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Topic: Im addicted
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Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 08:41 PM
  
Im addicted to fishman, he is like my drug.. I cant stop... IDK how to get a grip, how do I maintain control?? Im loosing myself in him.. Its feeding my brain, its in my bloodstream its deep inside my entire being.... I have no clue, how to handle these feelings.. I cant breathe.. I cant think.. I can only feel.... but its so deeply, I dont know how to express it or do anything about anything anymore... We cant stop talking... When we do,its like torture.. IP: Logged |
NickiG
Moderator Posts: 5150
From: Pluto, next to Ami Ann
Registered: Jul 2010
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posted January 04, 2012 08:44 PM
sounds like crack------------------
I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate? when organic is used to describe food then you know we have come to a dark age in history IP: Logged |
mintgirl123
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posted January 04, 2012 08:50 PM
Dude I went through that and it was not pretty.
I felt like a friggen drug addict, or someone needing air. I hated that feeling. When you know they have you twisted around their lil finger and you don't have any control over yourself! Alot of love, but it also terrified me. Soulmates do it to you.
I am kinda scared to have that again actually. Want it, but am afraid of it.IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 08:50 PM
It might as well be... Its consumed me. Thank god, I have unlimited text  and Im not spending the crack type of money... lol IP: Logged |
NickiG
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From: Pluto, next to Ami Ann
Registered: Jul 2010
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posted January 04, 2012 08:52 PM
are your teeth degrading yet? LOL------------------
I once saw a sign that said "sin is death" but if "all deaths are suicide (linda goodman)" and suicide is sin, then shouldnt "death is sin" be more appropriate? when organic is used to describe food then you know we have come to a dark age in history IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 08:54 PM
What scares me the most is loosing myself... We are texting right now.. We have been texting since 10 this morning.. Then later he will call me, he always does.. IP: Logged |
mintgirl123
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posted January 04, 2012 08:54 PM
I think it was probably worse than drug addiction. Cos with drugs you can keep away. I just found it hard to get away from MYSELF. IP: Logged |
amelia28
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From: dumont, CO
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted January 04, 2012 08:57 PM
LMAO  .......you guys will be ok. I am sure it will get better after the initial stages and you won't have these feelings of addiction anymore......In fact moving in together will probably fix the addiction as you will clearly see each others defects and will still like each other very much but not in the level you are both in right now.IP: Logged |
VenusDiSirius
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Registered: Aug 2010
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posted January 04, 2012 09:00 PM
Lioness,all is well as long as you can type and be on LL,fear not,you are not lost IP: Logged |
Capriquarius
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From: So. Cal
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted January 04, 2012 09:00 PM
Heh, I remember feeling that with a Pisces too. It was during a Neptune transit to my Moon so that was probably causing the feelings of helplessness. Once in a lifetime transit. I enjoyed tNeptune conj nSun the most though. The world felt magical. IP: Logged |
mintgirl123
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posted January 04, 2012 09:02 PM
Nah I'm long past that now. I've over the guy. Thank god!! Too bad Lioness is back in it all with her fishy lol.IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:03 PM
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Originally posted by Capriquarius:
Heh, I remember feeling that with a Pisces too. It was during a Neptune transit to my Moon so that was probably causing the feelings of helplessness. Once in a lifetime transit. I enjoyed tNeptune conj nSun the most though. The world felt magical.
Euwww dont say that cuz his moon conjuncts my neptune, and his neptune trines my moon.. Synastry aspects are like transits, only it comes from that specific person.. 
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Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:03 PM
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Originally posted by mintgirl123:
Nah I'm long past that now. I've over the guy. Thank god!! Too bad Lioness is back in it all with her fishy lol.
How did you let it go? IP: Logged |
Capriquarius
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From: So. Cal
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted January 04, 2012 09:09 PM
Wish me luck on snagging me a young buck like 10 years my junior then, for that Sun-Neptune connection. Good on you for finding your permanent dreamy Neptune transit.  IP: Logged |
mintgirl123
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posted January 04, 2012 09:12 PM
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Originally posted by Lioness:
How did you let it go?
Took me like nearly one and half years but it's all about going cold turkey! Just like drugs, you have to cut off your supply. No ifs or buts. I blocked the guy on everything. Changed my number. I guess it's harder for you cos you work with him? T_T
Believe me, it was SO hard! I have friggen physical withdrawal symptoms too.
Everytime I felt like doing sth and contacting him etc I went for a night jog, and like ran for like an hour plus until I was exhausted. It wasn't easy but slowly, it does get better! As long as you have your mind on the goal! Which in this case is to get out and move on and have control over yourself lol. I wrote like over 1200 ++ messages to him (like wrote down my feelings/thoughts) never sent it. It was just a way to vent!
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Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:13 PM
You know what the worst thing is... LOL.. A woman that I use to work with (over a year ago) she called me today.. She said hey whats going on with you and fishman??? I said what?? why.. She got a phone call from a guy she went out with, and he told her, that me and fishy have something going on.. But that we "think" we are hiding it, but everyone knows.. Every one can see it.... LOL... They all see how we look at each other... OMG!!!!! """""DOH""" IP: Logged |
mintgirl123
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posted January 04, 2012 09:15 PM
Do you think you have a future with this guy? Like there's no point in getting involved if nothing will come out of it imo.IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:15 PM
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Originally posted by Capriquarius:
Wish me luck on snagging me a young buck like 10 years my junior then, for that Sun-Neptune connection. Good on you for finding your permanent dreamy Neptune transit.
Ill wish upon a star for you.. But trust me.. IDK what it is... Im also worried its all delusional... IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:17 PM
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Originally posted by mintgirl123:
Do you think you have a future with this guy? Like there's no point in getting involved if nothing will come out of it imo.
IDK... hon.... IDK... but I cant let it go.... IP: Logged |
mintgirl123
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posted January 04, 2012 09:25 PM
I just kinda thought to myself, while I was in one of my distraught moods one day awhile back, " I'd feel so fcking STUPID if I was still stuck in this SAME thing one year from now. I can't hurt like this anymore. HELL NO! (cos I already realised I was going round and round in circles over and over again)"Seriously, you really don't realise how fast time flies until you're in the same spot a year later! Things go by so fast, you don't really want to waste time hun. Either he comes towards you COMPLETELY and you are together properly, or just let it go. You CAN DO it! Anything you believe, you can achieve. IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:32 PM
well we got together 2 years ago.. but IDK we then became friends, and bonded.. but still not letting go.... Now we are both saying our feelings, (after 2 years) and just letting it all out.. Its so intense... I like it... I love every second of it... Im just trying to get a grip and some control... He must be thinking the same thing,or reading my mind.. Cuz he just text me, that he's afraid of loosing control,and he feels a monster inside him, for me... May sound weird.. But I know exactly what he means... I feel that monster myself... IP: Logged |
FireWire
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posted January 04, 2012 09:43 PM
I feel you should ask yourself what you 'really' feel for him.I empathize, because I am a fellow hopeless romantic (very Leonine, believe me). But, you should really appraise what is there and what you want. This all sounds very dreamy, but very lustful. People get...h*rny and nostalgic during the winter. Happens all the time. And from what others have said, there are some very obsessive vibes astrologically that will be going on for a few months. Just things to keep in mind. I really want you to enjoy yourself, but I don't know...I just want you to be careful as well. Because I care. In a strange anonymous forum kind of way. IP: Logged |
amelia28
Knowflake Posts: 1526
From: dumont, CO
Registered: Aug 2011
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posted January 04, 2012 09:49 PM
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Originally posted by FireWire:
I really want you to enjoy yourself, but I don't know...I just want you to be careful as well. Because I care. In a strange anonymous forum kind of way.
Ohhh Firewire you are awesome!, you are so sweet.
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Lioness
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posted January 04, 2012 09:54 PM
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Originally posted by FireWire:
I feel you should ask yourself what you 'really' feel for him.I empathize, because I am a fellow hopeless romantic (very Leonine, believe me). But, you should really appraise what is there and what you want. This all sounds very dreamy, but very lustful. People get...h*rny and nostalgic during the winter. Happens all the time. And from what others have said, there are some very obsessive vibes astrologically that will be going on for a few months. Just things to keep in mind. I really want you to enjoy yourself, but I don't know...I just want you to be careful as well. Because I care. In a strange anonymous forum kind of way.
I agree with everything.. Im unsure if its real or delusional my self... Yes there is an obsessive quality. But Im guessing thats the Composite moon conjunct pluto the both opps venus
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Ami Anne
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From: Pluto/house next to NickiG
Registered: Sep 2010
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posted January 04, 2012 10:00 PM
A song for you Lionness IP: Logged |
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