posted July 28, 2011 03:16 PM            

still fresh on the forum but not new to asrtrology.

i posted a rant about a venus link before and now am curious as to how many people have had venus in a challenging aspect to both neptune and chiron? what have your experiences have been like? i have that aspect with someone but their venus falls in my twelfth so i can't quite put my finger on it.. wondered if maybe one of you lovely people would be able to provide some perspective.

posted July 28, 2011 03:41 PM            

they had very attractive behaviour to me.

amongst the aspect, we also had other positive one's involved but the person has a moon conjunct pluto (i still don't know much about that aspect) and i'm believing that the aspect in itself, would really create issues dealing with my chiron being in the sign that it's in (cancer).

we had a lovely time, til i decided that maybe it would be best if i went home that night (because we have mars and venus also in conjunction).

the pain i felt was immense!

just leaving and getting in my car (when i didn't want to) felt sooo painful! almost as if i was parting with a very personal part of me, i can't explain it!

the person withdrew even though i made the effort to reach out so that they'd know my rejecting their advances wasn't really rejection, at all..

we got in touch again and had plans to see each other again but i was told that i'd be told when.. very 'up in the air'.

i didn't like it but i respected their decision

i called yesterday, no answer
no call back either
i wrote them today, twice...

i saw that they were online yet didn't read my messages and that's the second time it's been done on their end so i bailed.

i sent them that song and then blocked them so i wouldn't hear back from them and think that even if they were to call, i'd not answer the call because i feel as if i'm puttin a lot of myself out there for them to be playing it safe or playing games (it's what it feels like).

i get back on, their profile is gone.

some part of me was a little hurt by it but the other feels gladly relieved! just being up in the air about things is not my way of doing things (mars in aries); person has mars in pisces (sun, merc, jup, chiron as well) and transit neptune is hovering over that conjunction for them so the very mystical thing itself, made me reject the entire thing.

partly, because of old environments i found myself in and how i then became in such relationships at the time.. a bit similar; i wasn't given the time of day, calls weren't returned, etc, etc.

posted July 28, 2011 04:02 PM            

i never replied.

posted July 28, 2011 04:17 PM            

but WOW, this song is so BEAUTIFUL (in a melancholic gentle sort of way). It strongly resonates with me (I wonder if that is because I have Neptune conjunct Mars and ASC ).

posted July 30, 2011 01:48 AM            

i felt the worst pain!!!! PHYSICAL pain!!!!! my arms were hurting, my actual heart, my hands were shaking.. i don't know what it was but then when i realized i was tuning into their pain, i disconnected from it and it went away..

i made it to the place and i pull into the driveway to see two cars in the garage..

from what i was told, they live with a roommate but i guess ever since the roommate got back (because the roommate was supposed to be out of town), i haven't heard from them so i'm questioning if the 'roommate' is indeed a roommate or not.

i did what anybody else would do i pulled back right away, nearly lost my breath and drove away as fast as i could and went to cvs after driving around like a lost person from being so disoriented and then bought myself a burrito.

posted July 30, 2011 02:10 AM            

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Originally posted by tuxedoMask:
i'll tell you guys that the weirdest things are happening.. i was in my room today then started thinking about said person with the venus.. i got ready at the drop of a hat and made my way over there.. took me a while to find the place but since i had no way of getting in touch with venus (they've deleted their profile, i was told they don't carry a phone and calling the house seemed kind of pointless to me); i can't explain it... i felt that i HAD to go over there.

i felt the worst pain!!!! PHYSICAL pain!!!!! my arms were hurting, my actual heart, my hands were shaking.. i don't know what it was but then when i realized i was tuning into their pain, i disconnected from it and it went away..

i made it to the place and i pull into the driveway to see two cars in the garage..

from what i was told, they live with a roommate but i guess ever since the roommate got back (because the roommate was supposed to be out of town), i haven't heard from them so i'm questioning if the 'roommate' is indeed a roommate or not.

i did what anybody else would do i pulled back right away, nearly lost my breath and drove away as fast as i could and went to cvs after driving around like a lost person from being so disoriented and then bought myself a burrito.

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posted July 30, 2011 02:16 AM            

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Originally posted by AstrologicalMan:
I went to CVS today too

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posted July 30, 2011 05:17 PM            

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Originally posted by Lioness:
Ill tell you the one time, my venus was in someones 12th.. There was a DEEP fear of rejection.. I would have done anything for him.. EXCEPT for one thing.. tell him how I felt... Under no circumstances would I admit any feelings to him.

Even if he walked up and asked me. I would still say Nope.. no feelings.. sorry...
even though I did.. The fear was extremely intense.. IT consumed me.

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this really sucks...

posted July 30, 2011 05:37 PM            

i rationalize it, but the rationalization just doesn't even seem rational itself!

would i be able to do whatever it is that 'mate' does for them in terms of stability?

what if they're happy and i was just something on the side to enjoy one weekend?

this is so annoying!

what's more annoying is the fact that i can't do anything about it!!!!!!!!

literally, they have no cell phone! completely got rid of it, they told me they don't want to be contacted by anyone.. i have the house number, i called, somebody else picked up rather than the person i'd anticipated so i never said anything and they hung up.. did i block my number? no, because i don't care! what can i do? be the jack to their rose and offer them bread and water?

posted August 12, 2011 04:41 AM            

i really enjoy reading most of your threads you have a great way about you especialy since you are able to express your feelings and emotions in such a way that makes you seem vulnerable i wish i could express myself that way.

sorry to hear about this person who doesnt seem to be intrested in you its a shame i bet this person does not know what their missing.

posted August 12, 2011 04:55 AM            

but i'm not posting mine... lol.

TOB: unknown

posted August 12, 2011 05:12 AM            

sexually that brings heat passion unbridled lust and just the feeling of intense sexual energy.
from your posts i can tell you really find this person attractive and want to be with them sexually so badly.

i just wish i knew where her venus fell in your chart. but without the correct birthtime i dont know.

posted August 12, 2011 05:16 AM            

for their placements in my chart, that birth time for the second one is accurate so the answer would be in the twelfth... :/