posted July 03, 2011 10:12 AM            

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Originally posted by etherealenlightenment:
Hey Dep! Haven't talked to you in a while... I've been alright except for some issues right now that came up on the last eclipse, actually... A lot of painful changes and confusion... A sense of really not knowing what to do with my life or my relationship... So, what about you? How have you been doing... How has that Neptune square Sun transit treating you? Have you felt that at all?

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hey ether sorry to here about your previous encounters with pain although i havent felt it in a long while i still remember and its no fun. sounds rough tho im not going to ask you to elaborate more on it, because sometimes i like to forget about those things and not want people to keep on talking about it. so ill do the same for you unless you feel comfy talking about it.

p.s lets talk here instead of the other thread in lindaland 2.0 that way people wont disturb our convo eyy.

funny you should mention neptune square sun transit because its finally over for about two years now. i imagine its still hitting your chart since yours is what 28 29 degrees in taurus. when it moves more into pisces it will feel like a huge relief
trust me.

posted July 04, 2011 12:51 PM            

Yeah... About the pain... It's a long story... Been a really trying, confusing relationship... I love the guy but we've been going through some REALLY trying times... Lol no this isn't the same guy I was with when I last talked to you over a year ago... I've been with this one for a year now (exactly a year tomorrow, actually). Anyway, we've had our good times, but it's just been extremely rough the last couple months... With the eclipses especially! the eclipse hit right on our Jupiter/ Chiron conjunction- lol I can't believe you didn't feel that!! I'm just teasing... Anyway, besides the relationship aspect, that last nasty eclipse brought up extreme pain on the family front too... I was so happy about how my relationship with my dad was going, and then bam! He pretty much denied me any help or compassion during a time of dire need... Which brought back memories from a similar event which occurred just a little over a year ago... Ugh... Anyway, enough about me... So you were saying that for you it was about reevaluating friendships?

What was your experience with the Sun/Neptune transit?? For me it seems like I'm just so confused all the time!! Confused about everything, stuck in a constant fog... Easily disillusioned about everything and
requiring guidance in the smallest of decisions!!! Not to mention... No energy... Ugh!!! Haha sorry about my rant!

posted July 04, 2011 10:21 PM            

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Originally posted by etherealenlightenment:
Hey Dep! So nice to hear from my Astro twin!!

Yeah... About the pain... It's a long story... Been a really trying, confusing relationship... I love the guy but we've been going through some REALLY trying times... Lol no this isn't the same guy I was with when I last talked to you over a year ago... I've been with this one for a year now (exactly a year tomorrow, actually). Anyway, we've had our good times, but it's just been extremely rough the last couple months... With the eclipses especially! the eclipse hit right on our Jupiter/ Chiron conjunction- lol I can't believe you didn't feel that!! I'm just teasing... Anyway, besides the relationship aspect, that last nasty eclipse brought up extreme pain on the family front too... I was so happy about how my relationship with my dad was going, and then bam! He pretty much denied me any help or compassion during a time of dire need... Which brought back memories from a similar event which occurred just a little over a year ago... Ugh... Anyway, enough about me... So you were saying that for you it was about reevaluating friendships?

What was your experience with the Sun/Neptune transit?? For me it seems like I'm just so confused all the time!! Confused about everything, stuck in a constant fog... Easily disillusioned about everything and
requiring guidance in the smallest of decisions!!! Not to mention... No energy... Ugh!!! Haha sorry about my rant!

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oh i see its someone different. ok thats cool mmh. i guess since my jupiter conjunction is in the 11th house of friends thats prolly why i have re evaluated who i can trust especially amongst friends.

actually i think the eclipse fell right on my natal jupiter. i got a promotion at work. im getting paid more but working longer hours starting today. and it is tiring but good.

OMG you hit the spot about the neptune/sun transit when it was on mine sun i was in a confused state of mind. i had no aspirations and majoring in self loathing especially my surroundings. i kinda felt like an addict without drugs but still felt high. and people kept throwng me into a deep end of a stream where the waterfalls would press down on me and crush me. lol very intense feelings with this one.

omg i went stark raving mad with this one. i would stay up late then sleep in the day. always tired. omg i would get tired very very fast as well.

lol on fogging days i would get up and walk threw it because it was the best way to describe my life at that point. not clear and having to focus real real hard to try and figure out what was in front of me.

posted July 06, 2011 11:06 AM            

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Originally posted by DepTaurus:
oh i see its someone different. ok thats cool mmh. i guess since my jupiter conjunction is in the 11th house of friends thats prolly why i have re evaluated who i can trust especially amongst friends.

actually i think the eclipse fell right on my natal jupiter. i got a promotion at work. im getting paid more but working longer hours starting today. and it is tiring but good.

OMG you hit the spot about the neptune/sun transit when it was on mine sun i was in a confused state of mind. i had no aspirations and majoring in self loathing especially my surroundings. i kinda felt like an addict without drugs but still felt high. and people kept throwng me into a deep end of a stream where the waterfalls would press down on me and crush me. lol very intense feelings with this one.

omg i went stark raving mad with this one. i would stay up late then sleep in the day. always tired. omg i would get tired very very fast as well.

lol on fogging days i would get up and walk threw it because it was the best way to describe my life at that point. not clear and having to focus real real hard to try and figure out what was in front of me.

sorry to hear about your dad, i know how much your relationship with him means to you. somehow it always works out.wow what a huge rant crap.

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No, it's not a long rant!! Mine can be longer...

Congratulations on the promotion! What are you doing exactly, job-wise? Are you going to school at all?

Yes, different guy... Moved across the country to be with him, and we've been living together since last july! It's been quite a rollercoaster ride... There have been some fantastically happy highs but dismally depressing lows.... Lately there's been a lot going on between us, a lot of friction (which the last eclipse has been more than kind enough to bluntly show) but we're trying to work it out. It's going to take a lot of work.

Anyway, yeah.... The thing with my dad... I just don't even know how to respond to that. I mean I know I'm 21 and I have to be responsible but I honestly don't even feel like he's a parent. He's more like a distant advisor. He'll give me verbal counseling and try to point me in the right direction, but when it comes to actually *doing* something to help me, or supporting me in something, if it's not "comfortable" for him, he refuses! ... And I'm his only kid!! Maybe he has good intentions in mind, I.e. doesn't want me to become dependent on him, so he makes me do everything on my own? Maybe. Last year I went through the worst depression of my life. Lowest point in my life-- I'm talking on-the-verge-of-suicide here. I wasn't too pleasant to be around, but my psychiatrist told me I had to be with my family, and so I took a leave of absence from work to see my parents. My mom let me stay with her for 2 weeks. My dad, on the other hand, only let me stay with him for 4 days, and even felt THAT was too much for him. After I had recovered, I asked him if I could visit him for two weeks before going to my mom's. He told me that since my last visit was so uncomfortable, I can visit for no more than 1 week at a time. I see my dad maybe 1 time a year, if that!!! Recently I was kind of in a desperate situation where I felt like I had to leave immediately, and I asked him if I could stay with him for a few weeks. He told me no. I just don't know how to deal with it. lol sorry if that was too much...

posted July 06, 2011 04:50 PM            

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Originally posted by etherealenlightenment:
No, it's not a long rant!! Mine can be longer...

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posted July 06, 2011 04:53 PM            

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Originally posted by etherealenlightenment:
No, it's not a long rant!! Mine can be longer...

Congratulations on the promotion! What are you doing exactly, job-wise? Are you going to school at all?

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posted July 06, 2011 05:02 PM            

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Originally posted by etherealenlightenment:

Yes, different guy... Moved across the country to be with him, and we've been living together since last july! It's been quite a rollercoaster ride... There have been some fantastically happy highs but dismally depressing lows.... Lately there's been a lot going on between us, a lot of friction (which the last eclipse has been more than kind enough to bluntly show) but we're trying to work it out. It's going to take a lot of work.

Anyway, yeah.... The thing with my dad... I just don't even know how to respond to that. I mean I know I'm 21 and I have to be responsible but I honestly don't even feel like he's a parent. He's more like a distant advisor. He'll give me verbal counseling and try to point me in the right direction, but when it comes to actually *doing* something to help me, or supporting me in something, if it's not "comfortable" for him, he refuses! ... And I'm his only kid!! Maybe he has good intentions in mind, I.e. doesn't want me to become dependent on him, so he makes me do everything on my own? Maybe. Last year I went through the worst depression of my life. Lowest point in my life-- I'm talking on-the-verge-of-suicide here. I wasn't too pleasant to be around, but my psychiatrist told me I had to be with my family, and so I took a leave of absence from work to see my parents. My mom let me stay with her for 2 weeks. My dad, on the other hand, only let me stay with him for 4 days, and even felt THAT was too much for him. After I had recovered, I asked him if I could visit him for two weeks before going to my mom's. He told me that since my last visit was so uncomfortable, I can visit for no more than 1 week at a time. I see my dad maybe 1 time a year, if that!!! Recently I was kind of in a desperate situation where I felt like I had to leave immediately, and I asked him if I could stay with him for a few weeks. He told me no. I just don't know how to deal with it. lol sorry if that was too much...

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wow you moved all the way across the country so where are you living now? hey dont go blaming the eclipses lol but seriously think of it as every relationship has their problems but the eclipse is like a sign thats telling you to wake up and really see what is going on. i dont think eclipses are so bad. i think they help you just gotta use the energy in the right way eyy ether. by the way for some strange reason when im talking to you you sort of remind me of bella from the twilight saga i have no clue why but thats who you remind me of when im talking to you lol.

wow your dad really seems tough but maybe he is just trying to show you how difficult life can be and is trying to teach you how to grow up in the world on your own. i dont think he means it personally or anything. also alot of people just arent easily able to be warm and nuturing there of course is nothing wrong with that. it just isint their first instict.hey be at least lucky and happy that you get to spend at least 1 week with your dad because somewhere else their are kids twice your age who havent seen their fathers their whole entire life.

posted July 06, 2011 05:15 PM            

Can you see the aspects or do I have to just type them out manually?

posted July 06, 2011 05:49 PM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
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Yes please type them out manually with good spacing for ease of reading

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Alright!

Moon conj Mars Pisces 2 deg

8 Merc Taurus sextile 10 Jupiter Cancer

10 Jupiter Cancer opp 9 Uranus Cap

18 Moon Pisces trine 16 Pluto Scorp

14 Neptune Cap sextile 16 Pluto Scorp

18 Moon Pisces trine 21 Lilith Scorp

21 Mars Pisces trine 21 Lilith Scorp

24 Saturn Cap sextile 21 Lilith Scorp

10 Jupiter Cancer conjunct 13 Chiron Cancer

14 Neptune Cap opposite 13 Chiron Cancer

16 Pluto Scorp trine 13 Chiron Cancer

17 Venus Aries square 16 Ceres Cancer

14 Neptune Cap opp 16 Ceres Cancer

16 Pluto Scorp trine 16 Ceres Cancer

13 Chiron Cancer conjunct 16 Ceres Cancer

28 Sun Taurus conjunct 0 Pallas Gemini

18 Moon Pisces trine 14 Juno Scorp

14 Neptune Cap sextile 14 Juno Scorp

16 Pluto Scorp conjunct 14 Juno Scorp

11 NN Aqua square 14 Juno Scorp

13 Chiron Cancer trine 14 Juno Scorp

16 Ceres Cancer trine 14 Juno Scorp

18 Moon Pisces sextile 14 Neptune Cap

21 Mars Pisces sextile 25 Saturn Cap

10 Jupiter Cancer opp 14 Neptune Cap

17 Venus Aries square 13 Chiron Cancer

posted July 08, 2011 01:41 PM            

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Originally posted by DepTaurus:
wow you moved all the way across the country so where are you living now? hey dont go blaming the eclipses lol but seriously think of it as every relationship has their problems but the eclipse is like a sign thats telling you to wake up and really see what is going on. i dont think eclipses are so bad. i think they help you just gotta use the energy in the right way eyy ether. by the way for some strange reason when im talking to you you sort of remind me of bella from the twilight saga i
have no clue why but thats who you remind me of when im talking to you lol.

wow your dad really seems tough but maybe he is just trying to show you how difficult life can be and is trying to teach you how to grow up in the world on your own. i dont think he means it personally or anything. also alot of people just arent easily able to be warm and nuturing there of course is nothing wrong with that. it just isint their first instict.hey be at least lucky andhappy that you get to spend at least 1 week with your dad because somewhere else their are kids twice your age who havent seen their fathers their whole entire life.

i know i sound harsh but dont take it that way because i dont mean it in abad way im just trying to open up some thoughts for you to think about. anyways im tired, peace out be safe and laugh alot i hear it helps lol.

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Thanks Dep. I needed that. You're right. I need to see things in a more positive light.

I'm just really frustrated because even his advice about how I need to "grow up, and figure it out on my own" just seems like a convenient cop out. There are a few reasons that I say this. First, he let me know quite bluntly, that if he marries his current wife, and if she and I don't get along and he is forced to choose between us.... that he will choose her in a heartbeat. When he said that my visit was "uncomfortable," what he really meant was that it was uncomfortable for his wife. He and I have always had an uncomfortable, complicated relationship, and he never said that kind of thing before. Secondly, when I called him and asked to stay with him *temporarily* (as in, a few weeks) it was because I was afraid that i was in a potentially dangerous situation. I stressed that to him during our conversation, and it didn't really phase him much. Either he didn't really believe me, or it just wasn't really convenient for him to do anything about it. And I get it. He never wanted me when I was born in the first (he apparently was very disappointed to find I was not born with a penis, as he desperately wanted a boy). So.... Yeah. He has a new life, and he can't have anything get in the way of his new and (drastically) improved marriage, including me. That's fine. Everyone wants to be happy, and it's not like we've ever been that terribly close. BUT what is really confusing and hurtful is that he tries to make it out to be like he's such a "star" parent. He tries to make it *seem* like he cares and does SO much for me. In fact, (although my mom and I have our own relationship complications) he always talks about how my mom completely neglects me, that I never had a real childhood because she was lacking in warmth, that I'm always Plan B with her, and that it just makes him so sad that I have such a terrible mother. But he doesn't do anything for me!!! Ever!!! The man used to leave the country for a month at a time when i was 16 and 17, leaving me at home by myself without any food, without a car, and just a hundred dollars! So that's what gets me. Sorry about the rant. It's just that everytime that I try to mend my relationship with him,
im faced with the painful realization that maybe he just doesn't really care all that much, but pretends to in order to soothe his own ego and conscience. But c'est la vie, I suppose. You're right, at least I *know* my father.

Hmmm... I don't really know anything about Bella. I never really got into the Twilight series.

I moved from the east coast of the U.S. to the west coast. So yeah.... Quite a journey...

posted July 08, 2011 01:56 PM            

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Originally posted by etherealenlightenment:
Ami, did I do the aspects correctly?

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You did great Baby
I will look later

posted July 08, 2011 07:31 PM            

Moon in Piaces trine Pluto in Scorpio
Your moon is a very sensitive moon.You are too sensitive for your own good lol
Trine Pluto in Scorpio means you are very intuitive and perceptive.
Did you have a good relationship with your Mom?