posted February 10, 2021 07:47 PM            

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Originally posted by kani:
..Also, a part of me feels if I ask someone for help I'm obliged to do something in return. And that is something that I really dislike: Feeling obliged.

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I know what you mean..I feel that way towards my family.

My Cancer parents always had things on a barter system or they had some sinister ulterior motive.

This is just one example, every summer since I was 7 my mom whould put my sister and I throught swimming lessons.

Then when I was 10 we all went on a boat trip and my mom says..this is the reason why I put you both in swiming lessons so you can save me if the boat sinks.

She didn't even ask me if I liked swimming. I'm not even a strong swimmer I can swim to save myself but not a second person.

So i've learned not to take anything they offer to me.

But times have changed they've gotten much older and they foolishly purchased a place in the country thats to far out and now there realizing there completly isolated from anything and i'm not going to be around.

I've only talked to them once in the last three months and thats because they called me.

So there now almost willing to do anything to barter for me to just stick around.

The thing about being indpendant that I will never drop is being mentally strong to see things for what they really are.

There's lot of people who think they know what there talking about and unless your mentally strong you'll get tricked, followed by the next person and so fourth.

Its the "you vs. the crowd concept".

If everyone is suffering financially from COVID and you decided not to be like the crowd and were smart enought to start saving for rainy days and moving to towards employment in essential fields ...that kinda thinking.