posted January 08, 2005 09:32 AM            

I don´t think I had a lack of affection in childhood... Hmmm, my dad was never in though... He didn´t like children very much and always found something better to do than being home... But being part of a extended family filled the gaps... My uncle and grandad were my father´s figure for many years... I grew up with my brother, sister and 4 cousins as if we were siblings...

My grandma was soooo affectionate... And then, I also had my aunties... My mum has been always very protective, like a hen with her chicks...

But then I do remember feeling a bit inadequate in the family environment... A bit misunderstood... I kind of rejected their affection, I was supposed to be difficult... I never thought they loved me...

My dad started to show interest for me when I was about 18 and I do feel he feels proud of me. I´m his girl, his girl somehow...

But I still feel detatched from my family, no matter how hard they try... I don´t belong... And yes, I do yearn for emotional security, I´m hungry of love, thirsty of physical contact and cuddles... As if I had a “wound” in the Taurus domains of my life...

My heart feels so empty even when I have loads of friends, who I know care for me... I´m ill of loneliness... There is like a physical barrier I can cross, I take very long to open up and relax towards signs of affection...

I would love to be able to appreciate what I have... But the only thing I want is that love that never filled me... I feel so cold, so incomplete, so unhappy... Chiron is supposed to encourage you to do it... But how?

I don´t know which is the exact position but being in Taurus, it could be in my 5th or 6th house...

What is the possitive of this placement? How can I use to my advantage? How can I deal with it?

posted January 08, 2005 10:04 AM            

I lived abroad for 4 years and I felt closer to my family than ever before... I was nicer to them... My brother said I had become more affectionate...

I always thought it was due to not having them stuck in my nose... And the fact that I was so alone over there that I learnt to appreciate to have them... The differences in culture made me react towards the coldness and privacy of my hosts becoming sweeter myself. Also, they changed towards me... My perception of the whole thing was completely different... They felt warmer, nicer in the phone... Maybe because they appreciated more the few times we could talk during the week...

posted January 08, 2005 12:41 PM              

I have found one thing that says how to heal Chiron in Taurus. I personally feel like this isn't the only way, but if it helps! Here it is:

"Make a list of what you have received, particularly from your parents and from loved ones. Keep listing till you can acknowledge abundance of gratitude and love. Where you have not been given your due, list ways in which not receiving helped you to acknowledge true abundance inside of you. Also, list out in two columns what you do and don't like about your body and for each list why. For each answer of 'why' look deeper and list the why of that, you will soon find that appearances are truly only skin deep -- your strength and beauty lie inside - -- in your heart."

posted January 09, 2005 06:58 AM            

I like the idea of the club... It has certainly helped me to find other people with the same problem... I used to feel very inadequate and shelfish looking at myself from outside... Because I could see love towards me and not feel it, therefore, I was unable to return it...

posted January 09, 2005 11:46 AM            

Here's a little bit of info for you:

CHIRON IN TAURUS gives your emotionality a rational touch. You look for and find perfection in beauty and even your sense of art receives correct expression forms. In addition, you look for healing in properties and a hedonistic life style, but also could make the experience, what mischief these things occasionally may bring. Strict moral and ethic conceptions may show up.

CHIRON IN THE 3rd HOUSE causes a strong communication urge, whereby misunderstandings occur perhaps more frequently, although you always think about, before you say anything. Thinking and understanding have an analytic and restless character. Possibly you get confused with all the information you soak up, and therefore you may come to misjudges of situations or to a confused objectivity. Possibly you have fears, that have something to do with your existing knowledge or that which you have to attain in the future. Your body could reply to your excessive movement impulses sometimes, urging you to moderation and leisure. With brothers and sisters special communicative conditions can be indicated, perhaps also responsibilities in your position.

Hope that helps shed a little light...

posted January 09, 2005 02:01 PM              

been thinking a lot about chiron lately since my boyfriend and i have moon in taurus conjunct chiron in our composite chart.. still conjunct my own moon.. so it is a strong factor in our relationship..