posted September 06, 2009 05:33 PM         

Although I did stress enough times that I would like to get over the pain from liking him soo much! I'm not sure whether this played out eventually with time or set something for change in motion. But now a year later I feel neutral and dont have those feelings I had for him anymore. I really do think time heals. This guy is still in contact with his ex, but I dont think their an item anymore. I do know she was very manipulative and she seduced him to get him back on her side. But when he realised that she was manipulative, using and cheating on him I think he was the one walking away. However he does have a child with her so I wouldn't be suprised if goes back to her at some point.

All I can say is thank god he didn't try to get in touch with me back them, (I changed cell numbers) because that would have messed with my head especially when I was feeling vulnerable. But a year on I'm feeling so much better as I dont have these strong feelings for him anymore and if I was to bump into him now I think would be ok with dealing with it and not feel so emotional about it all. Even if he expressed in truth how he felt about me, I know for sure that a few days later he would be in denial about it again because he is the type of guy who doesn't want to be overwhelmed with any strong feelings. It's too much for him to deal with. I know this about him now.

Theres been no contact from him now, although it can be easily done through mutuable friends but that doesn't bother me at all. I think he's gone back over overseas as I really do feel a great distance between us. Its ok and it all good!
Reflecting on those times when we were together is just a distant memory now. I mean yes it was pleasant at the time and we shared alot through the union as i felt we were kindred spirits on some soul/spiritual level but thats where it ends as nothing else was to come from it. I look at it like this, sometimes we meet people for a short time and we may establish connections or a strong affinity with them but that does not necessarily mean that anything else will be played out. I've certainly learnt that now and maybe that was my lesson!

Happy dayz!

posted September 18, 2009 01:21 PM         

Catlover .. good to hear that it ended well for you and that you're okay!!! As hard as it sounds like it was... it must feel great to have moved on.

posted September 18, 2009 03:06 PM         

I was thinking of starting another thread.. hence why I deleted all the stuff I wrote.... thought it was overtaking this one.

I haven't done the meditation yet, because well...... I think this guy is it!!!!! Maybe I should do it to confirm. :P
I read through it quickly and it looked awesome though... I thought it was an excerpt from an audio until I read the bit about reading it on your monitor... sound like it is very well worth doing. I'm glad you got something out of it

posted September 18, 2009 03:13 PM         

quote:

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It sometimes happens that a man and a woman meet...

... and instantly recognize the other half of themselves behind the eyes of each other... The eyes have been rightly called "the windows of the soul." Even their voices are familiar to each other's ears, like a remembered chord of music... These are two who immediately sense the unalterable fact that they have been--are--and must always be One...

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THIS is why I am finding it difficult to cut the cords

I'll start another thread tomorrow its 3am here :P

posted September 19, 2009 05:06 PM         

I admit to feeling some hesistancy/reluctance about it, which might be why it didn't work. I felt a LOT of resistance while imagining the scissors cutting, got stomach pains, a sharp pain in my right shoulder, and my entire right side went numb! Pretty scary. I then took a nap and dreamt of him, waking up with a feeling of heaviness and pain in my chest.

All this to say that within only a few hours he has texted me acting like nothing is wrong. Unbelievable! I'm so confused. I do want him, but not if it's going to be like this. I am trying to move past the point in my life where relationships are these painful things that I obsess over. Nor do I feel that it's healthy to have to manipulate someone into being loving and communicative by ignoring them (he's an Aqua).

Just very confused, want to do the right and healthy thing, and hoping that doing the exercise while I was still attached isn't going to bite me in the butt.

posted September 20, 2009 04:37 PM         

{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}

posted September 20, 2009 06:55 PM         

This does not mean, necessarily that they actually want a relationship with you, but maybe they want you in their life in some capacity, or they like the fact that they "have" you, as in a control issue. That is why it is so important not to do this if you feel ambivalent about it.

Normally I don't go around telling people what to do, but I just want to say that this is a potent exercise and can bring alot of heartache if the intent is muddled.

posted September 21, 2009 02:08 PM         

The best advice I ever got was that we shouldn't want anything that God/Spirit/the Universe doesn't want for us. And if it is wanted for us, well then we shall have it, right?

Sometimes I don't know what I would do without this place!