posted August 22, 2010 07:15 PM         

Ami

posted August 22, 2010 07:20 PM         

Ami
PS Thank you,Girlfriend, You got me out of my funk!

posted August 23, 2010 04:26 AM         

I don’t mean being physically abandoned, but more of “...mother was never around to see my ballgames because she had to work”.
Anyway, on to me.

My placements
Aries Moon, 2nd house
Moon Square Neptune
Moon Trine Uranus
Moon Square Mars
Moon Trine Uranus

My mom is a Cancer , some of her efforts I applaud her others not so much, but at the end of the day she still cares for me.

Her knowledge of finance is something I applaud and I can admit i’ve learned a thing or two from her, as most males lack any understanding when comes to personal and family banking .

But..........

My mom kept me vary close to the family and all my aunts, uncles and cousin can admit to have had at least watched me once or twice while growing up. Instead of me being enrolled in pre-school my Grandparents whould take care of me and I still have a close bond with my Grandma. However the better thing would have been to be in preschool as it is imperative for children to learn socialization as early on with non family members.

When I was 10 and bored, I decided to go through the filing cabinets and one of the suggestions from my paediatricians was to be in pre-school. Until my teen years I can recall visiting my paediatrician at least once a month. At times it seems as if my paediatrician had a better understand of me and what to do then my mom, my paediatrician was an Aquarius by the way.

As I got older my paediatrician whould ask me first then explain things to my mother. Not much different than a “translator”.
My mom did however made sure i’m cared for and loved, being a Cancer she did make sure both me and my sister had an education fund so we could both go to college without going in debt .

So from a financial perspective I thank her. But in terms of what to do and what’s best is something I question?.

Or maybe its a gem thing, I mean my sister my mom have no idea and have there own ideas when it comes to my gemini neice.

Of course I'd beg otherwise, I mean its me always taking her outside. I keep telling my sister she doesn't want to be couped up inside.

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Capircorn Rising
Gemini Sun, 5th House
Aries Moon
Mercury in Gemini
Venus In Taurus

posted August 30, 2010 09:37 AM         

Hey Ami, sorry for the long reply. I wanted to tell you about my father as well. He sounds like your father in that he was dependable, loving, he never ranted or rave either. He actually did stand up for me, but the thing is, that was what I feared most so I learned not to say anything. He's a great father, but he worked 6 days a week, it's not like he can protect me once I expose her (and at the time, I didn't really want to tell on her, fear had a tight grip on me). Whenever he did stand up for me, I'd only get punished ten times worse by her. She would threaten me whenever they'd get into it, so as soon as he left for work I'd be in deep sh*t. My abuse was something I hid from my father most of the time, it wasn't hard either, he worked a lot to provide for us. I always looked forward to his days off, those were the days my mother wouldn't mistreat me, she even called me by my given name on those days. Occasionally, now, when I have bad days, I still get a bit bitter about my past, but I really try not to..

posted August 30, 2010 09:42 AM         

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and threads like this heals people who need it, so thank you Ami.

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Thank YOU,Soulful.

I could never write threads like this if I thought it was just for me.

Your post is not too long at all. Please keep writing and make it as long as you can

I am sorry you went through that. It was betrayal any way you cut it even if the father was a good person.
x o x Ami