posted July 23, 2007 02:40 PM         

I will ask Mirandee for your e-mail. Thank you so much.

Mirandee.. thank you as well for your hugs. I really felt this this morning.

On another note... last night I performed a releasing ceremony. I pulled out the 5 Apache tears that I carry in my pouch and set them up in the 4 directions. In my pouch I have cornmeal, yellow pollen, cedar and white sage.

I said my prayers / chants as I put out each other and created a cross connecting the 4 directions with the cornmeal and a circle around the cross with the pollen. In the middle I had my burn bowl (oddly enough I took it with me from my old house). In the bowl I burned Sage and added the cedar.

I told my Abuela I loved her... that is was time to go home and that we would be okay, that we were sad to lose her but knew she had a greater journey ahead of her.

That was close to 4am my time. I felt her.. I was THERE... in front of her bed..I felt like she and I were standing there together, looking at her physical body... I was holding her hand saying it was okay to go...

The cermony felt good and pure. I left the cornmeal cross and pollen circle... spread the burned sage across the garden and went to bed.

My father was called a little after that and asked to come watch my abuela because my aunts had to leave. My father said everything was so quiet... not a sound.. and at 6:25am.. she passed away quietly.

This morning I went to the garage to throw out some trash.. I saw the most beautiful butterfly trapped over the garage door. It was very symbolic... I opened the door and the butterfly flew towards me.. then to the ground.. then away....