posted September 08, 2006 05:48 AM         

Heaps of Love,
Dean.

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I realized it for the first time in my life:
there is nothing but mystery in the world,
how it hides behind the fabric of our poor,
browbeat days, shining brightly, and we don't even know it.

Sue Monk Kidd, "The Secret Life of Bees", p79

posted September 08, 2006 08:15 AM         

PS. WATCH the movie "PATCH ADAMS".

He self committed himself to a mental hospital.
He was cured there and went on to do wonderful things!
WATCH The Movie PLEASE!

There is NO SHAME in GETTING HELP!
Consider doing this please.

posted September 08, 2006 10:55 AM         

You've made such great strides lately. Remember that, ok? I've discovered that the greater strides you make, the more accelerated are the challenges and lessons...and you're bound to fall back now and then. That goes with it. But you are gradually aligning yourself with where you hope to be. It takes time. Don't rush yourself, and be gentle with your weaknesses. We all have them.
We all fall back now and then, but it's doesn't mean it's permanent. It's in movement, even if it doesn't seem so. It's happening in the subtler tides within you, that aren't seen as clearly and don't happen overnight.
The past will always haunt us.
The freer we become, the less frequent, but as thinking souls, we can't help remembering.

You are here and now, you're own person, always, regardless of your environment.

Thank God for your awareness.
Even if it hurts, it's helping you see.

posted September 08, 2006 01:58 PM         

Hope today finds you well & happy -

I was very impressed to read all that you decided to share - want to just write you & tell you that I hope everything is working out well for you. I hope that life is smiling at you and you are smiling right back! Bit corny eh? Regardless - Just want to send you super positive thoughts.

Quick note - I think to 'swear' is a way to also express yourself - what I am trying to convey to you is that I understand (sense) why your writing included swearing.

Happy Thoughts To You -

posted September 08, 2006 03:38 PM         

I see a very sensitive D, who was never loved back the way she loved others.

Rant it out all here, its good for you.
What purpose will your death achive? How will it makes things better for you or for those you love? You are given a Now and what can you do in that Now for everyone's benefit. Seriously just talk or write your options.

Finally Jesus said " It is not what goes inside a man that defiles him. But what comes out of man that defiles him."

Seriously you need to work hard on your self for the words you have choosen to post there.

Its not a 2 cent morality lecture but an advice from a stranger friend who still cares if you care to listen. I am not perfect, but I do not blame others for my state. I am responsible for my own actions. Yes I may be influenced by what happened in my childhood. But God has literally crushed those people. Our Father in heaven always is a witness to all that happens. Just touch the earth as a witness by your right hand and vent out(earth absorbs our negativity) and try to listen. The answer wud come to you.

Sending love and light.

posted September 09, 2006 12:06 AM         

We are all with you... Hang in there!
Geez, if I can do it, you can do it!
You are a survivor.... conquer your feelings...

Silverstone

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The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

posted September 12, 2006 04:55 PM         

It never ceases to amaze me what we as souls choose for ourself to endure while in human form. I am NO exception! I amaze myself.

I feel your pain, I love the way you write, you seem to be able to get it all out in writing. I do that too.

Sending Peace, Love and Light'

posted September 12, 2006 11:07 PM         

You are truly an amazing person.

Never forget how beautiful you are.

thank you

posted September 13, 2006 09:54 PM         

My life is an indivisible whole, and all my attitudes run into one another; and they all have their rise in my insatiable love for mankind.
-- Mahatma Gandhi

How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and the strong. Because someday in life you will have been all of these.
-- George Washington Carver

Few things in the world are more powerful than a positive push - a smile. A word of optimism and hope, a 'you can do it!' when things are tough.
-- Richard De Vos

Live all you can; it's a mistake not to. It doesn't so much matter what you do in particular, so long as you have your life. If you haven't had that, what have you had?
-- Henry James