posted October 26, 2013 04:36 AM            

I have been so broke that i felt poorer than the beggars on the streets... that situation where i had only 10 bucks, not knowing if i can pay my monthly rental n only living day to day will always be in my mind... I drank a cup of coffee a day as my entire day consumption of food for one week.. Desperate, i took a dentist assistant job, where i have to see blood every minute of the day. I fainted on the first day of work because I go weak when i see blood.. thought i would lose that job.... but the doctor gave me chance n forever I m grateful.... scolded me everyday but from then, his kindness gave me a chance to pick myslf from rock bottom. For all the fear of blood, i worked there 6 months until i earned enough to go home n find a better salaried job.

My love life is non-existance... kept falling for wrong men.... they either cheated on me or are married. I have Venus square Saturn Exact to the degree in natal chart - low self esteemed n typically bad love life despite being always told i am beautiful...

My chart as read by iQ said people will treat me like doormat unless i assert myself. Since i know this from iQ, i always make it a point to prevent ppl from over stepping the boundary. I just informed my head of department how my direct manager is making me her personal assistant, manipulating me. I phrase it as best as i could - I don't mind the consequances.

i've been seen as a failure compared to my sisters - its all relative. i have come to peace with myself, as long as i am not starving, have a roof over my head, do what i like, travel the world, i am blessed.... better than 70% of people children starving and being abused in human trafficking... without ability to make choices for their lives. Compare to that, you are so fortunate.