posted January 19, 2019 12:46 AM            

I have Mars in Libra conj Dsc from 6th. But i think that Moon close to Ic from 3rd ,Venus,Saturn,Pluto in air houses helps the attraction. Plus North node in Gemini.

I dont have Cap Dsc. Its Libra Dsc. But Saturn is in the 7th.

posted January 19, 2019 01:04 AM            

A lot of what contributes to my situation is my circumstances.

It's difficult being tolerant with my dad considering how he acts with his opinions. If he doesn't agree with you he will try to shut you down and expects everyone to live by his standards. He is a Leo Sun, Sag Moon, Gemini Mars on ASC. I'm still living at home atm and whenever I take off to go somewhere he will constantly pester me with questions like, "Where are you going, and what are you doing, who is this person," so I almost feel obligated to tell him. For a while there he kept on insisting on him meeting this Cap Guy as "he needs to know who I am hanging out with so he can determine if he trusts him or not,".

I honestly understand the reason why the Cap Guy chose to not get involved in a romantic relationship with me, and if I was in his situation I might feel the same. I wouldn't want to get entangled into that mess and it would be selfish of me to just bring my emotional baggage/issues into the relationship (he has 8th house in Sag with Aqua Jupiter in 10th, no Moon-Mars). Though of course, I am afraid of telling my dad about my sexuality because of his reaction; he pulled a knife on me when I was 10 years old, threatening me to kill myself because I was having a fit. Even though I do very much want to feel free from the fear of being this way. At some point, I want to move out on my own but I still need to prepare for that moment. Most of the complications come from not having come out to my father yet while still living under his roof.

I am pretty sure the Cap Guy understands my situation considering how his relationship is with his own father and how he is not in contact with him because of it. I've tried explaining to him about how it is my father that is the issue in this whole thing and not him, and he understands that. My fathers want to put adult expectations on me but at the same time treats me as if I am still a child, and his excuse for that is, "Well I still have to be a father,".I felt I had an emotionally nurturing relationship with my mom and that she understood the emotional circumstances surrounding my relationship with my father (She is a 4th house Cancer Moon with a 12th house stellium in Pisces).

I understand that my dad is also going through a lot right now, but he will sometimes use that as justification for his behavior. That is what I can't stand. I try to keep healthy self-respect for myself; I struggled with depression in high-school and dealt with self-loathing and the feeling of worthlessness.

I'm a 4th house Aqua Sun right on my IC (4th house stellium of Sun, Uranus, Venus with Merc-Neptune on my IC from third), Sun-Merc-Neptune all conjunct (Merc-Neptune exact). Moon in Gemini 8th opposite Pluto exact (0 degrees one minute). Scorpio Mars conjunct ASC exact with Scorpio Lilith in first. 5th house Pisces Jupiter.

posted January 20, 2019 12:52 AM            

Mars, NN and especially your DSC are in air houses, so it definately makes sense now to me why you are attracted to air signs mixed with a little bit of water (Moon, Venus and Saturn in water signs).

posted January 20, 2019 01:27 AM            

Your father is so very similar to my mother.

It seems we both lost the parent that we've been close with.

I understand how your dad makes you wanna explode, feeling like you're suffocating, wanna be free of him but you can not, feeling like he is holding you back.

I should have said it earlier but I guessed that you have Mercury in hard aspect to Neptune.

How old are you if you don't mind me asking?

We all have emotional issues and we will bring it im a relationship.. However he has been through a similar situation with his father but he chose to be free unlike you. For him it may be like he is going through it for a second time or maybe it just doesn't seem like a big deal to him since he did go through that himself.

Don't get me wrong I'm not telling that he is better/braver I'm just pointing out how he might see it.

I also feel that you shouldn't talk about your sexuality to your father since he has such extreme reactions that may put you in danger.. especially now that you don't have your mom and that he is going through that phase that he lost his wife. However it seems weird to me that he asks to meet your friends. Have you gave him a reason to distrust your choices in the past?
Are you maybe too young?

Since your Moon in Gemini is opposite your Pluto it means that Pluto is at least at the latest degrees of Scorpio and is making out of sign opposition with your early Gemini Moon. So even in that case you are way younger than me.
You have plenty of time.

I think not telling your father and trying to find a job in order to get more independent and then find a place to stay away from your father are the steps you should follow, in that order.

Your Mars in Scorpio is grrat at achieving things methodically. If you eant smth you will find the way to do it. It's a strong Mars and it's in your 1st.

Pluto on Moon can be hard, painful and dark but it's beautiful and strong.. also your Moon in 8th H gives your Moon a double Scorpio energy.

You actually have a lot of Scorpio energy your ASC must be in Scorpio too.

A lot of planets seem to be in your 3rd H some conjucting your IC which indicates the family. 3rd house is about the way we. communicate. If Neptune is in there too then you have double Neptunian Mercury. You are afraid of fights and might be passive aggressive. Your thoughts maybe confusing or you maybe confused at how to put your thoughts/feelings into words. Of course it's not only Mercury conjict Neptune in your case but it's an aspect that I'm very familiar with that's why I talked about it.

Your Moon is also ruled by Mercury.. I think you have to do a bit of work with your communication meaning communicating without fear what you want and what you don't, how to make your point and how to be harsh when you need to without being scared or influenced by others.

posted January 20, 2019 01:05 PM            

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Originally posted by Lalafortunaea:
Aquarians are good at convincing themselves that they're fine without intimacy.

They secretly crave it, and fear it, but they push those feelings away so far that they don't even know they feel them sometimes.

I dare say even some Aquas do know just how much they crave and wish for intimacy, but they have to keep up the denial to protect themselves.

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Idk why but this relates with me SO much and I'm not even an Aquarian

I'm way too detached and never been in a relationship.