posted December 20, 2009 12:43 PM         

I'm hurting so bad. so bad. and the truth is I'm still standing!

listen to bowie unmoved

posted December 20, 2009 12:49 PM         

I've been in hell since, and I still feel for him. I sometimes thinks hatred is not far from love.

posted December 20, 2009 01:14 PM         

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I've met a guy in london 2 years ago, I fell in love, we kept in touch but he said he was straight, although I thought not.

I've been in hell since, and I still feel for him. I sometimes thinks hatred is not far from love.

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That's total agony, pire. I get the anger. Cr@p! I don't even know how you'd start to deal with such a monumental issue.

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i've got in mind the image of someone who screams loud and then reput his hair like if nothing had happened when his lover opens the door

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posted December 20, 2009 01:24 PM         

regarding this gentleman from london, I miss him it does add some fuel to the fire, only, but I know that he's fine.

I miss him. I want him. and I want to *beeeeeep* with him.

at least, he can have the honour of opening my heart chakra, if nothing else :/

posted December 20, 2009 01:27 PM         

This reminds me of what you said in another thread, about how you're celibate, but owould gladly relinquish your hold if someone asked nicely enough. Or something to that effect. I laughed.

Pire - I think we have just high jacked a thread. You can open another thread and I will be there to talk, if you like.

posted December 20, 2009 01:30 PM         

at least, u are lucky to play music unmoved, music is such a good way for expressing feelings.

posted December 20, 2009 01:33 PM         

sorry venus in gem.

let's say we were discussi how to express ourselves (mars)

ps: one last thing unmoved, look "i'm falling" on youtube by mika

posted December 20, 2009 04:26 PM         

Feel free to hijack anytime. You needed to express these thoughts, and it helped you by expressing them, and it helped me and others when we read them. And we all learn something we needed to learn.

It just always amazes me and confirms how truly connected we all are. When I read a thread posted by someone in England, or Australia or Germany, and they are going through the exact same thing I am going through, or have just been through. And you realize they felt the same level of pain or anquish that you did. It just makes me feel really close to all of you, very connected. That we are all essentially going through this together. Carolyn Myss calls it "Earth School"...having a tough day at Earth School. And she's just so right. Some of the lessons (transits) are really tough. We get knocked down. And we grit out teeth, and pull ourselves up again, and we tell ourselves, "we can do this". And that's how the lessons go. Some of them are harder than we would like. But remember, that you can't fail a lesson. Maybe we just didn't fully learn it the first time around, so they give you another chance to learn it. I swear there is a big bulletin board out in the universe with our name on it, with gold stars on one side of the board for the lessons we completed. And the other side of the board holding the stars for the lessons yet to be completed.