posted June 14, 2012 04:56 PM            

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Originally posted by cherryblossom:
Sexyaqua….

I burst into tears when I read this part “I think it's best you let him go.”. And I am crying as I am writing this response. Im sorry.. it’s not because of your response  but I guess I’m afraid with the words “let go”.

I do love this guy deeply.

I have this fear because I know when a scorpio/fixed sun breaks up, they won’t go back. No matter how much he wants to be with her, he won't repeat for the sake of how he felt "back then", it literally nags at him forever and a day.

A scorpio told me this, “those we used to love get put in a snow globe, not to be touched. Just to be remembered and pulled out so we can see the beauty of what was, from time to time.”

I just wish i could be an exception to this.

And I am hurt carrying the guilt the fact that I was the one who broke up with him and for all the mistake I did when I was with him. I should’ve known better on how to control myself and him. I let it got the best of me. I am regretting it now deeply from the depth of my soul.

It hurts when someone who once loved me insanely and passionately, now shut me out completely just because the stupid shady mistakes I did. Love should have no ego towards each other and I let my ego stood up tall being confrontative when I know I cant really win trying to battle a Scorp.

And I know that, if i really love him, I should let him go. If he comes back to me, then he’s mine. If he doesn't, he never was, and he wasn't meant to be.

I really appreciate all of u here keeping up with me, helping me through this. It means a lot. *hugs*

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You can't help who you love and you can't change the past so no use in beating yourself up because oneday if this doen't work out you're going to laugh about all of this because right now in the moment he seems like the only man you'll ever love but it's not true and I can tell you the best love is the kind of you receive without conditions...one that is forgiving and consistant. You deserve consitancy, you deserve a man who doesn't run from your love but embraces it and manifest it as his own.

posted June 15, 2012 01:17 AM            

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Originally posted by cherryblossom:

Thank you for the kind words Firemoon... I'm okay now, I'm done with tears now

One question: are u a scorpio yourself?

Also, up until now I'm really curious about this song and i really hope u guys can tell me your interpretation of this song. He gave me this last week when I told him i still wanna be with him. He said, "it reminds him of me."

I know it shouldn't matter, but really everytime he gave me a song, it describes his feelings towards me and the relationship. Sometimes, him as a Scorp (secretive), he can't say what he really feels to me so he tells it through a song.

The lyrics go like this:

You know i love the pale dew from the storm
With your golden dream and your hungry heart
Should have known they’d leave you in the end
With the hollow tear and sallow skin

Chorus:
We can make it like we did all summer long
In the shade where the others all sang along

I saw you walk into the setting sun
To the land of stars to be the chosen one
They drew you in with honey on the tongue.
They said "You're welcome here, and loved by everyone."

Where are your cherry words and (candy clouds/clowns? hand-me-downs?)
Running in circles around you, giving you away
Found out what it means to work so hard for just a little play
Found out that (the shoulder you need to cry on ...? "or" it shouldn't mean to cry under again)
And now you run back to sunrise oblivion

I will keep u posted on any updates

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You're welcome cherryblossom, I hope you start feeling better

Also, no I'm a Capricorn with a Sag moon, Cancer rising... I do have pluto in Scorpio as a singleton and have read that can mean I have strong Pluto/Scorpio traits but I'm not sure lol...

About the song, I'm really not sure exactly, but it just sounds like he's trying to express that he still has feelings for you and/or wants to be with you but that the relationship seems out of reach ...

posted June 15, 2012 11:18 AM            

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Originally posted by cherryblossom:
He asked me what im doing tonight and I asked how his day was. We chatted for a bit. Basically I was telling him about my day and random stuffs, he responded. Then I asked him his plan this weekend, and he said he’s gonna meet his bestfriend. I tried to keep the convo going well and not weird.

In the end he said, “ok well i'm gonna get off of here... maybe we can hang out on sunday for a bit?”

I said, yea sure. Then asked him what he’s gonna do tonight. He said, “nothing.... i'm so tired. i just can't sit in front of a computer any longer. been doing it all day. just gonna watch a move or something.”

He asked if im gonna go out tom night. I said, yea but dunno where, haven’t contacted my friends.

Then he said, “but if we hang out on sunday lets do it liek early afternoon. that's why i was asking if u are gonna go out tomorrow.”

I said, “well.. i havent planned anything tom. thought you're gonna go out with ian. but im sure i'll go somewhere just dont have a plan yet.”

He said, “yes... but i'm saying... if you go out late tomorrow night and sleep until noon. we probably wont' hang out on Sunday. i'm not gonna stay out late tomorrow night”

I said, “what time?”

He said, “like i said... on sunday... probably early afternoon like 1 or 12 or so.”

I said, “yea it’s cool.”

He asked, “are u gonna go clubbing tom night?”

I said, “I don’t think so.. probably do something laid back.”

He said, “hmm.. ok. well i'll sms u either tomorrow night or sunday morning or something. if u do go clubbing just don't worry about it....”

I said, “okay… sure I’ll let you know.”
Then we said k ttyl..

I was excited at first, but then… my mind’s filling me with negative thoughts again after reading his response “but if we hang out on sunday lets do it like early afternoon. that's why i was asking if u are gonna go out tomorrow.”, “yes... but i'm saying... if you go out late tomorrow night and sleep until noon. we probably wont' hang out on Sunday. i'm not gonna stay out late tomorrow night”, and “if u do go clubbing just don't worry about it....”

Like he doesn’t really care. I dunno…

I feel like he’s gonna talk about my email and said he couldn’t do it again.. But then again maybe it’s just my negative thoughts. He could actually say it through IM, why meet me?

What do u think..?

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I think he was testing to see if you were going to go out. (jealous) haha
Take it for what it's worth. Meet him, expect the worse and be strong. If he says he wants to break up say, "Ok, if that's what YOU want. I tried my best." So this puts the burden on him and even if he's playing games, it puts the pressure on him. It will make him worry inside. hehe

If he is arguing with you about the relationship and hinting at a break up but not breaking up, then he could be testing how much you want him back. TO be on the safe side let him do most of the talking when you meet. When he hints at moving toward a breakup, ask him, "Is that what you want?" Let him say yes or whatever and ramble on. I'm sure he'll say yes to test if you'll break down begging him to come back. When he realizes he can't get that response from you, he'll back track. hehe

posted June 15, 2012 01:42 PM            

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Originally posted by cherryblossom:
I thought you're a Scorp :P

Yes that's what confuses me about that song.

I asked him about it he just said that the song just reminds him of me and think i would like the song.. that's all.

He contacted me just now, Fire moon...

He asked me what im doing tonight and I asked how his day was. We chatted for a bit. Basically I was telling him about my day and random stuffs, he responded. Then I asked him his plan this weekend, and he said he’s gonna meet his bestfriend. I tried to keep the convo going well and not weird.

In the end he said, “ok well i'm gonna get off of here... maybe we can hang out on sunday for a bit?”

I said, yea sure. Then asked him what he’s gonna do tonight. He said, “nothing.... i'm so tired. i just can't sit in front of a computer any longer. been doing it all day. just gonna watch a move or something.”

He asked if im gonna go out tom night. I said, yea but dunno where, haven’t contacted my friends.

The he said, “but if we hang out on sunday lets do it liek early afternoon. that's why i was asking if u are gonna go out tomorrow.”

I said, “well.. i havent planned anything tom. thought you're gonna go out with ian. but im sure i'll go somewhere just dont have a plan yet.”

He said, “yes... but i'm saying... if you go out late tomorrow night and sleep until noon. we probably wont' hang out on Sunday. i'm not gonna stay out late tomorrow night”

I said, “what time?”

He said, “like i said... on sunday... probably early afternoon like 1 or 12 or so.”

I said, “yea it’s cool.”

He asked, “are u gonna go clubbing tom night?”

I said, “I don’t think so.. probably do something laid back.”

He said, “hmm.. ok. well i'll sms u either tomorrow night or sunday morning or something. if u do go clubbing just don't worry about it....”

I said, “okay… sure I’ll let you know.”
Then we said k ttyl..

I was excited at first, but then… my mind’s filling me with negative thoughts again after reading his response “but if we hang out on sunday lets do it liek early afternoon. that's why i was asking if u are gonna go out tomorrow.”, “yes... but i'm saying... if you go out late tomorrow night and sleep until noon. we probably wont' hang out on Sunday. i'm not gonna stay out late tomorrow night”, and “if u do go clubbing just don't worry about it....”

Like he doesn’t really care. I dunno…

I feel like he’s gonna talk about my email and said he couldn’t do it again.. But then again maybe it’s just my negative thoughts. He could actually say it through IM, why meet me?

What do u think..?

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Haha nope I'm a Capricorn, I act like it more in person but not once I know someone well, or on online forums where I don't actually know anyone in person lol

I see by your chart that you're a Pisces! My mom is a Pisces, and I have a Pisces friend, and I feel for you guys in relationships... Because you feel like you have to sacrifice your own needs for people who don't exactly treat you right, but you don't have to do that and shouldn't!

I think with his questions about whether you're going out and saying that if you do you guys might not be able to hang out, and that you should meet up in the middle of the day because there are seemingly more important things going on for him (or at least that's how he managed to make it sound), I think that all just seems like more manipulation....

I would honestly say just go there without any expectations and don't get your hopes up. He doesn't seem like a very nice guy. I stand by what I said before that you deserve better and shouldn't waste time on someone who isn't going to put in the same amount of time or effort. Do other things to keep your mind off it until then... You've done your part in telling him how you feel, and now it's his turn. If he isn't straight forward with you or tells you he still likes you but... Then just leave it at that, don't keep trying to convince him or showing him more of your emotions. They're yours and shouldn't be given to someone who doesn't care about them...

posted June 15, 2012 11:07 PM            

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Originally posted by cherryblossom:

Well, I’m sure he’s gonna bring out things about the relationship and how hard headed we are towards each other then hinting to the break-up, in order to see what im going to say, by saying his fave lines,

“I don’t know… things are different now. “
“I don’t know.. you’ve changed.”
“I don’t know… we’ve tried and tried and tried. It doesn’t seem to work.”
“it seems like we just cant get along.”

What should I say? Cause basically ive said everything on the email. And even by saying I’ve realized all of these stuffs bla bla bla.. I don’t know how to say the right thing.

And if I asked, “is that what u want?”
He will ask me the same thing by saying, “I don’t know, what do u think we should do?”

Then he will go back to his fave lines above I mentioned.

It’s like he’s saying those things looking for different answer from me that will convince him that things will change. But I just don’t know the right thing to say that will convince him with different answer..

I'm sure the reason why he wants to meet up is to see if im really sincere and if i've changed. That's why he's going to put me on these battle of words about stuffs to pin me down, to see my reaction, to see my answer and at the same time he wants to be convinced that things are gonna change and im really sincere about getting back with him.

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I suspect he wants to be with you but is scared.

He's testing the waters.

You can call him out on the vague remarks.
lol

Ask him what he wants and if he goes back to the vague remarks call him out on it.