posted August 26, 2005 09:30 PM
Good luck!
Wouldn't it be easier if someone just gave you the money?Im almost absolutely sure nothing interests me.
Odd isnt it?
What the **** am I meant to do?
There is no easy way.
Youre damned if you do and youre damned if you dont, aye.
Ive tried to find something I like doing and I havent found anything yet.
My conclusion "Nothing really matters"
So if nothing really matters it doesent matter what you do.
As for aquarians? HA How about cancerians?
Of course, you can do anything you want.
If you wanted anything you could get it.
If someone needed help then youd help them.
Im hoping someone will be able to point it out to me what I like doing.
Im afraid im sick of working.
Ive seen the road to no where laid out before me.
Take this for example:
Say I earn $500NZ a week which would be great but unrealistic unless maybe I wanted to work in a factory...
Say I save $300 a week (again unrealistic)
In one year Id have $15,000
in ten id have $150,000
in 100 id have $1,500,000
House prices around here average $250,000
So id have to work for FIFTEEN YEARS to buy a house...
What say my wife then leaves me?
Then Id lose HALF!
I dont even have a girlfriend let alone a wife!
I dont know whats going to happen.
I think if I had a girlfriend I could see myself more clearly.
I pray Ill find a girl that likes me,
and so far i havent.
I can stare into space for hours on end, maintain a calm expression.
Im good at expressing emotion through intellectual ideas.
Though I have no emotion.
There is nothing I can contribute to the world.
As far as Im concerned all the answers are out there.
I have no special talent.
I can see my future and it looks very bleak indeed.
The world should be ashamed of itself for letting this happen to me.
Love is all indeed.
and then theres light, which comes under love.
As far as im concerned i have no light to give, no special message I need to impart.
Nothing new Ive realised, after all there is nothing new is there.
What do I love?
Sunshine outside clear days fresh air wartmth COMFORT a feeling of being valued.
Her, wait wheres her in all this?
No SHE is all I want.
You know what I think I think everyone is gay
Dont they KNOW earths greatest delight.
Im afraid Its people with money who make me look bad.
I have love, in my mind.
Thats the one true reality, and all those people out there are saying um well no thats not love"
Those barstards can burn in hell as for all I care.
Much of what i have learned I got from books and i see no point in repeating it.
And as I said before nothing really matters.
Yes I want the money that goes with work but no Im not willing to compromise my happiness in doing so.
Its not worth it as far as I can see.
F*** my life sucks.
The only reason I choose to continue to live is because of the hope that one day I will be In a love relationship again, and Im not very hopeful.
Those responsible for my pain will surely pay, so sayeth the LORD and its not ME, as ive done all I can
How long shall they burn our prophets?
Have a FN nice day