posted April 16, 2014 01:09 PM            

But read it with a grain of salt, many of the interpretations are so negative they can't be true .

posted April 16, 2014 06:16 PM            

Do read about the Fixed Stars, they don't move much but when your personal planets fall on them, it means something, just don't believe every negative things about it . My Sun/Mercury on Antares and according to some articles: it means violent death, dishonesty, someone who enjoys become violent to others, fame and wealth that eventually become my undoing It's a bit stretch in my opinion but that's the interpretation from ancient time, with war, power and strength being the be all or end all. In modern time we must look at it differently.
I recently found out your Sun is on Alcyone.
The Sabians for your Sun is:

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A glass-bottomed boat in still water. Keywords: curiosity, a person who can see or reveal hidden aspects of life, a situation which shows a hidden aspect, feelings revealed, intuition, emotions, feelings.

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posted April 18, 2014 05:58 AM            

The bag in Sabians doesn't sound bad. Well, it's to be contain something to carry with you, to a woman it can also mean an intimate object. I look at your Sabians on cafeastrology, the five-year-old child is carrying a bag full of groceries. It could mean that you'll have emotional fulfillment if you works hard for what you want.
The Mercury Sabian is not bad either, communication is your way of release, what you keep inside must be brought out and cleaned, maybe I'm being too literal with it.
Your Venus Sabian, I don't think about arrogance either. I think of fearlessness and fierceness.

About the ex with the Moon falls in your 8th house. I mentioned it before because I can see how he affects you deeply. Of course you have Venus/Pluto is also a sign of go deep in love, but not everyone triggers you that way. The 8th house is where we merge with other on the intimacy level. It's a water house, well maybe it's just me, but water to me is very poweful. It could be tender like the waves embrace the shore and it could be fierce, wear thin the rough edges of rocks and stones. The 8th house is the house where you're hungry to experience intimacy. Think of it in relation to the 2nd house, because how you deal with intimacy in the 8th depends much on how secured you're with yourself: the work of the 2nd house. Your 2nd/8th axis has intercepted sign Pisces/Virgo. I'm not knowledge about intercepted sign, just that it can create confusion due to a lack of tangible ground. Now this boy puts his Moon in your 8th, behold water ruler merges with water house. He gets under your skin. But Moon in Libra doesn't express emotions like water Moon sign would, so he's not comfortable with this placement, I guess, unless his Moon has others aspects to help him get in touch with his emotions. Sorry I'm rambling, sometimes I don't know what I'm talking about .
So your T-square is projected into the Composite? Why don't you put it on here, I want to take a look, it sounds quite a handful. I'll get back to you later.
P/S: the Solar Eclipse is on 29th.

posted April 18, 2014 07:48 AM            

The sabian symbols are pretty neat, I enjoy watching them even for other people.

posted April 19, 2014 02:48 PM            

So I've looked at your synastry and I'll just remark on what stood out to me.

You have a packed 1st and 4th house, he triggers both that in your chart. His Uranus/Neptune on your ASC and his Venus on your IC. He touched you deep. See that his Uranus is his DSC ruler and Venus his IC ruler? Those are the keys for a probably life-long attraction and appreciation.
Vertex conjunct North Node denotes a fateful relationship. You're meant to meet and learn together.
I think I see some difficulties with his Saturn opposite your Chiron tightly. You have Chiron in 7th house which could mean your deepest wound come from relationships, and his Saturn is opposite that. Saturn and Chiron in synastry can be heartbreaking, Saturn can be rather cold and lack compassion for Chiron.
His Pluto triggers your T-square, Pluto in his chart doesn't rule any house because Scorpio is intercepted in 4th. I don't know how it can play out but guess he don't care/be aware of the destructive tendency in him. Pluto is a wild card in his chart, as in yours.
He has Sun opposite Moon and you puts your Mars on his Sun. Sun-Moon hard aspect is not an easy one to deal with because the people with this aspect will be conflicting themself. Wait, I just noticed he has a T-square with Sun/Uranus/Moon, in relationships he's very inconsistent, prefer a lot of time for himself and may even chose to be alone even when he desperately want to have a relationship.
Well, I'd say you definitely have come together to learn lessons, and it could be quite a long time too.
The composite: Sun/Mercury/Venus/Mars all in 1st house. Etablish a relationship is the goal of this union. Venus/Mars point to a romantic merging.
The relationship is fraught with conflicts represent by the Venus/Mars opposite Pluto and of course, square Saturn. There are many fights with intermittent periods of coldness like the two of you didn't care where the relationship is going. There is something resembles a Grand Cross but the orb is too wide. Well, I'll take a bet and interpret it as a Grand Cross anyway. The Grand Cross in composite is a very powerful configuration, there will be a lot of tensions between the two of you but you find that you can't escape from each other, it's very hard for you to walk away. My friend and her husband have a tight Grand Cross in their composite and they fight EVERYDAY, sometimes really violently. So it's up to you, if you choose this relationship than you have a lot of works to do together, and expect a lot of pain too. But being the optimist person that I am, I'd say there's no healing without pain.

posted April 20, 2014 08:06 PM            

Back to you and your Pisces love, they say until you learn your lesson, you'll meet the exact same issues that you have in previous relationships. That is, you get another chance to make it right. So the Venus/Pluto don't always have to be a bad omen for you. You can put your other composite here and we could speculate together. I love looking at composite more than synastry . Why are you dissapointed with the composite Moon in 9th house? I'm curious, I don't know much about this position so I'd really want to know your opinions. And thank you for listening, you're remarkable yourself, I hope you know that.

posted April 21, 2014 05:42 AM            

As for your feelings, I honestly thing they are not meant to be hidden, and your love is not less, ON THE OPPOSITE. It is more. You have this capacity to love this boy, and incorporate it into your inner self in order to be a better person. It is deff not your fault that he is afraid, your love is precious and I dare say the truest form I've seen, because even if you don't meet with him, he's become a part of you and your thoughts regardless of the suffering and longing :)
Parents/friends might just want you to "eliberate" from this , since they see the practical reality(maybe) and that u too are not together so you don't have to love him anymore, but I am sure they don't want to harm you and if they hurt, they do it unintentionately. I am happy that u can talk to me and you are not blind nor crazy, just try not to be consumed negatively by all this. I mean keep your feelings positive and refreshing but do not cut yourself from love alltoogether. Use this for your internal happiness, but how should I put this, transcend the love you feel for him, into love for yourself and into love for the idea of love:) and even love for the boy( hope I make any sense?!.. :( )

posted April 21, 2014 07:02 AM            

I just looked at the composite. This relationship is more stronger what than people see. And how can you manage to have Vertex conjunct DSC in both those composites ? It's a fated-relationship marker.

9th house is also a house of higher meaning, there's a sense in coming together for something that is bigger than the two of you. I think it's quite romantic. However, it's a fire house and the Moon is there, I guess emotions are being burned out with a risk of concentrate too much on the dreams and ideas and not the actual reality. I know it's too literal but I can't think of something else right now. Moon trine Sun in 1st, I like this, the classic compatible factor.

I see the Sun square Saturn you pointed out. With Saturn and the square, it represents some block that prevent the relationship to happens. So if the Sun and Saturn is also link to another planet, this planet will help. I see they both aspect Mars in 11th, the planet of action in a friendly house, how fitting. Look to see how composite Mars is linked to your chart or his, to see who can take the initiative to remove this block.

Chiron is prominent, not because it's conjunct IC, your intimate place together, but it's also a part of a Mystic Rectangle with Venus opposite Pluto, Neptune opposite Chiron. Every relationship have Chiron, I also have Chiron very prominent in my composite with friends. And by prominent that I mean a planetery pattern. Yours is about healing, I think. Not bad at all.

The most difficult thing I see is Mercury in 12th house square Jupiter in 3th. Jupiter is 9th house ruler, so I guess it's involved moving. This will create a block to communication. Planet in composite 12th house denotes a karmic connection. You have some unfinished matter to navigate together. There will be fights over this, perhaps even a change of heart. It's only a guess so don't take it too personal.

I'll be eager for your feedback. Not everything is set in stone, astrology mostly.

posted April 21, 2014 09:09 AM            

He has a child from the past relationship may be indicated by Chiron/IC I think. No matter what you do, this will be what you must accept in this relationship, and it'll not be an easy one. You're still young and I can understand your mother reaction. But at the end of the day, it's the journey that matters the most. I think your composite Mercury denotes communication that create confusion. The key is not to try and work with it like the synastry, but taking a leap of faith that your journey together is a gift and meant to be.