posted January 16, 2024 11:53 AM            

Saggy7 and vansio, if you change your minds, let me know.

posted January 16, 2024 01:09 PM            

Pixieangel, Thank you and happy new year to you! How's yours been so far?

I'll need to reflect from that last "m" reading. Was it on this thread? I'll look into it after awhile, I will meditate on "m" too.

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What would "K" say if you were to reach out?
Answer:
"K" might reveal something personal she faced, possibly a loss of child, birth or maybe she's infertile. She went through a hardship relating with her creative pursuits if not about a child. It seems she hasn't been connected with many other's. There is one potential person, she might tell you that remained loyal. Her sadness and insecurities from the loss has restricted her, I'm sensing.
K does look to her old friends online, watched often and thought reach out, she would tell you she would like a restart in friendship. Even had thought to try this before now. Though there might be some threads of her past that could make it difficult to be the friend you remember. Life and experience has changed her a lot. She would tell you, she gets caught often in snags when she branches out beyond her comfort zone in terms of friendships. She might not tell you but it look like she might have friends uppity ones where she was cut from the group. Not certain why but she's timid but it seems by her feelings it is linked to fair weathered or failure in the reciprocal exchange.
5 of coins, 2 of wands and Wheel of fortune
Empress (rev) showed herself.

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What would "b" say to you if you were to talk again?
Answer:
"B" wouldn't be as communicative as you might think. Seems "b" has cut herself free from her past connections and is involved in a new faith or movement where collaboration is through a process of selection. She might tell you she's divorced or cut off communication with a parent. Possibly her mother. The husband/or boyfriend she might tell you was untrue and "b" has decided to be alone. She is wise and speaks clear but most of this she may not share. It feels like she'll limit the amount she may say. She could be more apt to exchange text messages with you.

Hight Priestess, Queen of Swords and 3 of pentacles.

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What is the reason "d" doesn't match energetically the friendship with how she says she feels? Why did she not choose Pixieangel as her b.maid?
Answers: I instinctively felt a competitive vibe. Idk Like she's seen you as a threat in some way maybe?

She does feel like her photos are important to her, she has a feeling she wants to be the "it" girl anywhere but looks around her to be certain she's appearing attractive. I'm feeling runner up bpvibes, like she's tired of her friends being prettier, smarter or in some way better by her secret scorecard. She has let several friendships go over this, though she's never revealer reasons. Her husband (before and after marriage) she may have intuitively felt he might have a roving eye or worse. She felt this to be insecurities but her intuition is strong, she watched him when out celebrating with others. He noticed her friend(s) and she observed him.
Queen of pentacles (baby empress), Death, Queen of cups and clarified with 3 of cups.
There's a secret she has yet to discover surrounding the celebrations between him With others.

I think this is why she chose another b. Maid too.
Actually she did choose another she felt he might not notice as cute, attractive etc. He's coming off as an octups and possibly willing to be be touchy where a committed man should not be. She's trying to maintain balance and statprted out with what may be her perceived "safe choice".
6 of pentacles and 10 of cups.

posted January 16, 2024 01:30 PM            

What would "MZ" say to you?
- I am not certain if there might be embellishments in her success in life due to your cutting her off. I saw 5 of swords before your cards were pulled.
She might tell you, she's married, established in her prosperity. Might say she married a handsome, wealthy husband or is abut to. She would tell you of the resort she went with him to. That she's pregnant or going to soon conceive. It feels like her telling you might be bragging or to you it would feel as such.
Somehow I do feel there may be an undercurrent of resentment for your need to detach, from her side. She is closing her eyes to the bridge of communication and may tell you she didn't think to reach out as you had not Maintained connection with her. She feels hurt. She might tell you that you missed out on important events and that was sad you weren't there for her, to celebrate them with her.
10 pentacles, 10 of cups and Queen of pentacles.
Clarification: 7 of coins.
She might be interested in investing once again in the friendship. I think she closed her eyes to the bridge before but it might be she was weeping. Her guy she might gave not shared with her hurt over this ending, with him.

posted January 16, 2024 01:59 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
angryant2021,

What would "MZ" say to you?
- I am not certain if there might be embellishments in her success in life due to your cutting her off. I saw 5 of swords before your cards were pulled.
She might tell you, she's married, established in her prosperity. Might say she married a handsome, wealthy husband or is abut to. She would tell you of the resort she went with him to. That she's pregnant or going to soon conceive. It feels like her telling you might be bragging or to you it would feel as such.
Somehow I do feel there may be an undercurrent of resentment for your need to detach, from her side. She is closing her eyes to the bridge of communication and may tell you she didn't think to reach out as you had not Maintained connection with her. She feels hurt. She might tell you that you missed out on important events and that was sad you weren't there for her, to celebrate them with her.
10 pentacles, 10 of cups and Queen of pentacles.
Clarification: 7 of coins.
She might be interested in investing once again in the friendship. I think she closed her eyes to the bridge before but it might be she was weeping. Her guy she might gave not shared with her hurt over this ending, with him.

Please let me know if you'll need clarification or further Qs.

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Thank you Moon! I had a feeling it would be as what you had written... What do you mean by the last sentence "Her guy she might gave not shared with her hurt over this ending, with him. "?

There is a lot of resentment on my side. For things like my birthday, she isn't present even though I would drop everything to spend her special days with her. I feel like a puppy following its owner. In a way, what you wrote--I want to be the one who's "showing off".. the one who has grown and see how my life has improved without her--so maybe this is actually a blessing in disguise for both of us.

posted January 16, 2024 03:04 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
angryant2021,
Oh my spelling went off.
I was saying it seems she didn't give him any indication she was sad, tried hiding it from him her sadness over your disconnection.

In my perspective, I completely understand you!you should be the 🌟 in your story. You absolutely did right. You both need individual growth. Boundaries are healthy. You're no ahole. lol. She might be used to excessive attention and no amount will satisfy but you need to please you! Your life is yours and hers is hers, maybe once she's a mommy, she'll fully understand this as you do.

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posted January 16, 2024 06:42 PM            

i opted to send him a polite text tonight, directly asking whether there’s any hard feelings between us, (out of consideration, not wanting things to be weird) implying that I would like to visit the cafe i used to frequent again for coffee, where he works, in our shared neighborhood, because i pass by everyday on my walk to school (I’ve been avoiding it)

in a lightheartedness, i made the joke that these days i’ve been getting “bad coffee” 💀 from lidl instead (the grocery store nearby)

no response yet. edit: 24 hours later

gemini male’s silence can be quite a telling sign- presumably “a tell” that there’s feelings still posed, yet in the negative, space

this delay in response makes me slightly nervous, gives me the ick ♒️ i dont see why he cant just reply “we’re fine as strangers again. no hard feelings. [you’re welcome to get coffee here]” he could just relieve me of my overt concern since i now mention it kindly after months. idk whats the big deal about communicating… could be interpreted as antagonistic

eventually, i will do whatever i want in my neighborhood life, but a male friend of mine advised that i just give him a polite heads up, his words: “this gives him the chance to anticipate how he will feel” when it happens and are stating your intentions [to visit] preemptively

posted January 17, 2024 07:56 AM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
Thank you for the bump vansio.

Saggy7 and vansio, if you change your minds, let me know.

Thank you everyone for your patience. ♡

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posted January 18, 2024 01:38 AM            

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Originally posted by angryant2021:
It's really interesting you mention the attention.. Just the other day I was thinking where she gets the attention, now that I'm gone. She's a leo so the need for attention is applicable, which might also be relevant for you saying she's resenting me for cutting her off--its like a slap in the face for a leo's pride. It's been really tough especially when everyone says "its a pity to throw away a 15+ year relationship".. so your words make me feel firm in my decision! Thanks for making my day

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Thank you for updating me here. I think you're wise and decided for the best.

posted January 18, 2024 01:44 AM            

I will try to read this soonish, if you need to delete it, let me read it a few more minutes.

posted January 18, 2024 02:49 AM            

Why has B/L been avoiding vansio's communication?

I'm seeing him needing to temper his behavior, he feels "he should". I don't know how far you two went, talking or intimately.
A) you were not going beyond a certain point, which he then may have gotten himself dissuaded due to morals and wanted to upstand a particular "way" or if this is something that triggered him to think beyond a fling (your word previously), as to think of you with much seriousness.
b) as in a marriage potential. Which could be Making him fearful or over think. This is only the look I have outside what his words may be.
It could be his 2nd house stepped in, he's looking towards his values and is if he is moving too fast, did he or should he realign, reset, wait and reconvene once the fire is out?
I hope this isn't the case, could he be married or plan to with another? In any case, he's seeing a more stable situation where you are concerned.
You received
Temperance, knight of wands Hierophant and clarified with 10 of wands.

On a dice, I had a 3, then 4. I'll revisit this if we need to.
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What would he tell you?

"I'm seeing others, have been, as you may had known trying to balance life out. Balance my self out, who I am, want to become. There's so many opportunities out here. I got out of balance a bit. I am sorry. I feel my desires so strongly yet there's consequences to decisions in any connection. Certainly ours. I thought we were having fun. You were so tempting, honestly. I nearly stayed in that feeling. I think I'm far from ready but can't be certain, it's easier to just stay to myself. Have fun sometimes - but with you, you are the one that tempts me, no other has - like this. There's a mystery in you that both attracts me and brings fear to me.
Being with you is comforting but too comforting, it's my sense you would pin me down. I'm not ready. "

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Okay those dice. Yes, 7 is the full "other" in balance but broken, well you heard him. He's not mature or healed, maybe both. His 3 suggested likes to collaborate but is happy go lucky, his heart goes as far as fun, beyond dancing, laughing and just chilling as some say, he isn't ready but 4* states he's aware what tipping into that next number might mean. He's afraid of being tied down. Though you might not be doing that, he senses himself really into you.
Two oracles he gave you were "conflict" and "mystery". Idk if he Astral travels but this eludes to his knowing you possibly in dreamland. I wonder if you dream of one another.
Another oracle deck:
"You make me want to do bad things" (devil energy) capricorn/cancer
"You are so very special" (sun energy) leo/Aquarius
and "I'm a very jealous person" (moon energy) pisces/virgo
This tells me his conscience has been playing a huge role but his urges are strong. Overwhelming so, he thinks enough of you not to take you through a journey he is yet to understand himself. He's uncertain how he might be towards you in an instance it gets serious.

I hope this helps.
He does seem genuinely into you, this all about him and how you may not be energetically aligned yet. The Temperance makes it seem he wants to reach out but is figuring all, this out and "how" to convey to you so you'll see him the way he hopes you will.

Let me know your thoughts.
I do hope at the right moment, the right way you two will get the communication you both need together.

posted January 18, 2024 06:35 AM            

i already wrote it down for a friend who could see in her minds eye this look i woke up from, so i’ll just copy paste:

“just remembering now, this cat charmingly ran towards me when it saw me. and i said to B/L “can we take it home 🥺?” then i noticed it had a collar on, so no, though we both quietly contemplated it.

B/L, btw, prior to this scene had been evasive. earlier, he had played an anonymous piano concerto for a large auditorium. when his set was over, he never came back to the seats we had. he slipped away somewhere.

after waiting a while, i walked back to the room by myself, wondering when or even if he’d return (assuming i would be there alone.)

then, that’s the eye contact you saw. me turning the corner, the zoom in on him, looking right back at me, crouching in front of our hotel room door, waiting, petting this cat

i woke up from the dream before fully going into this room. so can’t say more about “the room” besides it figuratively being a hotel apartment

i do recall, choosing-then and there an attitude of giving him the cold-shoulder back, because he had left me in the music hall, brushing by him with keys in hand as i make my way through the door, but him following closely behind

a luxury, modern hotel. he was a concert pianist. we were guests, ostensibly a couple”

am realizing, in a general scene type of way, he didnt have keys, locked out

i’ll get back to you when i return from class, in like six hours

thank you - it resonates. :/

posted January 18, 2024 08:17 AM            

Stay away from the "other" coffee. lol

posted January 18, 2024 09:37 AM            

. i had to make the decision to depart from him cordially back then. as you seem to know, he wasn’t “ready” or mature enough or willing to be my man

posted January 23, 2024 12:00 PM            

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Originally posted by vansio:
moon, i just ran into him randomly on the street. he invited me to a piano concerto 😳 this friday

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posted January 23, 2024 04:01 PM            

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Originally posted by MoonMystic:
I'm astounded. Girl you are tapped in! The piano, I'm thinking he sent you a visual, you are experiencing your gifts, your dreams are very significant in these days. Can you dissect the dreams for all details? Have fun at the concerto.

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yeah i haven’t seen him since november (nor had spoken) so this was quite a surprise; not to mention the words out of his mouth. it was a bit nerve-racking

in my dream, he played for the audience my piano improv i had sent him IRL, back when we spent time together; it was a little something i recorded once 10 years. considering the audio in the dream, i wonder if he still listens to it… naturally, tickets to a piano concerto might have reminded him of me, or perhaps was plainly thinking of how to ask me out again. in person today, he brings this up loosely “do you like the philharmonic?” “yes, why are you asking?”’i have tickets for a japanese piano concerto… the female friend i go with only likes Opera. so you can have them. maybe you’d like to go with someone.” to which i’m like (knowing he is mentioning theFwB he has) “i dont like the opera—perfect. are you inviting me to go with you?” “erm yeah, um, if youre available. it’s friday at 8..” “yes, i’d like to. i actually had a dream of you and a piano concerto—you were the pianist. maybe i’ll tell you about it on friday. Ciao!” ***i walk away***