posted August 12, 2015 11:43 AM            

I've had troubles with depression, career and even been roughed up by the cops a few times for no reason. My sun is in the fashionably late sign of pisces.

I smoke sooo much weed to ease my pain but in the outer world you would think I'm just the happiest guy ever. Im the only kid, never had too many friends and only had a couple of relationships. But truthfully none of that matters to me. I'm currently focused on my career (I want to be an actor/filmwriter) but it's more like a dream. I've done some entertainment work but my goal is too definitely be apart of the film industry. I'm really to myself thanks to my scorpio rising and pluto in first.

As of late I've had way too many ******** encounters with the law and just bad ******* luck. Me and my mom can't see eye to eye but we still deeply love each other obviously, I can't express my emotions the right way anymore and I'm INSANELY hard on myself. It's honestly a miracle I look as young as I do. I push myself so hard emotionally and I can never please myself. A lot of this has been happening this past year and a half. I just want to why everything is so somber to me now? The ONLY thing I want to do is chase my dream and I keep getting pushed back. It hurts me,my emotions hurt me..I feel way too intensely I can feel my emotions and pluto radiating from me. People have either GREAT responses to me initially or they just stay away and never talk. Recently I through a near death experience and my reaction was just so welcoming to it. I don't know what the hell is up man.

Anyways yeah...sorry for the typical pisces story lol I'm a really happy guy xD

My moon is progressing through 12th house scorp. Sun, mercury (progressing) and saturn in pisces and my pluto is retrograde first house. Does this have anything to do with it?

posted August 12, 2015 12:01 PM            

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Originally posted by hannaramaa:
Post your chart! I have had the same luck it seems - depression, **** friendships, no relationships...I have faith it'll work out EVENTUALLY though. Apparently I have t.Saturn squaring my Sun right now and it's supposed to move on in a few months.

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posted August 12, 2015 12:04 PM            

Things may be better than you're imagining.

posted August 12, 2015 02:35 PM            

What I think might be affecting you is transit Neptune & Chiron.

posted August 12, 2015 03:01 PM            

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Originally posted by astra7:
Sorry to hear about your downfall.
Nothing obvious jumps at me astrologically other than possibly tSaturn trine your nSun.

It's possible that someone has put a curse on you. Look into spiritual cleansing bath to wash away all the curses, jinx, hexes people might have put on you.

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Thanks man I'm only 20. Sometimes I don't know if I'll ever have a normal life. I have to do this. I feel like it's the only way. Every man has his breaking point...

I just want to see my 30s man...my heart is always heavy nowadays, my eyes are droopy and sad. I've been through so much unnecessary pain..Im a dude and sometimes I just want to cry eyes out till world's end. My life recently has just been so, so hard.

posted August 12, 2015 03:38 PM            

Maybe ready some positive books or some books about positive affirmations!

posted August 12, 2015 03:43 PM            

You've got some complicated transits happening -- mostly in declination, which means I may be the only one here pointing them out.

1. You have Pluto [20S52] transiting nearly exactly Parallel your natal Uranus [20S55]. These Pluto-Uranus transits can kinda show our empowerment in-motion. Some people seek a kind of empowerment or power preservation by withdrawing or isolating. There are times when that is appropriate, and other times when that will not work, but only complicate things. This is one of those times.

Robert Hand says of Pluto's transit conjunct natal Uranus (same dynamic as the parallel) ...

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... signifies that you want to break away from circumstances that hold you back.... not likely to be patient at this time, and you may not understand the meaning of discipline.... inclined to be self-righteous, for you feel that you know what is best, in contrast to the older people around you who seem to be out of touch...

... it would be a shame to waste the energy of this transit in challenging everyone around you or blindly rebelling against all restriction.... spend your energies learning to know and understand as much as you can about how the universe works. You should not ask yet how to change it, because you won't understand it very well until after this transit [not that it grants you enlightenment]...

... tremendous changes are taking place within you. This may be quite upsetting, but try to remain calm and see what is really happening.

-- Robert Hand, Planets in Transit p 511

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2. Pluto is also parallel your natal Neptune [20S40], which further emphasizes the need to have a spiritual awakening or at least an awakening of your psychological capacity to understand the subtle dynamics of life that are playing into your experiences. Pluto-Neptune transits are ones of spiritual awakening, of learning to see deeper into things, seeing more clearly.

3. Neptune [8S59] is in transit Parallel your natal Sun [8S33]. This tends to be either a spiritualizing and/or weakening influence. The idea is that Neptune dissolves unnecessary ego during these transits it makes to the Sun, but that does not mean you should become a martyr. This is a time in which imagination can work for you or against you, but will become a bit more fused with your self-identity than before. When added to the previous transits of Pluto-Neptune, definitely indicates the time for a spiritual awakening.

4. Uranus [7N21] is contra-parallel your natal Saturn [7S51]. This transit can be hard on the nerves. A good time for having natural medicines/herbs that soothe the nervous system, and extra nutrition to supplement the minerals they need (electrolytes, Calcium, Magnesium, etc.) Also very good to do during this transit is to take a moment or two for some slow deep breathing to down-regulate the nervous system when too much starts banging around in there.

Uranus represents change/freedom and natal Saturn represents the inbuilt restrictions or inhibitions within you and your life. Make sure that you have some awareness of what restrictions or inhibitions are truly unhealthy and preventing you from moving forward with your life, and what rebellions within you that are not worthwhile. Its a kind of 'choose your battles wisely' idea. Differences between you and authority figures or parents will seem more dramatic now than they will later. Its part of a breaking away process. Try to first face this apparent conflict within yourself, but don't avoid it in your outer life. Its really about how you re-orient yourself in the world, not about trying to re-orient others.

In addition, Uranus had been Contra-parallel your natal Pluto and this added to the stress as described in the first transit. Its path will move it towards a Contra-parallel with your natal Sun, so similar themes of independence, rebellion, discontent will continue. Just keep in mind that rebellion against what attempts to replace your identity with something arbitrary or to put others' fear upon you as an inhibition is a worthwhile rebellion. But rebellion as a reactionary impulse is useless and creates unnecessary conflicts that are helpful to no one.

5. Saturn [17S55, and heading southward] is transiting Parallel your natal Mercury [17S16]. This one is nearly over, but it has played into overly serious, even negative thinking in which communication is difficult, because it is hard to see things positively or imagine a positive response from others. This is essentially a problem solving transit in which one takes an inventory of one's life and cuts out negative influences (even if just one) that are dragging you down. Often it is a time to say 'goodbye' to something or someone, either because they/it are leaving anyway, or because it/the relationship has run its course and can no longer make a positive contribution to your life. Sometimes short of this, a hard talk must be undertaken to follow up on your personal inventory taking so that anyone in your life who must remain there understands you and hears your sincere perspective on some of their negative contributions to your life. Not a pleasant task, but there are times in which it must be done in order that balance between you and others (and within yourself) be maintained.

Paul, I know I've thrown a lot at you, but hopefully this puts some perspective on things. You are definitely going through a lot of tough transits happening simultaneously. I have only looked at the ones happening in declination. There may be more in longitude, but I think this is enough.

Feel free to ask any questions. Hopefully I -or someone else - will have an intelligent, helpful response.

posted August 12, 2015 04:08 PM            

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Originally posted by PaulMcFly:
Thanks man I'm only 20. Sometimes I don't know if I'll ever have a normal life. I have to do this. I feel like it's the only way. Every man has his breaking point...

I just want to see my 30s man...my heart is always heavy nowadays, my eyes are droopy and sad. I've been through so much unnecessary pain..Im a dude and sometimes I just want to cry eyes out till world's end. My life recently has just been so, so hard.

Much love brother appreciate the response

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tbh, if anyone says this world is wonderful, I will listen with skeptism. This world is set by the elites to squeeze every regular person unless you belong to the elite group.
So if you are feeling crap, that's normal. Our lives have been planned that way.

posted August 12, 2015 05:07 PM            

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Originally posted by astra7:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by PaulMcFly:
[b] Thanks man I'm only 20. Sometimes I don't know if I'll ever have a normal life. I have to do this. I feel like it's the only way. Every man has his breaking point...

I just want to see my 30s man...my heart is always heavy nowadays, my eyes are droopy and sad. I've been through so much unnecessary pain..Im a dude and sometimes I just want to cry eyes out till world's end. My life recently has just been so, so hard.

Much love brother appreciate the response

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tbh, if anyone says this world is wonderful, I will listen with skeptism. This world is set by the elites to squeeze every regular person unless you belong to the elite group.
So if you are feeling crap, that's normal. Our lives have been planned that way.

Try to grab little joy here and there whatever that be. You are not alone.[/B][/QUOTE]

Man thank you so much. I love people who are just genuinely nice. I wish everyone were as sane and cool as you guys haha

posted August 12, 2015 05:31 PM            

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Originally posted by PaulMcFly:
@Kannon McAfee
Oh my god. 100%!! Yes, YES YES!!! Everything you stated makes sense and IS happening!

Thank you so so so soooooo much for taking the time to help me out. I smiled man..a real one. I wish nothing but the best for you man..

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Thanks, I appreciate that.

I'm 45 now and when I look back on my 20s, nothing really stands out as earth-shattering. There were moments of conflict and I didn't let those become resentments. That was a victory.

But you have an advantage in coming to astrology several years younger than I did. Your honesty will serve you well. This time in your life will probably stand out later as an important time in your development. So understand that it is a process and that you're allowed to make some moves that you'll see later as mistakes. Some of those won't kill the progress you make and won't stop you from fulfilling your potential.

Astrology can be very helpful if we just digest it in small portions, according to what seems most relevant at the time. It seemed most relevant to cover the types of transits you've been going through, but know you'll have your birth chart to benefit from whenever you are ready for it.

Take care.

posted August 12, 2015 06:12 PM            

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Originally posted by PaulMcFly:
Man thank you so much. I love people who are just genuinely nice. I wish everyone were as sane and cool as you guys haha

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Here is a song for you.
Amazing, this was written decades ago.
What an insight! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34GL9_k3hZI

posted August 12, 2015 06:20 PM            

of course many of us would quickly respond "heck knows" or a less polite version of the same. Let the question mull around though, meditate on it, look at your relationship with your Mom and what you have to learn from it.

Step outside of your body for a moment....

Chiron has been crossing over your Saturn and did so for the first time in May 2014. It's actually passed now, but it will creep up to within half a degree this Autumn to create a final nudge.

This is going on in your 4th house where you have quite an emphasis in your chart. You have a lot to learn from your Mom, your ancestors and their history and you will find that any family talents will be passed to you quite directly.

What do you want to do in the film industry? I see that Neptune-Uranus in the 2nd clamouring for attention and wishing to use inspirational and creativity for your sustenance but I'm seeing that Chiron rules your MC, from the 10th and opposes your Sun. (Which links us also to the 9th House) - I feel like you're far more likely to be found working on documentaries overseas than films. I can imagine you walking around a small village in another land, helping to raise awareness for sanitation and day to day healthcare issues.

How do you feel when you think of this? Does it resonate, or do you feel drawn to other areas of film? In what way *are* you drawn? By the visual side of things, the glamour, the editing, the angles, the lighting, the scripts, the sets, the acting....?

Your chart tells me you work better with a problem to solve and you like to be given credit for doing so.

I find depression is often suppression. That doesn't solve it, but I'd say that when things are going against you, then YOU are also going against you. You're not listening, following or heeding something so your path is being stalled until you do.

posted August 12, 2015 06:35 PM            

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Originally posted by waxlobster:
If I were to ask you what you thought you landed on this planet for, in this era and in this body, what would your answer be?

of course many of us would quickly respond "heck knows" or a less polite version of the same. Let the question mull around though, meditate on it, look at your relationship with your Mom and what you have to learn from it.

Step outside of your body for a moment....

Chiron has been crossing over your Saturn and did so for the first time in May 2014. It's actually passed now, but it will creep up to within half a degree this Autumn to create a final nudge.

This is going on in your 4th house where you have quite an emphasis in your chart. You have a lot to learn from your Mom, your ancestors and their history and you will find that any family talents will be passed to you quite directly.

What do you want to do in the film industry? I see that Neptune-Uranus in the 2nd clamouring for attention and wishing to use inspirational and creativity for your sustenance but I'm seeing that Chiron rules your MC, from the 10th and opposes your Sun. (Which links us also to the 9th House) - I feel like you're far more likely to be found working on documentaries overseas than films. I can imagine you walking around a small village in another land, helping to raise awareness for sanitation and day to day healthcare issues.

How do you feel when you think of this? Does it resonate, or do you feel drawn to other areas of film? In what way *are* you drawn? By the visual side of things, the glamour, the editing, the angles, the lighting, the scripts, the sets, the acting....?

Your chart tells me you work better with a problem to solve and you like to be given credit for doing so.

I find depression is often suppression. That doesn't solve it, but I'd say that when things are going against you, then YOU are also going against you. You're not listening, following or heeding something so your path is being stalled until you do.

Hence my questions... :-)

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I've been into film since I was in 5th grade. I've written all sorts of movie scripts,have a successful Youtube channel and even been in a few shows but I'm still working. I live in Mississippi and I'm trying to relocate man to the west coast. I already have an apartment now I leased with my friend but some real racist and crappy **** happened to me last week. It doesn't help being African American either.

I've been in some high school plays too. Did well. I just want to inspire and help people through my passion and or communication (natal 3rd house stellium with neptune, uranus, mercury, venus and moon)

posted August 12, 2015 06:45 PM            

I don't even *use* progressions, no wonder I was confused, I didn't see film figuring strongly in your progressed chart. A stellium in the 3rd is much more like it!! I'm glad to hear that.

Paul, I don't know what to say about the racism part :-( it's sickening and it's upsetting to hear that's happening to you. It still happens here in the UK in some areas apparently and I don't know how you can deal with it really it must be awful.

Please don't be defeatist though, look at it this way - if you're here to write and spread messages (3rd house stellium sounds that way!) then you need a message to write about??

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posted August 12, 2015 07:02 PM            

Most of these responses will not help, and 10 years from now you'll maybe be more stable following them. You will still hate yourself though. Learn to love yourself and this **** won't matter, don't take this lightly...

posted August 12, 2015 07:12 PM            

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Originally posted by HoodBlaze:
Yo I don't want to sound direct or mean, but I was just like you once and it's a bad spot. You gotta join martial arts immediately. No fake stuff like karate, take kwon do or Tai chi
Mma, jiu jitsu, kickboxing, or wrestling will change your life. You need to have your ego broken and learn to push through real pain, so you can use that mentality to improve your real life. It's like a military regiment, except you don't kill anyone, smoke weed on post,there is no chain of command, and gain life long friends lol. Cut the weed smoking down to only when you are outside in nature, or when you go to martial arts or yoga. Yes yoga, you need to understand an eastern feminine art to balance out your anger..

Most of these responses will not help, and 10 years from now you'll maybe be more stable following them. You will still hate yourself though. Learn to love yourself and this **** won't matter, don't take this lightly...

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Haha man I'll look into it I meditate and everything never thought about taking the Bruce Lee route