posted February 18, 2005 05:50 AM         

I have no words to compare

no words to meet your words

I am almost too embarrassed,

too silly

too touched to speak

I want to cover my face like the Phantom

The limits of communication, like a cage,

I want to break with speed

I cant forgive you for being so wonderful to me,

'tread softly because you tread on my dreams.'

posted February 18, 2005 05:58 AM         

Often, to pass the time on board, the crew
will catch an albatross, one of those big birds
which nonchalantly chaperone a ship
across the bitter fathoms of the sea.

Tied to the deck, this sovereign of space,
as if embarrassed by its clumsiness,
pitiably lets its great white wings
drag at its sides like a pair of unshipped oars.

How weak and awkward, even comical
this traveller but lately so adroit --
one deckhand sticks a pipestem in its beak,
another mocks the cripple that once flew!

The Poet is like this monarch of the clouds
riding the storm above the marksman's range;
exiled on the ground, hooted and jeered,
he cannot walk because of his great wings.

posted February 18, 2005 07:25 AM         

And then I’m in another room, and she’s not there, but I can hear her laughing – is it her – I think its her, she’s laughing in this awful way, and I think “She doesn’t love me,”.

This is where my eyelids flushed, when I began almost to waken up, and there was, as it were, the strains of mundane consciousness a’ creeping. You can’t fight that. Not when you don’t want to.

posted February 18, 2005 07:58 AM         

I am a harvest child, full of a fair crop of stories and dreams, fantasies and beliefs. I just want to be, cherish the life that comes by and relish every breath.

You are a fabulous creature of might, so strong and ambitious and yet so bound by your soaring flights of glory. I would love to welcome you into my Eden of countless dreams, to wield the sickle and reap the harvest of wishes and hopes with me - but, whatever you do, dont look down! The sheer height of my soaring imagination can make you dizzy!

My favorite stories include that of the boy that never grew up and the girl who loved him to death. You are the wise Caterpillar to my Alice and my March Hare would not sway someone as strong and as tornadic as you ...

posted February 18, 2005 08:09 AM         

Planetary positions
planet sign degree house motion
Sun Taurus 20°29'58 09 direct
Moon Pisces 04°27'42 06/7 direct
Moon is technically near the end of house 6 and is interpreted in house 7.
Mercury Taurus 04°57'31 09 retrograde
Venus Aries 11°40'12 08 direct
Mars Aries 10°30'20 08 direct
Jupiter Gemini 08°04'47 10 direct
Saturn Leo 10°45'17 12 direct
Uranus Scorpio 09°18'01 03 retrograde
Neptune Sagittarius 15°25'42 04 retrograde
Pluto Libra 11°50'31 02 retrograde
True Node Libra 24°06'32 02 direct

House positions (Placidus)
Ascendant Virgo 05°05'22
2nd House Libra 01°00'26
3rd House Scorpio 00°49'25
Imum Coeli Sagittarius 03°07'25
5th House Capricorn 05°34'15
6th House Aquarius 06°28'11
Descendant Pisces 05°05'22
8th House Aries 01°00'26
9th House Taurus 00°49'25
Medium Coeli Gemini 03°07'25
11th House Cancer 05°34'15
12th House Leo 06°28'11

Major aspects
Moon Sextile Mercury 0°30
Moon Square Jupiter 3°37
Moon Trine Uranus 4°50
Moon Opposition Ascendant 0°38
Mercury Square Saturn 5°48
Mercury Opposition Uranus 4°20
Mercury Trine Ascendant 0°08
Venus Conjunction Mars 1°10
Venus Sextile Jupiter 3°35
Venus Trine Saturn 0°55
Venus Quincunx Uranus 2°22
Venus Trine Neptune 3°46
Venus Opposition Pluto 0°10
Mars Sextile Jupiter 2°26
Mars Trine Saturn 0°15
Mars Quincunx Uranus 1°12
Mars Trine Neptune 4°55
Mars Opposition Pluto 1°20
Jupiter Sextile Saturn 2°41
Jupiter Quincunx Uranus 1°13
Jupiter Trine Pluto 3°46
Jupiter Square Ascendant 2°59
Saturn Square Uranus 1°27
Saturn Trine Neptune 4°40
Saturn Sextile Pluto 1°05
Uranus Sextile Ascendant 4°13
Neptune Sextile Pluto 3°35

I would love to learn more abt you. As I said, Im no good at charts and stuff but do realize what the planets stand for and am always eager to learn!

posted February 18, 2005 08:39 AM         

for Steve (male)
born on 6 Nov 1978 local time 11:38 am
in Boston, MA (US) U.T. 16:38
71w04, 42n22 sid. time 14:55:53
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Planetary positions
planet sign degree house motion
Sun Scorpio 13°54'56 09/10 direct
Sun is technically near the end of house 9 and is interpreted in house 10.
Moon Aquarius 00°55'59 01 direct
Mercury Sagittarius 04°33'38 10 direct
Venus Scorpio 15°51'28 09/10 retrograde
Venus is technically near the end of house 9 and is interpreted in house 10.
Mars Sagittarius 03°20'23 10 direct
Jupiter Leo 08°27'57 07 direct
Saturn Virgo 11°53'51 08 direct
Uranus Scorpio 16°32'47 10 direct
Neptune Sagittarius 16°48'53 11 direct
Pluto Libra 17°39'19 09 direct
True Node Virgo 25°35'12 08 retrograde

House positions (Placidus)
Ascendant Capricorn 20°51'28
2nd House Pisces 06°38'47
3rd House Aries 17°25'37
Imum Coeli Taurus 16°26'18
5th House Gemini 08°35'38
6th House Gemini 28°34'38
Descendant Cancer 20°51'28
8th House Virgo 06°38'47
9th House Libra 17°25'37
Medium Coeli Scorpio 16°26'18
11th House Sagittarius 08°35'38
12th House Sagittarius 28°34'38

Major aspects
Sun Conjunction Venus 1°57
Sun Square Jupiter 5°27
Sun Sextile Saturn 2°01
Sun Conjunction Uranus 2°38
Sun Sextile Ascendant 6°57
Moon Sextile Mercury 3°38
Moon Sextile Mars 2°24
Moon Opposition Jupiter 7°32
Mercury Conjunction Mars 1°13
Mercury Trine Jupiter 3°54
Venus Sextile Saturn 3°58
Venus Conjunction Uranus 0°41
Venus Sextile Ascendant 5°00
Mars Trine Jupiter 5°08
Saturn Sextile Uranus 4°39
Saturn Square Neptune 4°55
Uranus Sextile Ascendant 4°19
Neptune Sextile Pluto 0°50
Pluto Square Ascendant 3°12

Also, Chiron in the 3rd squares my 1st house moon and my 7th house jup, and opposes my 9th house sun.

posted February 18, 2005 09:14 AM         

And now I feel the pain of missing you, yet it goes more than skin deep, living in my eyes like a half-awakened dream, slowly seeping into my sub-conscious, like a long-forgotten melody ... till all I feel is a sad longing for the unsaid, unspoken vision - so real and yet unseen.

where are you?

Damn the Uranus in Scorpio - why does it hurt so much?

posted February 18, 2005 10:17 AM         

Did you ever see the John Cassavettes movie, "Faces"?

Have you seen "Magnolia"?

Those are two of my very favorite things.

What are some (more) of yours?

I see you like Lewis Carroll.

Did I tell you that I went to a boarding school, my sophmore year of high-school (partly to escape bullies, and partly because my two close friends had moved away), and got the lead role of little Jamie Thurbur, in 'Jaberwocky', an adaptation of the semi-autobiographical stories of James Thurber? It's named after Carroll's poem, which I spoke in the play, and which I'll try to recall now...

Beware the Jaberwock my friends
The jaws that bite, the claws that catch
beware the jub-jub bird and shun the frubious bander snatch!

Thats all I can remember right now.
We performed it in Mexico City.

posted February 18, 2005 10:57 AM         

I adored Before Sunrise, hated the inane sequel, cannot figure out Eternal Sunshine and love Michael Crighton. I get engulfed in the mysteries Robert Ludlum weaves and adore the David and Goliath in Grisham's books.

My Bible is Tolkien, I adore Harry Potter and anything that has anything to do with magic - the magic of love and courage, of friendship and bravery.

My favorites are books picked at random at thrift shops and roadside sales - they offer the surprise and reality no bestseller can. I have a passion for reading, adore faery tales, even the non-credible ones. My mantra is Deep Forest, they fullfil my soul and bring me closer to the primal reality of the me-of-me.

I love music, my current melodious muse is Alanis, followed by Norah Jones and Dido. I also like Jason Wade and Amy Lee, though only occasionally. I sometimes drown in the inanity of Zero 7, a British group.

What kind of music do you like? Which melodies open your third eye?

posted February 18, 2005 12:09 PM         

Glad you 2 have found each other for friendship and support.

I have posted this poem before:

Look To This Day
For it is life,
The very life of life.
In its brief course lie all
The realities and verities of existence,
The bliss of growth,
The splendor of action,
The glory of power . . .
For yesterday is but a dream,
And tomorrow is only a vision.
But today, well lived,
Makes every yesterday a dream of
happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of
hope.
Look well, therefore, to this day.

Sanskrit Proverb

_________________________

Steve,

Be honest and open and you will be okay. Hiding, sneaking, covering-up, secretiveness (Scorpion qualities?) - those qualities will hurt you. But, I am an Aries, and I can't relate to letting problems fester. Out with it, and it doesn't seems so bad.

I hope you do take into consideration some of the suggestions I have made.

Give your Mom a hug today.

posted February 18, 2005 12:50 PM         

How can you pick a favorite?
Thats what's so great about people like us; we can be anybody.

Yeah, I didnt think the sequel (Sunset) was so hot either. Eternal Sunshine wasn't worth figuring out, but I really liked Vanilla Sky (similarly off-beat). Never read Crighton of Ludlum, but you and my mom could probably talk for hours.

Tolkien! Faery tales are cool. Deep Forest - I think they put out a video when they first came out and I was mad into the music. Like, some kid travelling the world, or something.

I like Alanis, Norah, and Dido. Don't know the others, but I bet I'd like them too.

I should listen to more spiritual music sometimes. I'm kind of oblivious. My "third ear" dries up, then somebody plays something for me, and its like giving me a meal, when I didnt know how hungry i was. I'm so absent minded, I tend to neglect a lot of things like that - seemingly little things, that can actually make a profound difference.

I listen to Nirvana, Jane's Addiction, Primus, Neutral Milk Hotel, weezer, Ween, The Beattles, John Lennon, Led Zeppelin, Tori Amos, P.J. Harvey (older stuff), Amy Mann, Beethoven (lol)....

I listen to Shamanic drumming, or the speaking voice of Thich N'hat Hanh, when I really need to hear "something else".

posted February 18, 2005 12:54 PM         

- Tracy Emin

posted February 18, 2005 01:01 PM         

I have a Uranus (planet of truth) very closely Conjunct the Midheaven (ideals), and fairly closely Conjunct Venus (love) and the Sun (spirit), Moon in the 1st, and a close Mars/Mercury conjunction in Sagittarius, in the 10th, so, as concerning Scorpios, I'm probably about as direct and upfront as they come. When ambiguity arises, it is almost always unintentional, and just comes with the territory; that being my own exceedingly ambiguous nature.

posted February 18, 2005 01:14 PM         

Wow! Tori Amos huh? I havent heard a lot of the others but it sounds like its on the lines of Evanescence (Amy Lee) and Lifehouse (Jason Wade). I love Breathing and Beautiful the most from the latter's hits and what can I say abt Evanescence, they touch something deep inside me. And Kurt's story is folklore, it entices me endlessly, especially my fishy moon

What is it abt Led Zeppelin that so attracts deeply emotional broken souls? Convert me, Steve, I need a new religion.

Love

posted February 18, 2005 01:26 PM         

I think Neptune is strong in my chart, too. Besides that, its presently transiting my first house, and will be for the next decade or so.

posted February 18, 2005 01:35 PM         

I like Evanescence. That girl's voice is haunting, beautiful, heart-breaking. "Save me from myself." I know exactly how she feels.

I kind of wish someone would save me from the saviors right about now, if you know what I mean.

,
Me

posted February 18, 2005 01:51 PM         

I know its not your fault.

This is how we learn.

posted February 18, 2005 02:00 PM         

I have no dreams left to harvest ... the garden has dried ... and Im falling endlessly cause I made the mistake of looking down ...

I have nothing left to say to anyone ever again; I seem to cause more harm with my words than my silence ever could

posted February 18, 2005 02:07 PM         

You have not fallen from your pedestal, maya.

If anything, you are beyond my grasp, now.
Your are likened unto the vestal virgins.
I will think no unholy thought of you.