posted May 17, 2015 07:38 PM
Hey Koho,So I am going to give a map of the awareness and understanding of my SN in Pisces in 7H (Karmic) towards my NN in Virgo in 1H (True Self).
Dragon/Snake eating it's tail (Ouroboros) -- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ouroboros
Dragon Head (NN), Dragon Tail (SN)
As I mentioned when I stumbled upon the true meaning of the SN and the NN last year, the timing was very synchronistic. I had just left my career in the entertainment industry. Whilst in this job and my previous part of life before this present moment triggered many unconscious psychological patterns.
When I stumbled upon my SN in Pisces, I literally screamed because I didn't understand what was happening to me, why I felt really drained and became sick. South Node in Pisces showed me that I had to stop saying Yes all the time, overly compassionate towards others where I sacrificed my own needs, learn to detach myself from intimate relationships, and build healthy boundaries with people in my life. All the insights about the SN in Pisces was really resonating as to what was happening to me. It was a truly karmic experience with all that was happening -- from friendships, my last relationship, and with the people at my former job.
Once I knew this awareness and put it into practice, I noticed that my life started to shift towards my NN in Virgo. I started to learn how to say NO, learned how to assert my needs and what I am feeling and thinking, built healthy boundaries from people so I didn't have to carry and feel other people's energies, I started to organize my life, and everyone from my old life just disappeared.
Having faith in spirit as well and going with the flow truly helped me with this transition. This was truly transformational for me and for my individuation process going back to my True Self (NN in Virgo). This has been happening for most of my adult life, however, it really started to climaxed the last 4-5 years.
Looking back, it was really exhausting LOL.
.. but hey, I am able to laugh at it now. What doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger right? Truly grateful for all the people who were in my life back then. They were gifts for my self discovery process, despite how painful they were.
In my perspectives, without going through all that pain and darkness (Unconscious, Moon in Alchemy), I am not able to even see the light at all (Consciousness, Sun in Alchemy).
The process is still going. And here I am talking and sharing on this thread with ya'll.
Regarding my number 5 Enneagram, it says this:
Fives are alert, insightful, and curious. They are able to concentrate and focus on developing complex ideas and skills. Independent, innovative, and inventive, they can also become preoccupied with their thoughts and imaginary constructs. They become detached, yet high-strung and intense. They typically have problems with eccentricity, nihilism, and isolation. At their Best: visionary pioneers, often ahead of their time, and able to see the world in an entirely new way.
I am more of the creative thinking, visionary type of person. So I am able to direct someone my ideas and visions, so they may be able to do the action into making things happen. In my former job, I had the energy to push things and make things happen in a highly fast pace environment through mental and physical actions, however, I burned out! I understand now that my make is not meant to have constant mental and physical energy to do so. Saw this on the Human Design thread on here. Which I find very resonating. I do see that I have to fully get in touch with my NN in Virgo aspects. Trying to tip the scales by having a good sense of balance between my SN and NN is key. Still trying to understand this new awareness, and I am very excited!!
It's very interesting how my INFP Personality and my SN in Pisces mirror each other. I'm grateful to have found new insights from you and few others on here -- VenusTinkybell*, Peony, and SaturnFan. Looking forward to learn from the many other members here as well. And yes, I will get this whole understanding Astrology once and for all ... soon! 
Thank you again for your valued insights Koho!! I knew you would be a person whom I could seek guidance from in this new path I am in! 