posted March 20, 2016 08:55 AM            

(it is a very very complicated celebrity - whatever - can`t call it crush really. lol)

posted March 20, 2016 09:00 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
Doesn`t have anything to do with taste actually. I don`t even like him.

(it is a very very complicated celebrity - whatever - can`t call it crush really. lol)

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Oh, I see..you don't??? I really liked him when I was younger and an old crush of mine was just a bit alike him, too.
I don't know about the connection, sorry about that, I hope you won't misjudge me, it was a superficial judgement of mine..

posted March 20, 2016 09:12 AM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
No, no, it IS very complicated and not understandable. Irrational. maybe my Saturn exact on his SN. or his Saturn exact on my Karma. No clue. Just something.
I donīt dislike him either, it`s just, I don`t know. He is a terrific stage actor though. But the kind that creeps under your skin, and I can`t afford having him there, you know?
At the same time he makes me feel almost feral and mad. And nothing of that is rational at all. it`s silly really.
I loved seeing him on stage, but leaving was suprrisingly tough. As I said irrational. And honestly I guess a part of me never left, which might be why I am still dreaming of London so often. Well to be honest more frequently in recent weeks oddly enough.
Completely irrational, don`t mind my blah.

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Ok, so, if I understood well, he somehow "touches your soul" by his acting or/and my his mere presence? Not like a physical thing/admiration etc, but somehow soul-connection? Yes, it sounds irrational, but if other dimensions/universes/lives are possible, it's not irrational at all. I truly believe that. Maybe that's my uranus-sun exact trine lol, I have no clue why these things don't sound so irrational to me after all.
Astrologically speaking and since you know this will be a novice opinion, Saturn to "karma" connected two times, explains it a bit..

posted March 20, 2016 09:49 AM            

Virgo Venus energy is kinda wound up and tense and a worrywart of sorts. So, I really appreciate someone who makes me feel relaxed. Accepted and understood. Like StubbornVirgo says, we love communicating. But also love the comfortable-shared-silence zone. The people we can have this with are few and far between.

What it also *feels* like is, -well- it's kind of a worship, actually. (I can almost hear people snickering at this. ). But hey, it is what it is. There's someone whom I happen to admire greatly, and who *sees* me, for real. Someone who knows me, all the way down to the worst, deepest, darkest corners. And conversely, I see all of him too.
There's this need to become indispensable to them - waltzing in and doing everything to smooth things out for them.

Someone to share all of Life's experiences with. The presence of whom makes ordinary things special. It's also like they inspire me - my creativity is really way more prolific when in love. They're the muse, the inspiration.

Basically, everything becomes *about* them.

posted March 20, 2016 11:11 AM            

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Originally posted by mar1982delta:

ETA : "feral and mad"
Is there a BML connection? Or I didn't get what you mean?

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quite a fitting description, also this I did NOT quote.
And yes there is a connection.
I donīt want to derail the thread, but just so you can see I post the synastry (Faith, I can take it down again if you want me to)

Interestingly his mean BML is conjunct my Mars within a degree in 12th house, and today Transiting Mars was going over these degrees.

mean Lilith is not even the valid apogee, but still interesting. the valid apogee (natural Lilth - h21) is conjunct Mars in his own chart exact, and they square my own natural Lilith.

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posted March 20, 2016 12:14 PM            

no partner here.
So I don`t express.

Well I guess even in non-partnerships I am a little too subtle for most people. And yes, to the dry remarks, I am guilty of these ones, too.

Sometimes however I will let something slip and people respond to that as if it was something extraordinary, while I think it was a normal thing to say, which makes me realize that most people cannot read my mind or what I am feeling inside, if I am not being demonstrative about it externally. Which I probably am not, not enough at least. But I am often not aware that I am not.

Nevertheless now and then I blurt out something, or getting a little sentimental over little things. But I guess I am not the adoring worshipping kind.

Also, when I care about someone, I am just there, and very present there. Well usually my mind is always somewhere else, but if I care for you a lot, I am simply there. Hard to explain. Most of the time I think me being present is really clear enough, but I guess most people (or men) need a bit more than that.
I`m also in the process of learning that I don`t have to do everything on my own. It`s nice that I am independent and capable, but sometimes men just want to do something nice for you, and I am learning to simply let them (which starts with something as random as holding the door open for me. lol)

posted March 20, 2016 03:07 PM            

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(Faith, I can take it down again if you want me to)

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No such thing as "derailing" on my threads.

It moves the post count up and sends a message like, "Faith knows what to talk about."

Thank you everyone for your replies, sorry for not replying point for point! I'm reading with interest though.

posted March 20, 2016 03:19 PM            

hmm, no, I wouldnīt do it like that. Actually I cherish pretty much any synastric connection, cause I just marvel at the miracle of putting two people/ energy systems together and to see what comes out. I donīt know I am a total nerd like that. lol
Unless we are talking about your Neptune conjunct my Neptune and getting all enthusiastic aobut that, cause that is really not that specific - though it could be, given houserulership etc etc.

Anyway, nah, the connections I do have I totally cherish because of their uniqueness; controlled emotions? Yes I think so, being vulnerable, letting others see that I actually like them, well it`s a learning curve for me.
It`s funny but it is only through knowing Mr Sag that I learned to do that, I mean feel it is totally okay to like someone, even if they might actually notice I do, and even if it cannot lead to anything, but it`s okay, actually it is more than okay, it`s a gift.
But I had to come quite a way to realize it is.

But I guess most of the times I am just not aware how subtle I can be.

Faith

posted March 20, 2016 03:34 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
quite a fitting description, also this I did NOT quote.
And yes there is a connection.
I donīt want to derail the thread, but just so you can see I post the synastry (Faith, I can take it down again if you want me to)

Interestingly his mean BML is conjunct my Mars within a degree in 12th house, and today Transiting Mars was going over these degrees.

mean Lilith is not even the valid apogee, but still interesting. the valid apogee (natural Lilth - h21) is conjunct Mars in his own chart exact, and they square my own natural Lilith.

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Thank you for the chart Ceri!
I'll just say I am impressed by all the angles conjunct! And happy that I sensed the presence of mysterious bml there lol
I'll take a look a bit later and come back for comments, if Faith doesn't mind a little bit more of "derailing"-bumping

posted March 20, 2016 05:46 PM            

It's the type where I only want to be with him all the time
I want to talk to him about everything and experience everything with him

Synastry says my sun conjuncts his moon and his moon conjuncts my sun
Sun conjunct Mercury
Venus conjuncts Mars
Moon conjuncts Jupiter

The composite is not so good. A lot of Saturn squares. sun conjuncts the moon and Mercury conjuncts Pluto
Oh and Venus square Mars 😍😉

posted March 20, 2016 08:52 PM            

...anyway my Aqua moon and mercury can never communicate it in such a way so I write poems and use my sensuality. I go out of my way and go great lengths just to see them and experience.

posted March 22, 2016 07:39 AM            

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
It is what ATTRACTS you.

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