posted August 07, 2012 07:38 PM
To answer this question, I would summon my alter ego, for I suffer a personality disorder in which I am actually two people in one. In no way am I accountable for the actions of my psychic other, a testament to the fact that we truly are not only our bodies....and now to begin....a-1 manifest!For me casual sex is something that comes after I get to know the person.
Sometimes it is dancing close to each other the first night we meet at some grungy bar disguised as posh.
Mostly it begins when the bar is crowded. I find when the bar is crowded I have an excuse to stand close to my victim at which point the person's eyes enlarge. I try my best not to invade personal proximity, yet in these tight situations where there is no room to stand but nearly on the side of the person it is impossible.
OF all the one night stands I have had, none have been so glum as when I first lost my virginity and not to say that all are glum.
For me it is a matter of self control which leads to one night stands. The more I control myself during the week, the more kundalini I have reserved, it almost seems to be an attractor in itself.
There is no talking. Not most of the time, only dancing close to each other even when there is one song, at which point we are already practically united in the spirit realm, are chakras aligned. Sometimes I come upon a stranger who only wishes to dance in this fashion and that is okay too, the entire time turning on the heat millimeter by millimeter.
There are times of course when I am entirely to myself. I have been known to pay homage to the monk within, and there are other times when the resevoir is entirely empty and I simply engage in ritual sacrifice of brain cells.
When I was younger, I was completely stand offish. When I would dance with another, I would arch my back and keep my red chakra as far as possible from the victim. But then I discovered it only took this action and nothing more to get what my orange chakra needed.
At this point, I learned to seize speaking in the moment, and it seemed almost as if I was a seductive vampire, although I can assure you that I am quite ugly besides being very fit.
For those wondering at this point the alignment of my stars at birth, I will only say this....I do have mars conjunct kaali, and I also have venus conjunct eros and psyche, so it is no wonder, and pluto harmoniously aspects mars, as well as having jupiter sun and neptune in the eighth.
Of one thing I am sure, that if I am reckless, I will attract tragedy, so I am always safe, and always gone by morning.
In this way, I find myself moving closer to my Jesus consciousness, giving my victim what they need, and not what they think they need. I allow them to take out their frustrations on me and vice versa, and in this way, a strong cathartic experience always ensures that I am clear and ready for the weeks work - which is grueling, for I am nothing more but a lowly slave.
Lindaland
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posted August 04, 2012 02:01 AM
posted August 08, 2012 08:22 AM
I think this can suppress my lust hahaha .