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GalacticCoreExplosionV2
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posted October 09, 2021 06:49 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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posted October 11, 2021 01:41 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for athenaia     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Love stellium in the composite = powerful, objectively felt by both parties, in the 7th no less? In Pisces? Supported by the Moon, Pluto, and Neptune? Opposite Mars? Yeah that's a heady cocktail. I don't think I'd be able to forget something like this either (for better or for worse).

Venus will be retrograde in late Capricorn in December if I recall correctly. That affects your Sun, her Neptune, it will be sextile her Moon/Pluto conjunction, and trine her Chiron and your Saturn. It will be in the composite's 5th house. I kinda think that's when the seeds of reconciliation will be planted.

Plus Jupiter in Pisces next year will conjunct the composite DSC and go over the love stellium/Mars, I think that's when official, earth plane communication will be re-established.

Honestly I'm curious to see what happens when transit Uranus conjuncts the composite MC..

Her Venus/Saturn is trine her Moon/Pluto, AND her Venus/Saturn falls in your 8th, plus her Mars right on your ASC... I mean yeah, she must have a profound effect on you. It definitely might terrify her and her irreverent Aries Sun ways (I also had a situation like this very similar to yours with another Aries Sun, haunting haunting. You said your guides "gaslit" you about this connection once, that's exactly where I'm at with that person).

Do you have an asteroid in late Cancer maybe? Like Pallas Athena, Lilith, Juno, Priapus? It would form and complete a grand trine with her Moon/Pluto and her Venus/Saturn and could be a missing puzzle piece here.

The Venus/Mars opposite both ways might be what Luna refers to as a type of perpetual on/off period between you both. It's a chaser-runner dynamic at its core, but there is such enormous potential to melt into each other. Seems like that's the karma you guys have to sort through in this life? You both want to merge but one of you is deeply terrified of doing this (she has the potential to with that Moon/Pluto conjunction but it's up to her if she wants to develop that further within herself)

Also the past life recall you mentioned... relationships are about compromise, right? Sometimes in life (most of the time) when we share our lives with another person, there are certain things we have to deprive ourselves of if it means maintaining the healthy bond we share with another person. Perhaps in this past life, she felt betrayed because she interpreted your behavior as refusing to compromise with her? You were dead set on what you wanted to do, maybe without realizing that the lack of meeting her in the middle made her interpret your behavior as a lack of respect for her needs? That she was nothing to you? The lack of "loyalty"/compromise to her was an unforgivable sin even though you had pure intentions. She could have rationalized it by saying that if she truly loved someone, even if Heaven waited for her, she would reject it in the name of love. It's early here and this thought randomly came to me, idk if it resonates with you or not but this could be why you are being so profoundly punished in this incarnation between you two? Also makes sense where her Scorpio Moon/Pluto conjunction comes from if she strongly held that belief in the past.

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posted October 12, 2021 02:21 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for PlutoWasHere     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
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Originally posted by GalacticCoreExplosionV2:
Possibly to the first part and to the last part.

It's just odd that normally I have a pretty easy time detaching from people, stuff, conditions, etc, and yet it was so difficult with her.


I noticed that your Sagittarius Neptune forms a tight square to her Pisces Saturn. I’ve seen a lot of posts about hard Saturn Neptune contacts related to the “star crossed lovers” archetype. Lots of obstacles and yearning with difficulty of letting go. One of the partners usually pulls out of the connection due to fear.

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posted October 13, 2021 04:32 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for PlutoWasHere     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Because I strongly felt your nodes were somehow very triggered, I took another look at your synastry. Her Pluto closely squares your nodes. I feel this is very significant. There is a distinct Plutonian flavor to this relationship. There might be some necessary karmic growth involved with regards to your nodes.

There is also a strong Aries-Libra theme in this relationship that mirrors your natal H1/H7 nodes, both in synastry and composite. I noticed your natal Libra Moon is conjunct the composite Libra nnode. It might also be relevant that Pluto is still transit in Capricorn, another cardinal sign, and squaring her Aries Sun.

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posted October 13, 2021 06:31 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for AlmaRegulus     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Galactic, concerning the Saturn-Neptune aspect, I think it also matters in the mirroring pattern:

she has Venus-Saturn, your Mars is also pretty close to Saturn, and these 2 pairs are opposite to each other

I didn't calculate exact degrees but roughly I believe her Venus/Saturn midpoint is opposite your Mars/Saturn midpoint, with her Chiron on your Mars/Saturn midpoint

That seems like a painful combination, plus your Neptune squares her pair and her Jupiter squares yours.

So it looks like a topic of masculinity/femininity blockages and attraction - well, you know better the astro symbolics.

As someone with Cap Venus I can totally imagine that her with Venus-Saturn is not going to get closer with someone with a partner in an open relationship. That is the major reason why she doesn't feel she needs to give back anything to you or that she owes you anything despite your efforts and emotional investment. In her mind your approach is fundamentally wrong, hence, with all your efforts you only compensate for this wrongness. Also, I don't think it feels happy for her to have your Saturn opposite her already Saturnian Venus.

This mirroring plus your Neptune makes you feel like twin souls but honestly it doesn't look like a twin synastry unless something is there with asteroids or with Draco.

The mirrored masculinity-femininity is also there in her Mars - your Venus opposition. Yes, I think it's there with this orb, plus it's a double-whammy. It's on your Asc - Dsc axis which makes you more hooked on it.

It's also important that your Chiron is on her South Node. It looks like a hurt in the past, therefore you are now in the healing role. But you expect healing from her as well on your Mars/Saturn integration.

And with her Moon-Pluto conjunction tightly square your nodes she must be also pretty obsessed with you.

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posted October 17, 2021 02:53 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for GalacticCoreExplosionV2     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I appreciate everyone's previous time, care, and feedback. I erased most of my past replies because I've come to the conclusion that it's all likely just delusion, and that the likely truth is, she doesn't give an ounce or iota of care about me at all.

I don't want to talk about her and the past anymore.

If I'm proven wrong in the future, then I'll change my mind, but meanwhile, there is no point in holding on to a ghost. I've shed enough tears over it over the last 2 + years.

It was either Fake Plastic Trees, or she is so controlled by fear that there is no point in me caring anymore.

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