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Topic: Complex People
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Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 08, 2006 03:18 AM
 
another of my late-night aqua-lunar rants......................... or is it? I can't seem to get started.
See, I'm feeling both reckless and deliberate.
But I refuse to let that stop me.
I'll express something, I swear it. God, do you understand the highest pitch of ambivalence? Unrelenting ambivalence,
with only the briefest respites,
of bitter compromise... In sensing everything, I feel nothing.
Conceiving everything, I know nothing.
Empathizing with everyone, I am no one.
Forgiving everything, what can I say? Fear and trembling,
Angst and conscience,
Chasing your tail,
running from yourself... Peter-Pan on a crucifix alright. Lord, this is praise and prayer for complex people.
Stubbornly, goofily, honest to death people.
People who can't talk,
or never shut up.
You know who you are.
I love you.
Just take it,
no questions asked. Hug me and don't look me in the eye.
You know where to find me.
When you're ready. Here we are again.
I don't care, if you don't.
But if you do,
you know I can't help feeling you. Majority rules the airwaves.
I got invisible antenae.
I'll be in the basement.
(You know where to find me.) I thought that life was just a game.
I didn't really want to play.
Nothing much has ever changed. Life is beautiful. But the beautiful is a stain on the sublime. ~ hsc IP: Logged |
BlueTopaz124
Knowflake Posts: 1382
From: Portland, OR
Registered: Jan 2004
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posted January 08, 2006 01:15 PM
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Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 08, 2006 02:24 PM
THANK YOU!!!, Laura.I needed that.
(I really hate being ignored.)  IP: Logged |
Azalaksh
Knowflake Posts: 6485
From: New Brighton, MN, USA
Registered: Nov 2004
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posted January 08, 2006 02:58 PM
Pisces Moon here feels your waves of angst, Steve 
I hope you'll be feeling a bit better once tChiron gets past the conjunction with your Moon.....IP: Logged |
lotusheartone
Knowflake Posts: 238
From: MOther & Father GOd
Registered: Feb 2008
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posted January 08, 2006 03:23 PM
I can feel compassionate
about how you feel..so here is a big happy
 for you.. IP: Logged |
Lialei
Knowflake Posts: 1887
From: blank canvas
Registered: Jul 2005
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posted January 08, 2006 06:06 PM
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Nephthys
Moderator Posts: 3800
From: California
Registered: Oct 2001
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posted January 08, 2006 06:41 PM
Wow, I really sense a lot of sadness in this. This is a new year and you should be happy! Embrace the positive energy that the Universe is sending to you this very moment!!!   Read what Archangel Michael has to say about the New year here; (It's on juniperb's entry)
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum20/HTML/000346.html  Good luck IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 08, 2006 07:49 PM
Thanks everyone.
I guess I WAS feeling pretty crumby last night,
but, you know us lunar types:
If you don't like the emotional weather,
wait a minute.It's weird, these emotional states can be so subtly and variously shaded,
I myself don't know what I'm trying to express.
Evidently, the negative was more apparent than the positive,
but I felt them both,
overlapping, so to speak.
'Zala,
Pisces Mooners are coming out of the woodwork these days (3 of them are Libras!), and I dont get out much, lol. I envy, admire, and pity them in equal parts. No, that's not true; mostly, I admire them. Kind and good of you, to remember my moon placement.
Bless you, thank you.
lotus,
I can feel your sincerity.
Thank you.
Lialei,
Thank you.
Nephthys,
Bless you.
Thanks.
~ hsc
(Steve)
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sweetlibra
Knowflake Posts: 1382
From:
Registered: Oct 2004
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posted January 08, 2006 11:18 PM
(I really hate being ignored.)
Really what I feel HSC 
I dono how you take this but dont let anything control you, if something is holding you back, leave it with all your might.
I have left and I am happy (at least happier than what I was a couple of days ago)
The wounds are still healing. IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 09, 2006 02:43 AM
sweetlibra -
Thank You for your concerned advice.
I'm so happy for you,
and I really wish you the best.
~ hsc
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nannyfish
Knowflake Posts: 242
From: England
Registered: Aug 2005
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posted January 09, 2006 04:50 AM
HSC - I hear ya and can completely relate. Seriously..IP: Logged |
LeoSweetHeart
Knowflake Posts: 539
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Registered: Nov 2004
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posted January 09, 2006 05:12 AM
Wow, you took the words, I only wish I could express so powerfully, right out of my mouth. You surely "expressed something" beautifully. I feel the ambivalence I belief you were speaking of right now. Its 1:45 and I'm not asleep yet because I feel the need to open the floodgates of my heart and release, feel, and express this mixture of feelings until it starts making sense. Does that make any sense?
Just wanted to say thanks for sharing that. I know it was you in a "lunar rant", but I found it somehow comforting. Though I'm sorry you experience those feelings too...being complex is hard to deal with sometimes. Wish I could express myself better, but its late and lately I just can't find the words too. You know what I mean 
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lotusheartone
Knowflake Posts: 238
From: MOther & Father GOd
Registered: Feb 2008
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posted January 09, 2006 02:26 PM
Yin and Yang
Black and White
Mirrir Image-OppositeIn the Middle
Balance
always
letting the winds of Heaven
blow BEtween
Harmony Supreme
angel's wings
fluttering a butterfly kiss
Transformation. ... IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 09, 2006 02:37 PM
I gotta rush out right now, but I promise I'll render due thanks in due time....
love,
hsc
------- A devil cannot dwell, but in the shadow of a god. IP: Logged |
taurean_scorpion
Knowflake Posts: 1356
From: santa monica, california
Registered: May 2005
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posted January 09, 2006 06:38 PM
i love reading your posts, HSC... IP: Logged |
Bluemoon
Knowflake Posts: 4456
From: Stafford, VA USA
Registered: Feb 2005
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posted January 09, 2006 08:51 PM
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Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 10, 2006 05:54 PM
nannyfish -That's what I like to hear, lol.
It's no fun feeling like an 
who nobody can relate to.
Ambiguity loves company, I guess.
LeoSweetHeart -
I wouldn't worry about it,
you express yourself quite beautifully. Most of my friends and family are so cerebral and reserved in expressing their feelings. It's amazing that I've got to look to a virtual stranger, in order to discover this kind of fearless, open display of genuine appreciation. Really, your words are an honest to goodness breath of fresh air. I feel like I can breathe again.
Thank You. And Thank God for people like you.
lotusheartone, You got it.
Taurean Scorpion,
Esther,
I'm smiling, ear to ear.
You're one of the knowflakes
I want to impress the most.
Partly, its what I know about you
(such an amazing chart),
and, partly, its just a feeling I have.
Much love.
Bluemoon,
Thank You.
hsc
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lotusheartone
Knowflake Posts: 238
From: MOther & Father GOd
Registered: Feb 2008
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posted January 10, 2006 06:48 PM
thank you, and you are welcome..the mirror is funny, hehe
we really don't want to see
we really do want to.. 1 1
polarities meeting in the middle
Emerald City = The Wizard I like painting pretty pictures. ... Sending lots of LOVE to
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lovely*
Knowflake Posts: 2141
From: CA
Registered: Jul 2003
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posted January 10, 2006 07:43 PM
wow i like it alot. talented aren't u?IP: Logged |
taurean_scorpion
Knowflake Posts: 1356
From: santa monica, california
Registered: May 2005
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posted January 11, 2006 01:29 PM
awwwww!!!!  thank you~ *HUGS*IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 11, 2006 02:10 PM
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LeoSweetHeart
Knowflake Posts: 539
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Registered: Nov 2004
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posted January 11, 2006 03:44 PM
Aww, thank you HSC. I'm so glad my words could bring you a little peace. I can't help but appreciate that which is beautiful. Thank you for being you  IP: Logged |
Heart--Shaped Cross
Knowflake Posts: 7178
From: 11/6/78 11:38am Boston, MA
Registered: Aug 2004
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posted January 12, 2006 10:48 AM
You're Welcome,
And YOU'RE WELCOME! Just curious, what's your Moon and Asc?
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LeoSweetHeart
Knowflake Posts: 539
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Registered: Nov 2004
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posted January 12, 2006 05:20 PM
Well, I have a Taurus Moon..
I point my finger at this Sun Moon square for a lot of my confusion/ inner tension. Though I also think its helped me turn inward and learn a lot about myself. A blessing and a curse I tell you.  I wish I knew my asc, but I don't yet have my birth time figured out. I'm going to get it this spring when I go home to DC. Its either Virgo or Libra (and a slight chance of being Scorpio). I feel too bubbly and warm (and never critical) to be a Virgo asc, but then sometimes too shy/nervous(mostly only felt by myself) to be a Libra asc. See I'm just a ball of contradictions  How about you, what's your moon and asc? Do you know of any aspects that could cause you to be so complex? *edited* Just remembered zala mentioning your moon was pisces in this very string. Wow, no wonder your so sensitive and intuitive! (I like the sparkly guy) IP: Logged |
taurean_scorpion
Knowflake Posts: 1356
From: santa monica, california
Registered: May 2005
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posted January 12, 2006 06:54 PM
no...his moon's in aqua. IP: Logged |
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