it's only fair that you should get to see the smutty, seedy details, don't you think? And thank you for checking on me - your concern is truly touching and greatly appreciated.

Here you go - the dirty details that I recovered from his deleted files:

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I am super proud of you for taking that step! I completely understand you were already on the edge and wanted to do this but needed a push and some validation that "you are not crazy" before moving forward with it.

You deserve better! I admire women in their 40s or 50s, you don't want to mess with that age range, I have noticed women in that age range will not take any more BS and are soooooo ready to break free from bad relationships, is really inspiring to watch.

posted June 14, 2017 04:11 AM            

so the man might have been looking at boys?

I am glad to hear that it is over in terms of you putting all the pieces together. As Hypathia was saying, you were ready, but needed the validation to take your decision.

in terms of not having parents around or maybe friends nearby may feel distressing, but I have learned (by living many years an ocean away from family) and moving from country to country (where you end up losing the physical closeness with the friends you bonded with) that I know that "anything" and "anybody" at the right time and the right moment can play that positive role. I have found many times comfort in books, or in a movie, or just by random conversation online or offline with strangers. I believe that what is important is to try to connect our consciousness with what is good in the world. sometimes we just need "one single person" to be there in times of need. that person has not need to be always the same person or being family or close friends. I have been inspired and supported by the most random situations and people, who may never know how much they impacted me.

I have observed that whatever life bring to us is what we "need" to make the best of our talents, potential and life purpose. with that I do not mean that any event, person or situation are meant to be. with that I mean that whatever situation makes us to connect with our life purpose and makes us more "alive" is good in the large scheme of things. however, negative are not necessary unless we need it to wake up. if we wake up or learn without that harsh lesson, then it is easier. said that, I think at this point if you want, we can start analysyng your chart instead. at this point we already figured out the person you are leaving behind, but before we sing victory, it is good to start searching what got you in that place and how you can move on spirituality and psychologically from that situation. making the physical move is an important step with is full of symbolic meaning. but you need also to make the conscious assessment to that circumstances in terms of what they say about you. at the end of the day anything happening to us is "about us", so here some provoking questions:

what side of you "conspire" or "sabotage" to get you to pair with such a person? what side of you have "needed" a man like him to make you feel completed? this question comes from the Jungian perspective that we search for people who reflects our shadow side (meaning whatever it is not known to us and we do not own, but we have it potentially inside us). the shadow is not necessarily negative. but for some reason or another we put them in a dark part of our psyche and need a projector (the person we attract to our life) to make us aware or to live that side of us denied of attention.

what part of him is living out a shadow side of you? this is a tricky question. sometimes what made us fall in love with someone is the same thing that is the cause of separation. why? because that area makes us alive when first experience, but it is also something we wish do not have. one way to look at it is by digging into the things that cause you gut reactions. they point out to projected content. hope i am not confusing you so hard at this point...

what parts of "suppressed shadow side" needs to be accepted and integrated into the new you to prevent such persons to enter your life again disguises as "new promises" or "this time is different" just to end up being the same old piece of sh...

if you want to create a new thread, so we can move on from the energy of this one, you can post and link if here, so people can follow the story from the other thread.

I hope you are gaining all your strengths and are feeling hopeful for a new beginning. it would be interesting to see your transits and progressions by now, just to see how your life is unfolding and what is the universe is revealing, what are the areas that need attention and so forth..

best of wishes