posted August 15, 2010 05:47 PM         

For a while now, I would look into the mirror and I would see someone else other than myself looking back, someone more powerful and centered than I am.

Yesterday I started reading an Ebook from a link iQ provided from www.alloya.com.

Today, I was looking into the mirror again and I saw the same presence behind my mirror image, this powerful being, but another thing happened... my eyes went black, as in, the whites of my eyes along with my iris went into a uniform black, for only a few seconds, flickering on and off from normal to black.

Now, I don't want to be too rational and deem this just my imagination - but the fact is that it happened, real or not.

What a trip. Thereafter I had a panic attack. I took a shower, put on my long green robe and sat outside on the balcony on the green sofa outside, and enjoyed the sun. By this time I was nice and calm absorbing the sun's rays which felt like butter, it was so good.

Then I played guitar in a trance for three hours, non-stop. That was my day today.

What's going on???

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For iQ: Do you remember when I went sick some time ago? http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/203952.html Well, reading the stuff on alloya.com has just highlighted that I was going through something similar to what she went through. It would explain why doctors couldn't find anything. Her accounts are so similar, even to the eating of tons of bananas.

Thanks for sharing the link, iQ. It validated a lot of things for me, reading that. Although I will remain "healthily skeptical", as usual.

posted August 15, 2010 07:34 PM         

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Echoes fade and memories die:
Autumn frosts have slain July

posted August 16, 2010 06:35 AM         

When we were waiting to be seated there was alot of noise and chattering yet when we entered everyone went quiet ans watched us as we took our seats. You're aura was glowing white and gold really bright.(oh ja that's the time I asked you about your health?)

You were very confident and strong.And now I happen to come across your thread.

Sounds like something good skat

Jammer I haven't kept in touch..

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posted August 16, 2010 08:02 AM         

Charm I remember you telling me you had a dream about me. At that time I was feeling soooo good, and strong as if life itself was coursing through my very being. It was a lovely time. I am still feeling the remnants of this, but not as much as then.

Which reminds me. I need to stock up on my vitamins which have run out. Oh, I also eat a lot more because there is a voice inside of me saying, "You need lots energy!! Eat!" So, I had even set up an alarm for every 4 hrs to eat - which I have stopped doing, probably why I am not feeling as much vitality as I was feeling then.

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Echoes fade and memories die:
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posted August 16, 2010 08:33 AM         

I hope that's not too much.

posted August 16, 2010 10:45 AM         

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Mini-transformers will be contained within various
organs, all specialising in the storage of information. Each
transformer will receive the incoming energy and translate it
by using the new chakra. Meridian points will be situated
throughout the body, the main points being in the cells of the
pineal and pituitary glands in the brain. The activated glands
will receive the in-coming information and project it through
the third eye screen of the conscious mind in pure
synchronicity. Therefore, you will be conscious of
information as and when it is necessary. The pineal and
pituitary glands will connect together along lines of stellar
light to create a fine crystalline bridge.
This will connect the right and left sides of the brain
into a unified whole. This process creates a being, which is a
total balance of both stellar light and matter.

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posted August 17, 2010 05:57 AM         

I am probably the World's only Male researcher on Kundalini Rise effects on women. Other men would dismiss the ladies as delusional or paranoid. I have 100% confidence in you and your Higher Selves that you are stating the truth and you will be guided to safely complete the transformation/ascension. I recognized Alloya to be one, hence recommended her works.

On this forum, there was Eliza Jane, then VenusdeIndia [she had some problems with this, it was a surge of goddess energy causing imbalances. She even had a Walk-In from a Soul Group member, it was for the Walk-In that the Kundalini Process occurred. ]. Your chart has signs of very strong Kundalini Energy too.

Just let go of the fears, keep up the psychic Violet Tetrahedral protection and keep up the forgiveness exercises. Forgiveness must be done even for genetic ancestry. Forgiveness must be done for any crimes of a future lifeline as well. All these make for a safe Kundalini Expereince, one where your Aura stays safe and whole, within your Self's control.

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posted August 17, 2010 07:21 AM         

Peri, I thought I would be scared too when I heard such things before from other people, but I am not too scared. I get panic attacks all the time which tells me that there is some fear that the body is feeling, but my soul isn't afraid. Fortunately I can distinguish between my body, my soul and my ego. My real self is not afraid, but my body and rational mind is a bit freaked. Oh well.

I am going to go and eat AGAIN and do some balancing and cleansing visualizations because I feel heavier than usual.

posted August 19, 2010 04:32 PM         

This is an excerpt from an email to a friend:

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I also had an awesome dream about these feline humanoids who gave me a very cool gift, as a reward... or they were testing my virtue and were gonna give me the gift anyways??? Dunno. They were cool cats. excuse the corn (corny pun).

There were three of them, the feline humanoids, 2 masculine and 1 feminine, and they were black and white and as tall as a door, or taller. People were abusing them and laughing at them because they were different at school, and I walked in the classroom with this happening. They didn't say a word. They just endured the teasing and prodding and had their heads bowed as one would see when experiencing a racist attack when numbers are not even, a silent restraint and a breaking spirit. Anyway, I looked around and told the kids in the classroom to leave the cat people alone and told the "cat people" that they could hang with me. They did. As soon as we were alone in the corner of the classroom they looked at me, still silent, but then they started talking to me telepathically. They thanked me for "saving" them, and I was about to argue with them for letting themselves be abused, because I realized that they weren't as timid as they made people believe. But, before I could speak they silenced me (kinda like a telepathic shhhh. lol) and told me that they had something to show me. As soon as one of the cat people said that, I was rushed into this vortex and taken to outerspace where I had the perspective of the make-up of the universe. As soon as that happened, I saw the other side of infinity of the sub-atomic universe. Everything made sense, I mean... I knew everything in those moments but I forgot all the knowledge when I woke up. I just know that I knew. Also, I saw nebula after nebula and star systems, planets and then it all ended with silence... darkness and silence and a feeling of completeness, a peace that was more peaceful than peace. I can't even explain that dream. It was extraordinary!!!

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posted August 19, 2010 10:52 PM         

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You're aura was glowing white and gold

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posted August 19, 2010 10:58 PM         

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I am probably the World's only Male researcher on Kundalini Rise effects on women. Other men would dismiss the ladies as delusional or paranoid.

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Judging by that statement...
Has your pov changed a bit?

I vaguely recollect you did sound as if you thought women were indeed delusional and paranoid, hysterical creatures, or not capable of it, your pov was rather sexist to say the least....and we argued.

posted August 20, 2010 05:45 AM         

My POV has always been excellent about women Your frames of reference are different from mine hence I cannot satisfy what you think to be the correct POV. I am very comfortable with my POV: That women are sacred, representatives of the Divine Feminine/Kundalini Energy. That if this energy goes out of balance, then they can appear to manifest mental illnesses, which are not illnesses at all, just a phase, till full Kundalini awakening occurs.
And women who deny their sacred femininity as a gift of the goddess, they are wasting this incarnation's opportunities.

posted August 20, 2010 10:56 AM         

Also, I have started having these headaches that interfere with my right side of the brain and eye. Taking painkillers or sinus meds has not alleviated it. But other than that, I am super because it goes away eventually. Maybe the Annanuki are onto me. Hehe Anywhoooooo...

Oh, and I have noted the Calcium/Mag intake thing. 2 hrs before or after other meds. Noted and thank you.

P.S. I looked into the mirror again and between my eyes where the third eye is supposed to be, there materialized a black triangle, as if someone dipped their fingers in black paint and drew it there with their forefinger. True Story. I was floored. lol. It reminded me of the dollar pyramid.

LEXX, you better email me one day and tell me all about our shenanigans 2000 years ago. Okay? It would explain why you and I just get on, on a major spiritual level. You have been with me since those days when there were presences watching me and disturbing my sleep. Do you remember? When I thought I was being haunted and you told me that no harm will come to me. I was so scared. I was seeing and hearing things from other dimensions and didn't know what to do and you made me calm down. That's when it all started, or round abouts. This would be the 2nd or 3rd year of my "transformation".

posted August 20, 2010 11:09 AM         

iQ - don't even mention the female circumcisions. They infuriate me so much. But, when I do get angry I pause and remind myself that karma is karma and those parties ("victim" and "victimizer") are just playing their part in the transformation process. There is a lot of beauty that comes from pain. My life is testament to it. So, although "unnecessary", I feel that if it has happened, it was meant to be. Hopefully, those involved evolve from their plight like Phoenixes... ya know...

Excuse me, guys... I am in a strange and playful mood. I bet my tone can be annoying seeing as we are speaking of "serious" things... but hey... I am feeling childish these days. I am even speaking like a child. So much of my darkness and heaviness has gone and taken a hiatus. Yay! What I am left with is this child inside me that wants to smile and laugh and say that "all the pain in the world has a purpose" and that "everything is as it should be". I bet I will change my tone when I go out tomorrow to watch the rugby if/when I happen on an oppositely charged hooligan who lowers my energy.

posted August 20, 2010 01:07 PM         

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Other men do research this and do not dismiss girls/women as delusional or paranoid; ie; a nice way of saying "hysterically delusional".

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Not in my part of the world. If there were another researcher, he would have contacted me by now.

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My POV has always been excellent about women Your frames of reference are different from mine hence I cannot satisfy what you think to be the correct POV.

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I am very comfortable with my POV: That women are sacred, representatives of the Divine Feminine/Kundalini Energy. That if this energy goes out of balance, then they can appear to manifest mental illnesses, which are not illnesses at all, just a phase, till full Kundalini awakening occurs.

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And women who deny their sacred femininity as a gift of the goddess, they are wasting this incarnation's opportunities.

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And what about women who have male incarnations
or who are androgynes such as myself, neither 100% male nor 100% female but born hermaphrodites/dual gendered including in my case a male mind, tested clinically and proved to be 99% male, with the fact that I remember dreams which most males do not and that aspect giving only a 99% male brain category for me ?

posted August 20, 2010 01:35 PM         

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It's my digestive problem that's giving me the heaviness

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Yes dear lady, I will share what I remember about those past incarnations eventually with you.
Suffice it to say, then and now and many other times, you grid to me as a true survivor and have always been strong enough to eventually rise to the highest heights the cultures you lived in could allow.