posted July 26, 2021 09:13 AM            

We're not very close, we're just friends. But it's been a really longgg time getting close to her (whether she's reluctant to let me in, or I am not forthcoming enough, I don't know). However I genuinely feel like we're on the same mental planet, we're like-minded people and we get on very well whenever we are together. She's made it clear she really cares about me but, me being the type of perseon I am have kept my feelings about her extremely hidden and I fear I may have come across like I don't care for her as much as she does me.

Why am I so obsessed with her? I feel like it's my life's mission to be with her or else I'll die. It feels very extreme to me.

I'd like to know if there's any indication that she feels even the slightest of what I feel for her.

And, aside from my 12H Venus, what is making me keep this inside? I'm as terrified of letting this out as I am of keeping it inside.

I don't know what to do.

Synastry chart: http://imgur.com/Gs0fAKI
My Natal chart: http://imgur.com/3gV68m3

aspects datasheet: https://imgur.com/a/3VmXoFu

posted July 26, 2021 02:46 PM            

Here's our synastry chart https://imgur.com/Gs0fAKI

posted July 30, 2021 05:26 AM            

The tricky part is you also have Mercury square Neptune and that’s squaring her Moon as well. There is strong intuitive bond but a lot of misinterpretations as well.

posted July 30, 2021 11:55 AM            

In addition, I noticed your H7 ruler Uranus is opposite your north node. Her Moon and Venus opposition is squaring that, so that could also generate some serious fated feelings.

posted July 31, 2021 05:42 AM            

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Originally posted by Orange:
you have the notorious Mars- Pluto conjunction. There is not known cure for it at this times.

Also your Saturn on her Venus also contributes to a relentless dedication to the cause

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posted July 31, 2021 05:53 AM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Just looked at your synastry and saw the infamous Mars conjunct Pluto. This could be the cause of the obsessive connection you feel.

In addition, I noticed your H7 ruler Uranus is opposite your north node. Her Moon and Venus opposition is squaring that, so that could also generate some serious fated feelings.

@drownme: where's your vertex?

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Thank you! I didn't notice that with my north node, that's really interesting. Fated feelings just for me, or for her too?

posted July 31, 2021 06:27 AM            

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Originally posted by drownme:
Thank you! I didn't notice that with my north node, that's really interesting. Fated feelings just for me, or for her too?

My vertex is in Sagittarius

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I wished I could tell you for sure if she was feeling the same as you. Even though you share some powerful synastry, as far as I understand astrology there never is a guarantee. You need to actually ask them about their feelings to find out.

Connections to the nodes and the Vertex axis usually indicate some type of growing experience. I don't know the exact degree of your Vertex, but your crush has Uranus, Jupiter and Neptune in Sagittarius. She also has her nodal axis in Sagittarius-Gemini. Please check the degree to see if there is a match.

posted August 25, 2021 06:50 PM            

1. Uranus conj SN in 7H, Karmic strong, Neptune conj DSC EXACT sq moon - this is dreamy illusionary potential fake/unrealistic either you for her or her for you or switch as time goes on

2. Uranus/nodes sq her venus - that brings her venus to the south bend of your nodes, which is supposed to be hidden and difficult to manifest

posted September 06, 2021 04:41 AM            

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Originally posted by PlutoWasHere:
Connections to the nodes and the Vertex axis usually indicate some type of growing experience. I don't know the exact degree of your Vertex, but your crush has Uranus, Jupiter and Neptune in Sagittarius. She also has her nodal axis in Sagittarius-Gemini. Please check the degree to see if there is a match.

The interesting fact is that your north node is in Leo H1. In another topic you indicate your lack of feeling with this sign. As others have indicated, this might be something you need to grow into. The location of your north node seems to support this. Maybe this crush will help you get more in touch with the Leo side of your personality. Your Leo north node tells you to shine!

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posted September 06, 2021 04:43 AM            

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Originally posted by kani:
I just checked your synastry and saw that there is a distinctive age gap between you. I don't mind that (my bf is also 10 years younger than me) but does that play a part in your reluctance towards her? Are you scared she might reject you because you are significantly younger than her?

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posted September 06, 2021 04:49 AM            

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Originally posted by stone1:
since your feeling of hiding the emotion is so unique, i am bringing my thought on this:

1. Uranus conj SN in 7H, Karmic strong, Neptune conj DSC EXACT sq moon - this is dreamy illusionary potential fake/unrealistic either you for her or her for you or switch as time goes on

2. Uranus/nodes sq her venus - that brings her venus to the south bend of your nodes, which is supposed to be hidden and difficult to manifest

I'm curious - does she have a quite unique/bizzare personality? 2. are you quite career oriented? Not sure about your age, how is your career so far?

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Ahhh that's interesting, thank you!

I definitely relate to the dreamy illusionary fake/unrealistic.

How did you know she has a unique/bizzare personality? Haha. Yes she does. Actually a few of our mutual friends/acquaintances have expressed to me that they don't really like her/they find her weird. But to me her personality is awesome.

posted September 12, 2021 07:00 PM            

A few years back the two planets that had me very strongly connecting with another, I felt it was overly so - led me to disconnect that rs. Neptune & Uranus had their fingerprints everywhere. Once I realized it, afterwards, I was not surprised. I did wish I'd studied charts back then though! It was before my LL visits.

Uranus might have you feeling it is a peculiar attraction or you can't shake it so easily, depending on where it is/was @the event. Neptune will give you that fantasy feeling. Like this person is so charming, you can't escape their charm. If this makes sense.

I'm still looking but she could feel as drawn to you due to the Neptune/Neptune influence

Okay - unrelated from the Neptunia dreaminess. I created a thread awhile back. Your chart (synastry) has the Sun + ?hers) is nearby your MC right? Well
I can personally say this is a love sticking potential. A cupid's arrow imo. I met my former bf in our neighborhood not work. My Sun cnj his MC yet the magic or lovespell was permanent until I tried hard to break it. Idk how powerful your feelings are, if you are the Sun person it could be powerful. If not for her there's a good chance she does feel something too.