posted October 18, 2013 09:39 AM            

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Originally posted by filleaspirant:
[b]Remember, we are not giving any obstacles we can't overcome. [/B]

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posted October 18, 2013 11:25 AM            

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Originally posted by Astrid:

As a reply to your kind posting that I just found on here, I will say again that its not me that wants to die. There is just nothing left. I am homeless and without money, completely misunderstood. Nothing I say seem to be interpreted the way I have ment it anymore. Leaving no one to want to help or even care. There are obstacles popping up everywhere out of thin air. I am about to freeze or starve to death. Freezing to death means maybe loosing body parts, being disabled first. I think i would have to commit suicide before that happens. im in an impossible situation.

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posted October 18, 2013 11:37 AM            

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Natal > Outer Sphere

posted October 18, 2013 11:57 AM            

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Originally posted by Astrid:
Hi!

I am new here. I really would like to hear what you can see in my chart. I feel my life is pressuring me to end it by suicide, eventhough I actually do not want to die. I really would like to live. But as good as everything and everyone is blocking my way. And I mean that as a fact throughout my life. And now it just seems like an end since I have really lost everything.

I can't find a way out, and everywhere I turn for help is instead turning my difficulties against me. And the worst part of it all is that I am not suicidal - I am terrified of hurting my body in any way.

Please tell me what you see in my chart. Do you see my pain? My blockings? My difficulties? My life story? Do you see the end, or an indication of how to make my life into something at all?

I have made an album on photobucket. 6 different pix with Natal/Transits/Progressions/Solar Arc. I hope I have done it right.
Here is a link: http://s955.photobucket.com/user/AstridAstro/library/

Thank you for helping!

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Gemini moon/Saturn in house twelve opposite Neptune. You carry a lot of pain with you. Others do not treat you how you would prefer. This causes you a lot of sorrow in life.

posted October 18, 2013 12:15 PM            

there's a little something called free will. you decide whether to kill yourself.

if you are feeling suicidal, try to talk to someone.. its better to let it out than keep it in regardless of what consequences may occur.

posted October 18, 2013 12:24 PM            

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Originally posted by Astrid:

Thanx a lot for replying!!!

I can probably get a lot of jobs. I work hard and are great at most things I do, but the problem occures when I have them. Some seem to like me, but there is always atleast one person who turns on me, makes sure I understand how much I am being disliked. And soon there are lies spread about me, and no one seem left to like me anymore. And misunderstanding after misunderstanding is popping out. To cut it short - I lose every job I have or I have to quit because of how badly I am being treated. I am terrified today to get a steady job. I do not want to be bullied, abused, horrassed, isolated or innocently accused ever again. I never had a steady job for more than 6 months in a row. And I am really to old for not having had that.

To get around having to quit or being fired, I started my own company a few years back. Freelancing. I was really good at what I did. One of the best in the country. But same thing happened - rumors or something. It took too many years to actually be able to have a normal income, but when I finally got there - suddenly no one hired me again... I don't know what happened. I never really do. Just something, and I am left to not know so I can't change it. No one tells even if I ask. (Chiron square North Node - being blocked, live in pain, not being healed, not getting anywhere on your life path, being kept to not succeed with anything, people or circumstances blocking all you try to do).

Also I can't have a job working alone either. I need a few really good people around me who knows me well and understand that I actually do have "a badly debilitated Mercury" (I only which the rest of the world knew about astrology so that I could only point at it in my chart to make them understand and accept).

I don't know what to do about this? I guess neither do you? But can the horoscope tell anything?

I am free as a bird. I have no home. I can move to the other side of the world if only I had a job around nice people...

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posted October 18, 2013 12:28 PM            

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Originally posted by Astrid:
Hi!

I am new here. I really would like to hear what you can see in my chart. I feel my life is pressuring me to end it by suicide, eventhough I actually do not want to die. I really would like to live. But as good as everything and everyone is blocking my way. And I mean that as a fact throughout my life. And now it just seems like an end since I have really lost everything.

I can't find a way out, and everywhere I turn for help is instead turning my difficulties against me. And the worst part of it all is that I am not suicidal - I am terrified of hurting my body in any way.

Please tell me what you see in my chart. Do you see my pain? My blockings? My difficulties? My life story? Do you see the end, or an indication of how to make my life into something at all?

I have made an album on photobucket. 6 different pix with Natal/Transits/Progressions/Solar Arc. I hope I have done it right.
Here is a link: http://s955.photobucket.com/user/AstridAstro/library/

Thank you for helping!

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Don't let your communication disability get you down. My mercury 9th house conjunct 0 degrees aries sun is debilitated in pisces squaring 6th house neptune in sag and squaring 12th house moon in gemini and believe me it's tough but I don't look at it as having a disability even though I took speech as a child but I think I'm fine today. I love to write and sing and being of help to people oh and I love higher education. I love school. Focus on your strengths and things you love doing. Maybe you're more of a creative artist type. Alot of singers and artists I believe have mercury in pisces. Btw you are an excellent writer.

posted October 18, 2013 12:40 PM            

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Originally posted by Astrid:

Thank you for saying something new, that touches deeply and right on spot. You are right. I am treated as if I am a bad person - when all I have done in my life is trying to make sure everyone around me is feeling good and appreciated. When I give, I mostly end up being used instead, not getting anything back (not even appreciation). I think it's because I spend my life mixing with bad people (MC square Saturn is supposed to stand for that).

But mostly I suffer because no one sees what I am capable of. There is so much I can do, that I am really good at. But for some reason, the once who care are never around - just those who don't, or get envious and destroy it for me.

Also I wish people who see my pain wouldn't petty me. There is nothing that makes me feel worse than when others look at me and only sees a failure. I wish to mix around those who can focus on my good sides and strengthens me. Those who only recognize my weakness and give me a helping hand when needed, but does not make that part the only central part of me.

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